Chapter 161 Not wanting Shen Jin made her hate him even more.
Why did he feel this way? Yan Yu himself couldn't explain it, but deep down he knew that Shen Jin didn't like him, rejected him, and wanted to keep his distance from him, not wanting the two of them to get too close.
Therefore, as he left, another voice echoed in Yan Yu's mind, telling him that Shen Jin's words were unreliable, and even if he said he would come back, it was false; once he left, he might never return...
This feeling is probably similar to how, no matter what he does now, he can no longer gain Shen Jin's trust, and he can't believe Shen Jin's words that he would come back.
"What are you standing there for? Everyone's gone, and the snow is still quite heavy outside. Let's go back first." Xiaoqing was standing behind Yan Yu, so she couldn't see his expression at that moment. She reached out and patted him on the shoulder twice. "If you keep staying outside, you'll freeze to death."
The snow was falling heavily, turning the entire mountain into a pure white expanse. All the trees, big and small, had donned new attire, blending seamlessly with the pristine white snow, and the snow on the ground was also very thick.
When people walk on it, they leave clear footprints, and when cars drive on it, they naturally leave wheel tracks that spread far and wide until the heavy snow falls and slowly fills in those tracks again.
"Why are you still standing there?" Xiaoqing blew on his hands and rubbed them together. When he didn't react, she touched them a few more times. "You can't even see his shadow now. Even if you want to see snow, you should find a better place. It's freezing here."
At this moment, no matter what she said in his ear, Yan Yu seemed not to hear it. All his attention was focused on Shen Jin. He only knew that Shen Jin had left, and he felt empty inside, with no place to place that feeling.
"He won't come back..." Yan Yu's eyes welled up with tears, reddening from the cold air. His gaze was fixed on the direction Shen Jin had left in, and he muttered to himself, "No..."
Xiao Qing was baffled and couldn't quite understand his chaotic emotions. After all, since Shen Jin had said that, he must want to come back here. Besides, if he wanted to leave, no one here would stop him.
So he didn't need to tell them he would come back, only to break his promise.
Unless something happens after we leave here...
"Pah, pah, pah!" Xiaoqing immediately stopped thinking, realizing that Yan Yu's words had led her to a whole bunch of unlucky thoughts. She immediately shook her head, "What nonsense, pah, pah, pah!"
After clearing her head of all the jumbled thoughts, she strode up to Yan Yu, gave him a nudge, and said, "I was saying... ah, you..."
Before she could finish speaking, seeing Yan Yu's red eyes and the tears welling up in them, she felt terrible and blinked a few times, saying, "Ah, no, you... why are you crying for no reason?"
Keep in mind that she was a young woman in her early twenties. Seeing a handsome man in his early twenties standing in front of her with red eyes and tears streaming down his face, the feeling was indescribable.
She was at a loss for words to describe her feelings at that moment. Instead, she found the person crying with such a pitiful expression rather endearing, almost like a little child.
It's like watching your family go on a long trip and wanting to go with them, but they don't take you. So you stand there sadly, watching them leave, and cry pitifully.
"Stop, stop, stop... Stop, stop!" Xiaoqing slapped her head hard, wondering what was wrong with her lately. She was particularly prone to overthinking and could conjure up a whole novel from the smallest things.
Ignoring her thoughts, Yan Yu continued to stare helplessly in the direction Shen Jin and the others had left, his voice hoarse as he said, "He lied to you..."
"Huh?" Xiaoqing was completely confused and didn't understand what he was saying at all. "Who is it? What are they trying to trick us out of?"
“Shen Jin…” Yan Yu pursed his lips, took a breath, glanced at Xiao Qing indifferently, then looked away, his voice hoarse as he said, “Since he’s gone, he won’t be coming back. He left me here…”
When Yan Yu first woke up, he didn't understand anything, not even his own name. But he gradually learned some things and also learned from the old lady that he was not from here but from outside.
She was brought back by the people here after encountering danger with Shen Jin. Since she is not a native of this place, she will eventually leave and return to her own place.
For Yan Yu, now that Shen Jin had left, he would return to where he was, so there was no need for him to come back... Besides, there were people he hated and didn't want to see here...
Yan Yu didn't know what to do. After all, his knowledge was limited. Although he knew he wasn't from here, he didn't know where he was from either.
