Chapter 103 Lu Zhenyu Has Gone Mad
The closed door was opened again, and Wang Kai came in with dinner.
"Boss, you haven't eaten for three days, please have some porridge."
Seeing that Shen Jingsi by the window didn't speak, he silently placed the paper bag on the coffee table.
Hesitating for a moment, he finally spoke up, "Boss, someone just came from downstairs saying that Miss Duan has woken up and wants to... see you."
The word "Duan" is now a taboo subject for Shen Jingsi; he absolutely cannot hear it.
Thinking of the Duan family father and son, the ruthlessness in the man's eyes turned into a sharp blade.
Before he could speak, a voice came from next door, "Madam Shen, why are you out in bed?"
With a jolt in its rear, Shen Jingsi turned around and rushed toward the next ward.
In the quiet ward, the glow of the sunset filtered in, adding a touch of warmth.
Lu Zhenyu, now awake, stood by the window, gazing at the people strolling in the garden below.
A toddler who had just learned to walk fell on the grass, and his mother rushed over and scooped him up in her arms.
The little guy, who had fallen on his bottom, giggled at her, revealing two little rabbit teeth, his chubby face squeezing his eyes into slits.
Lu Zhenyu couldn't help but smile.
Her pale, paper-like face had become thin and gaunt, her cheeks sunken in. Even the smallest size hospital gown clung loosely to her body.
She stood embraced in the sunset, occasionally laughing and shaking, the golden light illuminating her unfocused fox eyes.
For some reason, Shen Jingsi suddenly hesitated to go near the door.
He stared at her for a while, his eyes inexplicably welling up with tears. He tried calling out, "Zhenzhen?"
The smile reflected in the glass window froze on her face. The woman blinked, the conversation between mother and son echoing in her ears.
The smile on her lips faded, and the woman's voice was cold, "Is she dead?"
These words were so direct and abrupt that Shen Jingsi was taken aback.
After a long pause, he finally asked, "Who?"
The thought of that face, no matter how intense the sunset outside the window, could no longer warm Lu Zhenyu's eyes.
The once gentle amber fox eyes have frozen into a thousand-year-old ice lake in the blink of an eye.
She asked coldly, "Duan Xi'er, is she dead? Did you kill her?"
Shen Jingsi furrowed his brows and pondered.
Could it be that she blamed Duan Xier for the child's death?
Shen Jingsi walked forward slowly. "This matter should have nothing to do with her. But I will make the Duan family..." pay the price.
"Didn't she tell you that it wasn't her?" Lu Zhenyu interrupted him and turned around.
"What if I told you, and I'm absolutely certain, it's her?"
Shen Jing stood there, staring at the girl's cold, unfamiliar face.
He swallowed hard and slowly walked over. "Zhenzhen, I know you really want to avenge the baby right now, and so do I. I wish I could tear that person to pieces right now, but that takes time. Can you give me a little more patience and wait a bit?"
Shen Jingsi has already arranged a meeting with the person above him. At that time, he will use his power to help the other party stay in that position for another five years.
What was exchanged was Duan Hong and the entire Duan family.
Did they poison his wife and children to get revenge on him?
Then let him experience it too, watching his wife and children suffer to death while he himself is tormented and unable to die, suffering unbearable pain.
Shen Jingsi didn't tell the girl in front of her any of this, because her hands didn't need to be stained with the blood of these avengers.
Lu Zhenyu was unaware of this.
She took a deep breath and closed her eyes. "You don't believe me. You think I'm just acting on impulse, right?"
“Zhenzhen, no.”
Lu Zhenyu dodged Shen Jingsi's outstretched hand, which froze in mid-air, its fingertips trembling slightly before it slowly withdrew.
Shen Jingsi knew that his wife was emotionally unstable at this moment, and it was normal for her to want to kill him.
She can have any emotions, but he can't.
Just like Bei Tingwan said, if he collapses in a panic, what will happen to his Zhenzhen, what will happen to their child?
"Of course I believe you. Regardless of whether Duan Xi'er is the murderer or not, I will not let the Duan family off the hook."
"I just want her to die right now, to die in excruciating pain."
"..."
Shen Jingsi's sudden outburst ignited a fire of anger in Lu Zhenyu's chest.
She felt like she was suffocating, wanted to kill someone, her hands trembled uncontrollably in her sleeves, and her breathing became increasingly rapid.
She hasn't had a relapse in a long time, it seems like it started after she got pregnant.
