Jiang Mianmian muttered to herself: What's going on with Shen Xiujin today? Did he take the wrong medicine or have a seizure?
Shen Xiujin said with a trembling voice: "Mother, I'm really sorry! It has always been my fault. I was too willful and reckless. I always liked to play tricks on you, quarrel with you, and sometimes even deliberately go against you.
Big brother is right. In fact, it was because of your infinite tolerance and pampering of me during those times that I had the capital to be so unbridled.
If it were anyone else, who would dare to treat my mother like I did! Now, I am fully aware of the mistakes I made. I hope my mother can forgive my ignorance and recklessness. Mother, I know I was wrong!
Jiang Mianmian widened her eyes and looked at Shen Xiujin in front of her with surprise, and a wave of suspicion arose in her heart:
Could it be that this guy didn't explain things clearly yesterday, so he's sleepwalking and talking nonsense here now? Otherwise, why would he suddenly kneel down and apologize to me?
Shen Xiujin continued with a guilty look on her face, "Mother, the reason I acted like that before was because I was too stupid!
All along, I have mistakenly believed that you, my mother, killed the woman who gave birth to me, which is why I am always fighting with you..."
Having said this, his voice gradually became lower.
Shen Xiujin also felt that the various absurd things he had done were simply outrageous and excessive. And the words he was about to say next made him feel extremely embarrassed and even a little difficult to speak.
He took a deep breath, calmed down a little, and said with difficulty: "Mother, in fact... in fact, I am more angry with myself most of the time.
Although you raised me with great difficulty, my heart is filled with inferiority and fear just because I am not your biological son.
This feeling tortured me all the time, making me feel like a shameful thief who stole the life that should have belonged to his mother's biological son. I... I..."
Shen Xiujin clenched his fists tightly, veins bulged on his forehead, his lips trembled slightly, and his deep and fiery eyes were filled with extremely complex emotions.
There is love, hatred, deep jealousy, and a deep resentment that he is not his mother's biological son.
He had always blamed all the faults on his mother. Only by doing so could he barely convince himself that he was not the one at fault.
After all, he could not accept the fact that he was not his mother's biological son, and it was even more difficult for him to bear an identity that was even lower and humbler than that of an illegitimate child.
This feeling of shame was like an extremely heavy rock, pressing on him to the point where he could hardly breathe. Only by constantly telling himself that it was all his mother's fault did he have the courage to continue living.
Jiang Mianmian, who was standing aside, looked at Shen Xiujin, whose emotions were almost out of control, and her eyes gradually turned red for some reason.
This child was raised by her alone!
However, she was completely unaware of the unknown pain and struggles in his heart.
In the past, Shen Xiujin was ashamed of his own identity and tried to wash away the stain attached to himself by belittling Jiang Mianmian.
He naively thought that as long as he could prove that she was wrong, he could cover up his own disgraceful background and prove to the world that he was not so despicable.
He was only ten years old at that time, an age when he should have been enjoying a carefree and happy childhood, but he was burdened with such a heavy psychological burden too early.
Later, Shen Xiujing also thought about changing the status quo, but when she recognized the third brother, the trajectory of fate took an unexpected turn - he resolutely chose to go into business.
Just after he came of age, he could have inherited the title smoothly as the legitimate son of the Marquis's family, but he never mentioned the matter of inheriting the title of the Marquis's family.
How could she, as intelligent as she was, not know the reason? It was simply because of his own status, and because of his debt and guilt, he was unwilling to compete with the third brother for the title.
However, what was unexpected was that the third brother also refused to change his surname because of his adoptive father, and had no interest in inheriting the so-called "broken marquis" title of the marquis's mansion.
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