Chapter 183 Desiring Shen Jin's Forgiveness
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Shen Jin ignored him and withdrew his gaze.
At this moment, someone started a fire and took out some things.
"Wait a minute, everyone. Take a break first. I'll make some barbecue for you. Eat first, then go to sleep," the person who was fiddling with the barbecue grill said to everyone.
Everyone responded excitedly when they heard there was barbecue to be had, and some went up to help.
Yan Yu turned to look at Shen Jin, who was still resting against the tree and didn't say anything. So Yan Yu didn't go to help him, but carefully moved a little closer to Shen Jin.
As soon as they got a little closer, Shen Jin stood up and was about to leave.
"No, no, no, I was wrong, I won't go." Yan Yu hurriedly said to Shen Jin.
As he spoke, Yan Yu quickly stepped back a little.
Shen Jin glanced at Yan Yu before sitting back down.
Watching Shen Jin's actions, Yan Yu pursed his lips, feeling extremely bitter and powerless.
"I'm sorry." Yan Yu apologized to Shen Jin again, afraid that Shen Jin was still angry.
Shen Jin ignored him.
Yan Yu had no choice but to stop talking, but he felt as if his heart was shattered into pieces.
Finally, the two remained silent, Shen Jin not wanting to talk to Yan Yu, and Yan Yu not daring to speak to Shen Jin.
Before long, the barbecue was almost ready, and someone called the two of them over to eat it.
Shen Jin then got up and walked over, and Yan Yu immediately followed, but the two kept their distance from each other, and he didn't dare to go over.
"Everyone, please eat first. I'll continue grilling after you're done," the person doing the grilling said to everyone.
Everyone responded with smiles and went forward to get their barbecue.
Chen Jin held a skewer of barbecue in his hand, found a rock to sit on, and quietly ate it.
"Eat up, everyone. The meat we brought will spoil if we don't eat it soon, especially in this hot weather," the man continued to say to the group.
"Okay, hurry up and bake it, it'll be delicious!" Everyone responded.
Hearing everyone say it was delicious, the man got even more excited and turned the fire up a bit bigger.
A group of people sat in a circle, chatting and eating barbecue.
During this time, Chen Jin was always the one who spoke less and listened more to what others said.
Looking at Shen Jin's face in the moonlight, Yan Yu felt that this was the happiest thing.
At this moment, someone asked Yan Yu curiously, "Young man, where are you from?"
Startled by the question, Yan Yu paused for a moment and turned to look at the person.
Shen Jin glanced at him but said nothing, continuing to eat the barbecue in his hand.
"Ah, me... I'm from a village not far from here," Yan Yu replied casually.
"That village? It doesn't look like it," someone laughed.
Yan Yu smiled but didn't say anything.
"So what's your name?" someone else asked.
"Just call me Yan Yu," Yan Yu replied with a smile.
Subsequently, out of curiosity about Yan Yu, those people kept asking him about his situation, asking all sorts of questions.
After all, they had been spending all their time with their brothers and had hardly ever interacted with anyone else. Now that Yan Yu was suddenly with them, they were naturally curious about him.
Actually, they had wanted to ask before, but they hadn't had the chance.
However, when Yan Yu answered their questions, he basically just gave perfunctory answers and didn't answer them seriously. His attention was always on Shen Jin.
Actually, more than any of these things, he wanted to know why Shen Jin was with these tomb raiders, whether he was injured during the avalanche, who saved him, and what happened during his disappearance...
"Um..." Yan Yu coughed twice, trying to get some information out of these tomb raiders.
"What?" a tomb raider asked casually, taking a bite of his barbecue.
Yan Yu hesitated for a moment, then glanced at the leader of the tomb raiders. He was currently helping that person with the barbecue and probably hadn't noticed them.
"Um, do you know that snow mountain not far from here?" Yan Yu asked after a moment of silence.
"I know," one of the tomb raiders nodded.
Upon hearing his words, Yan Yu's eyes lit up immediately.
"Then you..." Yan Yu continued to ask questions, wanting to know if they had rescued Shen Jin from the snow mountain.
He had only spoken halfway when Shen Jin, who was beside him, suddenly said in a deep voice, "Let's eat."
Everyone was taken aback and looked at Chen Jin in unison.
Shen Jin glanced at Yan Yu, his eyes seemingly conveying something unspoken, which made Yan Yu's heart sink. He knew that Shen Jin didn't want him to inquire.
Because of the darkness and Shen Jin's quick gaze, no one else noticed Shen Jin's expression.
Yan Yu knew that Shen Jin was angry, and he was immediately at a loss.
"Ah Jin, what's wrong?" someone asked.
"It's alright, you can continue," Shen Jin replied with a slight smile.
The others didn't think much of it and continued to look at Yan Yu.
