Chapter 75 Brother, here I come.
Xia Yuan woke up and felt a dull pain somewhere in his body.
Memories flooded back, and the events of last night came rushing back like a salty tide.
My brother told me not to drink...
Is this the price of drinking too much?
It hurts so much. I held my waist and it feels like it's about to break, and... it's burning.
It hurts so much!
Shi Liu and the others all said that the prince was so powerful on the battlefield that Shuang'er couldn't stand it, and it turned out to be true.
The back of my head was throbbing with pain, and I touched my forehead and felt that I had a fever.
Brother...why did you do this to me?
So...he has always been hiding something so dark in his heart?
A dark struggle...suppressing all emotions.
Xia Yu'an thought back to the past and realized that it was no wonder that she refused to share a room with him at first. They had slept together before and everything was explained to them.
elder brother...
Xia Yu'an had never seen this side of her brother before.
Yesterday, I was really scared by my brother's condition.
But... more of it is heartache...
After sleeping with him, I felt like I was his.
Xia Yu'an's face flushed.
How could you think like that!
He tightly grasped the bed sheet, his fingers slowly tightened, revealing his rouge-colored knuckles.
Only then did I feel that I was being forced by my brother.
The more I think about it, the angrier I get!
Xia Yu'an threw herself back onto the bed, feeling as if her body was about to break into pieces.
He showed no mercy at all!! Not gentle at all!!
As a result, I almost fell into a coma last night and didn't know anything.
I hate him! I hate my brother! When he comes back, I will definitely...
Xia Yu'an was sulking in the room, swearing and cursing, with no place to vent the turmoil in his heart.
Really angry!!
Why, why don't you tell yourself? Do you have such a thought?
They are...
well!
Moreover! That guy doesn't know how to feel pain at all, it hurts so much!
Wait for him to come back...wait for him to come back...
Xia Yu'an was so angry that he didn't want to eat anymore. He felt unwell and smashed several bowls.
The sound of the bowl foil breaking and falling to the ground, Shi Liu heard it at the door and was extremely worried: "Young Master... Young Master..."
"Calm down, don't be angry, eat something..."
She got up in the morning to help with the morning routine and tidy up the bed, only to find out...
The young master is favored by His Royal Highness the Crown Prince...
Finally...
While Shi Liu breathed a sigh of relief, she was also a little worried about the young master's health!
Therefore, he asked the kitchen to prepare porridge, soup, and side dishes early in the morning and serve them to Xia Yu'an.
Unexpectedly, the young master not only refused to eat, but also broke several bowls!
It's like... like the cat that was angry at the vase being moved down.
"Master, what are you so angry about? Isn't this a good thing?"
"Good news?"
"His Royal Highness is your husband!"
"Husband..." Yes, yes, in this life, they are not brothers, he is his husband.
Why... after being treated like this by him, he was not angry? He even had a hint of secret joy in his heart?
I don't reject doing this at all... Is that right?
Xia Yu'an couldn't figure it out.
"Where did he go?!"
"I don't know. I didn't see him this morning... Sixteen said that he was on guard and His Highness seemed to have gone out late at night..."
Damn it, he must have gone to the enemy's lair!!
The old nest is neither far nor near. It is not in Yuejiang, but in a town near the outskirts of Beijing, which is hidden from the public.
Big bad guy!
I was in so much pain last night that I fainted. I didn't even know when he passed away!
Xia Yuan felt dizzy for a while.
He touched his forehead.
Oh no, I seem to have a fever.
Haha! Big bad guy, big bad guy brother!
Just don't come back!
Don't want to see him!
Xia Yuan regained consciousness and looked out the window, only to find that it had been raining heavily in the sky for who knows how long.
But he was sleeping so deeply and was so angry when he woke up that he didn't notice it.
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The first quarter of the Mao hour.
The morning light is dim.
A man in red appeared at the entrance of the town alley.
The man was standing in the dim light, his body was mottled red and white. Upon closer inspection, I realized that it was actually a snow coat.
Xia Silan covered his abdomen, holding the sword in his hand, letting the light rain fall through his hair.
