Chapter 173 I hope you get what you want

At this time, Su Shen studied medicine for her, voluntarily entered the palace, and was willing to stay by Xu Jilin's side.

Su Shen was her life-saving straw.

Xu Jilin admitted that she had killed many people with Su Shen's hands, but she never regretted it.

The open and secret struggles in the harem, if you want to survive, you have to rely on your ability, and if you die, you deserve it.

Su Shen persuaded her to stop, but she couldn't turn back.

Since entering the palace, she couldn't turn back.

When Su Shen came, the sun had risen very high. Xu Jilin raised her head slightly, only to feel that the sun today was extremely dazzling, so dazzling that she couldn't open her eyes.

When Xu Jilin saw Su Shen, she suddenly felt very cold, even though she had been sitting here all night and didn't feel it.

But now she felt unbearably cold.

Su Shen was not wearing his imperial physician's attire today. He was unusually wearing a green gown and a cloak of the same color.

Su Shen was a few years older than Xu Jilin and had long passed his high-spirited age. This outfit was obviously incongruous.

But Xu Jilin didn't think so. She looked at Su Shen walking towards her, nodded slightly, and said with a smile, "Why are you dressed like this today?"

Su Shen also smiled and didn't explain.

Xu Jilin said, "It looks good, better than always wearing that black outfit, which makes people feel suffocated."

Su Shen then spoke, "I've worn that outfit so many times that it gets boring. Today it's something new."

Su Shen stood not far away and looked at Xu Jilin, and he didn't seem to have any of his usual worries.

The two looked at each other from a distance, and they didn't speak for a long time.

Su Shen just looked at Xu Jilin like this, and his smile gradually became bigger.

Seeing Su Shen's expression, Xu Jilin couldn't help asking, "Why are you so happy? Do you know what I asked you to do?"

Su Shen nodded honestly, "I know, but I'm happy because I haven't had the opportunity to look at the queen like this for a long time."

Xu Jilin also suddenly realized that she and Su Shen seemed to have not talked so easily for a long time.

When she first met Su Shen, she wanted him to do something for her.

Whether it was murder or poisoning, she didn't even have time to say a word of reminiscence.

Although Xu Jilin had a lot of questions to ask Su Shen, why

, after meeting him, she felt that nothing was that important.

Xu Jilin didn't want to know anymore.

Su Shen continued, "I have followed Her Majesty for so long that I don't even know how many years or decades it has been. It seems like it was just yesterday that Her Majesty entered the palace, but now, we are both old."

"But this is the first time that Her Majesty didn't tell me who to attack when she saw me."

Xu Jilin couldn't help laughing, "Am I so vicious in your heart?"

It was just a joke, but Su Shen didn't have a smile on his face. He shook his head gently, "No, in my heart, Her Majesty is still the naive eldest daughter of the Xu family."

Xu Jilin was stunned for a moment, then quickly retorted, "The Xu family was about many years ago? The Xu family is now a duke's mansion, and I am no longer the eldest daughter of the Xu family."

"Then did Her Majesty get what she wanted?"

Su Shen looked at Xu Jilin and asked.

Did Xu Jilin get what she wanted?

She didn't know.

She had told Su Shen before that she just wanted to protect herself in the palace, but in the end, she gradually took the initiative to attack other concubines for the honor of her family.

But now that the Duke's Mansion in Chaozhong has a large army and is the only one in power, will Xu Jilin really stop?

Xu Jilin didn't know how to explain to Su Shen.

She could be hypocritical to everyone and use a hundred excuses to get rid of him, but the person in front of her was Su Shen, and Xu Jilin couldn't deceive him.

Xu Jilin spoke in a panic, "No, Concubine Rong is different. She has threatened An'er. I... As long as she dies, I promise..."

Su Shen did not wait for Xu Jilin to finish her words. He walked a few steps towards Xu Jilin. Su Shen's face was pale and scary, perhaps because he caught a cold when he came.

Su Shen's body was not as straight as usual.

Su Shen took off his cloak and naturally put it on Xu Jilin.

The cloak still carried Su Shen's body temperature, and the temperature quickly rose on Xu Jilin's body. Xu Jilin felt a little more comfortable.

Xu Jilin raised her hand and held Su Shen's hand on her shoulder. She looked up at Su Shen and said, "Help me again this time."

Su Shen smiled and held Xu Jilin's hand in his own. He followed Xu Jilin's hand and sat down beside her. The two of them were very close, as if they were cuddling together for warmth.

Su Shen nodded.

Xu Jilin didn't know whether Su Shen agreed or not.

Su Shen didn't give a clear reply.

Su Shen leaned against Xu Jilin and didn't speak for a long time.

Just when Xu Jilin thought Su Shen would not speak again, Su Shen suddenly spoke, "I want you to die in Shou'an Palace, beside me. It is my selfish wish."

Xu Jilin was shocked when she heard Su Shen's words. She quickly grabbed Su Shen's shoulders, but she saw Su Shen leaning against her side, his face as pale as paper, his lips bloodless, his eyes tightly closed, and only a weak breath.

Xu Jilin panicked and wanted to call the imperial physician, but Su Shen held her arm.

"Don't worry, I resigned before the New Year. There is no one in my family anymore. No one will know if I die. You just need to treat my body as a eunuch who died in the palace. It won't affect you."

Xu Jilin's face was covered with tears at some point.

She hadn't cried for a long time. She almost forgot what it felt like to cry.

Tears are useless. Xu Jilin had vowed not to cry again.

But after so many years, it turns out that heartache is always accompanied by tears.

Xu Jilin hugged Su Shen and couldn't say anything. She could only shake her head vigorously.

Su Shen couldn't raise his hands to wipe Xu Jilin's tears.

Su Shen forced himself to say, "I've listened to you for so many years, and I have disobeyed you once."

"I didn't cure your headache because I wanted you to stop, but I can't listen to your scolding."

Xu Jilin said, "Yes, I'm very angry. You are not allowed to die. I will punish you. You are not allowed to die."

Su Shen pulled the corners of his mouth, but he didn't laugh after all. "I really want to help you until An'er ascends the throne, but I'm too tired. I have killed so many people. I have to go to the underworld to atone for my sins first. When you have fulfilled all your wishes, I guess I should have atonement by then. If possible, I will wait for you. Don't make your next life so difficult."

"The last thing I can do for you is the spices from the flowers and plants in Concubine Rong's palace. They are highly poisonous. I have tested the poison myself to ensure that Concubine Rong has absolutely no chance of survival. I am the only one in the world who knows the antidote. If I die, no one will be able to save her."

As Su Shen spoke, purple-black blood had already seeped from the corners of his mouth.

Xu Jilin said, "I don't want it anymore. I don't want anything. You are not allowed to die."

Su Shen shook his head and said, "I can't help you put on clothes or do things for you anymore, but I have been by your side for so long. I have no regrets in this life."

"I hope you can get everything you want."