Chapter 196 I Want to Pursue You Again
Upon hearing Yan Yu's words, Shen Jin was slightly taken aback, feeling a strange emotion that he couldn't quite put his finger on.
In the end, Shen Jin remained silent and did not speak again.
Afterwards, Yan Yu continued to talk to Shen Jin, and Shen Jin let Yan Yu lie down next to him without asking him to leave. He would even answer Yan Yu's questions from time to time.
The atmosphere between the two of them finally improved and became more harmonious, without the previous tension.
It even carries a subtle ambiguity.
After a long while, Yan Yu tentatively asked, "Um... what are you planning to do in the future?"
"I don't know yet. Let's just leave it at that for now. It's alright to be with them." Shen Jin answered Yan Yu without thinking.
Yan Yu gazed at the starry sky and remained silent for a long time.
"And what about relationships?" Yan Yu asked again.
This time, Shen Jin didn't give a decisive answer as usual, but remained silent for a long time.
Yan Yu seemed both unhurried and anxious for Shen Jin's answer, his dark eyes fixed on Shen Jin, awaiting his response.
After a long while, Shen Jin gave a faint laugh.
"I haven't thought about relationships for a long time. I guess I'll just live alone for the rest of my life. I really don't want to invest my feelings in anything else," Shen Jin said with a smile, sounding relieved.
These were all Shen Jin's innermost thoughts, which he told Yan Yu all at once, because he had truly let go of his past feelings.
Having loved deeply once and been hurt badly, he felt he would never give his heart away again in this lifetime.
Hearing Shen Jin's words, Yan Yu's heart clenched, and he felt extremely distressed.
Immediately afterwards, Yan Yu thought of the things he had done to Shen Jin, which were not forgivable at all. Wasn't this situation all his own doing? What was he so upset about?
Humans are truly strange creatures.
After a moment, Yan Yu stopped beating around the bush and told Shen Jin his thoughts directly: "Can you give me another chance?"
Upon hearing this, Shen Jin was immediately stunned.
Before Shen Jin could speak, Yan Yu continued, "I was ignorant before, and I didn't know how to cherish things. I didn't know how hard it was to come by a relationship. But I won't do that anymore. I really won't. I want to spend the rest of my life with you."
Hearing Yan Yu's words, Shen Jin was somewhat moved.
Immediately afterwards, Shen Jin chuckled faintly, realizing that he had finally let go.
"Let bygones be bygones. Don't dwell on it anymore. It's all just a memory now. Don't take it so seriously." Shen Jin rarely talked to Yan Yu about the past.
Yan Yu immediately shook his head vigorously: "No, it's very important, extremely important. It can't be passed over, it can never be passed over."
Shen Jin sensed the stubbornness in the tone of disgust, but simply pursed his lips and said nothing.
"I won't blame you. Everyone makes mistakes and does silly things when they're young. Let's just pretend we never met." Shen Jin was silent for a while, then sighed.
Yan Yu stared at Shen Jin quietly for a long while.
"I know you definitely won't forgive me. If it were me, I would never forgive myself either. And I also know that you... probably don't have any feelings for me anymore," Yan Yu said in a muffled voice.
A relationship, if slowly worn down and not cherished, will eventually be exhausted, no matter how deep the feelings are.
He understood the reasoning, but why couldn't he face his feelings for Shen Jin back then, which led him to do something he now deeply regrets?
Shen Jin listened to Yan Yu's words and stared at him intently.
"But I want to pursue you again. This time I will never make the same mistakes again. Trust me, Shen Jin." Yan Yu's tone was very sincere, as if he had laid his heart bare and poured it into her.
Shen Jin remained silent for a long time, his mind in turmoil.
A strange, heavy, and sad feeling weighed on his heart, making it hard for him to breathe. Unconsciously, Shen Jin thought of things from the past.
Finally, Shen Jin withdrew his gaze and stopped looking at Yan Yu.
"Alright, enough of this nonsense, let's go to sleep," Chen Jin said in a low voice.
He had already let go of the past, so why would he be moved by Yan Yu's words?
Seeing Shen Jin's reaction, Yan Yu felt a little disappointed, even though he had already guessed that Shen Jin would have this attitude.
After a moment of silence, Yan Yu spoke firmly: "I don't want to miss out on you again. I don't know how I got through the days without you. I really can't live without you."
"..." Shen Jin remained silent.
“It’s your right to reject me, but it’s my choice to pursue you. No matter how many times you reject me, I will keep pursuing you and spend my whole life pursuing you.” Yan Yu didn’t want Shen Jin’s answer, but simply continued to express his attitude.
He will never let go again in this lifetime, never.
Hearing Yan Yu's resolute words, Shen Jin was at a loss for words.