His steps became increasingly unsteady, but when he thought of someone, a smile appeared on his thin lips.
He raised the back of his hand, wiped the blood from the corner of his lips in the rain, and looked in the direction of home.
Rain and peace... Rain and peace...
Youngest...
His wife...
Maybe...brother...can't hold on long enough to go back and see you...
Even if...even if I can hold on, how long can I live...
He himself knows what this body looks like.
This is the power of the plot, the power of heaven, and it cannot be changed.
No matter what changes you want to make...
Just like in the previous life, his youngest son inevitably left him.
But……
Xia Silan lowered his eyes.
Can he and his youngest son really wait until that day?
In the next life, we will meet again one day.
In his previous life, he could still find rifts in time and space.
Because that is the power of the stars.
But in this life...
It is the ancient time of low magic...
Where is he going...how can he...break the void.
Only...
The only way is to... make a foolproof plan to ensure his safety for the rest of his life.
Everything that happened last night, all the things that I did to him, were unavoidable.
But he... in the end I still feel sorry for him.
youngest child.
Feel sorry……
Brother...I can't be with you in this life...
but……
But I will do my best to ensure that you have enough food and clothing.
The superior status.
No one can shake it.
His life was coming to an end.
But the youngest son's days are still long.
The youngest is still so young.
He can live for many, many years and see many wonderful things.
Instead of being seriously ill like him.
Just let him... drag this sick body and do one last thing for him.
The sparks in Xia Silan's eyes were reflected in the rain, creating little fluorescent glows.
Not far away, an early-rising candied hawks vendor had just set out on the street.
"Boss, how much is this Tanghulu?"
"Huh?"
The boss looked up and was stunned when he saw the person in front of him. He had just put the candied haws into the stall and hadn't opened it yet, but he didn't expect to welcome the first customer.
However, this man seemed a little feral, just standing there in the rain, looking like a spent force, a little sick, and injured. However, his snowy hair could not conceal his noble aura.
He pointed with his fingers: "Three..."
"Sir, do you need any help?"
"No, thank you."
Xia Silan threw a gold ingot to the stall owner: "No need for change."
The last sound dissipated in the wind.
The stall owner then realized that the red on the body of the anxious and unsteady figure was not its original color...
Looking down, I saw the faint traces of blood on the ground among the footprints of the man who left.
Xia Silan held a candied haws in one hand and placed the other on his abdomen. In his arms, there was a letter to his brother written for him.
If he returns safely, then this letter will be unnecessary...
If he...
I hope An'er won't be so sad after reading this.
He held the candied hawks in his hand and tried to hurry back.
Heavy rain poured down on Xia Silan.
A little closer, a little closer...
He dismissed all his men and wanted to leave quietly, but in the end, he couldn't help it... he wanted to take one last look at his youngest son.
People are always selfish. Even when they are dying, they cannot escape from that tiny expectation and struggle to go home.
youngest child.
Forgive my brother's selfishness.
Or I want to take you and make you my own, in that way.
Regardless of your wishes, act recklessly.
Brother, you are really a lunatic.
Don't learn from your brother.
Forgot my brother.
Maybe it's for the best…
In the rain, Xia Silan finally ran out of energy, and the cool beauty fell to the ground in the water... In her hand she was still tightly holding the candied haws she bought for her youngest son.
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Xia Yu'an angrily knocked over several bowls in the house.
I realized it later and became more and more worried.
But the kitten still insisted: "Brother, I hate you! I dislike you! Today will not be over until you finish eating these leftovers!"
Humph, I'll settle the score with you when you come back!
Suddenly, there was a commotion outside the courtyard, and it seemed that someone was calling "Crown Prince, Crown Princess".
Xia Yu'an was delighted and went to greet him with the bowl in hand, regardless of etiquette.
My brother must be hungry. The cat can't eat these leftovers. Give them all to him!
But……
The figure of the jade tree standing in the wind is nowhere to be seen.
What came in were stretchers and straw mats.
The stretcher was made in a sloppy manner, but the quilt on the straw mat looked like it had been changed.
It's silk and satin, but why does it cover the head?
