Seeing Ruan Tang's heart and eyes filled with the Duke, Austin's hand holding the chopsticks tightened unconsciously. He didn't know what he felt in his heart, he just felt endless panic.
"...Just because he is your husband, you can do this for him? Trying every possible way to make him happy and make him like you?" At this moment, he almost forgot his identity and that he was still playing the role of a male servant. He blurted out to Ruan Tang.
Ruan Tang's husband could be him or someone else.
He was never a special case, he just happened to appear in Ruan Tang's life at the right time.
"Of course it's not just because of this." Ruan Tang didn't expect him to ask such a question. She looked at him in surprise and answered without hesitation, "The most important thing is that I like you, adults."
Ruan Tang had never liked anyone before, until he met Austin, he fell in love with someone for the first time.
He didn't know when this love began, but when he discovered it, the seed had already taken root in his heart and began to grow vigorously.
Only then did Ruan Tang realize that liking someone and wanting to do something for him was such a happy thing.
"Like? What do you like about him? You've never even seen his face, and you've never really known him? Just because he married you and treated you well, you fell in love with him... Don't you think this is strange?" He said it so naturally and decisively, but Austin became more and more flustered and at a loss.
He never believed in love.
Perhaps it cannot be denied that such a thing really exists.
But watching Lady Judith risk everything for so-called love, and obsessively spending the rest of her life clearing the grievances of a long-dead person, the years of pain and suffering, and Queen Cathaway's love for the emperor turning into hatred, from passionate love to hatred to the hysteria of even hating her own son who had the emperor's blood flowing in his veins, made me no longer the same as before...
Auston always felt that it was not a good thing.
Deep love does not bring longevity, and extreme wisdom brings harm...
No matter how the world sang praises and extols its beauty, Austin has never been interested in getting involved in it.
Auston didn't know whether he had that kind of intention towards Ruan Tang, or whether Ruan Tang really liked him, but he didn't want the relationship between him and Ruan Tang to become like that.
I don’t know how to deal with Ruan Tang’s relentless pressure.
He wanted to escape, but he couldn't bear to see Ruan Tang again... He just felt very helpless.
"What do you mean?" Ruan Tang frowned, feeling offended. She felt that the servant had gone too far.
Austin restrained his emotions and said calmly, "It's nothing. I just think that you married me because you had nothing and were forced to do so. You also told me that there was no emotional basis between you two."
"Now, everything is different. You have become the chairman of the OMEGA Protection Association, the head of the Ruan family holds power, and you have a brother who is the commander of the White Tiger Army. You are no longer the one who can be slaughtered by others... I heard that many young talents from noble families in the Imperial Star admire you very much. Why don't you want to come out? Why do you have to trap yourself in such a meaningless marriage and so-called love?" He said word by word: "If you come out, you will have more, better and broader choices, right?"
Austin remained calm about the emperor's explicit and implicit words to him, and the news that the noble families of Dixing had taken a fancy to Ruan Tang, coveted the power and personal ability that Ruan Tang now possessed, and hoped that he would die early and Ruan Tang would become a widow so that they could give Ruan Tang to their descendants in marriage.
But I have to say that he cares very much about these things in his heart.
He knew clearly that he was not the best choice of partner for Ruan Tang, and he could not give Ruan Tang what he wanted...but he was reluctant to give up Ruan Tang completely.
When he asked these questions through the identity of Seth, he was extremely conflicted, almost out of a self-abuse mentality.
He wanted Ruan Tang to listen to his advice and come out, but he was also afraid that Ruan Tang would listen to his advice and come out...
"But they are not adults." Ruan Tang looked at him with a cold look in her eyes, and said fiercely, "I don't know whose orders you came here on, and who you are lobbying for... But if you let me hear this kind of words again, don't appear in front of me again."
After gaining enough power, Ruan Tang also saw many things that he had never seen before, such as the fact that the leaders of the major families in the Imperial Star were respectful to Austin on the surface, but secretly did not regard Austin as a human being at all. He was still alive, but these people could not wait to seduce his partner just because of the power they now controlled, and they believed that he was a mad dog that was doomed to die.
And this is exactly what Ruan Tang hates the most——
He wanted Auston to live, and to live well with him forever.
Therefore, he felt disgusted and even disgusted with those so-called young talents who tried to court him and extended olive trees to him.
Because they did not respect Auston and did not treat Auston as a human being.
Ruan Tang didn't know who bribed this big, stupid male servant who used to be innocent, and who told him to come up to him and say such things.
