"Your wound is bleeding more and more, let me treat it for you."
Seeing Shen Jinchen's intense gaze, Cen Xi suddenly gave up and didn't want to say anything more. Her mind was in turmoil. It was a jumbled mess of thoughts, so complicated that she couldn't make sense of it at all.
Jun Jianchou is back too. Speaking of her, while she faces Shen Jinchen with composure, Jun Jianchou just wants to dig a hole and bury herself, to escape as much as possible, to hide as much as possible. Ideally, she'd never see him again for the rest of her life.
But she's still living in his house, so even if she wanted to escape, she couldn't get very far.
"You don't believe me? Even now, you still don't trust my feelings? I don't know if I can love you forever, but I promise you I will work towards that goal, okay?"
Seeing that she changed the subject, Shenzhen Cheng's hopeful expression turned gloomy again, but he still didn't want to give up.
“I… I don’t distrust you, I just can’t believe I would receive such heavy feelings. Please let me think about it. You know, Jun Jianchou has returned. Even though I don’t love him, I can’t be too outrageous in front of him. We are still bound by our friendship, and besides, he deserves a lot of credit for my return to the world.”
Seeing that he still asked, Cen Xi's outstretched hand suddenly stopped. She organized her words and explained.
"It seems I was too greedy. Don't worry, I won't be as reckless as before. I will respect you until you understand."
Seeing Cen Xi's expression, Shen Jinchen felt a little more at ease. Her attitude towards him had changed drastically. His injuries weren't a complete loss. It was better than someone else; he could honestly tell her he didn't love that person, and he was already content.
As for whether she can win him over? That's something she can only try gradually. After all, she's fallen for a cold-hearted person.
"Your wound is bleeding quite a bit. Let's put everything else aside and treat the wound first!"
Cen Xi felt a chill run down her spine from the intense affection in his eyes. She wasn't used to such mushy displays, so she decided to finish what she needed to do and escape as quickly as possible. Having never experienced love before, her heart was pounding like a deer.
She used to be heartless and cruel. Those who pursued her or got close to her were only deceived by her appearance. In short, they just wanted to sleep with her.
Coupled with her father's coldness towards Ms. Li after marriage, and the scheming nature of both her stepfather and Ms. Li, she never dared to hope that her marriage would be happy in the future.
So she felt that money was the only thing she could hold onto. With money, she could live a carefree life, without relying on a man. If she wanted a child, she could go abroad to find a hospital to match her sperm with high-quality sperm, and then have a child to relieve her loneliness.
But after this man protected her with his body, her previously held beliefs seemed to crumble. She realized she could be moved; she could be touched by someone.
But at this moment, she suddenly realized how she could repay Yu Kuang's selfless affection for her.
If she keeps saying she won't let go, how can he still bring himself to say no?
"What are you thinking now? You want to leave me again, don't you?"
When she said she would help him bandage his wounds, but her expression was dazed, Shen Jinchen felt like he couldn't hold onto her.
"I... I didn't, there are just some things I can't figure out, I need to think about them carefully."
Cen Xi felt like a piece of duckweed adrift on the sea, unable to find its place. Why hadn't Yu Kuang expressed his feelings so clearly like Shen Jinchen before, and why hadn't he forcefully opened his closed heart?
If he had been more decisive back then, none of this would have happened now. Perhaps he wouldn't even have time traveled.
Unlike now, when two mountains weighed heavily on her heart, leaving her in a dilemma, neither left nor right, she was truly in a difficult position.
"Since you're going to bandage the wound, why are you dawdling like this? Are you thinking about someone else? If you're still thinking about someone from the past, I won't make things difficult for you. You don't need to bandage the wound. Just let me fend for myself."
After he finished speaking, he seemed to drift off into a daze again. And he wasn't thinking about the two of them. Shen Jinchen, always observant, had already guessed what was going on, so he angrily pushed her away and coldly smirked.
"What do you mean you still have feelings for the old friends? How is Jun Jianchou an old friend of mine? You're not a new friend either. Since that's the case, if you want me to leave, I'll leave. Anyway, I didn't want you to save me; you insisted on saving me. We're even now, farewell!"
Cen Xi was already extremely troubled, and hearing her say this was a perfect solution. She wouldn't have to feel indebted to Jun Jianchou anymore, and could simply become Jun's wife. Jun Jianchou would surely be very happy about that.
If he had to choose, he'd rather have chosen Jun Jianchou. At least he could stay true to himself, and if she fell out of love, she could gracefully walk away. But him! His heart was already settling down; he'd probably just get stuck in a rut from now on!
Having figured this out, she stood up decisively and was about to leave.
"You... who told you we're even? I just love you, hopelessly in love. The more anxious I am, the more afraid I am of losing you. Don't you understand?"
Seeing that she was still so cold and indifferent, Shen Jinchen grabbed her arm. This grown man, a powerful minister in a treacherous court, actually had tears welling up in his eyes.
When Cen Xi was pulled to turn her face, she saw his expression and felt as if a thousand arrows were piercing her heart. What did she do to deserve such deep affection?
The two stood and sat for a long time, stunned. Cen Xi didn't say anything, but went back to her, untied the bandages on her body, called Qingyi to bring in a basin of hot water, and silently and efficiently cleaned her wounds, applied medicine, and then bandaged them.
Shen Jinchen didn't say anything. He just watched quietly as she touched, penetrated, and caressed his body.
Seeing her extremely solemn expression and serious demeanor, he could be fairly certain that she had somehow squeezed into a corner of his heart. Ah, he might say he was going to give up again, but at least he had secured a place in her heart.
Perhaps he really shouldn't push too hard. As the ancients said, "to hold back is to let go, and to let go is to hold back." Besides, Jun Jianchou and she do have feelings for each other. He can't just forcibly remove her from her heart. So he should be more magnanimous and avoid making unnecessary comments.
"Are you leaving me to go find Jun Jianchou?"
After he finished bandaging her, she wanted to leave again, but Shen Jinchen, as if possessed, grabbed her again and asked.
"So what if it is, so what if it isn't? What are you trying to say?"
Cen Xi asked in an annoyed tone.
"I think you should go if you want to. After all, he's been gone for so long, you should have things to say. It's good for you to go and make things clear."
Shen Jinchen glanced at the door and said frankly.
"I do have something to say to him, but you don't need to worry about it. I never loved him. Let me think about our relationship carefully and proceed slowly, shall we?"
After arguing with him all morning, Cen Xi really didn't want to argue with him anymore, so she spoke very frankly.
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