The white cloth is so luxurious, but how can it cover my brother's face?
Do you have a cold?
Sick Sen* late* cleaned up?
Can't stand the wind?
Won't you be unable to breathe?
"What are you doing?" Xia Yu'an heard himself stiffen and said empty-headedly.
The sound was so light that it almost disappeared in the wind.
"Your Highness the Crown Prince's Consort." Everyone knelt on the ground with white silk wrapped around their heads.
"What are you doing?"
"What does this mean?"
Xia Yu'an's face turned paler and paler. He forced a smile and felt that his legs were no longer his own.
"It's not what I thought, is it?"
"You just feel sorry for not protecting your master well enough and causing him to get hurt!"
"Crown Princess..." Everyone looked up at him, tears in their eyes.
"Brother...Brother...no..."
"My husband, my husband...!" Xia Yu'an's steps were unsteady, and she could hardly breathe. She took two or three steps and came to the stretcher.
Xia Yu'an looked at everyone in disbelief.
"Did you know that he is the God of War of Dashao? He is the current prince and the heir of Beichen!"
Everyone knelt down and said, "I'm sorry, Princess."
"It's because the subordinates failed to protect their master."
"Please accept my condolences..."
"My condolences. What condolences are there?"
Xia Yu'an lifted the white cloth covering Xia Silan.
My brother's face was pale, as if he was asleep.
Xia Yu'an picked him up and held him in his arms. His brother closed his eyes. Xia Yu'an felt his warmth slowly cooling down in his palms.
Xia Yu'an's fingers were trembling, and he could hardly believe what was happening.
"Young Master, please...don't be too sad..."
Xia Yuan kept stroking Xia Silan's face with his hands.
Such a handsome brother, a gentle brother, a cold brother, a brother who would take care of him and also punish him, a brother with snow-white hair that looked just a little bit white.
Xia Yu'an lowered his head and whispered in his brother's ear: "Brother, wake up, wake up..."
"I...younger...No, I have been waiting for you."
"I'll do whatever you want, okay?"
"I won't disobey again."
Xia Yuan hugged the person for a very long time.
It lasted so long that everyone's legs became numb from kneeling.
Some people couldn't bear to see this and tried to comfort her by pulling Xia Yu'an's hand away.
"I am a doctor, a physician!"
"He'll be fine."
"Get out, get out!"
In an instant, Xia Yu'an's eyes became fierce and unlike those of ordinary people. Everyone was frightened by the fierceness in Xia Yu'an's eyes.
He was like a broken, angry cat, not allowing anyone to get close to him.
Brother...why...why did you abandon our youngest child?
Why did you leave me after doing that?
Do you know how much I hate you!!
"You are not allowed to die. I have not yet started to hate you. Hate lasts longer than love. If you live again, I will hate you for the rest of my life. Only then will I have paid off this debt."
Everyone lowered their heads silently, bent their waists and prepared to leave, when Xia Yu'an suddenly said.
"etc"
"Pomegranate."
"Go...get some money to thank them."
Shi Liu bit her lower lip with tears in her eyes and choked up, "Yes, Master."
After seeing the bloodshot last night, she realized that the young master had just consummated his marriage with the prince.
cocoa……
After much difficulty, they fell in love with each other and truly agreed to each other, but...
Separated by yin and yang.
Everyone left, leaving only the people in Lin Xiyuan and Xia Silan's direct and trusted subordinates.
"You said you would go out with me."
"Why did you break your promise?"
"Speak."
Xia Yu'an shook him vigorously: "Go ahead and tell me."
Xia Yu'an never thought that he would watch his brother leave right in front of him.
My brother has always been so omnipotent.
In his previous life, when he was most anxious and helpless, he saw his brother's counterattack.
If he can even kill in a plot, what else can't my brother do?
When faced with such a powerful disaster dragon bird, the elder brother also blocked all the disasters by himself.
My brother is always confident and sure of victory.
Whatever you do, you will succeed...
"You said you would compensate me."
“Is this compensation?”
Suddenly, the gate of Lin Xiyuan was opened and the imperial edict arrived.
