Recognition
It was getting dark when Xiao Jin left the house. Worried that Lin Yan had left, he rode his horse to Magpie Bridge.
When he rode his horse to Magpie Bridge, Xiao Jin saw Lin Yan with her back to him. He felt a little short of breath at this moment. The sister he had been looking for for so many years was right next to him, but he didn't know it. He felt extremely regretful when he thought of this.
When Xiao Jin approached Lin Yan, she was just aware of something. She turned around and saw the person coming. Lin Yan was surprised and nodded to him as a greeting.
But Xiao Jin did not stop his pace and got closer and closer to Lin Yan. Just when Lin Yan was wondering what he was going to do, Xiao Jin hugged her.
Lin Yan: “”
Although she knew that this person was her biological brother, she had decided not to recognize him. At this moment, to her, Xiao Jin, he was just an unfamiliar stranger.
When he was about to push Xiao Jin away, he resolved his doubts and shouted, "Ayan".
Lin Yan's eyelashes trembled slightly, and he froze when he was about to push Xiao Jin's hand away.
He knows.
Xiao Jin hugged Lin Yan tightly, as if he was holding a rare treasure, and refused to let go.
Lin Yan sighed lightly, and finally pushed him away, whispering: "I am not your sister, you have made a mistake."
Xiao Jin's eyes were red, "Why, A'yan, you clearly know your own life experience, but you are still so nice to A'yue. This means that you don't reject this family. Why, why don't you come back?"
Lin Yan clenched his hands hidden in his sleeves, then loosened them, "There's no reason. Just think of Xiao Yan as dead and he will never come back."
But Xiao Jin refused to give up and grabbed Lin Yan's arm. He had never shed a tear in all these years, but now he could no longer restrain himself, "Yan, can you tell me why?"
Looking at Xiao Jin's stubborn eyes, Lin Yan sighed helplessly, placed his hands on the bridge's guardrail, and whispered, "My parents have disliked me since I was born. I never knew why..."
"Until I was five years old, I was washed away by the flood and rescued by my master. But at that time I still had a glimmer of hope, hoping that my parents would be happy that I was still alive. But they were not. I heard even more cruel news. They were not my parents, and my biological mother only wanted boys, so she exchanged me."
Lin Yan looked up and looked directly at Xiao Jin: "Do you know how devastated I was at that time? It turns out that there are so many people who are dissatisfied with my living in this world."
At this point, Lin Yan's emotions were a little out of control, tears streamed down his cheeks, and he choked and said: "Since my biological mother abandoned me back then, why should she look for me now? Is it for her so-called conscience?"
After saying that, Lin Yan didn't want to hear Xiao Jin's answer anymore and turned around to leave.
Only at this moment did Xiao Jin realize that Lin Yan had always misunderstood A Niang, and it was because of this misunderstanding that he did not want to recognize them.
He hurriedly grabbed Lin Yan and pleaded in a low voice: "A Yan, would you be willing to listen to our explanation?"
Looking at Xiao Jin's red eyes, Lin Yan paused when he was about to pull him away. After a moment of silence, he said, "Okay."
Seeing Lin Yan's agreement, Xiao Jin breathed a sigh of relief and said:
"Back when you were still in my mother's womb, the enemy invaded and my father was sent by the imperial court to fight at the border. I was only six years old at the time. When I heard the news that my father was going to the border, I had always wanted to be like him, fighting in the battlefield, so I insisted on going. My father thought it would be good to take me with him to see the world, so he agreed. After we left, my mother was diagnosed to be three months pregnant."
At this point, Xiao Jin's voice trembled, "If I hadn't followed my father to the battlefield, maybe, maybe you wouldn't..."
Lin Yan's calm face showed some doubt, "What is the connection between the two?"
Xiao Jin took a deep breath and continued, "In the sixth month of my mother's pregnancy with you, I was captured by the enemy. My father was ambushed in order to save me. My father was actually putting on a show for the enemy to let down their guard. But when the news reached the capital, the fate of the Duke of Zhenguo and his son was uncertain."
"My father and I lost contact for three months. My grandmother was worried that we were really dead and that there would be no successor to the Zhenguo Mansion. After she found out that my mother gave birth to a girl, she had evil intentions and wanted to swap you with the Xu family's child."
"You should know almost everything that happened afterwards."
After saying all this, Xiao Jin looked at Lin Yan nervously, hoping that she would forgive them after knowing the truth.
Lin Yan was silent for a long time. Xiao Yue had never mentioned how her elder sister got lost before, and she had never thought of investigating further.
Now I recall Mrs. Gu’s haggard face and her mumbling in her dream when I secretly visited her that night.
Just when Xiao Jin thought that Lin Yan still insisted on not recognizing them for so long that he was about to give up, she spoke in a hoarse voice: "Mother, is she going crazy because she blames herself for not taking good care of me?"
He didn't want to let Lin Yan know, so as to avoid her blaming herself, but now that she had guessed it, Xiao Jin no longer concealed it and said, "Yes."