So, her baby really did come to save her.
She brought her hope, happiness, joy, and even the motivation to live a good life.
But what about her mother?
He kept saying he wanted to protect her and give her a bright future, but he ended her life with his own hands.
Duan Xi'er, that's Duan Xi'er!
Seeing the girl clutching her chest and collapsing to the floor with rapid breathing, Shen Jingsi immediately squatted down to hug her.
Lu Zhenyu pushed him to the ground.
“I told you, she’s the murderer. She planned everything. She killed my child. She wanted me dead too. She’s wanted me dead for a long time. Why don’t you believe me!”
Shen Jingsi said, "Zhenzhen, I believe you, I believe you, but calm down, you..."
"Why should I calm down if I can't calm down!"
Lu Zhenyu frantically pulled at her hair, her eyes bloodshot as she roared.
Seeing that she was hurting herself, Shen Jingsi rushed over and hugged her.
“Zhenzhen, I know you’re feeling terrible after losing your baby. You want to vent and yell at people. You can hit me to take your anger out on me, but please don’t hurt yourself, okay?”
The hands that were scratching at her body were restrained, and Lu Zhenyu gasped for breath, regaining a little bit of her rationality.
Looking up at the man above her, she recalled their conversation, tears streaming down her face as she choked out, "Do you, like your mother, feel that she isn't your child?"
Shen Jingsi's heart skipped a beat, and her face darkened. "Don't listen to her nonsense."
“I’m asking you, isn’t it!” Lu Zhenyu shouted, her veins bulging. “Didn’t you ever have a moment when you thought, ‘This child isn’t yours’?”
"no!"
Shen Jingsi's gaze was firm, because he knew better than anyone that he had stolen this child.
Lu Zhenyu laughed, but the laughter was so soft it couldn't even touch a speck of dust.
No, you are.
Tears streamed down her bloodshot eyes, and the last glimmer of light in them went out.
Resentment, anger, helplessness, despair—none of these are true.
It's regret, it's self-loathing.
I regret that I had the opportunity to leave, but I stayed instead.
She hated herself for being so incompetent and foolish, yet she had foolishly gone to meet the kidnappers.
Damn it, it was clearly her, so why did it become her child?
Throughout her life, from heart to body, she remained steadfast in her devotion to only one man.
In the end, however, her child was labeled as an illegitimate child.
God, why are you tormenting me like this? What unforgivable sins have I committed that you can make me pay for them? Why are you hurting my child?
I've felt the pain, and I've roared silently.
The moment her tears dried, Lu Zhenyu wiped her face and looked at the man in front of her who was also crying.
As she looked at it, she suddenly laughed.
Shen Jingsi was a little scared, "Zhenzhen?"
Lu Zhenyu raised an eyebrow. "That's right, your mother is right. She is Zheng Yaozong's child. Twenty-four weeks, that is, the time when I was locked up in the Zheng family. Before you came, I was always making love with Zheng Yaozong on that bed."
Shen Jingsi felt as if his heart was being pierced by a poisoned blade. He kept shaking his head, "Zhenzhen, don't say such hurtful things. I have never doubted her. She is my child, our child."
How could he possibly doubt it?
He hadn't taken any medication, nor was he delirious. No one knew better than him that the countless nights he spent with her at the Zheng family's house were only possible because he was perfectly lucid, sneaking in through the window.
It wasn't that I missed her so much that I had to see her, nor that I couldn't sleep alone at night; it was just that I was worried that she might have another episode at night, so I silently endured it all by myself.
Shen Jingsi had witnessed firsthand how his girl was tormented by illness, and his heart ached so much that he wished he could shoot himself.
So he went, to be with her, to comfort her, through a dream. It didn't matter whether the girl knew of his existence or not, as long as she could suffer less pain, he would go regardless of wind or rain.
Because he knew so clearly, Shen Jingsi was more certain than anyone else that it was his child.
In other words, even if it really belonged to Zheng Yaozong, he wouldn't care.
He only cared whether she wanted the child or not. If she did, he would keep it; if not, he would find the best doctors in the world to minimize the harm to her body and have her abort it.
As for whether it's his or not, it doesn't matter. As long as it was born from Lu Zhenyu's belly, it's his, Shen Jingsi's.
Lu Zhenyu's voice was numb, and she slapped his hand with utter disgust, "I told you, she's not your child. How could she possibly be your child?"
What father, after losing his child, would be so calm and methodical in clearing his enemy's name and telling her to wait?