Xia Yu'an held Xia Silan in his arms. The sound of the steward reading the imperial edict passed through his ears like water flowing over his eardrums, and he could not hear it clearly.
The content is about thanking the prince for his contribution, such as killing the leader of "Tianyou" and making great achievements. As the widow of King Beichen, Xia Yuan inherited all the property and took charge of the Beichen Palace.
"I will take charge of Beichen on your behalf and take over your title as the new King of Beichen. I respectfully accept this."
What's the use of these...
Suddenly I remembered what my brother said.
"When my husband dies, all the property will be yours."
Xia Yu'an held his hand and pressed it against his face.
Finally, tears fell like rain.
Is this your plan?
"You wanted me and turned me from a brother into a wife." His voice was trembling.
"Why did you abandon me again?"
“Brother…Brother!”
Xia Yu'an threw himself into Xia Silan's icy arms.
"Hold me."
"If that's the price, I don't want it."
"I won't resist."
"You can do whatever you want, okay?"
"I won't be stubborn anymore."
"You want me, I'll give it to you."
"I'll be good, okay?"
"It's just... it just hurts a little... Can you be a little softer?"
But the warm hands of the past will never hold him again.
Xia Yu'an held Xia Silan tightly in his arms and they leaned against each other.
Without any gap, he could feel the residual warmth of Xia Silan's body.
Cool... Cool...
elder brother……
The wind and rain came in from under the eaves, wetting Xia Yu'an's clothes and falling on Xia Silan's white hair.
Xia Yu'an suddenly touched something in Xia Silan's arms.
A candied haws fruit held tightly in the palm of one's hand.
A white letter.
Raindrops floated on Xia Yu'an's black hair and merged with Xia Silan's snowy hair, entangled with life and death.
He gently unfolded it and saw "A Letter to My Brother" written on it.
"Death is not the end, forgetfulness is."
“It is because of death that people can live brilliantly.”
"Death gives meaning to life."
“Live your life well.”
Xia Yu'an crumpled the letter into a ball and held it in the palm of his hand.
Shi Liu came over with the soup bowl, her eyes red, and she wiped her tears with her sleeve: "Young Master, please eat something."
"No."
Xia Yu'an stood up and said, "You guys eat. Sixteen, help me."
Sixteen hurried over: "What?"
"Help me move him inside, Pomegranate, and go find some herbs."
"What herbs?"
Xia Yu'an went into the house, picked up a pen, and with a wave of his hand, wrote down what was needed.
"What is this...?"
The master is already dead!!
Why does Young Master need herbs? Is he crazy?
She knew that the young master was in pain, and she was in pain too. Without a master, everyone in Lin Xiyuan was in pain, but, but...
"Just go when I tell you to. Stop talking nonsense."
"Yes." Shi Liu did not dare to be presumptuous, and secretly left the palace at night to get the medicine.
Xia Yuan walked slowly to the study.
Those medicines are secret methods to ensure that the body will not decay after death.
He discovered it when he was studying the poison of Miaojiang snakes.
Although...But...
He hopes his brother can stay with him.
Xia Yu'an turned on the light and found what Xia Silan had left behind.
I wrote "Letter to My Brother" countless times.
It can be seen that Xia Silan had written a lot, but revised them all. Some were still pressed under the paper, and some were thrown into the paper basket.
There was even one that said...
"Letter to my wife".
Brother, what were you thinking when you wrote these three words?
The late summer rains continued to fall, the night was like a curtain, covering the blue sky.
In the living room, Xia Silan just lay in his usual wheelchair with his eyes closed and a peaceful expression.
Pomegranates and sixteen stood on the sides.
Xia Yu'an squatted beside the stove on the ground and put the papers into the flames.
He looked at them one by one, with a blank expression on his face, and let the flames sweep away everything.
Only the "Letter to My Wife" was left.
The rain fell like beads on the porch.
"Young Master, why..." Shi Liu bit her lip.
"If he doesn't want me to see it, I won't see it."
"That's great. I don't want to hear his bullshit."
How can death make life more brilliant? Do you think I would be willing to live alone without you?!
Will I be happy?
elder brother!
You still don’t understand me enough!
