At this point, Austin had to admit that he was far from being as noble and great as he had imagined.
After Ruan Tang was rejected by him time and time again and finally chose to let go out of exhaustion, even though he knew that he shouldn't have such narrow-minded, obscure and dark thoughts, it was not good.
He still couldn't control the bitter, obscure, indescribable feeling of discomfort in his heart that came from nowhere.
He couldn't control himself from having bad thoughts that shouldn't have occurred...
An inexplicable emotion grew in his heart and released a wild beast, which roared and growled. At that moment, he almost wanted to question Ruan Tang: "Why did you choose to give up so easily? Didn't you say you liked me?"
"Madam, you are drunk." But Auston still forced himself to suppress all his bad emotions, and calmly put his arm through Ruan Tang's armpit to help him up.
But Ruan Tang lost control of his emotions and brushed his hand away. He lost balance and fell to the ground again. He tried to stand up, but couldn't. His smile was uglier than crying: "I decided to let him go, and let myself go."
"Madam..." Austin couldn't tell what he felt in his heart, and stepped forward again to help him.
But this time, Ruan Tang did not push him away, but chose to throw herself into his arms, and breathed into his ear with a strong smell of alcohol: "Seth, if I divorce the master, will you marry me?"
"Ma'am, what did you say?" Auston froze on the spot. At that moment he almost thought he had misheard.
Ruan Tang said she agreed to divorce him, and then she asked a male servant if he was willing to marry him. What the hell is this?
Ruan Tang fell on him and hugged him tightly. Auston wanted to push him away in embarrassment, but seeing that Ruan Tang was drunk and couldn't even stand steadily, he was afraid that he would not touch him well and drop him, so he had to keep adjusting the awkward posture between himself and Ruan Tang.
I want to put some distance between each other.
"I said, the master doesn't want me anymore. He is so anxious to divorce me, he must be tired of me, afraid that I will continue to pester him, right? In this case, I will do as he wishes, he divorces me, and I will marry someone else, so that he will have no worries, and no longer have to worry about me pestering him..." Ruan Tang seemed to be suddenly attached to the warmth of his embrace, put her head on his shoulder, lowered her eyes and said: "So, after I divorce him, are you willing to marry me?"
There was a hint of sobbing in his voice, which sounded wet from being drunk.
It's as if he was abandoned by his lover and he gave up on himself and just wanted to settle for anyone.
"Madam, what are you talking about? How can such an important matter as marriage be treated as a joke? How can you just give up on yourself and ruin yourself just because your parents don't want you?" Auston pushed Ruan Tang away violently, his tone like an old father who is disappointed with his child and wants to use cow dung to make him a better person.
Ruan Tang looked at him steadily and said, "I didn't give up on myself or ruin myself. I thought it over carefully. I told you before that I don't care about a person's appearance, because I have seen many people who look gorgeous but are as poisonous as snakes and scorpions. Inner kindness is the most important..."
"We've known each other for so long, and you took such good care of me the night I was sick... I think you're a great person." He spoke each word with great seriousness.
Since Austin insisted on fighting with him, he would stick with him to the end.
"Madam, I am just a humble male servant, and my appearance is flawed." Auston couldn't describe his feelings. It was as if he was watching the cabbage that he had raised with great difficulty being pushed into the mouth of an ugly fat pig. "There are so many outstanding young talents in the Imperial Star. With your current status, even if you get divorced, there are still plenty of alhas for you to choose from. Why are you in such a hurry to remarry?"
Ruan Tang fell in love with a male servant. What a joke. Auston wanted to divorce him because he felt that he would die soon and wanted Ruan Tang to find a broader sky and a better lover.
If Ruan Tang divorced him and planned to just find a "male servant" like this...Auston felt that he was no better than him?
"Even if there are many young talents in the Imperial Star, they are not adults, and they can't be adults." Ruan Tang looked at Auston without focus: "No matter how many and how good Alha there are in the world, I can only see adults in my heart."
Auston frowned, not knowing how to persuade him not to continue to be stubborn: "Madam, you..."
"Back when I was notorious and despised by everyone, I had already seen through it. These Alhas of the Imperial Star, these so-called young talents, have no true feelings in their hearts. All they care about and can see is the power and interests represented by an OGA." Ruan Tang said word by word: "In the beginning, when I had nothing, they might have seen the truth or not. They all followed the crowd and didn't want to listen to my explanation or explore the truth, just because I was the least favored son of the Ruan family... and now they can see me and think that I am a suitable marriage partner, but it's just because I have status and the power behind me is helpful to them..."
