The atmosphere in the room paused subtly for a moment.
Yuan Xuan lowered his eyes and looked at his fingers resting on the edge of the table, as if he was considering how to answer.
The flickering candlelight reflected in his eyes, creating subtle shadows that inexplicably made his heart skip a beat.
After a while, he slowly raised his eyes to look at her, and with a slight curve of his lips, he asked with a half-smile,
"Who said I wasn't happy?"
Yuan Nan'an pursed his lips and tilted his head, his hair swaying with the movement, which was particularly vivid under the light.
"Cousin...is there a possibility..." she said faintly, "I should be the first to notice your worries?"
She said this, seemingly intentionally but also unintentionally.
Yuan Xuan's fingertips holding the teacup tightened slightly for a moment, and his heart beat faster.
The candlelight flickered, and he always felt that the halo was swaying between her eyebrows and eyes, as if it had coated her with a layer of vague warm color, making it difficult for him to see the expression in her eyes.
He lowered his eyes and finally did not respond to her. He just smiled as usual, his tone steady without a trace of emotion.
"I'm not unhappy."
Upon hearing this, Yuan Nan'an frowned slightly, with a hint of confusion in his eyes.
She stood up straight and looked at his face carefully, trying to find some clues from his expression.
"real?"
She doesn't believe it.
He was clearly acting so strangely today.
But Yuan Xuan just nodded affirmatively, saying, "Really."
Yuan Nan'an moved closer, wanting to see more clearly and explore whether there were any flaws in his expression.
However, Yuan Xuan's expression was calm, his eyes were clear and there seemed to be nothing unusual, just like usual.
She became even more confused, and stood in front of him, frowning slightly.
"Is it because I've been in Beiqiang for too long?"
"Or is it because I haven't written to you yet?"
"Is it because I brought Aze back without permission..."
She couldn't think of the reason, so she guessed one by one, as seriously as if she was reviewing her own mistakes.
She was thinking as she spoke, but before she could finish her words, a slender index finger suddenly pressed lightly on her lips.
Yuan Nan'an was slightly stunned, and his eyes suddenly froze.
The young man in front of her stood very close, his eyes deep, and his fingertips gently pressed against her lips, stopping her from saying anything else.
She stared at him blankly, and for a moment, she even forgot what she was going to say.
The moment Yuan Xuan's fingertips touched her lips, they tightened slightly.
There seemed to be some emotion surging in his eyes, but he never said it.
Yuan Nan'an stared at him blankly, his heart beating wildly.
The flickering candlelight in the room illuminated Yuan Xuan's calm eyes, but she always felt that there was something hidden there that she couldn't see through.
She tried to speak, but Yuan Xuan's fingertips were still gently pressing against her lips, preventing her from continuing.
A silence spread between the two of them.
After a while, Yuan Xuan suppressed his emotions and said affirmatively,
"Nannan, you are right."
Right?
His finger was still on her lips. She could actually move away and speak, but for some reason, her body seemed to be frozen.
"Nannan, you don't have to deny yourself because of my emotions."
"As long as you're doing what you want to do, you're not wrong."
There's nothing wrong with doing what you want...
These words echoed in Yuan Nan'an's mind.
Her thoughts vaguely went back to her childhood in Yangzhou, when she loved to wield swords and guns, and was scolded by Wei Shaoqing for not behaving like a lady.
At that time he said,
"You can't do whatever you want!"
From that time on, she always seemed to be afraid that she had done something wrong.
I was afraid of not doing well, making my father frown, disappointing my mother, and causing others to talk about me.
So when Yuan Xuan was unhappy, she would always subconsciously review what she had done wrong.
But now, Yuan Xuan told her that she was not wrong.
As the two looked at each other, Yuan Nan'an stared at the serious expression on the face of the person in front of him.
For some reason, she always felt that something in her heart was slowly changing.
She seemed unable to figure out what had changed.
After a while, Yuan Xuan gently let go of his hand and smiled slightly.
"I am indeed a little unhappy because of Aze, but that is my problem."
He raised his hand, pinched her cheek lightly, lowered his eyes and said seriously,
"Nannan, Aze protected you, so it's only natural for you to bring him back. If I'm unhappy, it's my problem, not yours."
After hearing what he said, Yuan Nan'an was even more confused.
Why would Yuan Xuan be unhappy about bringing Aze back?
Why has it nothing to do with her?
Yuan Xuan didn't explain too much, just looked at her and said again,
"Nannan, you don't have to change yourself for others, you are you."
In fact, when Yuan Nan'an came to find him, most of his anger had subsided.
But when she asked him why he was unhappy, he had already calmed down, and was even secretly happy that Nan Nan could always detect his emotions at the first time.
But when the person in front of him frowned and listed his faults one by one, Yuan Xuan suddenly realized how wrong he was.
From Wu Yu to Aze, Nan Nan didn't understand the source of his emotions, because she hadn't figured it out yet.
But she would still be the first to notice his unhappiness, carefully prepare all kinds of surprises for him, and come to him so late at night, trying to help him relieve his unhappiness...
She didn't want to upset him.
Yuan Xuan thought that if he told Nan Nan that he didn't like Wu Yu and A Ze, she might really keep her distance from them.
That's because in her heart, I am more important than all these people.
But does he want to take advantage of Nan Nan's appreciation for him and make her do only what he wants her to do?
But if that’s the case, what should Nan Nan do?
Nan Nan is still young, but she wants to be a general.
In the future, there will be many people around her, some of whom may be comparable to him, and some who may not...
But is he going to make her avoid everyone he doesn't want her to get close to just because of his need to control her?
He shouldn't do this, and he can't do it.
The Nan Nan he likes is free and lively, bravely pursuing what she wants, and an eagle that should soar into the sky.
How could he be so selfish as to become an obstacle to her growth and turn her into a caged bird?
As long as I am the most important person in her heart, that's enough.
Why do we need to demand so much?
Suddenly figuring this out, Yuan Xuan's mind, which had been cloudy for some time, suddenly became clear.
He even cursed himself in his heart for letting Nan Nan bear so many emotions that she shouldn't have to bear.
Obviously, Nan Nan just needs to be happy and do what she wants to do.
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