Just like... just like you don't understand how I'll react when I know everything.
"There are still many things we need to understand about each other, right?" Xia Yu'an took a warm towel and gently wiped the blood and wounds for him.
It's like talking to your lover of all your life.
Pomegranate was startled.
Young Master...why do you have such a look in your eyes?
They are obviously newlyweds.
But...but the master...is already dead!
"You all get out."
"yes……"
The door was locked. Xia Yu'an knew that Shi Liu was not locked up to death because he was worried, but he couldn't care less.
Xia Yu'an held Xia Silan's cold hand and pressed it against his cheek.
He knelt on the cold ground, unaware of anything, and said in a soft and aggrieved tone: "Brother."
"Look at the youngest."
"OK?"
"Wake up, please?"
"Aren't you omnipotent?"
"Isn't it the most capable of creating miracles?"
"You even killed those people."
"This world line has been flattened by you."
“Why?”
"Why won't you wake up and look at me?"
"Is this the only thing you can't do?"
"Do you really have to leave me?"
The kitten rubbed against his palm again and again.
I don't mind that it's just a cold shell.
The kitten wrapped its arms around Xia Silan's neck and pressed itself tightly against him.
My face was pressed against my brother's profile, and the fragrance from his body was still there.
Only in this way can I feel at ease...
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In just a few days, Xia Yu'an lost a lot of weight.
He has been with...the corpse these days.
Use the best incense and the best medicinal herbs for Xia Silan, wipe his body, and change his clothes.
Inseparable.
If the master were still alive, Shi Liu would have to praise them, saying that the two of them were simply the most loving couple in the world.
Our hearts are connected. A few short words, or even just a glance, can express a lifetime of friendship. We have such tacit understanding.
But... my lord... there is only a body left!
Xia Yu'an's figure now is similar to that of Xia Silan when he was sick.
"Young Master."
"Guyang Yinpu is here to visit." Shi Liu wanted to say something but didn't dare to, nor did he dare to persuade him, so he could only report the truth.
Xia Yu'an closed his eyes: "Let him in."
"Princess Beichen." The person who came was the owner of the silver shop. He was fat and wore brown clothes with a few gold ornaments. He had the nobility of a businessman.
The shopkeeper bowed and explained his purpose.
It turned out that my brother had left a lot of property there.
"The prince asked me to take charge and act as a witness, and he also told me... that if he passed away, he would leave all these properties to you."
The keeper of the silver shop made out a long list of his property.
"Princess, please take a look."
"These... are all what he left for me?" Xia Yu'an was stunned. He looked at the items above, and there were too many to count on one page, so he turned another page.
Brother, when was it...?
This is not just the palace’s business.
"That's right. His Royal Highness not only has great political ideas, but also has great insights into business and investment." The shopkeeper showed admiration: "What a pity, what a pity... at such a young age..."
Xia Yu'an clenched the catalogue in his hand. The entire Beichen, the title of King of Beichen, so many industries, that's brother, is this the confidence you left for me?
Is it compensation?
No, probably not.
Was it because I had known this day would come, so that I could live a good life?
I still remember the way my brother said that he would leave all his property to me. His voice and smile are still ringing in my ears.
But, brother, how can I live well without you?
At this time, the people in the palace and Lin Xiyuan's subordinates came over and walked into the house. Xia Yu'an was alert: "What are you doing?"
"Young Master...it's the seventh day."
"My Lord... Your Highness, it's time to go."
The page of the book slipped from Xia Yu'an's hand.
Everyone carried Xia Silan out of the room and put him into the coffin.
This time, Xia Yu'an did not stop it.
It's so quiet.
Shi Liu had trouble falling asleep the whole night. The young master was really abnormal!
The next day.
The hall was hung with white silk, and people dressed in white knelt before Xia Silan's coffin.
The wind blew the white silk, and everyone's eyes were filled with grief.
Xia Yu'an suddenly broke into the mourning hall and rushed towards the black coffin containing Xia Silan!
Everyone rushed to pull it!
"No...get him out..."
"Give him back to me...Give him back to me!"