Shen Jin felt that his emotions were very complicated, and he didn't know exactly what he was thinking.
"Let bygones be bygones. No matter how much you pursue me, it won't lead anywhere. I really don't want to get involved in anything related to feelings anymore," Shen Jin replied to Yan Yu.
However, Yan Yu completely ignored Shen Jin's advice.
"No matter what, no matter how many times you reject me, I will not give up," Yan Yu said stubbornly and persistently.
"It's not your problem, it's just that I really don't want to go back to the way things were before," Shen Jin said, looking at the stars.
"This time it definitely won't be like before. I will never make the same mistakes again. No, absolutely not." Yan Yu said to Shen Jin anxiously.
Hearing Yan Yu's anxious tone, Shen Jin fell silent for a long time.
Having no other choice, Shen Jin spoke a few more words with Yan Yu.
However, no matter what Shen Jin said, Yan Yu refused to listen and insisted on pestering him relentlessly.
Finally, Shen Jin had no other choice. He knew that Yan Yu wouldn't stop even if he talked, so he might as well not waste his breath.
"Alright, it's late, time to sleep." Shen Jin simply shut up and went to sleep, not intending to pay any more attention to Yan Yu.
Yan Yu was stunned for a moment, and wanted to say something more.
"Stop talking, I'm going to sleep." Shen Jin said this before Yan Yu could.
Upon hearing Shen Jin's words, Yan Yu stopped what he was doing.
After a moment, Yan Yu looked down at Shen Jin and felt that Shen Jin was probably really tired, so he stopped disturbing Shen Jin and let him sleep.
"Good night." Yan Yu looked at Shen Jin and said good night to him in a low voice.
Shen Jin did not answer Yan Yu, but simply closed his eyes and continued to sleep.
The temperature difference between day and night is significant in the mountains during the summer. Although it is quite hot during the day, it becomes very cool at night.
Fearing that Shen Jin would catch a cold, Yan Yu took off his coat and gently covered Shen Jin with it.
Sensing Yan Yu's movement, Shen Jin paused slightly, but remained asleep with his eyes closed, making no further movement.
After covering Shen Jin with his coat, Yan Yu carefully straightened it and covered him up to prevent the wind from getting in.
Then, Yan Yu stared at the sleeping Shen Jin until a long time had passed and Shen Jin's breathing had become even.
Seeing that Shen Jin seemed to have fallen asleep, Yan Yu cautiously called out to him.
Shen Jin did not respond to him.
"Shen Jin... Shen Jin?" Yan Yu continued to call out Shen Jin in a low voice.
There was still no response this time.
"Chen Jin, are you asleep?" Yan Yu hesitated for a moment before asking again.
After asking the question, Yan Yu realized it was a bit silly.
After a moment of silence, Shen Jin still did not respond to him, and Yan Yu breathed a slight sigh of relief.
Yan Yu then realized that Shen Jin had fallen asleep.
So Yan Yu lowered his head and gently kissed Shen Jin's forehead: "Good night, sweet dreams."
After saying this softly, Yan Yu reached out and tidied Chen Jin's slightly messy hair, his eyes full of happiness.
"Shen Jin, I really like you so much." Yan Yu spoke softly to the sleeping Shen Jin again, his voice tinged with a hint of loneliness.
Finally, Yan Yu looked at Shen Jin for a long time, quietly examining him. Only after he had looked at him enough did he get up and leave, satisfied, to go back to his seat and go to sleep.
After Yan Yu left and lay down, Shen Jin slowly opened his eyes, his expression somewhat inscrutable.
He wasn't actually asleep yet. When Yan Yu called him earlier, he was just thinking about things and didn't feel like sleeping. But he didn't want to talk to Shen Jin, so he simply didn't answer him.
After being lost in thought for a while, Shen Jin secretly glanced at Yan Yu, who was not far away, out of the corner of his eye.
Yan Yu was already asleep, lying on his side facing him, with his arm under his head.
Under the moonlight, Yan Yu's figure appeared somewhat hazy.
Then, Shen Jin looked down at his coat and stared at it quietly for a while.
Immediately afterwards, Shen Jin thought of the kiss Yan Yu had just given him on the forehead, and in an instant, Shen Jin's heart was in complete turmoil.
A moment later, Shen Jin slowly reached out and touched his forehead, the very spot where Yan Yu had just kissed him.
In the darkness, the two lay some distance apart, the moonlight shining on them, creating an unexpected sense of tranquility and beauty.
After staring blankly for a long time, Chen Jin started to have random thoughts, going through all sorts of things, and now he suddenly felt a little upset.
He didn't know what was wrong with him...
Shen Jin kept thinking about things, a lot of things, some that had happened in the last few days, and some that had happened a long time ago, one by one. In the end, Shen Jin just fell asleep.