But he hated such words.
"They are not adults? What about you? Have you ever known a real adult? I'm afraid you wouldn't be able to recognize him if he took off his mask and stood in front of you?" Austin looked at him intently. He didn't know what he wanted, but he became more and more addicted as he talked: "Rather than saying you like him, it's better to say you like an illusion of an adult that you think he is."
He didn't think that Ruan Tang liked the real him.
He felt that what Ruan Tang liked was just an illusion. He didn't want to burst the truth beneath the bubble, but he had to burst the bubble in front of Ruan Tang.
Rather than watching Ruan Tang fall deeper and deeper in love with the perfect him in her imagination, and then fall from the clouds after discovering the truth, she would feel disgust, aversion, and even regret towards him.
It would be better to be cruel and not give him the chance to fall from the beginning.
Ruan Tang stared at Austin without saying a word. She just felt that the behavior of this overstepping and daring male servant in front of her was extremely inappropriate and strange.
And the feeling he had when he spoke unconsciously overlapped with another feeling...
"In the eyes of outsiders, the adult is cruel, crazy, and gloomy, but in your eyes, he is another person... So who is the real him?" Auston said calmly, "Ma'am, it's really strange that you would like such a person whom you don't really know."
Ruan Tang frowned slightly and looked at him deeply without saying anything.
Auston said word by word: "Madam treats me as a friend, and I also treat you as a friend, so I said some heartfelt words, please don't be offended by it."
Ruan Tang remained silent.
But Auston didn't want to stay and continue to face him: "Sorry, ma'am, I have something else to do, so I'll leave first."
As soon as he finished speaking, he left Ruan Tang's room...
He knew that he was a little cruel to Ruan Tang, but there were some things he had to say.
In the afternoon, Auston was handling official business in the study, but his personal valet brought him the dessert made by Ruan Tang: "Sir, this is made by the lady herself for you. You must try it."
"Go tell him that I don't like sweet things...the food he cooked is terrible, tell him not to do such boring things in the future." Austin frowned slightly and gave the order to the servant.
The male servant looked at him in surprise, not knowing what was wrong with his master to treat his wife like this, but he still responded, "Yes."
"Then sir...this dessert?" After he finished speaking, he suddenly thought of something and asked again.
The adults said they didn't like it and it tasted terrible, so they probably didn't want to eat it anymore. So what should we do with this dessert? Should we send it back to the lady, or...
Auston frowned, waved his hand and said, "Just leave the dessert."
Recalling how Ruan Tang had tried so hard to make these things for him, and had failed again and again, Auston frowned, but a warm feeling unconsciously arose in his heart.
Ever since he got into trouble and saw the ups and downs of life, no one has sincerely done anything to make him happy, and no one has ever spent any time and effort on him.
Even if he rejected Ruan Tang's kindness, he couldn't bear to give up this dessert.
"Should I say that to Madam?" The servant was a little hesitant. He really couldn't understand the train of thought of his crazy master.
Auston gently scooped up a piece of dessert and put it into his mouth. It was so sweet that it was sickening, but his heart was slightly bitter. However, he still said, "As you say."
"yes."
The servant responded and immediately left to pass on the message. Suddenly, Auston was the only one left in the huge study room, which was so empty that it made people feel uneasy.
As early as after the accident, his parents, who once loved him like a treasure, gave up on him without hesitation, and even deliberately made his injuries worse. He had long been accustomed to living alone, and learned not to expect anything from anyone anymore...
The appearance of Ruan Tang was a surprise to Austin. He thought Ruan Tang would just be a passing stranger in his life, but he never thought that Ruan Tang would be so to his liking. He found Ruan Tang interesting and fun, so interesting that he wanted to keep her for himself and became attached to her.
But no matter how much he loved and missed her, Auston knew that he couldn't go on like this.
If they continue to entangle like this, both he and Ruan Tang will get deeper and deeper into trouble, and eventually they will follow the same path as Lady Judith or Queen Catherway.
Auston didn't want that.
Ruan Tang has everything now and no longer needs him. She can live a better life without him.
Therefore, Austin also felt that it was time for him to cut the Gordian knot and say goodbye to Ruan Tang.
Silently sitting alone in the study, he ate the dessert that Ruan Tang had carefully prepared for him bite by bite, finishing it all without leaving any.
Auston pursed his lips and immediately took out the divorce agreement that had been laid aside for a long time and had already been drafted from his drawer. He decided that it would be better to do it today and would no longer avoid Ruan Tang and would have a good talk with him tonight.
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