Chapter 41 (Two Chapters Combined) GD's Views on Love...
Having finished his work for the day, Kwon Ji-yong, who had originally planned to leave, inexplicably decided to take a stroll next door.
He feels a sense of security when he discovers that someone is working in the next room.
When Han Shangxi first heard this, she jokingly teased her senior.
—From this perspective, the senior felt a sense of balance because he saw others who were also busy.
"Hello, senior."
Han Sang-hee did not answer Kwon Ji-yong's question directly, but subconsciously greeted him first.
"No, why is everything so strange today?"
As he spoke, Kwon Ji-yong snapped his fingers in front of Han Sang-hee's eyes.
As work comes to an end, people's mental state is always more relaxed than during the busiest times.
"senior.
I think I've fallen for someone.
But I only found out about this after I rejected them.
Seeing that GD didn't seem surprised at all when he heard these words, Han Sang-hee's initial determination to speak vanished instantly.
Did this senior figure it out last time?
While mentally complaining, Han Shangxi stopped getting stuck in her previous obsession.
I felt so conflicted just now, but talking about it really made me feel much better.
She didn't actually know why she told her senior about it.
Perhaps it was because the other person happened to be there at that time.
“I am listening.”
Kwon Ji-yong nodded slightly, signaling Han Sang-hee to continue.
But questions kept popping up in my mind.
Huh? When did this happen? That guy confessed to his junior? And then got rejected?
After calming down, Han Shangxi recounted the incident from his own perspective.
At this point, her narration was less about speaking to the other person and more about her sorting out the whole incident herself.
Ultimately, her dilemma stems from her lingering attachment to the affection she had willingly given up.
This is an uncontrollable and dangerous emotion.
These two sentences are Han Shangxi's self-summary.
Kwon Ji-yong listened quietly. After Han Sang-hee finished speaking, he didn't offer direct comfort, but instead started talking about himself.
Few people in the world have a smooth and successful love life.
Even if you can be sure that you like each other in this moment, no one can be certain that in the next moment that love will not be mixed with other things.
In his previous relationship, both he and his partner were exhausted.
Uncertainty permeates this relationship.
Thus, arguing, breaking up, getting back together, and then arguing and breaking up again became a common occurrence.
They knew all along that they weren't a good match.
But everyone wants to force things.
So, love has only left us in a sorry state.
Just listening to his senior's narration made Han Shangxi feel very tired, and he also became a little more awake.
It's perfectly normal for someone who has never truly experienced being in a relationship to have fantasies about it.
Her affection was also fueled by a romanticized view of the possibility of her giving up on the relationship.
GD's words effectively shattered her illusions about love.
At the same time, it also made this dilemma disappear.
Looking back now, after completely detaching herself from the situation, she did indeed have feelings for the other person during that time.
This goodwill was amplified by Han Shangxi after she took the initiative to reject him.
It is what we cannot have that makes us desire it.
Listening to Han Sang-hee's rational and objective analysis, Kwon Ji-yong suddenly fell silent.
He was very principled, which left the deepest impression on Kwon Ji-yong among his juniors.
He could tell that this adherence to principles was a means for the other party to protect themselves.
However, this can be quite tiring at times.
Because Han Shangxi has never been in a relationship, she unconsciously regards romance as a very important thing and tends to romanticize that feeling.
Falling in love is just a very common thing. It's simply a choice.
This is what Kwon Ji-yong wanted to remind Han Sang-hee of.
Seeing that the other party still did not understand his meaning, Kwon Ji-yong moved away from the table he was leaning against in the next instant, and his hands changed from hugging to resting on the side of the chair where Han Sang-hee was sitting.
The sudden closeness caused Han Shangxi to subconsciously lean back slightly.
Upon noticing the shock in Sang-hee's eyes, Kwon Ji-yong immediately stepped back, maintaining social distancing.
In a relationship, principles are the least important thing.
Overthinking can hurt you.
Just take responsibility for the moment when your heart races.
To put it bluntly, people who are too principled when it comes to love are actually more likely to get hurt.
"Shangxi only needs to take responsibility for her racing heart at this moment."
Kwon Ji-yong did not look at Han Sang-hee when he said this.
How come I never noticed how beautiful this child's eyes are before?
No wonder so many people want this child's contact information.
Kwon Ji-yong thought to himself silently, without showing any unusual expression. He didn't want the image of a carefree senior that he had just established in front of his juniors to be shattered in the next instant.
