Chapter 42: The Boy's Concern

Pei Luoshu didn't understand why Chen Shiyi asked this, but he was a good teacher, so he naturally had to answer her questions.

"A maidservant is usually found in wealthy or noble families. As the name suggests, she is still a maidservant, with a status slightly higher than that of an ordinary maidservant, but lower than that of a concubine. For a powerful and noble family, she is nothing more than a tool to warm the bed."

Pei Luoshu asked with a smile.

"What's wrong with you? Why are you asking such a strange question all of a sudden?"

He saw that Chen Shiyi's face turned even paler, and suddenly a bad idea came into his mind, which instantly washed away all the happiness in his heart.

He clenched his fists, cleared his throat, turned around and asked.

"You, you are not some family's maid, are you?"

Chen Shiyi nodded helplessly.

The moment he saw Chen Shiyi nodded, Pei Luoshu heard the sound of his own heart breaking.

The broken heart was as cold as winter, and in an instant, it spread to every part of his body.

He didn't know when his clenched fists opened and trembled slightly. He wanted to pick up the pen to divert his attention, but found that they were not responding at all.

"You, how can you be someone else's maid?"

She belongs to someone else now, so what should I do with my deep love for her?

He had already saved enough money, and the lotus hairpin was still waiting for him to buy.

Chen Shiyi noticed that Pei Luoshu was not feeling well and asked with puzzled eyes.

"A Luo, what's wrong with you?"

"Don't call me Ah Luo."

Pei Luoshu suddenly came to his senses and screamed at Chen Shiyi.

He hurriedly packed up his things and ran out of Changning Street without looking back.

Chen Shiyi didn't know what was going on.

Aunt Zhao asked while eating melon seeds.

"The first time I met Pei Xiucai, he turned back before noon."

"I guess something happened at home."

Pei's mother was very confused when she saw Pei Luoshu coming back so early.

"Why are you here so early today? You usually come back on time."

Pei Luoshu stood stiffly at the door and replied in a hoarse voice.

"Not anymore."

Pei's mother felt that her son was not quite right today, but the child was older and had many worries, so she did not dare to ask too much.

Not long after, there was a knock on the door.

"Ah Luo, are you home?"

Pei's mother quickly called Pei Luoshu.

"It's Eleven, go open the door."

Pei Luoshu's face was as gloomy as water and he walked out.

Mother Pei looked out the window and saw him just standing in front of the door, letting Chen Shiyi outside keep knocking on the door.

His hand was on the bolt, but he didn't move.

When Pei's mother saw Pei Luoshu's thin and weak figure, she still didn't understand something.

A young man's thoughts are always clearly written on his face.

I want to see you but I don’t want to, I miss you but I dare not.

Chen Shiyi's voice outside the door sounded very confused.

"The gate is not locked. Where did the person go?"

After a while, Chen Shiyi's footsteps were heard getting farther and farther away.

Pei Luoshu couldn't bear it any longer, so he opened the bolt and ran out, but came back after a while.

After closing the door and turning around, Pei's mother discovered that his eyes were red.

"Luo'er, what happened between you and Eleven?"

"It's OK."

"Were you having a fight?"

"no."

"you…"

"mother…"

Pei Luoshu suddenly spoke loudly.

"Mother, Eleven is someone else's maid."

He clutched the bedpost tightly, his back to his mother, his body trembling slightly.

"I lost her before I even had her."

Pei Luoshu did not go to Changning Street, but stayed in the house copying books.

Occasionally, he could be heard coughing a few times, and then there was no sound.

At night, there is always a slight creaking sound coming from the bed in the next room, as people toss and turn.

In the dark night, Pei's mother sighed, thinking that the pain of love is something that every young person has to go through.

While writing during the day, he suddenly opened the door and ran outside to the jewelry store. He looked at the lotus hairpin, which was still as beautiful as before.

He clutched the money in his purse tightly but said nothing.

"Young Master, do you want to buy this hairpin?"

Pei Luoshu replied quickly.

"I'll just take a look."

After saying this, he ran back home and continued copying books.

Two days later, he ran out like a madman again. When he got to the jewelry store, he grabbed the silver in his purse in his hand, and the moment he handed it to the store owner, he took the silver back and stopped buying anything.

The owner of the jewelry store looked at Pei Luo's receding back, and the corners of his mouth twitched violently a few times.

"Where did this lunatic come from? Are you trying to make me happy?"

Mother Pei couldn't bear to see Pei Luoshu like this.

"Luo'er, you haven't been to Changning Street for a few days. Eleven has come to call you several times, but you ignored me. You can't stay at home forever, right?"

Pei Luoshu was cleaning the yard. He looked haggard and his eyes were bloodshot.

"No, it's fine this way."

The next morning, Pei Luoshu didn't know what he had figured out. He went out early in the morning and went straight to the jewelry store.

He put the silver on the treasury's counter.

"I want to buy that lotus hairpin."

The shopkeeper raised his drooping eyelids and glanced at the boy.

"The hairpin was bought by someone else."

Pei Luoshu was stunned when he heard this.

"What?"

The shopkeeper patted his thin shoulder.

"Young Master, buy things early in the future. If you are late, they will become someone else's."

Pei Luoshu didn't know how he walked back home. The journey he often walked usually only took him the time of an incense stick, but now it took him all his strength.

"Luo'er, don't be like this, Mom is scared..."

Pei Luo raised his eyes and looked at his mother. Seeing her worried look, he finally understood that she had been worrying a lot during this period of time.

"Mom, I'm sorry I made you worry."

"Not again, never again."

He finally started going to Cheungning Street again.

When Chen Shiyi saw him coming, he finally felt relieved.

"I thought something happened at your house. I knocked on the door but no one opened it."

Pei Luoshu looked at Chen Shiyi calmly.

"Nothing."

Chen Shiyi said with a smile again.

"I have collected the dowry for next month and will give it to you later."

"No need."

"Um?"

“I don’t want to teach anymore.”

Chen Shiyi felt a little depressed after hearing this. What happened to him?

"good."

Chen Shiyi wanted to say something, but Pei Luoshu spoke loudly.

"You are already someone else's maid, don't you know that you should keep a certain distance from other men?"

Chen Shiyi was a little at a loss what to do. It seemed that she was abandoned by him.

It turns out that the identity of a maid is so despised that even her teacher is no exception.

"Oh, I, I'll stay away from you."

Looking at Chen Shiyi's cautious back, he felt sorry for her and his throat choked with sobs, but he didn't know what to say.

She was so nice to him, why did he hurt her like this?

He thought about facing Chen Shiyi directly, so that he could get rid of the inappropriate thoughts in his mind as soon as possible.

But the more he did this, the more difficult it became for him to do it.

He hadn't written a single word with his pen in the whole morning.

His eyes always glanced at Chen Shiyi consciously or unconsciously.

After noon, he could bear it no longer.

"eleven."

When Chen Shiyi saw Pei Luoshu calling her, she hurried to his side and looked at him with sparkling eyes.

"A Luo, you called me?"

With just this call from her, all the gloom that had been in his mind for the past few days was instantly dispelled.

An inexplicable emotion rose up in his chest involuntarily, and continued to spread outward from his heart.