There happened to be an empty spot here, so someone just filled it in as a stranger.
Lu Zhengjun felt very upset.
He couldn't stand the change and the gap.
But ironically, the one who caused this situation is himself.
He was the one who deceived Su Yueya first; the tenderness she received before did not belong to him.
And why blame her for her resistance and indifference?
Su Yueya is right to be angry!
He was already very grateful that they could sit down and eat together.
After finishing her meal, Su Yueya got up to clean up the mess as usual.
"Crescent Moon, don't rush to tidy up," Lu Zhengjun said. "You're a patient now, I can handle these trivial matters. Can you... listen to me for a few minutes first?"
Su Yueya didn't say whether she could or couldn't, but she sat down.
He still didn't look into Lu Zhengjun's eyes.
Lu Zhengjun took a deep breath.
He had kept these words to himself for a long time.
Seeing that Su Yueya seemed to be in a good mood today, I dared to try speaking.
"Crescent Moon, I'm sorry."
"I apologize to you for everything that happened before."
“It was my fault. I shouldn’t have lied to you, and I shouldn’t have married you when you had amnesia. I know it was very unfair to you. I admit I did have selfish motives.”
If Su Yueya's amnesia gave Lu Zhengjun an opportunity, then his own selfish motives are the root cause of how things have come to this.
Since she was going to apologize, Lu Zhengjun never intended to gloss over the situation or make excuses for herself.
"Why...why didn't you tell me?" Su Yueya asked.
If Lu Zhengjun had told her that she was mistaken, would the ending have been different?
“I’ve said it once,” Lu Zhengjun explained.
Su Yueya suddenly remembered.
“I only said the beginning, and you couldn’t accept it. You became very emotional and even ended up in the hospital, so I didn’t dare to upset you anymore.”
"Of course, I'm not making excuses; it's just that I handled it wrong. I could have delayed it further..."
He is not without options; he can procrastinate indefinitely.
Ultimately, it all comes down to selfishness.
However, Su Yueya did not think so.
She remembered.
Lu Zhengjun did remind herself once, but what was it again?
Yes, she thought her husband didn't want her anymore. She fainted before she could even finish her sentence. When she woke up in the hospital, she begged her husband not to abandon her.
Lu Zhengjun said that she herself was anxious and uncertain during her amnesia, so how could she have the right to blame him?
If she hadn't fainted or become emotionally agitated, Lu Zhengjun would have told her the truth that day and given her a choice.
Should we leave, or should we stay?
However, due to her physical condition at the time and her desperate pleas, Lu Zhengjun was not given a chance to tell her the truth.
“It’s not your fault,” Su Yueya interrupted Lu Zhengjun’s apology.
I understand.
If we really have to talk about right and wrong, then she was definitely more wrong; she mistook the wrong person for someone else...
All things considered, Lu Zhengjun didn't really do anything to her.
On the contrary, they treated her very well in every way.
Before she mistook her husband for her own, they had only met once on a train, making them strangers who had only met once before.
He took her in and cared for her when she had amnesia. Even if she couldn't be grateful to him, she couldn't possibly resent him.
The apology process seemed to have ended there.
Then what?
Su Yueya said nothing, just lowered her head, like a child who had done something wrong, or like an ostrich burying its head in the sand to escape reality.
They thought that by ignoring or ignoring it, they could avoid facing it.
"So... what are you going to do in the future?" Lu Zhengjun finally asked.
Su Yueya didn't know how to answer.
She herself hadn't thought it through.
Compared to Su Yueya's bewilderment, Lu Zhengjun was more cautious.
He knew he would have to face it eventually.
Regardless of whether the outcome is what he truly wanted.
"Crescent Moon, what do you plan to do next? Do you... want a divorce?"
I finally asked it.
At that moment, Lu Zhengjun understood the feelings of those criminals who were subjected to slow slicing.
I fear both that the knife will fall too quickly and that it will take too long to fall.
"Divorce?!" Su Yueya looked up at Lu Zhengjun in shock.
"But we are in a military marriage."
Can military marriages be dissolved so easily?
These days, Su Yueya has been struggling with this, but when she thinks about how her marriage to Lu Zhengjun is a military marriage, and how she, a woman with no power or influence, has no right to file for divorce.
Besides, deep down she was also resistant to the idea of divorce itself.
This was also the reason why Lu Zhengjun hesitated at the time.
If he were just an ordinary person, marrying Su Yueya wouldn't be so complicated. Once she regains her memories, divorce would be easy for her.
Military marriages are difficult to end, but that doesn't mean they can't end.
Lu Zhengjun had already planned out a way out for Su Yueya.
“No,” Lu Zhengjun said, her eyes firm. “It would be very troublesome, but if you want a divorce, I can definitely make it happen and guarantee that you can leave unscathed. Everything… depends on your wishes.”
Su Yueya was startled.
Judging from Lu Zhengjun's words, he didn't want a divorce.
But if she insists on leaving, he will cooperate.
Su Yueya was once again caught in a dilemma.
Now that the decision was in her own hands, she began to think carefully and weigh the pros and cons.
Are all men like Liu Dekai?
They are all scumbags, not trustworthy, and not worth your effort.
There isn't a single good one among them!
But……
Lu Zhengjun doesn't seem to be that kind of person.
Since their marriage, no, even since she mistook him for someone else, every moment she spent with Lu Zhengjun flashed rapidly through Su Yueya's mind.
Besides deceiving oneself—which is even understandable and for which one must also take responsibility—one must also bear responsibility for it.
But apart from this incident, she couldn't find any fault with Lu Zhengjun at all.
Lu Zhengjun treats her very well, indulging her in everything, big or small. He never speaks harshly to her, and he doesn't leave all the household chores to her. He works with her and doesn't let her serve her in-laws.
Even though he never earned a single penny for the family, he would still entrust all the money to me to manage, and he was never stingy with me.
Emotionally, because he was impotent, he never did anything excessive to himself.
He was very supportive of her going to school, helping her find information about the school, and would get anxious if he heard that someone at school was bullying her.
From this perspective, Lu Zhengjun is truly a very, very good person.
He accommodates himself in every way.
It seems... that we can't just let things continue as they are?
Besides, why should we condemn everyone just because of that scumbag Liu Dekai, and drag Lu Zhengjun down with the label of a bad person?
This is so unfair to Lu Zhengjun!
Even without Liu Dekai, she cannot give up her own happiness.
Su Yueya was deep in thought and remained silent.
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