"Do you regret it?"
After Bai Jiu and Luo Bin left the Luo family, Luo Sheng returned to his room.
He either smashed everything in the room related to liquor or threw it in the trash.
What he once cherished now seems like a cruel irony to him.
Hearing the noises upstairs, Luo's mother was worried and hurriedly went to the door of Luo Sheng's room on the second floor.
"Luo Sheng, Luo Sheng, please open the door and talk to Mom, okay?"
The voices coming from outside sounded anxious, but Luo Sheng showed no intention of going to open the door.
There was no movement from inside, and Luo's mother became anxious. She started banging on Luo Sheng's bedroom door, fearing that Luo Sheng might do something foolish in a moment of despair.
Although it would be hard for anyone to accept this kind of thing right away, it's not worth hurting yourself for someone like Baijiu.
"Luo Sheng, could you please open the door?"
"Luo Sheng, I know you must be feeling really bad right now, but please don't do anything foolish. It's not worth it for a woman like that!"
The quieter it was inside, the more anxious Luo's mother became; her heart was filled with helplessness and powerlessness, and even her voice was tinged with sobs.
She shouldn't have let Luo Sheng get back together with Bai Jiu in the first place, otherwise this whole mess wouldn't have happened.
But there's no going back in life, and they have to accept everything that has happened.
"Luo Sheng, Luo"
Luo's mother was about to call out a couple more times, but before she could finish, the door opened from the inside on its own.
"Mom, I'm fine. Just let me have some peace and quiet."
At this moment, Luo Sheng looked haggard, and a faint smile flickered across his bloodless lips as he tried to comfort his mother.
Seeing Luo Sheng so listless, Luo's mother felt an overwhelming pang of heartache.
If only Yu Nian had been with Luo Sheng back then!
Luo's mother did not let Luo Sheng close the door again; she used force to hold the door shut.
"Luo Sheng, talk to your mother."
Luo Sheng glanced at his mother, knowing that if he didn't let her in, she would worry incessantly.
But he wasn't that stupid; he knew what he should and shouldn't do.
So he let go of the door and didn't say anything more, and went back to the sofa in his room to sit down.
Having not been home for a long time, the decorations in his house felt somewhat unfamiliar to him.
For example, that photo of him and Yu Nian when they were fifteen years old.
He admitted that before the liquor incident, he had always had feelings for Yu Nian, admiration for her, and a sense of familiarity with her; just as young Yu Nian was used to him being by her side, he was also used to the days when Yu Nian was around him.
But from what point did he completely ignore this goodwill?
Was it the emergence of a completely different type of liquor, or the first time he realized how troublesome arranged marriages were?
The freedom and liberation he felt when he was with baijiu was something Luo Sheng hadn't experienced in a long time; there were no constraints, no coercion, and it seemed that only in front of baijiu could he express himself without restraint.
However, this kind of relationship wouldn't work between him and Yu Nian. Although they had been musical partners since childhood and were considered childhood sweethearts by everyone.
He was used to Yu Nian being around him, but his parents and family constantly reminded him that his connection with her was a childhood betrothal, or even a result of a family alliance.
He loathed the feeling of being constantly restrained and was terrified of becoming addicted to that habit, as if his relationship with Yu Nian had never been pure.
He didn't understand why the Yu family had to go through a family marriage alliance just because the Luo family had helped them. He didn't like using feelings as a tool to exchange for benefits.
He couldn't understand whether Yu Nian would still stay by his side as usual if there was no family marriage.
Yu Nianluo and Sheng are a match made in heaven. This is not a blessing, but a constraint and a shackle.
Therefore, that genuine goodwill was completely forgotten in Luo Sheng's memory when everything became tainted by so-called family interests.
The emergence of baijiu (Chinese liquor) was just what saved me from my confusion at that time.
He likes baijiu (Chinese liquor).
He didn't like Yu Nian.
This was the result he came up with the night he rejected Yu Nian.
But now, that forgotten goodwill and guilt resurfaced in his heart, and Luo Sheng felt as if his life was starting to get out of control again.
Perhaps he is inherently contradictory.
"Mom, I regret it."
After a long silence, Luo Sheng finally spoke.
“I regret getting back together with Baijiu, and I also regret dragging Yu Nian into this for Baijiu’s sake.”
"I regret taking advantage of Yu Nian back then."
When Luo Sheng said these words, his mother could hear a hint of loneliness and sorrow in them.
Seeing the surprise on Luo's mother's face, Luo Sheng's eyebrows and eyes showed a hint of self-mockery, and the words that Luo's mother had never thought of slowly flowed from his mouth.
"Initially, I thought about picking up music again, but loving music and liking music was not my original intention. I wanted to enter the entertainment industry. I wanted to use my past experience with raw fish slices and Yu Nian's musical talent. Everything was for the sake of baijiu, to pave the way for her, and to accompany her on this path."
"Mom, do you think I'm ridiculous?"
Standing in front of Luo Sheng, Luo's mother felt that this reason was too absurd. She opened her mouth, thought for a long time, and then answered.
"ridiculous."
"How could you possibly think of using Yu Nian and your past friendship for something so foolish?"
No wonder, no wonder Yu Nian was so determined to disband Shatangju, and even made preparations in advance that none of them knew about.
"You're using her? Niannian knows that, doesn't she? How can you have such thoughts and brazenly claim to be picking up your so-called music again? Luo Sheng, you've really disappointed your mother."
Looking at her son, Luo's mother was filled with heartache. What was it about that woman that made him do this?
Is it because that woman is his only chance to rebel against his family and parents? Does he really hate everything that the couple has done for him?
A bitter feeling spread through his heart. They used to be business partners, and it was common for him to go out with Yu Nian, just like in the old days. But now Yu Nian had suddenly withdrawn, and Bai Jiu's words just now made him unable to see himself clearly.
He always thought that his feelings for Yu Nian were admiration and goodwill, and dependence on her as a business partner.
But now it seems that he was too obsessed with Yu Nian's dream of following him.
Does he harbor resentment?
He didn't know, he only knew that when he learned that Yu Nian and Song Ci were together, the feeling of unease in his heart was real.
These past few days, he has often asked himself if he regrets it.
I regret it.
If only I hadn't chosen baijiu, but instead chosen Yu Nian.
So, could it be that the one who looks so happy and joyful now isn't Song Ci?
Or was it him?
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