Hearing Xiao Jin's answer, Lin Yan felt an inexplicable emotion in her heart. She had originally let go of her obsession with her biological parents, but now she realized that they had never thought of abandoning her.
After an unknown amount of time, Lin Yan spoke again: "I want to meet her."
This "she" is obviously referring to Mrs. Gu. When Xiao Jin heard her say that, his eyes lit up instantly and he nodded hurriedly: "Okay, okay, I'll take you there right away."
The two of them quickly returned to the Duke of Zhenguo's Mansion.
It was already dark at this time. When Xiao Jin went out, he reminded Xiao Yue not to tell A Niang about their guess first, as A Niang might have already gone to bed by now.
The two stood in front of Mrs. Gu's courtyard gate, and Xiao Jin asked: "Mother has fallen asleep now, I will ask someone to wake her up."
Lin Yan shook his head and said, "No need, I'll just go in and see her. You go back to your room and rest first. We can talk about other things tomorrow."
"good"
At this moment, Xiao Jin wished he could listen to Lin Yan's words. It was already unexpected that she could listen to so much from him and was willing to come back to see her mother.
Lin Yan pushed open Mrs. Gu's bedroom door, walked to her bed in the dim moonlight, and looked at her quietly.
The last time she came secretly, she questioned her in her heart why she was so cruel, and blamed her for abandoning her and pretending to look for her.
This time, listening to the even breathing sounds coming from Mrs. Gu on the bed, Lin Yan said sorry in his heart.
After realizing that he had misunderstood Mrs. Gu, Lin Yan felt a little regretful, and his mind gradually recalled the scene when he first met Mrs. Gu.
It was her first time to come to the Duke of Zhenguo's Mansion, and Mrs. Gu suddenly rushed up and called her "Yan'er".
She didn't care. Now that she thought about it, maybe it was the bond between mother and daughter that made Mrs. Gu sense that her daughter was nearby.
Later, she often came to the Duke of Zhenguo's Mansion, also for A Yue's sake. In order to cure Madam Gu, Lin Yan played the role of Miss Xiao Er very well.
Hearing Madam Gu calling her "Yan'er" and treating her like her own daughter, she was actually happy in her heart at that time.
But later she learned that Mrs. Gu was her biological mother and that she had abandoned her. Lin Yan began to resent her. After all, what she cared about most was that her biological parents had abandoned her.
But now she knew that Mrs. Gu had never thought of abandoning her. She even lived in guilt every day because she blamed herself for not discovering the matter in time, and she even became crazy because of it.
Lin Yan no longer felt any resentment, and even began to regret not finding out the truth.
It turned out that her relatives had never thought of abandoning her, they had always loved her.
I don’t know how long Mrs. Gu stood there. When Lin Yan came to his senses and was about to leave, Mrs. Gu suddenly said, "Water, water."
Lin Yan paused, hesitated for a moment, picked up the teacup on the table, brought it over, helped Mrs. Gu up, and fed her the tea.
Perhaps because she was too thirsty, Mrs. Gu drank too quickly and started coughing violently. Lin Yan gently stroked her back to help her relieve her breath.
After a long while, Mrs. Gu finally recovered and said in a weak voice, "Madam Li, has Jin'er returned home?"
Lin Yan paused and said nothing.
Not hearing any movement, Mrs. Gu raised her head. In the moonlight, she could vaguely see the figure of the person sitting in front of her bed. She asked in confusion, "Who are you?"
Lin Yan was silent. She had not yet figured out how to tell Mrs. Gu about her identity.
Just as she was thinking about how to explain, Mrs. Gu suddenly became excited, took Lin Yan's hand and asked: "Yan'er, you are Yan'er, right?"
Lin Yan looked surprised. He didn't expect that she could guess his identity. Before she could speak, Mrs. Gu started crying.
"Yan'er, you finally came to see me. That day you stood at the head of my bed for a whole night and then left. I didn't dare to say anything. Mother thought that you never wanted to see me again in your life after that." Mrs. Gu held Lin Yan's hand tightly, fearing that she would leave.
When Lin Yan learned that Mrs. Gu was her biological mother, she couldn't help but go and meet her.
"You know I've been here..." Lin Yan's throat was dry.
"Not only do I know that you have been here, I also know that your name is Lin Yan and that you are A Yue's teacher. After you came here, I remembered everything." Mrs. Gu wiped away her tears.
She continued, "That night when I heard you say that we were destined to be mother and daughter, I knew you didn't want to recognize me."
"Yan'er, you are willing to come to see me this time. Do you want to recognize me? It doesn't matter if you don't recognize me, but can you let me compensate you? It's all my mother's fault, it's all my mother's fault."
Seeing Mrs. Gu talking a lot, Lin Yan felt sad and whispered, "It's not your fault. It's not your fault from the beginning to the end."
