Chapter 56: Debut Joy + Slightly Shameless Forum...
On her birthday, Han Sang-hee's plan after finishing her schedule was to return to the practice room to continue practicing.
She has a very small social circle, and only a handful of close friends. Those who understand Shangxi's personality had already predicted her choice in this matter and sent her birthday gifts in advance.
Compared to parties, this person would definitely choose to spend time in the practice room.
And that is indeed the case.
After finishing her first day of solo debut activities, returning to the practice room was Han Sang-hee's first choice.
The stage isn't just for one day, and her solo activities aren't limited to today either.
Regardless of public reaction, what she can do is hold onto what she has.
The company also suggested throwing a celebration party for Sanghee, but Sang-hee declined due to her personal schedule.
She wanted to be alone for a while.
The results of "Palpitate" were as good as Sang-hee had predicted.
But the expected results actually made her somewhat anxious.
From their debut until now, has Sanghee truly been a qualified idol?
She didn't know if she deserved the love of these fans.
Even though reason tells him that these thoughts are unnecessary, Han Sang-hee is still thinking about it.
Fans aren't always happy when they like her. Han Sang-hee, who manages the Paracosm account, knows this very well.
It seems that all Han Sang-hee can do is convey positive emotions to fans through her performances on stage.
Fans have done so much for her. The cheers have grown louder and louder, from being barely heard during the group's first stage performance to now being audible to viewers watching the live stream. More and more fans have come for her, and this year's birthday support activities have spread throughout almost the entire city of Seoul. How could Han Sang-hee, who has noticed all of this, not be moved?
Her every move has an impact on them, and she carries the expectations of many people as she has come this far.
Don't disappoint those who like you, and keep going.
Han Shangxi sometimes has very simple thoughts and doesn't think too much.
This pure and sincere nature is also what makes Sanghee so appealing.
—When facing her fans, Sanghee is like a kitten that willingly reveals its most vulnerable side to someone it trusts.
—Even on her way home from work, Xi-mei is incredibly charming. She's such an adorable little devil in front of her fans.
How could fans not notice their idol's attitude?
Those who love Sanghee will also be moved by her response.
Sanghee showed them that the relationship between idols and fans is never a one-way dependence.
However, Shangxi was unaware of what her fans were thinking at the time.
After all, the constant scandals she's been involved in recently haven't given her fans enough sense of security.
Love is about always feeling indebted, and this applies quite aptly to the relationship between Sang-hee and Fan.
The practice room is the place where Han Sang-hee feels safest right now.
In short, practice more.
Pushing open the door to the practice room, Han Shangxi instinctively wanted to turn on the lights, but found that the lights in the practice room were already on.
Are the members here today? Is this part of the company's arrangements?
Having considered several possibilities, she rejected her previous thoughts after seeing someone's figure the next second.
Kwon Ji-yong sat on the floor, leaning against the wall of the practice room.
Perhaps due to exhaustion, when Han Shangxi arrived, he had his eyes closed and seemed to be dozing off.
This senior who suddenly appeared in front of Han Sang-hee was a somewhat burdensome presence for Sang-hee at the moment.
After all, she had just been thinking about it.
Getting everything back on track might be a good option.
Faced with the choice between being an idol and playing the game, Sang-hee, who had just been moved by her fans and felt somewhat indebted, clearly chose the former.
Although theoretically it's not difficult to do both in parallel, she always felt it would be strange.
Perhaps it was Shangxi's sense of morality that was at play.
With that thought in mind, Han Sang-hee tiptoed up to Kwon Ji-yong.
Her gaze as she crouched down to look at the other person was somewhat complicated.
It has to be said that GD's very existence is unfair.
It would probably be quite pleasant to remain friends.
From this perspective, she is not mature enough in handling this kind of matter.
Oh dear, what a pity.
Han Sang-hee felt that she still preferred herself, even though the game with G-Dragon was very interesting.
But for Shangxi right now, relationships are not a must.
The player's game is not either.
After staring at the other person for a while, Han Shangxi decided to get up and leave.
There was more than one practice room, and she didn't intend to disturb this senior.
Regardless of why this senior was in her practice room today.
Her decision to leave already signifies her choice.
