Chapter 63 She is Depressed

Pei Luoshu felt Chen Shiyi's obedience, and extreme joy spread from his heart to every part of his body.

The time he spent with her was too short. At this moment, the person he loved deeply was leaning on his arms, soft and warm, and he cherished her especially.

Cherish this hard-won opportunity.

After a while, Chen Shiyi pushed him.

She looked at him foolishly, lowered her eyes and sighed.

"A Luo, I have to go, otherwise it will be too late to board the ship."

Pei Luoshu was very frustrated. He held her shoulders with both hands to prevent her from getting up.

"A Luo..."

Pei Luoshu stood up helplessly and helped Chen Shiyi up.

"I'll take you there."

Chen Shiyi said hurriedly.

"No need. I still need to take the donkey cart. It would be troublesome for you to go back and forth."

"Why is that a problem? I just want to spend some time with you."

Chen Shiyi lowered his eyes slightly, revealing an unclear emotion.

"A Luo, do you know how I'm doing recently?"

Pei Luoshu realized that he had made a big mistake. Until now, he had been immersed in the joy of meeting Eleven and had never asked her if she was okay.

"Eleven, I'm sorry, I..."

"Why do you always apologize? Actually, there's nothing wrong. I came here to tell you that I may have to return to Kyoto in the next one or two years. This meeting may be our last. Maybe, unless we make an intentional decision, we will never meet again in this life."

Pei Luoshu was just filled with joy, but his mood suddenly fell to the bottom.

"Eleven, what did you say?"

"What I said was that we won't see each other again, so I'm saying goodbye to you now, and you don't have to see me off."

Pei Luoshu stood there in a daze. When Chen Shiyi was about to leave, he hurriedly grabbed her sleeve.

"Why?"

"Um?"

"We were all fine just now, why?"

"Difference is a fact. It has existed since the beginning, hasn't it?"

"But you clearly have feelings for me."

"Favor is also love."

"Gratitude is gratitude, and affection is affection. I can tell the difference. Eleven, you can't fool me."

Chen Shiyi was helpless.

"There is no future for you and me, Ah Luo. The young master will not let me go."

"I am taking the provincial examination again just for you. Please wait for me. I only need three years..."

Chen Shiyi lowered his head and cast down his eyes.

"In three years, maybe my child will be able to walk."

Pei Luoshu's face turned pale.

Chen Shiyi gritted his teeth and said cruelly.

"A Luo, I'm leaving."

Pei Luoshu still held Chen Shiyi stubbornly, with unclear emotions in his eyes.

"I send you."

The two sat in the car, silence replaced their time together.

When they arrived at the ferry, Xue Lianxing was walking back and forth anxiously. When he saw Chen Shiyi coming, a smile finally appeared on his face.

"Hurry, the ship is about to start."

Chen Shiyi nodded and quickly followed Xue Lianxing onto the ship.

"eleven!"

Pei Luoshu's eyes suddenly turned red behind him.

Chen Shiyi turned and looked at him.

"You said before that you wanted me to be your support. I am willing to be your support for life. You must remember me and don't forget me..."

The boatman put a huge chain across the stern of the boat, and the passengers got on board one after another, and the boat started slowly.

Chen Shiyi stood at the stern, quietly looking at Pei Luoshu on the shore.

The big ship was moving slowly forward, and he followed the direction of the ship along the shore.

The boat moved faster and faster, so he started to run after it.

His eyes were filled with sadness and reluctance.

Chen Shiyi stood at the stern, his hands trembling as he pulled at the chain, watching his clothes fluttering and his hairband swaying in the wind. The blue figure stood at the highest point, getting smaller and smaller, until only a black dot remained, until he could no longer be seen...

Xue Lianxing sighed behind her.

"After Pei Xiucai removed the scars on his face, he looked like a completely different person. He looks so handsome."

He looked at Chen Shiyi, who was staring at Pei Xiucai without blinking, and advised her.

"Don't look at him anymore. You can't see him anymore. Don't even think about him anymore. He is very educated and looks like an immortal. He must be at least a third place winner. A third place winner is usually married to a princess. She is a royal relative and is not something that people of low status like us can dream of."

Seeing that Chen Shiyi didn't say anything, he spoke again.

"You two are worlds apart, and you are someone else's concubine..."

"I know, I know..."

Chen Shiyi suddenly yelled at Xue Lianxing.

"I know he has a promising future and a noble status. I know I am not worthy of him. I know I am someone else's concubine. I know there is a huge difference between us. I know all this. Please, don't remind me again and again..."

Chen Shiyi was devastated and burst into tears.

Xue Lianxing had never seen Chen Shiyi, who was always smiling, cry so sadly.

He was shocked and his eyes were red.

"I, I just don't want you to fall into emotional difficulties. Love is the most hurtful thing..."

Late at night, Wen Zhiheng had been in the courtyard and had not rested for a long time.

Chen Shiyi hasn't returned yet, and he's worried that something has happened to her.

Later, I couldn't help it, so I stood up, lit a torch, and walked towards Ping'an Town.

He knocked on Xue Lianxing's door.

Xue Lianxing opened the door and welcomed Wen Zhiheng into the yard.

"It's too late. I'm worried about Eleven going home, so I let her sleep in the guest room."

"Eleven has worked so hard to run this family for me. I am taking her home now."

Xue Lianxing sighed.

"Master, you should take good care of Eleven. She is very pitiful..."

"I love her."

Wen Zhiheng lit the candles and opened the door of the guest room.

"Eleven, we're going home."

He turned Chen Shiyi's body over and saw that she was in tears and her face was abnormally red.

It’s hot when you touch it with your palm!

Is she having a fever?

It must be very painful, otherwise why would you cry like this?

Normally, she rarely cries.

Wen Zhiheng felt so distressed.

"Brother Xue, Eleven has a fever, please bring me a basin of water."

When Xue Lianxing heard that Chen Shiyi had a fever, he was alarmed, and even Su Niang was awakened.

Su Niang drove both men out.

"I'll take care of her. You men are clumsy."

This time, Chen Shiyi's illness was severe and he had a fever all night, and the fever only subsided in the early morning.

When I returned to the courtyard, I felt sick and had no energy at all.

Occasionally, I would pick up a hoe to weed the vegetable garden, or sit in a pavilion in the bamboo forest, resting my chin in my hand and daydreaming...

She kept thinking that all the eagerness and careful preparation for the meeting, all the joy, vanished the moment she saw Pei Luoshu's face was intact.

She originally thought that Pei Luoshu had the same miserable fate as her, with a tragic life and a lot of experiences.

She has no chance of turning things around.

And he will soar into the sky, out of reach.

The chasm between her and him will only get wider and deeper.

So, it is better to cut the Gordian knot.

Pei Luo must have thought that she was heartless and said such cruel words to break up with him. In fact, what she gave up was the self that still had a little yearning.

Just let yourself fall completely into darkness, and end your life like this.