In a daze, Chen Jin dreamed of that avalanche.
A vast expanse of white covered everything.
Shen Jin stared blankly as he was buried in the snow. The biting cold seemed to seep into his body, and a feeling of despair and helplessness spread through him.
"No..." Shen Jin opened his mouth, wanting to shout, but no sound came out.
He was completely covered in snow, and no matter how much he shouted, it was no use.
It was a boundless despair.
The area around the ashes was completely white, with nothing else around.
Later, Shen Jin fell into the underground palace. It was pitch black all around, but the bone-chilling cold did not dissipate at all.
"So cold..." Shen Jin curled up into a ball, murmuring in despair.
Someone please save him... It's so cold, so very cold...
It was pitch black everywhere, and he couldn't see anything. In a panic, Shen Jin stretched out his stiff hand, trying to touch anything that could save him.
However, when I stretched out my hand with great effort, there was nothing there but extreme, icy pain.
In despair, Shen Jin thought of Yan Yu.
I'm afraid I'll never see Yan Yu again in this lifetime.
Is this really it? Am I going to die here...?
Shen Jin's outstretched hand stopped moving, his nose slowly drooped, and he gradually became filled with despair.
His mind was numb from the cold, but the places he had bumped and bruised were throbbing with pain, as if they were about to crack open, torturing Shen Jin mercilessly.
Gradually, Shen Jin felt that he could no longer see any hope. His eyelids grew heavier and heavier, so heavy that he could not open them at all.
Faintly, Shen Jin seemed to hear human voices and see some firelight. However, Shen Jin had no strength left and fainted.
The image suddenly became blurry, and nothing could be seen clearly.
The scene shifts to a snow-capped mountain, where a figure walks around, appearing extremely small compared to the massive mountain.
Shen Jin watched from afar, and that person... was Yan Yu.
Yan Yu frantically dug through the cold snow on the snow-covered mountain, constantly calling out Chen Jin's name.
"Sinking Ashes! Sinking Ashes!" Yan Yu cried out in despair, his fingers already red and swollen from the cold snow.
Shen Jin stared at the person in front of him, suddenly stunned.
He tried to call out to him, but found that he couldn't make a sound or move; he could only watch.
Yan Yu kept searching, calling his name, crying out in despair and collapse, but received no response for a long time.
But he didn't give up and kept searching.
Then the scene changed again. It was still the snow-capped mountain, but it was no longer a vast expanse of white. The scene shifted from winter to spring, with the ice and snow melting and many beautiful flowers blooming.
Shen Jin paused for a moment, then took a few steps forward.
Immediately afterwards, Shen Jin saw Yan Yu, who was sitting blankly in one place, weaving a wreath with the flowers, and no longer calling Shen Jin's name.
Then, day and night quickly changed, and Shen Jin watched as Yan Yu came over every day.
Shen Jin suddenly froze, feeling as if an invisible hand was gripping his heart.
The scene of the snow-capped mountain began to change to summer. In summer, Yan Yu would still come to the snow-capped mountain. His expression was very calm. Every time he came, he would talk to himself for a long time.
Seeing this scene, Shen Jin felt inexplicably uncomfortable and found it difficult to breathe.
At this moment, Yan Yu, who was sitting in a daze, suddenly raised his head. He seemed to see Shen Jin, paused for a moment, and then gave Shen Jin a big smile.
Shen Jin was immediately stunned.
Yan Yu reached out his hand to Shen Jin, wanting to hold it, and Shen Jin subconsciously reached out his hand as well.
Suddenly, Shen Jin woke up.
Shen Jin felt dizzy and opened his eyes groggily. He pressed his temples and realized that he was still on the same mountain where he had been the night before.
"You're awake?" Yan Yu had been staring at Shen Jin. When he saw Shen Jin open his eyes, he smiled and asked.
Chen Jin's head was still spinning, still trapped in the dream he had just had, his consciousness somewhat hazy.
With a slight lift of his eyes, Shen Jin saw Yan Yu and was immediately stunned.
"Is the snow mountain beautiful?" Shen Jin stared at Yan Yu for a while, then asked blankly.
Upon hearing Shen Jin's words, Yan Yu was immediately stunned.
At this moment, Shen Jin slowly came to his senses and realized what he had just said, and immediately felt a little embarrassed.
"Ahem, good morning." Shen Jin jumped up, trying to change the subject in a somewhat ambiguous way.
Yan Yu stared intently at Shen Jin with his dark eyes.
"What did you dream about?" Yan Yu asked.
Shen Jin felt a little awkward, coughed, and gave a vague answer, trying to skip the topic: "It's nothing, I don't remember very clearly either..."
However, Yan Yu did not want him to skip over it so vaguely.