He spoke each word with a cold and sober tone: "It has nothing to do with who I am or whether I have good character."
He didn't know where Auston's inferiority complex came from, but he had to let him know that those Alha who he thought were better than him and had four healthy legs were actually very despicable in his eyes...
Auston didn't expect Ruan Tang to say that, and was stunned on the spot.
Although he wanted to refute, he had to admit that what Ruan Tang said was true... It was not just Alha from Emperor Star who was like this. Unless a person loved another person deeply, or that person was a holy father, who else could be unrealistic?
Would you be so selfless to another person without any regrets and without considering any background conditions?
"But Lord Austin is different. Lord Austin is different from them." Ruan Tang took a deep breath and mentioned Austin in a sonorous and powerful voice: "When I first married him, I was a loser, and I had to step into this marriage with the intention of jumping into the fire pit. But he was the enemy of everyone when everyone was against me and bullying me. Even if he didn't love me, he always stood by my side, pulling me out of despair time and time again, giving me hope, and helping me pick up my broken and trampled dignity bit by bit..."
"I can't help but love him. Although many people in the world say that a person will fall in love with many people in his life, I think I may never fall in love with anyone other than Lord Austin in my life..."
He had to tell Auston that no matter how many alhas there were in the world, in his eyes he was the best.
If he told it directly, Austin might not believe it, so he would tell him indirectly.
Auston was the one who pulled him out of the quagmire and the abyss and gave him hope. No matter how he was rejected, he would never give up on him.
"lady……"
Austin took a deep breath and looked at Ruan Tang with a slight pause.
He helped Ruan Tang at first only because he saw that Ruan Tang was so unlucky and pitiful and was bullied too much, and he couldn't bear to see it and just raised his hand. After all, Ruan Tang was his nominal partner after all... Although he never wanted Ruan Tang to see his heart, and even consciously tried to scare him when they first met, he really couldn't bear to see Ruan Tang being bullied.
I didn't expect it to have such a big impact on Ruan Tang.
What he didn't know was that Ruan Tang was thinking the same thing about what was happening between them.
"Since the master doesn't want me to continue to pester him, if I remarry, I don't want to choose those so-called young talents or children from aristocratic families... because they are always demanding of their partners. Even if it is a marriage of convenience, those favored children will ask for more and will not allow their partners to have someone else in their hearts." Ruan Tang bit her lip lightly, sober yet drunken, and said, "But I think, even if the master doesn't love me, I will always keep a place in my heart to love him."
From the moment he met Auston, he was destined not to be someone else's partner.
Auston frowned slightly, not knowing what to say for a moment.
"Seth, I know this may not be fair to you, but I still want to ask you to marry me." Ruan Tang spoke clearly, "Because you are the only friend I can open my heart to now... As long as you are willing to marry me and allow me to keep a place for you in my heart, no matter what you ask, I will do my best to satisfy you."
The higher a person's position, the fewer friends he has, and the ones he has are just partners.
You may get along well with each other, but you can never reach the sincerity of the people you met when you were poor and humble. There will always be some things related to interests mixed in.
Auston frowned, panicked and didn't know what to do. His back was like a hammer, stiff to the extreme: "Madam, my appearance is flawed... Why are you doing this?"
Even if Ruan Tang really wanted to do this, she didn't have to choose an ugly male servant like herself, right?
He's not Mu Can, who would like a face like his that's been burned by Zerg venom?
"I said, I don't care." Seeing him belittling himself like this, Ruan Tang suddenly reached out and touched the scar on his face as if she was drunk, and whispered indistinctly: "Also, I don't know why, I always feel that there is a sense of déjà vu about you. Many times, I feel that you are very similar to adults in many ways."
His fingertips brushed across Auston's facial features: "I never noticed it before, but you are actually very handsome, with good features. Even if you have a scar on your face, it doesn't affect anything in my opinion."
He didn't know where Auston's inferiority complex came from, but in his eyes, the person he loved was the best in the world.
There has never been a moment when he wanted to engrave a person's appearance in his heart more than at this moment...
Auston was startled by his touch and his whole body shook.
"I've never seen what the master looks like, but I don't know why, I feel that maybe he looks like you when he takes off the mask. Maybe I'm dreaming." Ruan Tang hardly gave Auston a chance to react, as if she was really drunk. As if she was imagining what her lover looked like, she kissed the servant's lips so close to her without any resistance.
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