Chapter 171 Missing Mommy's Happiness
This mother and daughter were like a couple who had been separated for many years. Since they reunited, they had never been apart for more than half an hour.
In the past, Chen Jingsi had to feed Zhenzhu herself at the dinner table, but today, sitting next to her mother, she ate by herself the whole time, and Lu Zhenyu wouldn't let her feed her even if she wanted to.
He looks like a little adult, but he's actually just waiting to be praised.
Shen Jingsi saw right through him and coughed twice with a laugh. "Hey, I remember you like kids who aren't picky eaters, especially those who love vegetables."
The little girl immediately stuffed the broccoli from the plate into her mouth, then squinted her big eyes at Lu Zhenyu, who was smiling at her, and said, "Mommy, how did you know that Pearl's favorite food is green vegetables?"
Unable to suppress a smile, Lu Zhenyu pursed her lips and rubbed her daughter's head, "Because my baby is the best."
Shen Jingsi said, "Wife, don't you also love our baby who loves to eat shrimp the most?"
The child picked up a shrimp with children's chopsticks, put it in his mouth, and chewed it with great relish.
The little ones sitting opposite me were stunned.
Six-year-old Shen Xinxin stared wide-eyed with her Russian-Chinese mixed heritage. "Pearl, didn't you say that eating shrimp would get you bitten? Aren't you afraid it will bite you from inside your stomach?"
"No way," Pearl shrugged. "Shrimp are so cute, why would it bite me?"
Shen Xinxin: "..."
As soon as she finished speaking, Shen Xinyi, who was sitting next to her, put a few more pieces on her plate, saying, "You can have them all."
pearl:"……"
Seeing that there were more shrimp on the plate than she could count, Pearl couldn't hold back anymore. She patted her brother's leg under the table with her little hand, "Mommy's here, give me some face."
Having heard everything clearly, Lu Zhenyu looked at Shen Xinyi.
He was the oldest of the adopted orphans, eight years old, and he sat and stood properly, like a mature little adult.
“Zhenzhen’s mother doesn’t like children who lie.” Shen Xin looked at Lu Zhenyu. “Isn’t that right?”
Receiving a pleading look from her daughter, Lu Zhenyu nodded, "Shinichi is right."
We're doomed.
I wanted to make a good impression on my mom on the first day, but I ended up getting myself into trouble.
Since I said I love eating shrimp, I guess I have no choice but to grit my teeth and finish it.
At eight o'clock in the evening, the servants would put the little ones to bed.
Lu Zhenyu kept her promise, holding her daughter as she lay in the glass capsule, ready to fall asleep.
Pearl couldn't sleep, her eyes fixed on Lu Zhenyu, as if her mother would fly away if she blinked.
Lu Zhenyu couldn't sleep at all.
Everything happened so suddenly; she needs time and reflection to gradually process the shock.
She became a mother again.
Before this, Lu Zhenyi thought that she would never be able to say the word "mother" again in her life.
It's not that she doesn't want to have children, it's that she won't have any more. The guilt she feels from the accident that caused her daughter to miscarry makes her feel that if she has another child, it would be unfair to her previous daughter.
Although these are all fallacies, she can only feel better about herself by trapping herself in these fallacies.
"Mommy, what are you thinking about?"
"What are you thinking about, baby?"
Pearl grinned. "I'm thinking, am I dreaming? My mommy really is back!"
Pearl's radiant smile, however, was like a soft knife, stabbing Lu Zhenyu's heart again and again.
"It's not a dream, Mommy is really back, and she will never leave her baby again."
The mother and daughter hugged each other.
A moment later, Pearl in her arms spoke, "Mommy, please don't blame yourself anymore, okay?"
Lu Zhenyu, "Why do you say that?"
Pearl looked up and said, "Daddy said that Mommy feels guilty and ashamed because she couldn't be there for Pearl as she grew up, and that she doesn't think she's a good mother."
Having her thoughts exposed, Lu Zhenyu felt a little helpless. "Why does Dad tell you everything?"
"Because we're best friends who can talk about anything." Pearl rolled over and pulled her toy phone out from under her pillow.
"Mommy, look, Daddy and I chat every day."
Looking at the chat history, Lu Zhenyu immediately caught the sentence, "Dad, I will keep it a secret for you, I will definitely not tell Mom."
She asked what she wouldn't tell her, and Pearl covered her mouth and giggled, "Mommy, I love you the most, so I'll tell you everything, but please don't tell Daddy that I told you, okay?"
Lu Zhenyu seemed to see the potential of a "little loudspeaker" in her daughter.
"Mommy will definitely not tell."
The mother and daughter hit it off immediately, and Pearl immediately spilled out all the things that her father had said to her in a video call that night, crying and saying how useless he was.
Of course, the old father was completely unaware of all this, because at this moment he was lying alone on the cold bed, holding Lu Xiaosi, who was in Cao Cao's camp but whose heart was in Han's, and was depressed.
"Mommy, actually Daddy asked me this before."
What did he ask you?
"He asked me if I missed Mommy, and whether I wanted Mommy to be free to play outside, or if I wanted Mommy to stay with Pearl every day?"
Lu Zhenyu looked at her daughter in her arms, "So what's your answer?"