However, life is not a game, and everyone you meet is not an NPC.
Kwon Ji-yong grabbed Han Sang-hee's hand as she was about to get up.
"Happy debut, Sang-hee."
His voice sounded a little slurred because he had just woken up.
Just as Han Shangxi wouldn't ask him why he woke up at this time, he wouldn't ask Han Shangxi what he was going to do.
Kwon Ji-yong didn't say anything else, only simply offering his congratulations.
Just like when ETE first debuted.
But that's not all.
Warm fingers landed in her palm, and Han Sang-hee, feeling the warmth emanating from them, looked at Kwon Ji-yong in front of her.
The other party clearly sensed her evasiveness, but said nothing, as if they knew nothing, perhaps waiting for her to soften her heart, or perhaps waiting for her verdict.
The player handed the choice over to her.
Is it prey, or a trap set by the hunter?
Okay, actually she's pretty sure it's the latter.
Han Shangxi had to admit that her senior's guess was accurate, and she felt a little soft-hearted for a few moments.
During the waiting period, Kwon Ji-yong was not as calm and composed as he appeared.
He woke up the moment Han Shangxi came to his side.
Kwon Ji-yong, who had thought everything would proceed smoothly, was met with a long silence.
Sensing Han Shangxi's intention to leave, he opened his eyes and tentatively uttered those words.
The result of the probe was that the other party wanted to distance themselves from him.
Kwon Ji-yong subconsciously tried to recall what had happened during this period.
They were speculating about what had affected her.
Is it his scandal? Or has she found a new game?
Regardless of the reason, Kwon Ji-yong only knew one thing.
If he were to let this person speak, he would most likely hear an even more decisive declaration of being a "good guy."
It wasn't a simple push-pull game; it was her true feelings.
But everything was perfectly normal before.
"Shangxi, can you stay with me for a while?"
After exchanging glances, Kwon Ji-yong looked away first, and when he spoke again, his tone carried a hint of coquetry.
He was actually somewhat glad that he had chosen to fly back from Taipei today; otherwise, he wouldn't have noticed the change in her feelings in time.
He used the tactics of feigning weakness and acting coquettishly without any restraint at this moment, which might seem somewhat despicable.
While he was verbally asking in a coquettish tone, Kwon Ji-yong didn't give Sang-hee a chance to waver. He used the hand he was holding to pull her into his arms when she didn't expect it.
It seems that choosing to lock the door was the right decision.
After being enveloped by Kwon Ji-yong's aura, Han Sang-hee's first reaction was to things that seemed completely unrelated.
Should we create distance?
Han Sang-hee, who immediately wanted to create some distance, became somewhat flustered when she looked up and met Kwon Ji-yong's gaze.
Even knowing that the player might be feigning helplessness, Han Shangxi couldn't bring herself to say what she originally wanted to say.
GD was really breaking the rules.
She's so adept at acting cute, pitiful, and injured; she must have practiced it countless times.
Through his internal monologue, Han Shangxi managed to pull himself out of the trap set by the player in front of him.
Lost in her own dilemma, Shangxi was unaware of how captivating her expression was.
What would she be like if she lost those principles, since she always had them?
Kwon Ji-yong admitted that he had his own selfish reasons for dragging the other person to continue the game.
They could tacitly pretend that nothing had happened.
But if things have come to this point, why not face your feelings honestly?
Kwon Ji-yong is the type of person who prefers to focus on the present moment.
"What will the senior's fans do if they find out about this?"
Han Sang-hee stared into Kwon Ji-yong's eyes, seemingly trying to get the answer she wanted.
Saying something like that at this point is actually quite naive.
"If that day ever comes, I will accept any reaction from them."
Moreover, Shangxi…
Isn't Shang Xi my fan?
Just a second before he was about to speak, Kwon Ji-yong realized he had almost said something he shouldn't have and changed his tone.
"Sang-hee should understand these things better."
Han Shangxi wasn't actually worried about losing it.
Life is a process of continuous gain.
"But, don't you think it's a pity to lose something more important because of some unnecessary options?"
The doubt in Han Shangxi's eyes was genuine.
Kwon Ji-yong remained silent for a few moments after learning the real reason for Han Sang-hee's wavering from her reaction.