"I am the Crown Prince's Consort... Could it be that you...can't hear me?"
It must be cold in there, brother.
What will happen to him if he is alone without him?
My brother has such a cold personality, he definitely wouldn't like sleeping in a place that's so cold.
Xia Yu'an knew that her brother also needed warmth.
Although he has a warm family, his brother has encountered many troubles due to his outstanding appearance.
It may even bring disaster to one's life or family.
Those explosive and unbelievable plots happened to my brother one by one.
Xia Yu'an didn't know if he was the older brother, would he have collapsed over and over again...
He wants to accompany him.
He wouldn't allow him to be buried!
He must not be buried in the cold earth, alone and in darkness from then on.
At night, Xia Yu'an was wearing white clothes for keeping vigil, holding Xia Silan who was wearing red clothes.
Xia Silan was placed gently, carefully, and softly on the bed.
He sat astride Xia Silan's waist, unbuttoned his own collar, then leaned over and unbuttoned Xia Silan's.
Pieces of clothes were thrown in front of the red gauze tent.
There was a faint fragrance in the room.
The pretty little beauty leaned over, gently stroked Xia Silan's eyebrows, and kissed his cold lips.
The tent was draped with gauze and red candles flickered, leaving only the clean shadow of the boy's shoulders outside the tent.
“Brother…brother.”
"I won't leave you."
"Don't leave me either."
"OK?"
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early morning.
Mottled sunlight shone through the window sill and fell on Xia Yu'an.
Xia Yu'an got up, dressed calmly, and was served by Shi Liu, just like every day before.
In the remaining light of the pomegranate tree, she caught sight of a figure in red behind a red curtain and was startled.
She felt distressed and anxious, but she didn't dare to ask or say anything.
It's good enough that the young master can maintain this state.
"Young Master, today you will be appointed as the King of Beichen. Young Master, you..."
"rest assured."
…
Today, the world is peaceful and prosperous.
Xia Yu'an, wearing Xia Silan's golden ribbon and flower belt, walked the same way he came.
Step on the flowers he steps on and see the scenery he sees.
Holding the Jade Edict in his hand, he walked on the high platform leading to his title of king.
Here, you can see the scenery of the entire Shaoxing city.
That day, at the spring banquet on the high platform, she kissed him passionately in a red dress.
Now in autumn I am guarding the palace, dressed in red, still missing him.
When I went there in the past, the poplars and willows were swaying.
Today I think about it, it is raining and snowing.
Brother, did you see it?
Or heard in another world?
I don't know where your feelings come from.
But I already understood that they had been in love since the Spring Banquet.
Those deep, secret, unknown emotions have tortured you and kept you awake for so many late nights.
I don't blame you for what you did that day.
I just regret that I wasn't the one who left before you in the end.
Longing for love, longing to be awake and longing to be drunk.
Long life, long wandering, long confusion, long being a guest.
He was covered in glory and had the crown of King Beichen worn on his head.
Xia Yu'an held the jade edict in his hand and took the document representing the king.
Become who he wants to be.
Looking back, he saw the entire city of Dashaojing covered with flowers, but not a single one of them was him.
And all of them are him.
This is what he wanted.
The path he prepared for him.
Can't cry.
Can't cry.
Xia Yu'an, you have to be strong.
…
Seven days later.
Thousand Buddha Temple.
"Shenxing, is there any way I can meet him again in my next life?"
"I don't know."
"But I can go for a walk with you."
"Go and worship the gods and Buddhas, maybe it will help?"
"I don't believe in gods or Buddhas."
Xia Yu paused: "He doesn't believe it either."
"Just to relax and find some comfort." Shenxing stood up, brushed his body and smiled.
"You can't keep quiet all the time."
The two came to Yue Lake, stood on a tall cruise ship, and looked at the scenery of the lake and river.
Now that the times are peaceful and prosperous, it seems that everything has changed and is so full of vitality.
Only the moonlit lake in front of the door, and the autumn wind do not change the old waves.
Is loneliness the norm, and is liveliness always short-lived?
You taught me how to meet, how to be happy, how to say goodbye, how to enjoy the simple pleasures of life, and how to achieve true love.