Pearl looked up and said, "I want Mommy to be happy."
Lu Zhenyu frowned. "Why? Don't you want Mommy by your side?"
The little one shook his head. "Mommy, Daddy said he's a man, so he can be strong even if he sees Pearl being tortured. But Mommy loves Pearl. If she sees Pearl suffering, she will be in pain and feel guilty."
"Pearl doesn't want Mommy to be in pain. Pearl just wants Mommy to be happy every day." The little girl cupped her mother's tear-stained cheeks. "Mommy, don't be sad anymore. Being sad is a loss."
It's not easy to reunite a family. If you spend your time feeling guilty, experiencing happiness while simultaneously blaming yourself, then you're losing out.
Lu Zhenyu interpreted it this way, pulling her daughter tightly into her arms, "Okay, I'll listen to my darling."
…
Lu Zhenyu, who had lost her daughter and then found her again, experienced even more separation anxiety than her daughter.
I couldn't leave her even half a meter away, and I couldn't not see her for even a minute. I stayed by her side for almost half a month.
Sister Cui comforted her, "Madam, you don't need to be so tense. Dr. William said that as Miss grows up, all her health indicators will only get better day by day. She has only had one serious illness this year, and look at her now, she is full of energy every day."
Watching her daughter playing with her friends, Lu Zhenyu smiled wryly, "I just can't rest easy until I see her with my own eyes."
Sister Cui smiled and said, "You are in the same state as your husband was three years ago."
Lu Zhenyu's eyes darkened.
She may have been beaten, and she may have acted strangely, but she knew better than anyone else that the hardest time for her over the past four years was with Shen Jingsi.
She's only been with her daughter for three days, and she's already on edge, having to watch over her constantly. How has he managed these past four years?
"Sister Cui, tell me about it."
Sister Cui asked Lu Zhenyu what she wanted to hear, and she said she wanted to hear about the past four years between her and her father.
But even if Sister Cui hadn't said anything, Lu Zhenyu could have guessed it.
Dr. William said that Little Pearl was born at 27 weeks, which is very premature and has an extremely low survival rate.
At the time, the entire medical team advised Shen Jingsi to give up, because even if there was a chance of survival, the child's path to adulthood before the age of ten would be extremely difficult.
No matter how much effort you put in, it's very possible that if you're not careful, you might just fall asleep and the baby is gone.
But Shen Jingsi still insisted on that 10% possibility.
Why didn't they tell Lu Zhenyu that the child was still alive? Because it wasn't just the adults who suffered, but the child suffered even more.
The little pearl has survived to this day, enduring hardships no less than her parents.
But she is very strong.
But are children born strong?
Only Shen Jingsi knows how much he has done over these four years, acting as both father and mother, to achieve this and have such a kind and lively daughter.
But he never said it.
If it weren't for the fear of suddenly passing away one day, which is why I arranged my affairs with Shen Jinchuan, no one else would know about Little Pearl's existence except myself.
It wasn't entirely out of consideration for his daughter; he also felt that if he could truly save his child's life, even if the future was difficult and exhausting, it would be better than letting his wife live in endless pain and self-blame.
He never expected that while the child survived, his wife would commit suicide.
If he had known this would be the outcome sooner, he would have told her that the child was still alive, and that he could have shared the pain with the child, rather than despairing completely.
This was a great source of guilt and pain for Shen Jingsi, so he was even more determined not to let anything happen to his daughter. He spent a huge sum of money to build a top international children's medical team to provide 24/7 monitoring.
The first two years were the darkest.
It's not so bad if the baby dies before it's a month old.
What no one can bear is that after raising a child with great care and concern for one or two years, who has already started calling out "Mom" and "Dad," they are suddenly taken away by God.
During those two years, Shen Jingsi was tormented beyond recognition, barely managing to endure the crushing physical and mental strain day after day.
His only source of emotional support is his wife, who lives a carefree and joyful life in some corner of the world.
As long as Lu Zhenyu is alive, he can live on, and then grit his teeth and make sure their children live on too.
He resigned himself to his fate, but bad luck doesn't last forever.
The only hope that he can keep going is for his family of three to live a happy and fulfilling life for the rest of their lives.
It's late at night.
The vast villa fell silent.
Lu Zhenyu coaxed the group of little ones around her to sleep, and the servants came in one after another to take them away.
She personally put her daughter back into the glass capsule and covered her with a blanket.
When I calmed down and took a break, my gaze fell on the other side.
The bookshelf wasn't large, and the few books on it were all hers.
Even from this distance, you can see clearly that many books have wrinkled covers, yet they are placed on them spotless.
It was as if Lu Zhenyu could already see the husband who bore the responsibility alone, holding his daughter every night and telling her about every book his wife had written.
Then he said, "Honey, isn't my wife amazing and talented?"
"Daddy, my mommy is amazing too!"
"She's my wife first, then your mommy, so you have to praise my wife first."
"..." Unfortunately, little Pearl was too young to know what the word "speechless" meant.
Then the father asked again, "So do you think Mommy is more capable or Daddy is more capable?"
Little Pearl knew this was a trap. "What does Daddy think?"
Then her father, with an inexplicable sense of pride, said, "Of course, my wife is better; I can't compare to her."
"..."
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