If that's the case, then being rejected by Shangxi doesn't seem so bad.
At least this behavior is in line with the Han Sang-hee he knows.
However, while I understand, action still needs to be taken. If this kid is determined to shut down his love life for his career, he'll probably completely revert to a senior position.
"There's no conflict, and it doesn't even need to be compared. Sang-hee isn't always the entertainer Sanghee."
...
Just like the butterfly necklace I gave you as a birthday gift, it also represents myself.
Han Sang-hee, who was almost tricked by Kwon Ji-yong's gentle persuasion, decided to close her eyes and start to slack off.
Okay, she admits that what GD said does make some sense.
However, this senior clearly spoke with his own selfish motives.
It should not be taken as gospel.
The more Han Sang-hee showed her intention to refuse to answer, the less Kwon Ji-ryong wanted to do as she wished.
"Even in a game, you can't be easily swayed."
At this point, Kwon Ji-yong could no longer distinguish which emotion he felt more for Han Sang-hee—love or possessiveness.
After he finished speaking into Han Shangxi's right ear, he gently bit the other's earlobe.
When a person's vision is obscured by darkness, their other senses are amplified.
The teeth hitting her earlobe didn't hurt, and the sound of Shangxi's earrings colliding was clearly audible to her.
Both of them knew perfectly well that this action carried a different meaning.
It's more like a kind of ambiguity.
Han Shangxi turned her head to try to dodge, but in the next instant, the other person bit her cheek.
Annoyed by the series of actions, she looked up at Kwon Ji-yong, her senior, and saw clarity in his eyes.
What she hated most was that, just when she was wavering, this person soberly reminded her that this was all a game she could walk away from at any time.
Players are just players; there's really no need for them to come here.
She swore she was only talking about herself.
Han Shangxi let out a soft breath, letting go of all the distracting thoughts in his mind.
With her moral compass weakened, she could take many actions without any hesitation at this time.
But Han Shangxi did not.
She simply smiled and looked up at the other person.
Han Sang-hee, who received an excellent grade in facial expression management during practice, has naturally become even better at manipulating her facial expressions in the year or so since becoming an artist and standing on stage.
She knew perfectly well which look and what emotion would achieve the best effect when displayed on her face.
We need to get this senior to do something even more outrageous first.
What could she have done wrong?
Han Shangxi slid his fingers down into the other person's palm and gently circled them, observing the expression on the person's face.
The itch that spread from my palms went straight to my heart.
Kwon Ji-yong grasped the other person's mischievous hand.
"Seniors can't always put themselves in a proper position."
Upon hearing Han Sang-hee's words, Kwon Ji-yong admitted that Han had indeed hit the nail on the head regarding some of his thoughts.
"Inside."
He smiled and agreed with that statement.
Men sometimes just wait for the other person to take the initiative, placing themselves in a righteous and high-sounding position.
Just as Han Sang-hee felt that her attempt to manage her facial expressions had failed, Kwon Ji-yong's face suddenly loomed large in front of her.
Taking the initiative to approach someone isn't always a bad thing, is it?
Unlike the previous straightforward touch that remained on the surface, describing it as an intimate encounter seems more appropriate.
Immersed in each other's breath, kissing became the only option in their world at that moment.
All the original ideas became insignificant at this point.
Confusion and confusion, rationality and clarity... none of these have anything to do with the two of them at the moment.
The initial passion of the kiss gradually intensified.
The world is silent, yet you can feel each other's heartbeats everywhere.
Overwhelmed with emotion, Han Sang-hee, who had wanted to continue observing the expression of the person in front of her, had her eyes gently covered by Kwon Ji-yong's hand in the next instant.
In the end, it naturally ended with just a kiss.
Practice is still necessary.
After saying goodbye to GD, the senior who had been making her uneasy, Han Sang-hee immediately began her practice for the day.
The stage doesn't lie.
Ultimately, what matters most about idols is their stage presence.
As for his relationship with his seniors.
Originally intending to pause the game, she ended up advancing the game's progress once again.
Han Shangxi felt a little guilty, but not much.
Han Shangxi discovered that this senior was truly insightful about people's hearts.