"What were you about to say? What happened to the snow mountain?" the person who spoke up asked.
Yan Yu glanced at Shen Jin cautiously, but Shen Jin looked down at the ground and didn't say anything.
"N-nothing..." Yan Yu replied after a moment.
Although he really wanted to know what had happened during this time, he didn't dare to anger Shen Jin.
He also hoped that Shen Jin could forgive him and want to be with him again, although that was unlikely.
However, he couldn't let his relationship with Shen Jin deteriorate any further, and he couldn't let Shen Jin hate him even more. He was really afraid of losing Shen Jin again.
"Oh...I see." The man replied, looking completely bewildered.
After a moment of silence, Yan Yu gritted his teeth and continued chatting with them.
"Have you all known each other all this time? How long have you known each other? When did you all arrive?" Yan Yu asked tentatively.
If the tomb raider were to answer him, he could find out when Shen Jin had met them.
"Us?" Upon hearing Yan Yu's question, the man began to ponder, as if recalling the time when everyone had joined.
At this moment, Shen Jin suddenly stood up.
"Alright, everyone, go to sleep now that you've eaten. Stop chatting. We need to conserve our energy for tomorrow!" Chen Jin said.
After saying that, he turned around and left.
Seeing that Shen Jin had left, Yan Yu quickly got up and followed him, leaving the tomb raiders completely bewildered.
Afterwards, everyone had eaten their fill, so they each found a place to sleep on the floor, while someone kept watch.
Shen Jin tidied up casually, made a makeshift bed on the floor with the things he had brought, and was about to go to sleep.
"Can I sleep with you?" Yan Yu moved closer to Shen Jin and asked.
“No.” Shen Jin refused outright.
Rejected by Shen Jin, Yan Yu sighed and dared not say anything more.
A moment later, Yan Yu tried to get a little closer to Chen Jin.
"Step back," Shen Jin said calmly.
"Oh..." Yan Yu pursed his lips and silently took a step back.
Then, Shen Jin lay down on the ground and fell asleep.
It was summer, and they were in the mountains, so there were a lot of mosquitoes. Yan Yu picked a large leaf and stood next to Shen Jin, fanning him and chasing away the mosquitoes.
"Stop slapping me." After being slapped by Yan Yu for a while, Shen Jin spoke up to stop him.
Yan Yu immediately stopped moving.
After a long while, Yan Yu finally stammered, "I just wanted to help you swat away the mosquitoes..."
“No need,” Shen Jin continued to refuse.
After saying that, she turned to face away from Yan Yu.
Yan Yu's eyes dimmed slightly. He pursed his lips but remained silent.
After a long silence, Yan Yu began to try to strike up a conversation with Shen Jin.
"Um, are you sleepy right now?" Yan Yu asked cautiously, afraid of disturbing Shen Jin's rest.
Shen Jin did not answer Yan Yu; he simply did not want to pay attention to him.
Yan Yu knew that Shen Jin didn't want to talk to him, so he continued to speak to him in a low voice: "Can you... talk to me?"
I still ignored him.
Yan Yu felt a bitter taste in his mouth: "You disappeared for so long before, I was really worried about you, I thought about you every day, I was thinking about you all the time..."
As he spoke, his voice grew softer and softer, as he feared that Shen Jin would be angry if he heard it.
"I don't understand what you're saying." After a while, Shen Jin gave Yan Yu a perfunctory reply, "If you're not going to sleep, go outside and keep watch."
Although the tone of his words was still icy cold, Yan Yu was overjoyed because Shen Jin was finally willing to talk to him.
“Chen…” Yan Yu wanted to continue talking to him.
"Don't bother me, I'm going to sleep." Shen Jin interrupted him.
Upon hearing Shen Jin's words, Yan Yu's small amount of happiness vanished instantly.
After that, Yan Yu really didn't dare to make a sound to disturb Shen Jin again. However, Yan Yu didn't sleep and kept staring at Shen Jin, afraid that he would disappear again.
After Shen Jin fell asleep, Yan Yu started swatting away mosquitoes for him.
It wasn't until midnight that Yan Yu finally drifted off to sleep, exhausted.
The next morning, birdsong began to fill the air.
Yan Yu jumped up as if by reflex: "Sinking Ashes!"
Fearing that Shen Jin might disappear again, Yan Yu immediately turned to look at his side, where Shen Jin was still sleeping.
Yan Yu finally breathed a sigh of relief.
At this moment, Shen Jin was still sleeping. Looking at Shen Jin's sleeping face, Yan Yu's heart softened.
A moment later, Yan Yu wanted to go over and touch him.
He had already reached out his hand, but then pulled it back. He was afraid that Shen Jin would be angry, so he still didn't dare to.
At this moment, Yan Yu saw that some tomb raiders had already woken up and were not far from him.