You are in my joy, you are in my sorrow, and you are also in my dreams.
The cruise ship slowly crossed to Guanyin Temple.
"Go and worship, it's very effective." Shenxing said with a smile.
Xia Yu'an turned around and looked at him.
It was clear in his eyes: he didn't believe it either, he just wanted comfort.
Xia Yuan looked towards the temple where white smoke was curling up.
The incense is burning and people are coming and going.
Sitting on the cushion, Xia Yu'an put his hands together and bowed deeply to the statue of Guanyin.
He promoted himself like this and knelt for a very long time.
So long that perhaps even the gods are tired of hearing it.
Shenxing waited outside like this, and when he came out, he held his hand, smiled, and pulled him back to the boat.
The two of them strolled around for a whole day. The night was dark and the moon was bright.
Xia Yu'an recalled the poems his brother had taught him.
Water chestnuts and lotus roots are sold at night markets, and boats are loaded with silk and satin. I know the moon is still awake, and my homesickness is in the fishermen's songs.
"I seem to have been here before in a dream."
"Have you been here in a dream?"
"With him."
The moon and the flowers are moving away, but their reflections in the water are close enough to lean on each other.
The willows in Pingjiang are green, and the flowers and the moon are far away.
"Go back."
"It's time to go home." said Shenxing.
"What?"
"Home, you don't know where to go?"
Xia Yuan was in a trance.
For those without ambition, the road ahead is endless and they have nothing to seek. For those without a home, the road home is long and they have nowhere to go.
"I no longer have a home..."
Now that my brother is gone, where is home?
The third brother who loves him the most.
His lover, his brother.
The mountain light is dark and the sky is clear. I have not let down the Tathagata and you.
I thought this world was peaceful, with beautiful flowers and beautiful scenery. But now I understand for the first time what it means to have no place to rest and no one to rely on.
So what if everything in this world is good?
…
Early in the morning, Xia Yu'an pushed Xia Silan to Red Maple Mountain.
This is where Xuefu was buried, and it was also the place where her brother promised to take her to play.
After the rain, the green of grass floats among the leaves in the forest, and the wind is mixed with the warmth and moisture of withered petals.
There are little rabbits making nests in the green moss and poking their heads out of the soil.
Autumn is the season of withering.
But there is still new life.
What about me, brother, what about us?
Last night I burned the remaining manuscripts myself and put them in the fire.
The raging flames swept the paper away.
I sat alone on the steps for a long time, with rain falling between the curtains.
Joys and sorrows, separations and reunions are always merciless. I'll just sit there dripping on the steps until dawn.
Life is too long, I can't wait.
Osmanthus flowers fell from my hands.
The room is near, but people are far away; I am envious of what I see and hear.
We are often guests in this world, and our hometown is our most beloved place.
Brother, I am going to look for my hometown.
Xia Yu'an pushed Xia Silan across the mountain road and through the fragrant soil.
Hidden in the jungle, there is an abandoned Guanyin temple.
Open your eyes and look at the road ahead; close your eyes and see God.
I look up to the saint morning and night, and the rain continues to fall.
Her Highness Guanyin has an everlasting hatred, while Maitreya is filled with misery.
Ever since what happened to you, I no longer believe in gods or Buddhas.
Believe it or not, you left me in the end.
Xia Yu'an still struggled and went in to pay his respects.
I hope I can meet my brother again in the next life.
Life after life...
Xia Yu'an pushed Xia Silan and continued walking, and finally reached the top of the cliff.
All you see is a sea of fiery red maples.
The sun sets into the distant starry sky, the world suddenly becomes dark, and the mountains and rivers have already entered autumn.
Xia Yu'an held his hand.
"You once said..." Xia Yu'an's hands trembled slightly, and he was a little unsteady: "You want to accompany me to watch the mountains turn red and the forests turn colorful..."
"The beauty remains, but you are not here yet..."
"elder brother."
Xia Yu'an knelt on the ground, resting his head on Xia Silan's lap, and gradually closed his eyes.
I wish the mountains were high and the roads were long, so that I could be with you day and night.
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