Chapter 176 I miss you so much, I want to see you so soon
Yan Yu refused to give up, and it was as if he was torturing himself, his whole body covered in wounds, which was heartbreaking to see, but he continued to search.
Time passed slowly, and Yan Yu searched for Chen Jin in a carpet-like manner, not letting go of any small place. He had already dug up a lot of areas.
During this time, people kept coming to tell Yan Yu not to look anymore, because even if he found it now, it would be dead. Yan Yu didn't listen to anyone and continued to search for Shen Jin.
He wouldn't believe those people. No matter what, no matter if the outcome was good or bad, he was determined to find Shen Jin.
Gradually, fewer and fewer people came to this side of the snow mountain. Some who couldn't find anyone cried their hearts out on the snow for a while before finally returning home.
Yan Yu continued his persistent search.
Finally, only Yan Yu, Xiao Qing, and a few others remained on the snow-covered ground. Their small figures looked particularly faint against the vast, white expanse of snow.
After Yan Yu finished digging one place, he struggled to his feet and continued to the next place.
Yan Yu's hands were completely unrecognizable, covered in wounds that split open inch by inch, looking rather terrifying.
After an unknown amount of time, Yan Yu found a frozen bloodstain in a steep place.
Seeing the pool of blood, Yan Yu was stunned. The bright red color had seeped into the white snow, and Yan Yu suddenly felt a sharp pain in his heart.
"Shen Jin! Are you there?!" Yan Yu suddenly shouted from here.
This shout attracted the attention of several people nearby, and Xiaoqing and everyone else gathered around.
"What happened? Is there some new discovery?" Xiaoqing came to Yan Yu's side and asked.
Several people started whispering among themselves and moved closer to Yan Yu, thinking that he had discovered something.
However, Yan Yu didn't say anything. He just suddenly started digging at the snow like a madman, startling everyone around him.
"Shen Jin, Shen Jin, Shen Jin..." Yan Yu called out Shen Jin's name as he dug.
Everyone almost thought that Yan Yu was going crazy because he couldn't take the blow.
A moment later, Yan Yu stopped moving again, and the others were taken aback once more.
Then, Yan Yu reached out with trembling hands and took a box out of the snow. Xiao Qing also saw the box and was slightly stunned.
A moment later, Yan Yu slowly opened the box, inside which lay two exquisite butterfly specimens.
“Isn’t this… something that Shen Jin bought in town before?” a voice suddenly rang out.
Upon hearing that person's words, the people present were all startled.
Yan Yu suddenly turned his head and looked at the man, who was being supported by someone. Looking at the box in Yan Yu's hand, he realized that the man had been rescued from the snow earlier but was not seriously injured.
"What did you say? This is... Shen Jin's?" Yan Yu's voice trembled violently.
The man nodded: "Yes, I'm not mistaken, this is what Shen Jin bought in town."
Yan Yu felt as if he had been struck by lightning, and he stood frozen in place.
"Young man, what's wrong?" the man asked Yan Yu in confusion.
Yan Yu's hands trembled as he held the box. His legs gave way, and he knelt on the ground with a thud. He hugged the box tightly and finally couldn't hold back any longer, bursting into tears.
"Shen Jin! Come out and see me! I miss you so much..." Yan Yu cried his heart out, his shoulders shaking, looking extremely pitiful.
"Shen Jin...it's all my fault, it's all my fault..."
Yan Yu's cries echoed through the snow, sounding particularly tragic.
Before, even if he cried, he would only cry for a while and then wipe away his tears and continue looking for Chen Jin. Now, he finally couldn't hold back anymore. Once the tears started flowing, he couldn't stop them.
Seeing Yan Yu like this, Xiao Qing felt extremely sad, and her eyes reddened.
Immediately afterwards, Xiaoqing's eyes filled with tears, and she quickly reached out to wipe them away.
"Shen Jin... I will be obedient. If you don't want to see me, I won't bother you anymore. I'll do whatever you want..." Yan Yu was crying so hard that he couldn't speak clearly and was crying like a child.
Those around Yan Yu felt distressed seeing him like this, but they didn't know how to comfort him.
For a moment, only Yan Yu's crying was particularly clear throughout the entire snow-capped mountain; there was no other sound.
Yan Yu kept sobbing, hot tears streaming down his cheeks and falling into the cold snow, making holes in the snow.
He had been unconscious for so long, but as soon as he saw Shen Jin, he knew that Shen Jin was someone very important to him.
He lost his memory, but he still remembered Shen Jin. He only remembered Shen Jin. He really, really liked Shen Jin, but he also knew that Shen Jin hated him. He must have hurt Shen Jin in the past and done many things that Shen Jin could not forgive.
At that time, Shen Jin was so gentle to everyone, but he was particularly cold to him. To be honest, it was impossible for him not to be jealous.
