Chapter 88 As long as you look back, I should accept it with gratitude?
Seeing this, Su Yu didn't dare to really walk away. In case the two men accidentally started a fight, she could still block them.
"Boss Feng, have some tea."
Feng Mingzhou didn't even look at the cup of tea.
He took a step with his long legs, dragged a low stool next to him swiftly, and sat down next to Gu Manman.
The distance between us shortened instantly, and the woody scent from his body drifted towards us faintly.
At such a close distance, his tall figure almost trapped her entire body between the corner of the sofa and him, and Gu Manman felt that the air became a little thin.
"Did you listen to that song?"
Gu Manman raised her eyelids, met his gaze, and nodded.
"Yes."
Feng Mingzhou's Adam's apple rolled, and he asked, "How do you feel?"
“It sounds nice.”
She paused, then changed the subject: "I heard that you banned Deng Yaochen?"
Mr. Feng, who always kept his word and had an intimidating aura in public, looked a little embarrassed when facing her gaze, like a child who was caught doing something wrong.
Su Yu held her own cup of water and took in the entire scene. The fear she had for Feng Mingzhou instantly dissipated.
Oh, the henpecked husband is afraid of his wife.
She cleared her throat and spoke in a deliberately sarcastic tone, picking up old things to poke at his heart: "What? You can't stand it? What's wrong with a young man writing a song to express his love?"
"Thinking back then, I don't know who used drones to confess to Lin Jinyun, and everyone in the city knew about it. It was such a grand show, wow." Su Yu curled her lips and looked at Gu Manman, "Our Manman was so generous at that time, she even forced a smile to send you her blessings."
"Boss Feng, now that we have opened up our minds, shouldn't we also send a blessing back to Xiao Deng?"
Old things were brought up again.
The air pressure around Feng Mingzhou dropped instantly. He pursed his thin lips, his jawline was tense, and his chest felt like it was blocked by a ball of hot carbon, burning him so much that it hurt to breathe.
He looked at Gu Manman, his eyes filled with deep regret.
"Manman, that wasn't me who did it. It was Zhao Yang who did it for..." He finally spoke with difficulty.
However, Gu Manman raised her hand, made a gesture to stop him, and interrupted him.
She looked at him, her eyes as calm as a pool of deep water, without any ripples, yet also bottomless.
"Feng Mingzhou," she said with a tired voice, "Many years ago, I may have needed an explanation."
"I have indeed spent many sleepless nights waiting for your explanation."
"But now, it's not necessary."
She paused, facing his suddenly shrinking pupils, and continued: "Deng Yaochen, you don't have to, and you don't have any right to target him."
He wanted to explain, wanted to say that he and Lin Jinyun were not like that, it was just a big fuss made by Zhao Yang to cooperate with his plan and relax Lin Zhenmin's vigilance.
He wanted to tell her that he targeted Deng Yaochen only because of uncontrollable jealousy and panic, fearing that she would really be snatched away by that boy.
But these words were stuck in Feng Mingzhou's throat and he couldn't utter a single word.
Because he knew she wouldn't believe it.
Over the years, the misunderstandings and injuries he had caused had already built an indestructible wall in her heart.
Gu Manman looked at him as he hesitated to speak and struggled in pain, without any fluctuation in her eyes.
She even found it a little ridiculous.
If I had known this would happen, I wouldn’t have done it in the first place.
She sighed softly, as if she had finally figured out something that had been bothering her for a long time, and her voice was cruelly calm.
"Feng Mingzhou,"
"In fact, it's not me you love."
"The one you love is only Gu Manman, who once opened her heart to you without reservation and looked up to you."
That silly girl when she was young, who thought that as long as she gave, she would get a response.
Feng Mingzhou's breathing became heavy and his chest heaved violently.
He looked at her face which was calm and almost indifferent, and his heart seemed to be tightly grasped, causing him to feel so painful that his eyes went dark.
"No."
"That's not the case."
His eyes were red as he stared at her. His eyes were filled with despair, panic, and deep pain and pleading.
"Manman..." He spoke word by word, using all his strength to confess, "In my life..."
"I've only loved you."
These words were powerful and full of determination.
Gu Manman looked at his red eyes.
This was the person she had loved throughout her youth.
She pulled the corners of her mouth and revealed a sarcastic smile.
"Yeah?"
"Boss Feng's affectionate confession was so touching that even I almost believed it myself."
"It's a pity," Gu Manman lowered her eyelashes and looked at her hands on her knees, "It's too late."
It's really too late.
When she needed him most, he wasn't there.
While she was waiting for an explanation, he chose to remain silent.
When she thought she could finally let go and start a new life, he came in again in such a strong and overbearing manner and disrupted everything.
Say love now?
How can she believe it?
Feng Mingzhou looked at her with her drooping brows, distant and cold.
"Manman..." He wanted to hold her hand, but she avoided him calmly.
"I know. I've done a lot of shit before."
"I know you probably won't believe anything I say."
He took a deep breath, his voice very hoarse: "But give me a chance, okay?"
"Give me a chance to...make it up to you."
"I will use all my time from now on to prove..."
"Prove what?" Gu Manman interrupted him, "Prove that the love you are talking about now is real?"
"Or does it prove that even if you have hurt me in the past, as long as you come back, I should accept it with gratitude?"
"Feng Mingzhou, the hurt you caused me was real, and the tears I shed were also real."
"Those days and nights of suffering and despair cannot be erased by your words 'I love you' or 'give me a chance'."
“I don’t want to make the same mistake again.”
"I don't want to waste time on you anymore."
"I don't regret loving you, but I don't think it's worth it."
Every word was like a poisoned needle, piercing Feng Mingzhou's heart.
His face was pale and even his lips had lost their color.
Su Yu, who had been watching silently, looked at Feng Mingzhou's distraught and devastated appearance, and she actually felt a little... pity?
But when I thought about the bad things he had done in the past, that feeling of pity instantly disappeared.
You deserve it!
Gu Manman stood up and stopped looking at him.
"Boss Feng, please go back."
"Don't come here again..."
He watched Gu Manman's back as she walked towards the bedroom.
The door slowly closed in front of him.
There was a slight "bang" sound, but it was like a heavy hammer hitting his heart.
Completely cut off from all his hopes.
Su Yu looked at Feng Mingzhou who was sitting there blankly, hesitated for a moment, and finally spoke: "Um... Mr. Feng, how about you go back first?"
Feng Mingzhou still looked at the closed door with empty eyes.
After a long time, he slowly stood up.
His tall body now looked somewhat hunched, with an indescribable sense of desolation.
He walked towards the door like a wandering soul.
The back view looks desolate and surprisingly lonely.
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