I thought for a moment and shook my head, saying, "I don't actually know either."
"Before I met you, she was my only friend in the world. Maybe it's because I got married that I never had any feelings for her."
"Then why, now... you..." Yan Yin hesitated, unable to finish her sentence.
I said with a wry smile, "Because I'm getting a divorce."
"Or rather, my marriage was dead in name only from the very beginning."
"And she waited for me until she found out I was getting a divorce, and then she finally told me that she loved me."
"Can……"
“I will die, I really will die. I don’t dare to accept her love, and I don’t deserve to accept her love. So when I found out that she loved me, I did not hesitate to push her away.”
“I think…she deserves a better future, a better life.”
"But I never expected that she would choose to marry a dead man."
“When I found out, I felt like I was going crazy. I wanted to ask her not to do it, but when I found her, I realized that I had no right to stop her.”
"I never expected to run into her here again..."
"But it seems like I've really lost her completely."
"Yan Yin, tell me, was I wrong?"
“I don’t know…” Yan Yin shook her head and said, “If I were you, I might do the same.”
"But she is not you."
"She probably doesn't know you're going to die, does she?"
I nodded slightly.
"Perhaps you can tell her."
Yan Yin thought for a moment and said, "I can tell that even though she said those things, she still loves you very much. It's just that now her love for you seems to have turned into a kind of pain."
"This isn't fair to her either."
"But if you know I'm going to die, or witness my own death, wouldn't you feel pain?" I looked at Yan Yin, puzzled.
Yan Yin shook her head and said, "When my father was sick, he didn't want to tell my mother and me at first. During that time, his temper became very bad. He would often scold my mother and even chased us away several times."
“My mother hated him a lot back then.”
“But my mother told me that she hated my father because she didn’t understand why he suddenly stopped loving her. She said that if my father had a reason for not loving her, she would never hate him again.”
“During that time, Mom was like a different person. She didn’t like to smile or talk. But when we found out that Dad was sick, Mom became happy again.”
"She accompanied her father on his final journey."
"She told me that day."
She said: "Dad is gone. I am so sad, but I am also happy. I am happy that he still loves me, and I am happy that I will still have the courage to remember him in the future."
She said: "Yan Yin, if you ever encounter a situation where you have to leave someone, you must tell that person so that they know you don't really want to leave."
You cannot deprive someone who loves you of their right to choose.
"How will you know what choice she will make if you don't tell me?"
At this point, Yan Yin looked at me and said seriously, "I think Mom is right."
"You kept it a secret because you didn't want to upset that older sister."
“But I can see that your deception may have already cost her half her life.”
"Was I wrong?" I stared blankly in the direction where Song Qingrong was no longer visible.
"Even if you want to refuse, you should give that woman a chance to choose."
Even if you don't love her, you should still tell her the real reason you rejected her, shouldn't you?
At that moment, Yan Yin seemed to suddenly become less shy and timid.
As I pondered her words, she whispered again, "Are you worried that the same thing will happen?"
"You don't need to worry. If... if that other woman makes the same choice in the end, at least neither of you will have any regrets."
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