If he knew that he wouldn't have bothered Shen Jin, and if Shen Jin hadn't found him annoying, he wouldn't have left, and this wouldn't have happened.
No matter how Shen Jin treated him, it was all his own fault; he had done things to wrong Shen Jin in the past.
He's the one who lost Shen Jin.
Now, he has lost Shen Jin again; he has lost Shen Jin twice.
"Waaah... Sinking... Ashes..." Yan Yu's tears soaked the box containing the butterfly specimens, and he cried uncontrollably.
It's his fault, it's all his fault.
"Don't cry..." Xiaoqing didn't know how to comfort Yan Yu, so she could only say this.
Yan Yu was still holding that box, crying his heart out.
Hearing Xiaoqing comforting Yan Yu, the others also realized what was happening and began to persuade Yan Yu as well.
"Yes, yes, please don't be like this. After all, the dead cannot be brought back to life, right?" someone tried to comfort Yan Yu with clumsy words.
As soon as he finished speaking, the man felt several speechless looks from the people around him.
Xiaoqing glared fiercely at the person, who scratched his head, completely bewildered.
"Is that how you comfort someone?" someone next to him quickly bumped his shoulder hard and whispered.
"What's wrong with me? Is it wrong to comfort people like this? I didn't say anything wrong, did I? This person is already dead. Do you think he can come back to life?" That person directly expressed his inner thoughts.
Xiaoqing wanted nothing more than to beat him to death with a stick.
"Alright, just shut up," the person next to him continued to remind him.
Yan Yu had already heard what he said, but ignored it and continued to cry.
At this moment, Yan Yu's crying had weakened and was no longer as heart-wrenching as before.
"Take this butterfly specimen back as a souvenir. Come on, come back with us. We'll come back in a few days and maybe we can find the body," the man continued to say to Yan Yu.
After saying that, he reached out to grab Yan Yu's arm.
Xiaoqing was startled when she saw his actions and tried to stop him, but it was too late.
Yan Yu flung the man's hand away: "Get away from me! Shen Jin isn't dead! He's not dead! He's not!!"
The man was startled by Yan Yu's reaction and quickly withdrew his hand, staring blankly at him.
"Are you alright? You don't seem to be doing well. Why don't you come back with us to see a doctor?" The man hesitated for a moment before continuing.
Xiaoqing thought to herself that this person was truly persistent.
If Yan Yu could be persuaded to go back so easily, then all her previous efforts were in vain?
Since Yan Yu entered this snow mountain to search for someone, he hasn't eaten anything. She was a little worried about how long Yan Yu could hold on with his body like this.
"I'm not going back," Yan Yu replied softly.
The man was taken aback, then sighed helplessly.
A moment later, Yan Yu arranged the two butterfly specimens neatly, closed the box, and held it in his hands like a treasure, struggling to stand up.
He could sense that Shen Jin must be nearby. He had to go find him. Shen Jin must have been waiting for him for a long time. He couldn't let Shen Jin wait any longer, or Shen Jin would get angry.
He couldn't afford to anger Shen Jin any longer.
"You all get out of the way, I'm going to find Chen Jin..." Yan Yu said to the others.
These words seemed to conceal icy blades, causing those people to feel a chill run down their spines and instinctively make way for them.
“Hey, maybe you shouldn’t go. It’s too dangerous. There are many unstable structures here, and you could easily lose your life. There are so few people around now, if something happens to you, no one will find you.” Someone hesitated for a long time before finally speaking to Shen Jin.
If this had happened not long after the avalanche, they would all have helped Yan Yu search for Shen Jin. But now so much time has passed, what good would it do to find him? He's still just a corpse.
However, Yan Yu acted as if he hadn't heard him at all and continued walking on his own.
“Yan Yu…” Xiao Qing stammered, calling out Yan Yu.
"None of you come any closer..." Yan Yu said softly, "I'm going to keep looking for him..."
After saying that, he continued on his way, and those people watched Yan Yu walk further and further away.
Yan Yu was still sobbing softly, his shoulders trembling slightly, as he walked along, gently stroking the box.
"Shen Jin, wait for me a little longer, I will definitely find you." Yan Yu said to the box.
After saying that, Shen Jin carefully put the box in his pocket, but then, feeling uneasy, took it out and put it inside his clothes. He then continued walking on the snow in a daze.
Suddenly, Yan Yu felt his vision go black. Finally, unable to withstand the exhaustion of the past few days, he staggered a few steps and murmured in a dreamlike voice, "Chen Jin, where are you..."
I really miss you, I want to see you so much...
Yan Yu's body was tattered and riddled with wounds. His body finally gave out, and he collapsed in the icy snow, clutching a box, tears streaming down his face.
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