What are we waiting for?
Are we just waiting for that damn woman to get better and for her to continue living a good life?
Lu Zhenyu couldn't wait.
For Duan Xi'er, every extra day she lived was a betrayal of the dead child.
Shen Jingsi was at a loss; for the first time in his life, he didn't know how to answer.
“Zhenzhen,” he said in a hoarse voice.
"I regret it, Shen Jingsi."
The man paused. "What?"
Exhausted, Lu Zhenyu collapsed completely into Shen Jingsi's arms, leaning against him with unfocused eyes, staring blankly out the window as the sun began to set.
“Shen Jingsi, I shouldn’t have trusted you. I trusted that you could handle everything, that you were heartless and ungrateful to everyone except me. I trusted that you could give me and the child a stable future.”
Shen Jingsi stood there, stunned.
It was as if I had been struck by lightning; I was paralyzed, speechless, and everything around me vanished into nothingness. Only the numb face in my arms and the repeated words, "I shouldn't have trusted you," remained.
Burning crimson clouds spread across the horizon, and the sunset glow shone through the glass window onto the man's back.
As the woman repeatedly shouted her condemnation, his spine slowly collapsed.
Then, after catching a glimpse of blood flowing from between the girl's legs out of the corner of his eye, he was suddenly jolted!
Before Shen Jingsi could even feel defeated, he said, "Zhenzhen, you're bleeding. Let's go back to bed and have the doctor take care of it."
He said he was going to hug her, and the moment his hand touched Lu Zhenyu's shoulder, the girl screamed like she'd been electrocuted.
"Don't touch me with the hand that touched Duan Xi'er! Don't touch me!"
Shen Jingsi gave in, kneeling in front of the girl and raising his hands. "Okay, okay, I won't touch you, but don't get so agitated. The doctor said you're in a dangerous period right now, and getting too emotional could cause massive bleeding."
"You want me to calm down?" Lu Zhenyu glared at him with bloodshot eyes. "How am I supposed to calm down when you're Shen Jingsi? My child is gone, that's my child! Do you know that if it weren't for her, I would have died long ago, died the moment you stood on the engagement stage holding Duan Xi'er's hand, died at the Zheng family's doorstep!"
"She came to save me, she has been protecting me, but I failed to protect her."
"I was too arrogant. I naively thought I could convince the kidnappers that I was the one who ultimately killed her."
Shen Jingsi knelt before her, his hands trembling helplessly. "Zhenzhen, please, tell me, how can you stop torturing yourself? Tell me, and I'll do it right away."
"Kill Duan Xi'er."
Shen Jingsi: "If I kill her, will you stop torturing yourself?"
If so, he can kill.
No matter the cost, no matter how much sin he incurs, as long as his Zhenzhen can live a good life, he would be willing to kill himself.
“No,” Lu Zhenyu said. “I want you to bring her to me. I want to personally use a knife to scrape her apart, slice by slice, gouge out her eyes, tear her mouth apart, and rip out her vicious heart to feed to the dogs. I want her to suffer a fate worse than death, to have her soul scattered and never be reincarnated!”
Shen Jingsi stared blankly, stunned.
Lu Zhenyu looked at him, "What? You can't do it? You can't bear to?"
The person laughed again, a laugh filled with sorrow. "Yes, how could you bear to do that? In your eyes, she accompanied you for five years, helped your Shen family out of their predicament, and because of me, she became a sacrifice that makes you feel guilty."
Meeting the man's speechless gaze, she tilted her head and asked, "So, you've fallen in love with her, haven't you?"
"No!" Shen Jingsi said with such certainty, "Zhenzhen, in my whole life, from beginning to end, I have only ever loved you."
Lu Zhenyu shook her head. "No, you've fallen in love with her."
Numb, she grabbed the window and stood up. Shen Jingsi was about to chase after her when her right leg went numb and she fell to her knees again.
"Zhenzhen, where are you going?"
Lu Zhenyu only said four words, "Go kill her."
Letting the liquid flow down her pants, Lu Zhenyu clenched her fists and walked forward numbly.
Wherever they went, clear bloodstains of their footprints were left on the floor.
A numb soul, bloodshot eyes—at this moment, Lu Zhenyu had only one thought in her mind:
Kill Duan Xi'er, kill her.
Just as he reached the door, everything went black, and he collapsed into the arms of Shen Jingsi, who rushed over.
"Doctor! Doctor!"
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