A good match?
I looked at her, and she stared back at me as if she were sulking, making no attempt to avoid my gaze.
We just stared at each other for a while before I said with a wry smile, "You don't need to do this."
"You deserve a better future."
"A better second half of life."
"Why bother..."
I stopped there.
I really want to say, why do this for me? I don't deserve it.
But I just couldn't bring myself to say it.
After hesitating for a moment, I said something else: "Why are you ruining yourself like this?"
However, the next moment, Song Qingrong suddenly pushed me away and closed the door again. This time I didn't react in time and just watched the door close.
Then Song Qingrong's voice came.
"Xu Ruo, you have no idea what I want."
"Go away, let's never see each other again in this lifetime!"
"Who I marry and whether I live as a widow is none of your business. Stop meddling in other people's affairs."
"I can't just ignore this!" I practically yelled those words.
After yelling, I felt completely exhausted and leaned against the door. I felt very sad. Even though Gu Nianci didn't love me and the Xu family hated me, I had never felt this sad.
I feel like I'm going to lose Song Qingrong completely.
When I found out she loved me, I didn't hesitate to push her away.
But now, I feel as if my heart is being torn apart by a thousand knives.
"We are friends, best friends. You are my only friend."
"Why did we have to get to this point, to the point where we can't even be friends anymore?"
"I can't stand by and watch you marry a dead man. If I just let you jump into that fire pit, I will never forgive myself until I die."
"Please, don't do this!"
"I beg you..."
I held my head in my hands, suddenly at a loss for what to do.
I really want to tell Song Qingrong that I care about her, but I don't know how to bring it up.
Perhaps that's just how people are.
We only know how to cherish something when we are about to lose it, and we only feel sad when we know we have lost it completely. Only when we know we have lost it completely can we understand what it means to be heartbroken and what it means to be irretrievable.
I leaned against the door like that, and I don't know how much time passed until I felt the door open again. I saw that figure again. She was looking at me with red eyes, and under my gaze, she suddenly threw herself into my arms.
"Xu Ruo!"
You bastard!
"You know I love you, you know I can't bear to see you suffer even a little, you know... you know it took me a long time to muster the courage to tell you that I've loved you for a long time."
"But why did you push me away so decisively?"
"Telling me so coldly that you don't love me!"
"Gu Nianci doesn't love you, she doesn't love you!" Song Qingrong kept hitting me. Although it didn't hurt, her words made my heart feel like it was about to break.
"I..." I was speechless and could only hold her like this, listening to her vent her grievances.
"She clearly doesn't love you, she clearly abandoned you, why can't you let go..."
"You said I have a better future ahead of me."
"I have a better second half of my life ahead of me."
"But have you ever thought about your future, about the rest of your life?"
I said bitterly, "I'm sorry..."
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