Yan Yu pursed his lips, glanced at Shen Jin, and his eyes deepened.
Last night, he tried to get information out of Shen Jin, but Shen Jin stopped him. He didn't dare to anger Shen Jin, so he didn't ask anything. However, he still wanted to know what had happened to Shen Jin during this time. He wanted to take advantage of the fact that Shen Jin hadn't woken up yet and go to those tomb raiders to find out what was going on.
Having this thought in mind, Yan Yu immediately stood up and prepared to go over.
After taking just one step, Yan Yu felt a little guilty again. He turned to look at Shen Jin and, after confirming that Shen Jin was still asleep and showed no sign of waking up, continued to walk over quietly.
Yan Yu looked around.
At that moment, a tomb raider had just gotten up and was busy with something, and he was some distance away from Shen Jin.
That way, even if Shen Jin wakes up in the middle of the night, he won't find out what he said, which makes him feel more at ease.
So Yan Yu decided to go find him.
Yan Yu approached the tomb raider, who was filling a spring not far away with water.
"What are you doing?" Yan Yu walked over and asked curiously.
He couldn't just ask Shen Jin's question right away; he had to chat with him for a bit first, otherwise his purpose would be too obvious.
Upon hearing Yan Yu's words, the tomb raider paused in his actions and then turned to look at Yan Yu.
"Young man, up so early?" the tomb raider laughed loudly.
"Hmm, don't you also get up early?" Yan Yu smiled and replied.
The tomb raider chuckled a few times and brought up the iron container he was holding, which was already full of water.
"I'm used to it. I'm usually the first one up to make breakfast for them. Most of these people are terrible cooks, but I'm one of the better ones. I used to be a chef," the tomb raider replied.
Yan Yu then remembered that the person in front of him was the one who had made barbecue for them yesterday; his cooking skills were truly excellent.
As he spoke, the man picked up the pot in his hand, and Yan Yu quickly went forward to help him carry it.
The man thanked Yan Yu, and the two of them carried the pot of water over together.
Afterwards, the tomb raider started a fire to prepare water, and Yan Yu helped him out.
After a while, Yan Yu asked again, "You used to be a chef, so why are you a tomb raider now?"
"That's because they saved me, so I stayed. And I quite like this place; it's much better than my previous living environment, and I have many good brothers here." The tomb raider didn't hide anything and answered Yan Yu directly.
Yan Yu nodded thoughtfully and handed him the firewood in his hand.
"So, were none of you in this profession before?" Yan Yu asked tentatively.
The tomb raider picked a leaf to fan the fire, but upon hearing Yan Yu's words, he paused for a moment, thinking.
"No, I'm one of the later ones. Some of them were here a long time ago, and some joined later," the tomb raider replied.
"Then... what about Shen Jin? When did he arrive, and where did you meet him?" Yan Yu asked again.
When Yan Yu asked that question, he felt extremely nervous, as if his heart was pounding like a drum, and he had a feeling that he had done something wrong.
Judging from Shen Jin's attitude last night, Shen Jin definitely didn't want him to ask. He's secretly trying to get information out of others behind Shen Jin's back. If Shen Jin finds out, he'll definitely be very angry.
"Shen Jin? Who's that?" The tomb raider paused for a moment, then looked puzzled.
Yan Yu pointed to Shen Jin, who was still sleeping.
"Oh, Ah Jin, is his name Shen Jin?" The tomb raider glanced at Shen Jin and immediately realized, "Not surnamed Rong?"
Yan Yu was taken aback, but before he could speak, he continued, "Speaking of Ah Jin, his life was truly tragic."
Upon hearing the words "terrible," Yan Yu's heart skipped a beat.
"What do you mean by 'terrible'?" Yan Yu asked, still shaken, as if he had been frightened, his face turning pale.
The tomb raider placed the pot on the prepared frame, started boiling water over a fire, and then fell silent, seemingly pondering what had just happened.
"We found him in the underground palace of the snow-capped mountain," the tomb raider replied after a moment's thought.
"An underground palace?" Yan Yu was stunned for a moment.
He knew about the snow-capped mountains, but he didn't know there was an underground palace there.
"Yes, it's the underground palace. When the avalanche happened, the ground became unstable, and Ah Jin must have fallen into the underground palace from the cave," the tomb raider continued.
Listening to the tomb raider describe the incident so casually, Yan Yu felt his heart was about to break. He couldn't bear to imagine what had happened back then.
"That underground palace is very hidden and very old, probably a long time ago. Even the locals probably don't know about it. We got there when they were digging an underground passage, and that's when we saw Ah Jin."
"What was his condition at the time?" Yan Yu hesitated for a moment before asking cautiously.
He could hardly imagine the despair and helplessness Shen Jin must have felt at that time; just thinking about it made him feel like he was suffocating.
