Chapter 83
I thought to myself at the time—
Some people are born to be noble and privileged.
I pretended to be unwell and was about to faint, thinking to myself that I would fall on the wet road and end up in a sorry state.
After all, women are often fickle, especially those who are rich and powerful.
But no.
That warm yet cool embrace, imbued with a delicate fragrance, has become the faith I have followed throughout my life.
What's your name?
"Slave, my name is Yunji."
"Yunji..." The sound of her calling my name was so beautiful.
I was granted the rank of Fifth-Rank Imperial Guard.
The moment I was blocked, amidst my joy, I wondered why.
Soon, it was my turn to serve the emperor.
She asked me, "How old are you?"
I lied and said, "I'm sixteen."
She chuckled and then ruffled my hair, saying, "You look like you're only thirteen or fourteen years old."
No matter how hard I tried, I couldn't even remove her clothes, but she smiled and gently wiped the fine sweat from my forehead with a handkerchief.
What high-ranking official would wipe the sweat off a man like them?
Moreover, she was an empress...
It is the pinnacle of power and wealth that everyone looks up to.
As dawn broke, I felt somewhat defeated.
My flirting skills, which I've been so proud of since childhood, failed me in front of the person I was attracted to.
Yes, I'm tempted.
Just one glance, just one embrace, just tonight when she gently asked me questions and softly wiped my sweat, my heart was moved.
Later, I tried to apply what Uncle Qingqing had taught me to her, but it was no use.
And I...
Just as Uncle Qingqing had repeatedly warned him, he gradually became captivated by her gentle gaze.
Later I discovered that when I used affected words to provoke Lu Chengfeng, she would look at me differently for a moment.
So I willingly and voluntarily became a knife she used to stab Lu Chengfeng.
I deceived myself, saying, "His Majesty has bestowed upon me glory and wealth, so it is only right that I do these things."
I lied to myself, saying I was just repaying a debt of kindness.
I ignored my feelings and then made them into Longjing pastries to give to her.
When I delivered it, I happened to meet Prince Jin, who said that she had that person by her side.
My heart felt a sudden pang of pain, but I still smiled and handed the Longjing pastry to Jingchun.
It's okay, as long as she ate it.
Even if she personally feeds the Longjing pastry I made to someone else.
I have gained wealth and honor, but I feel like I'm walking on thin ice every day.
I mimicked that ridiculous kindness, pointing coquettishly at the koi in the lake, saying how pitiful they were, getting soaked by the rain.
I find it ridiculous myself.
But she smoothed my wind-blown hair behind my head and said to me, "Yunji is kind-hearted."
If someone else had said that, it would have been full of sarcasm.
But the doting and tenderness in her eyes told me that she truly thought I was kind-hearted, innocent, and adorable.
No, I am not.
I'm not kind, and I'm ruthless...
But I dare not say it.
I'm afraid she'll despise me; I'm afraid my bright moon will never shine on me again.
But how could she not know? In her eyes, my schemes should be like children playing house.
So, she probably really thought I was innocent and kind.
Later, the queen became pregnant.
I was bewildered. Perhaps I could be a ruler or a father figure too?
She loves the Queen, so I will protect the Queen.
Protecting her queen.
I was careful every day, consulting medical books and seeking out imperial physicians...
Finally, October arrived, and it was time for her to give birth.
It's terrifying to see a man give birth; basin after basin of blood, my heart clenches with fear.
I couldn't help but think jealously, if the Queen died, would she be able to see me?
But I quickly dismissed the idea.
She loved the Queen so much; how heartbroken she would be if the Queen died.
If she's upset, I'll be upset too.
So I prayed, prayed that the Queen and the father and daughter would be safe!
The delivery room was filthy, so she was kept outside.
But she disregarded public opinion and resolutely stepped into the delivery room.
Perhaps for a fleeting moment, I also longed to have her child.
Will she also risk everything for me then?
Later, when I learned about Zisangqi's other identity, I was filled with admiration for her.
Amazing! They conquered the Quanrong without bloodshed or a single soldier.
So, she saw through all my little schemes the moment she saw me?
Oh right, and Lu Chengfeng too. She finally grew tired of Lu Chengfeng.
They left Lu Chengfeng with me.
Perfect timing, I also want to resolve the hatred he felt for Yongxiang, who wanted to break my fingers.
Because of just a little bit, I almost wouldn't have been able to see her.
I ordered people to force-feed him an unknown amount of food and water, then tied him to a chair, while a group of palace maids and servants surrounded him to watch.
Two or three hours passed, and I watched as Lu Chengfeng's hatred for me eventually turned into pleading.
He cried and begged me to let him go, but I just watched him, occasionally glancing at the birds flying outside the window.
I think these punishments are not enough, after all, he almost harmed her because of the Crazy Horse incident.
Soon, he finally couldn't hold back any longer and defecated in front of everyone before I got up.
When I reached the door, I turned around and saw that Lu Chengfeng's face was already flushed red, and he looked like a stiff dead man.
I scoffed.
This is just an appetizer.
I gradually shattered his last shred of self-respect, taming him into a pathetic man in this world.
His arrogance from when we first met was completely gone.
In the end, even I lost interest in him, let alone her.
However, he has many secrets, such as "that place," but Lu Chengfeng refuses to tell anyone about it.
But I used this opportunity to tell her about my background.
I thought, so be it, but for some reason I wanted her to see me for who I truly am.
See clearly my wickedness, my cunning, my filthy origins, and my still-unknown identity.
But she asked me if I hated my mother and if I wanted to find her.
I was surprised that she wasn't angry, so I asked her if she disliked me.
She replied, "I neither hate it nor punish it, not today, not in the future."
This is the grace that the emperor would never punish those who deceived him for life.
It is also a promise from the wife that she does not mind her husband's dirty background.
Today is, and always will be...
Yunji is so happy, so lucky.
Can……
But my bright moon ultimately fell on that moonless night.
She died on the eve of the Mid-Autumn Festival, a day when families were about to reunite.
The rain continued, and she lay there quietly.
Silent and still, without sorrow or joy.
Her face, as gentle as ever, will never smile at me again.
But she's so amazing.
She was the most honorable person in the world, and she could predict everything with uncanny accuracy. Why did she leave so quietly?
The incessant rain stopped, and the silence became eerily profound.
I recall that some time ago, she brought over a list of many prominent families.
If I choose a surname I like, she will arrange the cleanest identity for me. From now on, I will no longer be Yun Ji from Qingfeng Tower.
He was Yun Ji, a young master from a prominent family.
Her smile was so gentle then, so gentle that I just wanted to rush into her arms and tell her...
Yun Ji no longer cared about his background, nor did he desire any wealth or status.
Yunji only wants you.
All I want is my bright moon.
After Yun Ji turned five, no one cared for him. After he turned sixteen, even the only person who was kind to him passed away.
Yun Ji was humble and pitiful, but you lifted him up, and Yun Ji became a cloud high above.
But with the moon gone, the clouds of the night also cease to exist.
Yunji's tragic and laughable life was made even more glorious by your presence.
Your Majesty, please wait for Yunji.
Yunji is here to keep you company.
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