She always felt that if things continued like this, she would eventually fall for him.
It's just a game, but it can be turned into a game with multiple storylines.
Han Shangxi silently reminded himself.
To be honest, she really enjoyed everything that this game brought her.
But when the game goes offline, everything falls apart.
However, everything is still under her control at the moment.
Everything is still under control.
【Feeling Supreme – Do you think of me when you kiss someone else?】
LZ: The best thing about Zhi Shang is that even though he's been involved in all sorts of scandals with other people, he still flies back to see her on his birthday.
Their relationship is complicated, not only by its complexities but also by their love.
Your lover is right beside you. But who do you see through him?
Crossing boundaries and prioritizing feelings—that's probably why you went to find her.
1L: When I first saw Unnie's post, I was like: OMG, are you crazy?
Now, reading Unnie's post: I must be crazy. That's just how we at Zhishang are.
8L: The title and the last sentence are really evocative. It feels like the title is exactly what kjy said.
11L: I knew Unnie would come to your area to provide food today.
15L: How to anger multiple fanbases while expressing your support for a couple in just a few words. Luckily, the original poster (OP) posted this anonymously, otherwise, I feel like the OP would be in real danger.
LZ: What do young men and women know about love and responsibility? It's all just about feelings.
It's true that I loved someone, but it's also true that I feel this way right now.
We are such a perfect couple.
31L: I'm still too early. There were no arguments in Unnie's posts today.
35L: Please, OP, leave the other couples alone, okay? The other couples aren't stepping stones for your couple.
47L: Both are very good and dedicated artists. Nobody's stopping me from shipping them, but please don't spread rumors about their morals. I don't even want to mention how many people outside treat these posts as gospel. If you believe it, then you have to mock them as scumbags. Who understands the helplessness I feel seeing those comments when I like both of them?
56L: Now, even if Long goes back to South Korea, he gets called a scumbag in your forum. And there's this whole "whitewashing" thing about the Japanese model. Do you really think Long's fans dislike him just because of the rumors?
61L: Everyone knows what's going on with that guy choosing to fly back to South Korea today. Plus, rumors are circulating that Sang-seo actively declined the birthday and solo debut party the company wanted to throw for her.
I think the two young lovers spent a sweet and romantic time together today.
63L: I have nothing to say to you CP fans.
68L: Sister Shang performed diligently all day, only to come back to find the sky had fallen and she was being falsely accused of being in a relationship. Who still remembers that this girl was an idol in her rising phase?
81L: Actually, if Zhi Shang's relationship started because of interactions between senior and junior students, then even if the CP fans were obsessed with it, it would only be within the fandom, like the couples between a certain dragon and 21. But the initial hype surrounding Zhi Shang was too bizarre... It just goes to show how captivating unhealthy love can be.
84L: Compared to "Lanrenzhenxin," I think "Zhishang" is the kind where both people are extremely rational players, but each other is an exception. It would be hard to believe they didn't end up getting married.
85L: Nonono. A player will always be a player. The reason they eventually settle down is most likely because they're tired of playing, not because they've met their true love. Even if Zhi Shang really did get together, they would still break up.
91L: Weren't there rumors circulating in the industry that they broke up? [Just passing by, not really sure what's going on] If the point of contention is a certain Long's schedule, it seems he was only photographed returning to the company. Maybe he went back to the recording studio to work.
92L: That's how cpf is. [shrug]
95L: Why did you have to go back to work the day after the concert? And that day was Shang Jie's birthday. Besides, Shang Jie unusually didn't post anything on Line last night.
96L: What is the relevance of the points mentioned above?
101L: If Brother Long had been in a relationship, he would have already started showing it off. Sister Shang, who clearly hasn't been in a relationship, would definitely be even less likely to hide it. How could there only be such far-fetched evidence from CP fans?
102L: As you guys said, most of the pairings are best avoided. The "Supreme Couple" pairing is just a little strange; everyone's just enjoying it in their own little world and hasn't offended anyone.
111L: Is it really just a little eerie? [sigh]
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Author's Note: Thank you to all my lovely readers for your comments and support! [doge emoji with rose in hand]
The author, having failed on Saturday, has decided to try again in Sunday's update. [cat paw emoji]
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