Chapter 83 She Wants to Live
When the three of them left the hospital, it was already dark in Beijing.
Xiao Meng is very tight-lipped, so there's no need to worry about her. As for Feng Manman, all Lu Zhenyu needs to do is give her a silent look, and she'll immediately raise her hand and swear.
"If I were to utter even a single word about your pregnancy, may I be run over by a car the moment I step outside."
Lu Zhenyu reached out and patted the head that was peeking out from under her. "Good girl."
When she and Xiaomeng returned to the manor, Shen Jingsi had not yet returned.
He seems to be quite busy lately, leaving early and returning late is the norm. He might go out to eat, take a phone call, take a nap, get dressed after the call, and then say he's going back to the company.
Lu Zhenyu never asked questions, but she could always guess what was going on.
Shen Jingsi, who is engaged, has not only one home, nor only one woman to take care of.
Lu Zhenyu wouldn't give herself that right. Just because he kept calling her "wife," she didn't think she had a reason or status to check his phone or block the door he was about to leave after hanging up the phone.
On the contrary, Lu Zhenyu is quite busy.
Aside from being listless in bed for three days after she first found out she was pregnant, she then made a detailed daily routine for herself.
In addition to the three daily meals, it is necessary to have extra meals, moderate exercise, medication prescribed by the doctor to support pregnancy, prenatal education, etc.
Even the servants said, "Our lady seems to be in much better spirits lately."
Shen Jingsi, who was bringing people back, happened to hear this and stepped across the threshold with his coat in hand.
"Is Madam feeling better lately?"
Upon hearing this, a servant took the clothes from his hands. "Yes, sir, you haven't been home much lately, so you don't know. Madam's routine has been particularly regular recently. She's been eating more and taking regular walks. She looks like she's gained a lot of weight."
Shen Jingsi was quite pleased to hear this, and pointed to the foreign man who had followed him in.
“Make a bedroom and a study ready for Mr. Zoe; he will be staying here for a long time.”
After settling everyone in, Shen Jingsi took a shower in the guest room before tiptoeing back to the master bedroom, lifting the covers and lying down.
The girl was asleep, and he didn't dare touch her. He rested his head on his hand and quietly watched her.
He's been really busy lately, he's practically splitting every day into three parts.
After the servants finished speaking, I looked at the person carefully and realized that he really did seem a bit different.
How should I put it?
It's as if a soft halo has been placed over the person, making them look gentler and more mature.
She lay there quietly, her hands behind her head, eyes closed, a faint smile on her lips, her slightly round face glowing with a pinkish hue.
The faint scent of soap woke Lu Zhenyu, who was in a light sleep.
Seize the opportunity, and Shen Jingsi will pull the person into his arms.
Just as the large hand was about to place on her lower abdomen, she subconsciously curled her legs, causing her waist and hips to push backward, rubbing against the strange sensation under the thin fabric.
His breath warmed my ear. "Wife, are you seducing me?"
"..."
Having shared a bed for so long, Lu Zhenyu naturally knew that this man was aroused.
Before his restless hands could reach inside, she turned around and buried her face in his chest.
"Not today."
Shen Jingsi, "What's wrong?"
She paused for two seconds, then said, "I'm on my period."
Shen Jingsi frowned. "How come I remember you were here just last week?"
Lu Zhenyu remained expressionless. "Here we go again."
"..." Shen Jingsi's brainstorming went on for a moment, "Irregular menstruation?"
"I think so."
He frowned and pulled the person out of his arms, quite nervously. "This won't do. I'll take you to the hospital for a full physical examination tomorrow."
Without any cover-up, Lu Zhenyu turned her face away from his gaze again, "I don't want to go to the hospital, I feel uncomfortable as soon as I go in."
Shen Jingsi knew about this problem with the girl.
Having lost both parents in the hospital when she was young, Lu Zhenyu was left with indelible trauma, so she always resisted going to the hospital.
Upon entering, one experiences difficulty breathing, dizziness, and in severe cases, vomiting and dizziness.
Shen Jingsi felt sorry for him, pulled him back into his arms, and rubbed his little head. "Sweetie, we can't let you get sick. Tomorrow I'll carry you in and stay by your side every step of the way. As soon as we're done, we'll run away, okay?"
Lu Zhenyu shook her head firmly, "No, I'll die if I go in."
"..."
Unable to persuade him, Shen Jingsi couldn't think of a good solution for the time being, so he could only coax him to sleep and then take a cold shower himself.
And so the night passed.
It's true that they have a regular schedule.
When Shen Jingsi, a man who gets up at six every morning to eat breakfast and go to work, came downstairs, the girl was already back outside in her yoga clothes.
He stood there on the stairs for a moment, then went over and pulled the person into his arms, kissing him several times.
"Not your period? No stomach cramps this time?"
Lu Zhenyu, who was stretching her arms, paused for a moment, but her expression remained unchanged. "It's amazing, it didn't hurt this time."
While the two were being affectionate in the restaurant, a customer came downstairs.
Shen Jingsi told Lu Zhenyu that this was his close friend from abroad who was in China on a business trip and would be staying at the manor for two days.
Lu Zhenyu made an introduction to the refined-looking man opposite her, who wore a white shirt with a striped vest and silver-rimmed glasses with a chain.
Zoe is a gentleman and has a great sense of propriety.
When Shen Jingsi wasn't around, he always maintained social distance from her, sitting quietly wherever he was, either reading a book or a newspaper.
When Lu Zhenyu had nothing to do, she would go into the greenhouse to tend to her three saplings.