He should have subtly expressed his handsomeness.
"So, in the end, liking someone probably means liking yourself."
After an unknown amount of time, Han Sang-hee said something seemingly out of the blue, as if in response to Kwon Ji-yong's words.
Han Sang-hee rarely talks about personal topics at work or with others.
This was the first time she had ever had a conversation like this.
Regarding love, Shangxi later summarized in her diary that dating is not necessarily a necessity, but love is.
Love for a person, love for an object, love for life.
Because the myriad thoughts, entanglements, pain, warmth, and peace evoked by this love can all become the soul of the musical notes.
In the end, Han Shangxi concluded by saying that it all came down to songwriting.
A habit is a habit because it has become a subconscious action of the brain.
As for GD's momentary awkwardness after meeting her gaze, Han Sang-hee, who noticed it, didn't take it to heart.
Let's just consider it a side effect of the senior's recent breakup.
Oh, right, did you break up with your boyfriend?
In that case, there should be some good songs again.
Thinking of this, Han Shangxi, feeling somewhat excited, hummed a strange melody that was completely out of tune.
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After her last chat with Kwon Ji-yong, Han Sang-hee rarely saw him again.
This applies to artists who are currently active or about to enter their active period.
There will always be many things waiting for them to do.
BigBang's comeback and tour started almost simultaneously. Having finished the previous phase of work, Kwon Ji-yong was quickly pulled back into a busy schedule.
In addition to her recent activities, Han Sang-hee is also participating in a discussion meeting for ETE's fan meeting.
The time and venue for the fanmeeting have already been determined, and tickets will soon be available for purchase.
However, the company would like to hear Han Sang-hee's opinion on how to make the specific stage design.
After all, this is ETE's stage. The more Sanghee, as the true producer of ETE's albums, participates in fan meetings, the better fans can understand the uniqueness of ETE.
On the surface, YG generously grants idols autonomy, but in reality, it's just the drawbacks of YG's small-scale operation model at play again.
In the end, Han Shangxi still wrote that song.
A song written from the perspective of that candy.
The producers in the recording studio, who were familiar with Shangxi, commented that the song sounded like it was telling the story of a terrifying candy murder.
Its exquisite and eerie style makes it hard to associate it with the essence of a love song.
Because of its niche appeal, after the song was created, Han Shangxi put it into his personal music library and shelved it.
Han Sang-hee has many more pieces like this.
Perhaps one day it will see the light of day again, but that day is not now.
When selecting tracks for ETE's first full-length album, Han Sang-hee always believed that broad appeal was an important factor.
When it comes to a group's comeback song, the main considerations are whether it can achieve good results and whether it can be accepted by the majority of people.
Besides, she didn't want to release this song, which carried such strong personal feelings, as a group song.
When asked how the song was written, Han Sang-hee couldn't very well say that the song was based on a certain "some" relationship of hers that ended before it even began.
Han Sang-hee enjoys her current job as an idol. But personal space is equally important to her.
Another reason is that the previous artist who turned his solo song, which recorded his emotional experiences, into a group song already had a negative reputation in the eyes of the public regarding his private life.
She's very good at dating; falling in love is a regular occurrence for her.
This kind of evaluation often appears on that senior.
As for whether the evaluation was true or false, Han Shangxi said she couldn't tell.
However, that senior colleague sometimes gave her a sense of incongruity. Who knows, maybe those comments were just empty words?
Being good at dating and writing love songs are two things that are not actually related, but people prefer to see them as related.
After all, gossiping is human nature.
Compared to the idea that a song was created after watching a film or television work, people are more interested in the idea that "the song was created based on the creator's own romantic experience."
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ETE's first fan meeting was successfully held in early February in Seoul and Busan, with each venue having a capacity of approximately 1,000 people.
To be honest, after the tickets were issued, both the company and the organizer regretted it a little.
I should have used a bigger venue.
This fan meeting was also the first time Han Sang-hee had clearly heard the cheers of foreign fans below the stage.
Driven by my love for them, I traveled to a foreign land where I couldn't speak the language, just to see them.
Han Shangxi could hardly help but be moved by this sentiment.
She will strive to be worthy of this affection.
During the interactive segment, a cute girl with shoulder-length short hair was randomly selected to come on stage. She mentioned that she was from China.
"Hello, Emily, thank you so much for liking us and coming here for us. I really enjoy the food from your hometown."
