Chapter 67 I hope I can see him in my dreams
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[But what Mother Earth said is right. Mortals live for a hundred years, but my lifespan is more than thousands or even tens of thousands of years.
One day I will lose Zhu Qing, just like the God of Wisdom went through so much trouble but failed to keep Shu Yue.
I don't want to fall into that kind of pain, nor do I want Zhuqing to fall into the regret that he is already old, while I, as his lover, am still young.
Mother Earth has always praised me for my wisdom and my ability to make decisions when necessary, but when it really comes to me making a decision, I am not as free and easy as I appear to be.
At least, this unrestrained attitude deceived Mother Earth but could not deceive Zhu Qing.
When he said that he had found a way to become a god, my heart, which was already swaying like a red candle in the wind, was shaken again.
I want to be selfish for once.
Zhu Qing described it very well, faith leads to godhood, this is a path I have never thought of.
Moreover, somehow, I feel that Zhu Qing can succeed.
Don't underestimate the intuition of gods. Gods follow the laws of nature and come into being. Many times, their intuition is the predetermined destiny of nature.
And now, I can feel that Zhuqing can succeed.
My companion divine stone can replace the human body. As long as I refine the divine stone, create a body, and inject Zhuqing's soul into it, I can completely separate Zhuqing and the God of Light.
At that time, Zhu Qing's body will die, the God of Light will return to his place, and Zhu Qing will be able to live quietly.
In that split second, I thought of a lot, including how to explain this lost memory to the God of Light and how to persuade the God of Light to vote against it.
Or, just do something big and ask Zhu Qing to pretend to be the God of Light to vote, and then return the real God of Light to his position afterwards.
It seems that no matter which approach is taken, it is unfair to the God of Light, but I can no longer care about that.
I heard that the God of Light cherishes the acre of vegetable field behind his temple very much. I wonder if sending a spring of clear water imbued with the power of the Moon Goddess when I go to apologize to the God of Light in the future can save our thin friendship.
But things never go so smoothly, just like I never expected that the gods, who are always easy-going, would be so persistent in exterminating mankind.
However, within a few decades on earth and a few hours in heaven, the gods began to hold their second meeting.
This time, the neutral God of Light was not there, and I, who voted against it, was not there, so the votes in favor actually led by a slight advantage.
When Mother Earth came to me, she told me that if I couldn't return immediately, the remaining gods would regard it as a vote against me and the God of Light.
Time is running out, and more importantly, Mother Earth is right next to me, so I can't explain this to Zhuqing.
After all, the importance of becoming a god with a mortal body cannot be leaked in the slightest.
In a hurry, I could only bring the dagger to the temple and stab it into Zhuqing's heart under the gaze of Mother Earth.
Fortunately, a long time ago, I learned a secret method that allows me to directly inject my thoughts into other people's minds.
So I stabbed him while explaining everything to Zhu Qing.
I told him that I could not show our private feelings in front of Mother Earth.
I said, "Don't be afraid. I've made all the necessary preparations. At the moment of your death, I will extract your soul and inject it into my Companion Stone."
"I'll do it quickly, so you won't feel much pain."
And the words I have never been able to say: "I love you."
Zhu Qing is a very smart man. Even at this moment of death, he could still act so genuinely sad, as if he had really been betrayed by me.
Looking at his tearful eyes and staggering steps, I controlled myself and didn't go forward to support him.
He had already prepared the magic spell in his hands, waiting for the moment of his death to extract his soul from the soul of the God of Light.
But I made a mistake.
I don’t know why, but I can’t find Zhuqing’s soul.
I can't find him anywhere in the world, in heaven or on earth.
It was as if Zhu Qing had never appeared in this world.
For a moment, I felt as if a bucket of cold water was poured on me, and all my previous assumptions turned into bubbles at this moment.
I felt as if my chest was being torn apart by thorns, and great pain spread from there to my limbs.
I felt like I was being ripped open, my whole body was cracked, every blood vessel and every part of my skin was in pain.
For the first time, I clearly wanted to end my life.
I suddenly understood why the God of Wisdom chose to fall into a deep sleep after Shu Yue passed away. Even a god could not bear the feeling of losing a loved one.
Before the years passed, the rose that promised to be with me forever withered in the soil and disappeared forever in the long river of my life.
Outside the window, the sun sets and rises again, and the sun's light illuminates the earth that should have been asleep.
All the birds flew up and cried loudly; all the beasts came out of their nests and prostrated themselves in worship.
The whole world was celebrating the return of the God of Light, and I suddenly found it funny.
But he had no energy to vent his anger, so he could only let his limp body fall to the ground, staring at the ceiling of the temple with an expressionless face.
It has carved beams and painted buildings, and is extremely luxurious and exquisite. They are all patterns that I like, and every one of them is designed by Zhu Qing.
I still remember every long night Zhu Qing endured for them, the templates he discarded one after another, every frown he had, and even every sigh he sighed.
It turns out that I remember so much. It turns out that Zhu Qing is so clear in my memory.
Mother Earth walked out from the darkness and sat beside me silently, looking at me.
He didn't ask me what happened, and I didn't want to tell him.
What are you talking about? How did a fool like me lose my love?
Are you saying that my arrogance killed the lover I just fell in love with?
I, a foolish, conceited god who should have died, still want to live in this world, for the so-called justice, for humanity...
"There are always some things in this world that are more important than others," the voice of Mother Earth rose slowly in the temple.
"For example, human life and death."
Although His voice was very soft, I felt as if a weight of tens of millions of pounds was pressing down on me, making it difficult for me to breathe.
Bright sunlight streamed in through the windows of the temple, and the cheers of all living beings reached my ears.
In this miracle, only my lover died.
What I have to do next is to apologize to the only victim of this absurd gamble and save the last hope of mankind.
I turned to look at Mother Earth and smiled nonchalantly, "Of course, I will do it."
Mother Earth looked at me with compassion, as if she was seeing a child pretending to be strong.
He is such a strange god, and he often looks at his believers with such eyes.
"I don't care if you can do it or not, I just hope you won't be sad."
He reached out his hand to wipe the tears from my face. Only then did I realize that I had already been crying for a long time.
"I'm not sad," I stood up, dusted myself off, straightened my mood, and prepared for a new battle.
I didn't lie, I wasn't sad.
I even felt like thinking about where I should sleep afterwards.
Just like the god of wisdom, he took a long, long sleep.
Of course, I won’t be found as easily by the gods as the God of Wisdom.
I will have a good sleep in a place where no one or God can find me.
In my dream, I should be able to see Zhuqing.
Of course, if he doesn't want to see me, I can go find him.
I hope he won't be too angry with me by then. 】
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