The eldest and second eldest are growing very well, but the third one is the only one that can't sprout leaves, and even when it does, it dies after a few days.
Do you know why it's the hardest to raise?
Lu Zhenyu looked up at Zoe, who had just walked in. After two weeks of getting to know each other, they were already quite familiar with each other.
"Why?"
Zoe walked over with her hands behind her back and half-squatted down in front of the sapling. "Because you care about her too much. I remember there is an old Chinese saying: 'If you plant flowers with care, they may not bloom; if you plant willows without care, they may thrive.'"
Excessive rigidity leads to breakage, and things reach their extremes and then reverse; Lu Zhenyu certainly understood this principle.
But she couldn't help but pay too much attention to it.
This is the sapling she poured all her hopes into, and she has been protecting it every day since she planted it.
"It seems Mr. Zoe is very knowledgeable about Chinese culture. Did you often come here on business trips before?"
Zoe nodded. "They come dozens of times every year."
Are there any differences between Chinese patients with depression and those from other countries?
Zoe was surprised that Lu Zhenyu would suddenly reveal her hand, but after so many years in the profession, she had seen all sorts of strange and unusual patients, and she quickly adjusted her mindset to deal with it.
He smiled sheepishly, "Madam Shen still saw through me. Indeed, I was hired by Mr. Shen to provide you with psychological therapy."
Lu Zhenyu remained calm.
She has severe depression, but not severe mental disability.
How could a man with such a narrow mind dare to leave her with a stranger every day?
This stranger, however, had nothing to do all day but secretly observed her by pretending to read books and newspapers.
Most writers are naturally highly sensitive, their eyes are like human detectors, and in fact, Lu Zhenyu had already noticed it long ago.
“The doctor he found must be highly skilled,” said Lu Zhenyu, patiently administering an IV to the sapling. “So, could I ask Dr. Zoe about something I’m confused about?”
"Please speak."
Lu Zhenyu: "You said that if a woman finds out she is pregnant, but her environment makes her feel uneasy all the time, and if the news of her pregnancy is leaked out, there will definitely be many people who will harm her child."
She looked at the man. "What should she do?"
Zoe stared at the person for two seconds, then stood up, put her hands behind her back, and slowly circled the person and the seedling twice.
"There are two Chinese idioms that I really like: one is 'sleeping on firewood and tasting gall' and the other is 'keeping a low profile and biding one's time'."
Zoe said, "If it were me, I would find a safe place to hide first, and wait until my weaknesses are no longer my weaknesses and the adversity gradually turns in my favor before launching a surprise attack."
He then added, "Of course, this is just my personal opinion. If it were Madam Shen, it would actually be simpler."
Lu Zhenyu, "How so?"
Zoe: "Mr. Shen loves you so much. I think if you open your heart to him, with his current abilities, he can definitely protect you both."
Zoe never doubted Shen Jingsi on this point.
Over the years he has practiced medicine, many patients have come to him for help.
But for the sake of his sick wife, Shen Jingsi was the first to quietly come and learn from him.
These words made Lu Zhenyu lower her eyes silently.
Is it Shenjingsi?
In the past, if he had known she was pregnant with their child, without a doubt, he would have risked his life to protect them, mother and daughter.
But now...
Imagine a man who leaves early and returns late, occasionally bringing home a scent of vintage perfume.
Lu Zhenyu was no longer sure.
She hung the IV bag on a tree branch, clapped her hands, and got up.
"Dr. Zoe will keep this a secret, right?"
Zoe, "What do you mean by that?"
Lu Zhenyu laughed, "Because you are my doctor."
Upon hearing this, she clearly saw the man's eyes light up slightly as he looked at her.
She added, "You are indeed an excellent mental health expert. I think if I had met you sooner, I might have recovered much earlier."
Zoe had heard these polite words from far too many patients who were reluctant to receive treatment.
Clearly, Lu Zhenyu in front of us also falls into this category.
He shrugged. "People live in the moment, so it's never too late, as long as you take action."
Lu Zhenyu shook her head. "I'm afraid that won't work, because as you said, I need to keep a low profile and hide myself first."
Zoe laughed for no apparent reason.
Okay, so there's the story of his 30 years as a doctor, and the time when a patient dug a hole and buried him alive.
"So what are your thoughts...?"
"You go back first, and I will come to find you after I give birth."
Seeing the man hesitate, Lu Zhenyu added, "You should know best that I want to live better now than ever before."
And it's even more so after the baby is born.
Lu Zhenyu used to want to die and end it all because she had lost the motivation and hope to keep going.
But now, she has.
Whether the timing of this child's arrival was appropriate or unnecessary, Lu Zhenyu did not yet know.
But she did have a desire to live.
For the sake of this child, no one could stop her determination to bring her into this world.
Lu Zhenyu thought that the world was terrible, but that only applied to her own life.
And she will surely create a beautiful, happy, and free world for her child.
No need to be obedient, no need to be patient; be like the wind and water, freely and spontaneously being yourself.
No one can make her suffer, and no one can interfere with her choices.
Because, Mom is here.
Sunlight shone on the silver-rimmed glasses, reflecting a soft, admiring glow, and Zoe couldn't help but nod.
"I'm even more curious now. What kind of experiences did a girl as insightful as Madam Shen have that made you the way you are today?"
Lu Zhenyu smiled and said, "Don't worry, I'll let you know someday."
Zoe extended her hand generously, "It's a deal, I'll wait for good news."
Lu Zhenyu grasped his hand, saying, "Until we meet again."
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