While the members were interacting with several other lucky audience members, Han Sang-hee moved the recording equipment slightly away and spoke softly in Chinese to one of them.
Her Chinese is at a level where she can have no problem with daily communication.
Besides the role of elective courses in high school, she benefited more from her childhood experience of spending holidays at her father's workplace.
She remembers that the older sister next door was very gentle and liked to teach her Chinese.
Back then, Han Shangxi looked forward to waiting every day for the older girl next door to come over from her extracurricular class so they could play together.
Traveling with family became the second most important thing.
This fan was surprised to hear a familiar language from Sanghee.
After hearing these words, she was stunned for a moment, unsure of what to say.
To be honest, she was genuinely charmed.
Although South Korean entertainment companies are gradually paying more attention to the Chinese market, South Korean idols like Sanghee who are fluent in Chinese are still a minority.
Most of them only know a few phrases like "Hello," "I love you," "Thank you," and "Goodbye."
Moreover, when Sanghee spoke to her, he made a point of not being picked up by the microphone, which clearly indicated that he wanted to speak to her privately, not to establish any particular persona.
OMG, her daughter is so cute, no, so talented!
As the fans watched Sanghee finish speaking and then stare into her eyes with a smile, they felt their maternal instincts had been distorted.
Sanghee, it's hard not to fall in love with you when you do this.
"Our Sanghee is a very lovable idol."
In China, there are many fans like me who are looking forward to Sanghee's next activities.
The fans said this to Han Sang-hee with great care and respect.
She thought that even many years later, when she no longer follows celebrities or likes Sanghee, she would still remember this moment.
She'd rather believe the Sanghee who truly values her fans than those wildly circulated rumors.
Actually, she didn't say one thing: she's not Emily, but a solo fan of Sanghee.
Even more advanced than Korean online communities, the fandom in China is dominated by Sanghee's solo fans rather than ETE's group fans.
Forget it, let's not bring these fan-related issues to the child's side.
Fans think she's willing to like everything Sanghee loves.
ETE is also part of Sanghee's idol journey.
However, Sanghee's charming and fan-pleasing behavior still warrants her sharing.
Anyone would be confused by a child like that.
Furthermore, for everyone, having an idol who can speak fluent Chinese is a big plus.
Once they decided to share this, the fans stopped thinking about anything else and focused on admiring Sanghee's exceptionally beautiful smile.
When the news spread back, half the people believed it, while the other half questioned it.
However, this skepticism turned into conviction during ETE's Asian Tour.
"Should all groups touring in China follow this standard from now on?" This is what a Chinese fan who has enjoyed good food said.
It's a very happy thing to like Sanghee at this moment.
Han Shangxi had no way of knowing what Fan was thinking.
She takes every fan, no matter where they are, very seriously.
Fans' love knows no borders.
Similarly, the same applies to the fans of idols.
After mid-February, ETE did not add any new activities to their schedule, except for those that had already been recorded but not yet aired.
During this period, in addition to the photos taken during the recording of the show, Han Sang-hee often shared some of the lyrics she wrote on social media.
Sometimes they'll even post a few snippets of humming.
The comment section was filled with all sorts of effusive praise.
—Oh my god, what struck my heart? It was the squad's voice.
—Sanghee has been amazing lately, doing a great job as both an MC and an idol!
—Is there going to be a new album? I'm so excited!
However, compared to the calm under Sanghee's own SNS, the fans next door were very lively.
—I understand the sense of security our team feels guarding the base. The other two girls have been so active lately, it's like the company is making up for last year's lost pay. This time, the company finally showed some humanity. Next time, try to treat everyone equally!
—Last year, it was obvious to anyone with eyes that the individual grants the team received were just to maintain the group's exposure. How is that considered unfair treatment by the company?
—The controversy surrounding the team's royal family is indeed real. What's wrong with giving Minjin and Jihye more individual credit this time? I personally prefer the team's more group-oriented style and don't see anything wrong with it.
—So you guys also think the team is royalty?
—That's not just my opinion. But some things don't come out of thin air. It's a fact that the team is Teacher Li's student.
—Next time, certain group fans and teammate-biased fans are not allowed to use the team's image as a profile picture to speak for their idols. Especially those who claim to be rational and objective, and who rush to spread rumors about the team.
—? I like the royal family? What kind of princess spends all her time in the recording studio? The royal family does all the work while their teammates go out and solicit clients?
—The team has its own resources too. The solo fans are making it sound like the team doesn't have any resources at all.