Why wasn't he by Shen Jin's side back then...?
Hearing Yan Yu's words, the tomb raider sighed heavily: "That's why it was so tragic. He was almost dead. He was like a block of ice. I could barely hear his heartbeat."
Yan Yu's face turned deathly pale instantly.
However, the tomb raider seemed oblivious to Yan Yu's change and continued, "Ah Jin was seriously injured back then."
"A very... serious injury?" Yan Yu felt so much pain in his heart that he could hardly breathe.
“Yes, I…” the tomb raider continued.
Just then, someone patted the tomb raider on the shoulder.
The man turned around and saw another tomb raider walk over and sit down next to him.
"The water's already boiling, why aren't you cooking? Are you trying to starve us all? What are you chatting about?" the newcomer said.
He came over specifically to interrupt their conversation and prevent them from saying anything more.
Yan Yu saw through it, but just smiled at that person and said nothing.
"Okay, okay, the food will be ready soon," the tomb raider who was cooking replied.
After saying that, the person focused entirely on cooking, no longer thinking about anything else or chatting with Yan Yu.
The tomb raider who had just arrived started chatting with Yan Yu, changing the subject.
"You and Ah Jin seem to know each other quite well. Have you known each other for a long time?" the man chuckled twice and asked.
Yan Yu nodded and replied, "We've known each other for a long time."
Upon hearing Yan Yu's reply, the man nodded.
"I noticed Ah Jin kept saying he didn't know you yesterday. Are you two having a falling out?" the person asked after a moment.
Yan Yu was stunned for a moment, then gave a wry smile.
The thought that Shen Jin wouldn't let him get close yesterday made him feel a little sad.
There seemed to be a very thick layer of ice between him and Shen Jin, which could never be melted or warmed up.
But no one can be blamed for this. It's all because he didn't cherish it properly. He treated Shen Jin so badly that it was already a favor that Shen Jin didn't slap him when he saw him.
Why do people always wait until they lose something to regret it?
"I'm afraid it's more than just a tiff." Yan Yu smiled bitterly and answered his question in a low voice.
The man was stunned for a moment.
"So... is your relationship not good?" After a moment, the person continued to speak.
Upon hearing this, Yan Yu's smile became even more bitter.
The relationship between him and Shen Jin cannot be simply described as a bad relationship.
"I did something wrong, and he hasn't forgiven me yet." Yan Yu said in a low voice after a moment of silence.
If Shen Jin can forgive him, that would be good.
No matter how much effort it takes, as long as Shen Jin is still willing to forgive him... that's enough.
Hearing Yan Yu's aggrieved tone, the tomb raider couldn't help but laugh.
"No, I think Ah Jin is a very nice person. He's not the petty kind of person. He probably won't hold it against you. You should be able to talk to him properly and everything should be fine," the tomb raider said with a smile.
Anyway, everyone thought that Chen Jin was a very good person, with a particularly good temper, and had never been angry with anyone.
“But the mistake I made was very serious, and he might not forgive me.” Yan Yu hesitated for a moment, then said in a low voice.
His mistake wasn't the kind that could be forgiven with just an apology.
"How could that be? If you try a little harder, Ah Jin might forgive you," the tomb raider replied.
Upon hearing his words, Yan Yu pursed his lips, offering no response.
Seeing Yan Yu's reaction, the man continued, "Don't just think that he won't forgive you. As long as you do more things for him and move him with your sincerity, he will definitely forgive you."
The tomb raider spoke with particular certainty.
Even the person cooking next to them couldn't help but chime in, "Yeah, yeah, you need to work harder! Don't be so pessimistic. You haven't even tried yet, how do you know Ah Jin won't forgive you? I just think Ah Jin won't hold it against you."
Yan Yu paused for a moment, then looked up at the person.
"Yeah, I'd like to know how you treated Ah Jin before. With Ah Jin's personality, you actually managed to make him this angry. You're really something." The man continued.
Upon hearing this, Yan Yu's expression immediately darkened again.
He really did something awful, even angering someone as good-natured as Shen Jin to this extent.
Then, Yan Yu suddenly realized that Shen Jin had been with these tomb raiders for quite some time, almost half a year, and should know Shen Jin quite well.
If he consulted these tomb raiders, would his chances of gaining Shen Jin's forgiveness be higher?
"How can I get his forgiveness? Can you teach me?" Yan Yu hesitated for a moment and asked in a low voice.
He was really out of options and had to ask someone for advice. Now that Shen Jin hated him so much, he didn't dare to say a word. How could he possibly get Shen Jin's forgiveness?
...This reminded him of the time when Shen Jin attacked him in the hospital.
Yan Yu only learned about Shen Jin's dual personality later. At the time, he found it incredible, and at the same time, he felt bitter, because the person who drove him to a mental breakdown was himself, Yan Yu...
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