"Is it about the avalanche?" Yan Yu asked after a moment of silence.
Shen Jin immediately denied it: "No."
Seeing Shen Jin's somewhat evasive gaze, Yan Yu already knew the answer in his heart, so he didn't ask any more questions.
Shen Jin felt awkward, then got up and refused to look at Yan Yu.
Just as he was about to leave, Yan Yu suddenly grabbed Shen Jin's wrist. Shen Jin was stunned for a moment and subconsciously turned to look at Yan Yu.
"The snow-capped mountains aren't that beautiful, I just wanted to wait for you to come back." Yan Yu looked at Shen Jin, remained silent for a moment, and then spoke.
Shen Jin was stunned and stared blankly at Yan Yu.
After a while, Shen Jin came to his senses and awkwardly tried to pull his hand away from Yan Yu's.
However, Yan Yu pulled too hard, and Shen Jin couldn't pull it away immediately, so he used his other hand to help pull Yan Yu's hand away.
"Ahem, let's not discuss these issues for now." Shen Jin subconsciously tried to avoid the topic.
Hearing Shen Jin's words, Yan Yu's expression didn't change much; he just smiled faintly.
"Okay, whatever you say." After a moment, Yan Yu looked at Shen Jin with a smile and said in a somewhat ambiguous tone.
Now, Shen Jin was even more embarrassed.
But he couldn't say anything to Yan Yu, since it was Yan Yu's own business and he couldn't interfere.
In the end, Shen Jin said nothing and turned to leave.
At this time, everyone else woke up, greeted each other, and then went about their own business.
Shen Jin took his toiletries and went to wash up. Yan Yu followed Shen Jin almost without hesitation.
Shen Jin said nothing about Yan Yu's constant following of him, pretending not to see it.
After the two finished washing up together, everyone started having breakfast together.
A group of people sat together chatting.
"How did you two sleep last night?" one of the tomb raiders asked Yan Yu and Shen Jin.
"It's fine," Yan Yu nodded in reply.
Shen Jin hesitated for a moment, then nodded and responded, even though he hadn't slept well the night before.
Then, everyone started discussing how to find the tomb later.
They were using some terms unique to tomb raiders, which Yan Yu didn't quite understand. He glanced at Shen Jin and noticed that Shen Jin wasn't listening to them anymore; he was just silently eating what he was holding.
So Yan Yu moved closer to Shen Jin and sat down next to him.
Noticing Yan Yu's actions, Shen Jin looked at Yan Yu.
"You can't understand what they're saying either?" Yan Yu asked in a low voice.
Upon hearing Yan Yu's words, Shen Jin paused for a moment, then muttered, "I wasn't a tomb raider before, how would I understand?"
Ever since he was rescued by them, Shen Jin had been working with them. However, when it came to things like tomb raiding, Shen Jin wasn't very good at it and could only help them out at most.
Yan Yu nodded and said nothing more.
After a while, everyone finished eating breakfast.
"Alright, let's go find the tomb." The leader of the tomb raiders stood up and said to everyone.
Everyone agreed and then took out the map to start searching.
Shen Jin and Yan Yu didn't quite understand, so they followed them and helped look for them.
The tomb raiders would gather together and occasionally exchange a few words.
"I don't know what landmarks are around this tomb. This map is completely unrecognizable," a tomb raider sighed helplessly.
Upon hearing his signature three words, one of the tomb raiders was stunned.
“Right, in ancient times, people always talked about auspicious feng shui sites, so this tomb must be near a water source. If we find the water source, we can determine the approximate location of the tomb, right?” the tomb raider said excitedly.
Hearing his words, everyone else was stunned, but then they all realized what he meant and agreed.
Afterwards, everyone went their separate ways to search for water sources, agreeing to meet back in an hour.
Shen Jin and Yan Yu's team began searching for a water source, though they were still completely clueless.
So the two of them continued walking deeper into the woods, with Yan Yu marking the trees as he went to avoid getting lost.
"Where will there be a water source..." Shen Jin looked around as he walked.
The two walked for a while.
Suddenly, Yan Yu stopped what he was doing and pointed to a small spring: "Look, there's water."
Shen Jin turned around and glanced at it, then fell silent.
"This is too small. We definitely need a larger water source, and it should be running water," Chen Jin said to Yan Yu.
Yan Yu chuckled and withdrew his hand.
"Yes, you're right," Yan Yu chuckled softly.
Shen Jin then realized that he seemed to have been tricked by Yan Yu, and he was even more speechless and embarrassed. He turned around and continued walking.
An hour later, the two returned the way they came, and everyone had already arrived.
One tomb raider has found the approximate location: "I've almost found it. It's not far from a river. I also found some artifacts from that era, and the place is also very suitable for a burial site. I shouldn't be wrong."
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