If Shen Jin returns to where he belongs, then what about himself? Where should he go back to?
"He left me here..." Yan Yu's eyes were somewhat unfocused as he repeated the sentence over and over. The more he spoke, the more distressed he became, and even breathing became extremely difficult.
“Sigh, you’re really overthinking it,” Xiaoqing patted his shoulder, as if comforting a child. “He’ll come back. He won’t be gone for long. Shen Jin said he wants to spend the New Year here. He wouldn’t lie.”
Yan Yu was slightly moved after hearing this, but he was still very uneasy. He sniffed, his eyes still red, and looked at her directly, asking, "What if he was lying?"
"This..." Xiaoqing was momentarily speechless at his question, unsure how to respond. However, she was also worried that he, a grown man, might suddenly burst into tears, so she could only say, "I told you I wouldn't do it, so why are you being so stubborn?"
"Alright, alright, let's go back." Xiaoqing reached out and tugged at him, but unless Yan Yu wanted to leave on his own, she couldn't budge him at all. "Hey, hey, are you coming or not? Believe me, if you keep standing here, you'll turn into a snowman in no time!"
After Shen Jin left, the old lady went back with the other women in the village, saving the two of them from freezing here. One of them was like a piece of wood, impossible to talk to or pull.
“I’m not leaving…” Yan Yu said, glancing at her again. “I’ll just stand here for a while… You go back first.”
Anyway, he'll be sad when he goes back, and he'll be sad standing here. At this moment, it seems like everything he does will be sad. Since that's the case, why not let him stand here in the cold wind and get chilled for a while? Maybe that will calm him down a bit.
Xiaoqing had no choice but to go along with him, but she was worried that something might happen to this fool, so she would glance at him from time to time to prevent him from suddenly running after Shen Jin or something.
However, she was overthinking it. Yan Yu did not chase after Shen Jin in the direction he left, nor did he act like he was going to die. Although he was sad, he suffered alone.
"He looks quite well-behaved." Xiaoqing couldn't help but comment in her mind, "He's so well-behaved and pitiful, like a little child. Why doesn't he know how to listen? Being cold doesn't feel good at all. Why is he making himself suffer?"
She sighed softly and went back to her own business.
Yan Yu didn't impulsively chase after Shen Jin in the direction he left, because he knew that doing so would definitely anger Shen Jin, and he didn't want Shen Jin to hate him even more...
He stood there aimlessly all afternoon, his shoulders and hair covered in snow, yet he seemed oblivious to the cold.
"He's really gone..." Yan Yu thought blankly, his eyes no longer filled with tears, but his eye sockets were still red. He stared blankly in one direction, hoping to see something.
It wasn't until the afternoon, and soon it would be evening.
In winter, the nights are extremely cold, and it's not suitable for the elderly to go out and freeze. Xiao Qing came out and stood beside him, saying helplessly, "It's time to go back. Chen Jin and the others have already gone far away. He's probably resting now that it's night. You should go back and rest too."
"Hmm..." Yan Yu lowered his eyes and responded. This time, he didn't stand there stubbornly. Instead, he stiffly lifted his feet and followed Xiao Qing step by step.
Because I had been standing for so long, and it was the dead of winter with heavy snow falling, my hands and feet were numb, making it difficult to walk.
Xiaoqing sighed helplessly, slowly observing his reaction, then lowered her voice and asked him very softly, "Are you... alright? Are you sad? Are you cold?"
Yan Yu shook his head as if oblivious, lowered his head slightly and stared at his feet, walking slowly step by step without saying a word.
Xiao Qing's lips twitched slightly, and she couldn't help but think to herself, "Oh no, oh no, you already hurt your head from the fall, surely you won't get even dumber from Shen Jin's temporary departure?"
Although she was puzzled, she didn't dare to ask him any more questions, afraid of upsetting him. She could only slowly walk back home with him.
Even when they got home, Yan Yu was still in a daze. Xiao Qing had to cough a few times to bring him back to his senses before smiling and saying, "The hot water is ready. Go take a shower if you want. Come back for dinner after you shower, and then get some rest."
Yan Yu looked up at her, then nodded gently and obediently replied, "Okay..."
Now that Shen Jin is gone, he's all alone in this unfamiliar place, and he doesn't know when they'll abandon him too...
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