"No, it's all my fault. If I had discovered it in time, you wouldn't have been replaced by them." Mrs. Gu's voice was choked with sobs, and tears could not stop flowing. "I'm sure this is why you refused to recognize me."
Lin Yan held Mrs. Gu's shoulders and said seriously: "It's not like that. I didn't want to recognize you before because I thought you wanted a boy, so you switched me away."
Mrs. Gu quickly said, "No, it's not like that."
"I know," Lin Yan raised the corner of his mouth, "I just realized today that I misunderstood you."
"But if I had been more careful back then, you might not have been lost." Mrs. Gu always felt that it was her fault over the years.
"You fainted while giving birth to me, so how could you have the mind to pay attention to these things? It's not your fault," Lin Yan said seriously.
"In that case, are you willing to recognize me as your mother?" Mrs. Gu looked at Lin Yan with hope.
Lin Yan smiled slightly and said, "Mother, I have wanted to call you Mother since I knew the truth."
"Hey" Mrs. Gu burst into laughter and couldn't help wanting to hug Lin Yan, but she was afraid that she would resist, so she stopped.
Lin Yan had excellent eyesight. When he saw Mrs. Gu's actions, he decisively hugged her in his arms and shouted, "Mother, I am your daughter. You can hold me if you want."
Mrs. Gu shed tears again, but this time, they were tears of happiness.
Mother and daughter hugged each other for the first time after 24 years.
Mrs. Gu had a lot more to say to Lin Yan. After Lin Yan answered a few words, he heard her breathing slightly.
Knowing that Mrs. Gu was in poor health, Lin Yan heard that she could not bear to stay up so late, and said patiently: "Mother, you should rest."
At this moment, Mrs. Gu was as willful as a child. She took Lin Yan's hand and said, "Can you talk to me for a while longer?"
Lin Yan pretended to be serious: "Do you still want your body?", and then assured: "You will definitely see me when you wake up tomorrow."
Finally, under Lin Yan's majesty, Mrs. Gu successfully fell asleep.
After coaxing Mrs. Gu to sleep, he went out and ran into Xiao Jin and Xiao Yue who had been guarding outside the door for a while.
Xiao Yue had been anxiously waiting since Xiao Jin left the house, so naturally she couldn't sleep. When she heard the servant report that her brother had returned and gone to her mother's yard, she hurried over.
Just when he saw Lin Yan entering his mother's yard, he ran over excitedly and asked Xiao Jin: "Sister Lin is willing to recognize us."
Although Lin Yan was willing to go back home with him, she didn't say anything. Xiao Jin was unsure and shook his head at Xiao Yue, indicating that he didn't know either.
But Xiao Jin didn't know what Lin Yan was going to do in his mother's room, so he was anxious and waited here.
When they saw Lin Yan coming out, the brother and sister were equally nervous and stood there like wooden stakes, motionless.
Seeing that these two people were like gate gods, Lin Yan couldn't help laughing and asked, "Why are you stealing here in the middle of the night instead of sleeping?"
Seeing that Lin Yan was still joking with them, the two felt relieved. Xiao Yue asked cautiously: "Sister Lin, has Mother gone to bed?"
Just now, the two of them heard Mrs. Gu crying, and they were afraid that Lin Yan still didn't want to recognize them.
Lin Yan touched Xiao Yue's head and said softly, "You still call me Sister Lin, but now you should call me Sister."
Hearing her say this, Xiao Yue's eyes lit up and he shouted loudly: "Sister".
Xiao Jin was a little envious, but didn't dare to say it.
"Brother," Lin Yan called Xiao Jin and looked at him gently: "Thanks to you for telling me the truth. If it weren't for you, I might have misunderstood my mother all my life."
The heavy stone in Xiao Jin's heart finally fell, and he breathed a sigh of relief, "What's the big deal? The fact that you recognize us is the happiest thing for our whole family."
"Besides, if it weren't for me, you might not have been replaced, and you wouldn't have suffered so much." Xiao Jin looked lonely when he said this.
The atmosphere suddenly became quiet. Lin Yan knew that Xiao Jin and A Niang had been blaming him, thinking that he was the one who caused all this.
A'niang even went crazy because of this, and how could Xiao Jin be any better off? This matter has probably always been a knot in his heart.
Lin Yan had a lot of things on her mind tonight. The sudden recognition caught her off guard. Now she just wanted to wait until tomorrow to discuss everything.
What's more, it was too late tonight, and Xiao Yue and Xiao Jin had dark circles under their eyes. Lin Yan rubbed his brows and said to drive them away: "It's too late, go and rest quickly, and we can talk about it tomorrow."
The two people on the side moved their mouths, with a thousand words in their hearts that they wanted to say, but in the end they kept silent.
Seeing this, Lin Yan smiled and explained, "It's too late, and you are tired tonight. Don't worry, I promised my mother that she will see me when she wakes up, and I will come after dawn."
Xiao Yue and the other person looked at each other, and saw the joy in each other's eyes, and said in unison: "Okay."
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