—Oh my god, I suggest the website could create an alien language translator. I feel like the text written by the "group fans" above doesn't seem to be something earthlings could understand.
—Rather than calling Sanghee a royal, it's more accurate to say the other two are diving royalty. They've invested so much resources, yet haven't made much of a splash.
—Shh, keep your voice down. My comment got deleted last time I said that.
[Does anyone understand? I saw a sense of destiny in the fandom of a certain group of senior and junior members.]
LZ: Even the arguments between foot vendors are the same! [Chin resting on hand]
If you expel EE from the crooked chicken lineage again, I'll jump up and punch your knees.
1L: BB only has one junior group, number 21, and isn't familiar with the new members in the branch at all. VIPs, take BB away!
2L: Is the person upstairs putting on a show? Trying to stir up trouble again?
3L: 1L You only denied the familiarity between BB and EE, but you didn't deny the similarities between BB and EE's fan circles.
7L: ...Actually, this situation would occur in any combination with a significant popularity gap.
LZ: No, no, no, you don't understand. It's not just a popularity gap. I like both Kwon and Han, but I'm not a shipper. When I argue with fans of both groups, the arguments I hear are almost identical.
KY, posted under a solo recommendation: The team is great, but ××× is also super awesome; Sobering up, although I'm a fan, I think the team might have really made a mistake in this matter; Smear campaign, can the solo fans of the team please stop bullying other groups' fans every day? You guys are a cancer in the fandom.
21L: A passerby, who was just watching the show, exclaimed in surprise.
I've actually seen these kinds of comments before. Generally, individuals rely on raid groups for resources to sustain their activities. So, in this situation, wouldn't it be considered the raid group leeching off the individual player?
23L: So, it really does give you a sense of destiny.
27L: Don't drag BB down with us. Our fandom doesn't have as many toxic solo stans as the neighbor's. Most people love the members equally.
31L: I only know that money is where love is. If I remember correctly, GD's solo album sales are much higher than his group album sales.
34L: Why does 27L have so many complaints about S's solo fans? BB is S's senior, but senior fans are not my seniors. If you want to be scolded, just say so.
41L: A group with such a huge gap in popularity can't go on. Some of the younger fans should think twice. [Leaves the thread]
42L: They just ran away like that? Why didn't the person upstairs stay and say a few more words?
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78L: S-family fans are already annoyed by individual privacy issues, and this time the senior group fans have directly stepped into their trap [shrug]. These are S-family fans who have been embroiled in fierce battles since their debut, with extremely high fighting power among their die-hard fans. Although BB's fans have a large base, they might not necessarily win in an argument.
79L: Comparing top-tier groups with newcomers who have just reached the edge of popularity is not an underestimation of BB's fans.
81L: I don't care about the outcome of the argument, I'm just expressing my feelings. It's rare for me to feel such coolness from your writing.
82L: Me too, upstairs.
However, fans arguing is ultimately a matter for the fans.
Especially when arguing with other fandoms, it would seem low if the idol himself got involved.
Amidst all the noise, BigBang released their fifth mini-album, "Alive," on February 29, 2012.
Just like their name suggests, BigBang is still alive, still exists, and is even more captivating than before.
This Korean album, with no bad tracks, a phenomenal audio quality, and its first entry into the Billboard 200 album chart, successfully propelled BigBang to the top of the charts.
—See, we can still rise from the dead and start anew.
This seems to be what the album's producer wanted to tell the listeners.
Paracosm has unusually published a blog post related to music interpretation.
She really liked the album, and the live performances were much more fun than the studio versions.
The BIGBANG ALIVE GALAXY TOUR, also known as BigBang's 2012 world tour, officially kicked off at the Seoul Olympic Stadium the day after the album's release.
Paracosm did not go to the first show of the Seoul concert with the fan site manager who had privately messaged her to invite her.
Sanghee was not seen in the audience at the first Seoul show, nor was he present with President Yang or his 2NE1 seniors.
So, did Han Sang-hee actually attend the concert?
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Author's Note: Here's a step-by-step dating tutorial from GD! Please check it out~
Shangxi's inner monologue: I feel like my senior's views on love might be a bit...scummy in practice?
Perhaps it's because the senior colleague just broke up with her boyfriend (trying to patch this up).
Thank you so much for reading, commenting, and giving me your support!
The update from the 15th is posted together with today's, 6,000 words. Please check it out, my little angels! [cat paw emoji]
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