Chapter 769 Years of Thinking
"Fine, go by yourself." Huo Zhizhou went along with him, knowing why he was angry. "Do you want me to help you deal with those things? Do you know the procedure?"
Sui Sui: "I don't need your help."
Huo Zhizhou: "So angry?"
Sui Sui: "I'm so angry!"
Huo Zhizhou raised his hand and rubbed his head, saying in a gentle voice, "It is a great thing to admit your mistakes and correct them. Can't you give your father a chance to make amends?"
"You should say that to Mommy." Sui Sui cared about Jiang Ruan's feelings, the mother who had always loved him, guided him correctly, and taught him to distinguish right from wrong since he was a child.
"I've already told her," Huo Zhizhou said, not hiding his past mistakes. "She has no intention of forgiving me for the time being."
Sui Sui: "I don't have any either."
If Mommy won't forgive him, why should he forgive her on her behalf?
What a terrible dad.
They actually hurt Mommy.
If he ever finds out, I'll take out my allowance and throw it in his face, to let him know that Mommy can live a very good life without the jewelry he gives her!
That's what I was thinking.
A thought suddenly flashed through his mind.
He stopped and stared at Huo Zhizhou with his round eyes.
"What's wrong?" Huo Zhizhou noticed his unusual behavior and patted his head to ask.
"If I had taken out my allowance and told you that Mommy doesn't need your jewelry to live a good life, what would you have done?" Sui Sui stared into his eyes, a sad guess in her heart.
Huo Zhizhou's eyes widened slightly: "Why are you suddenly asking this?"
Sui Sui stubbornly demanded an answer: "You tell me."
Huo Zhizhou remained good-natured: "Assuming we don't get a real answer."
“Other things may be like that, but you definitely have the answer to this.” Sui Sui knew him well, and her eyes were more determined than ever before. “When you brought that aunt home, you should have thought that I would see you.”
Huo Zhizhou remained silent.
He did think about it.
He had considered every possible path.
"Why aren't you saying anything?" Sui Sui could tell from his expression that the result was pretty much what she had guessed.
"The result won't be what you want to hear." Huo Zhizhou rubbed his head. "What you should do is look forward, study hard to broaden your experience, and grow up healthily."
Sui Sui pursed her lips, her mood unconsciously becoming heavy: "Will you jokingly tell me that the money was given to me by you, and that I have to earn it myself if I want to support Mommy?"
Huo Zhizhou pursed his thin lips, his dark eyes completely black.
"Or is it that Mommy even has to use money meant for a child?" Sui Sui guessed based on the jewelry incident.
"Yes," Huo Zhizhou admitted.
Back then, he would do anything to make Ruan Ruan stay willingly.
Their methods are despicable, and their intentions are shady.
That's why I pushed her so far away.
“How could you do this?” Sui Sui said seriously. “Mommy is your lover, and I am your child. A family should be united and help each other. How could you create division?”
Huo Zhizhou didn't know why either.
He was furious when he heard that Ruan Ruan wanted to divorce him.
Reason and love were both cast aside in that moment.
He had only one thought in his mind: she was the only family member he had personally chosen, and she should love him and stay with him steadfastly, instead of thinking about separating from him whenever something happened.
Only now do I realize how shallow my feelings were back then.
The first prerequisite for loving someone is respect. If he makes decisions on his own without considering her thoughts or opinions and expects her to accept them, this is inherently wrong.
Besides, he doesn't love her enough, so how can he expect her to love him in return?
Fortunately, Ruan Ruan is kind-hearted. Even though she hasn't forgiven him, she still cares about him, and he has plenty of time to treat her well.
I don't ask for her forgiveness, I only wish for her happiness and health.
"It was Dad's fault. I won't let this happen again." Huo Zhizhou suppressed his emotions, not wanting this to affect his child. "I also won't have such thoughts or ideas again."
Seeing how well he admitted his mistake, Sui Sui suddenly didn't know what to say.
He knew that his father was usually a very good person, cared about his mother, and was very considerate in the details, so why did he become so extreme when it came to that matter?
"I will love you and your mommy well from now on." Huo Zhizhou's voice was low and patient, and his eyes looked at him with the attitude of admitting his mistake.
Year after year, silence fell.
He was angry, angry that his father had hurt his mother so badly.
But then I remembered that my grandparents weren't good to my father.
I remember once when my grandparents came to Ruanyuan to see him while my mother was out running errands. At first, they said he was good-looking and would definitely be as handsome as his father in the future. But as they talked, they said that my mother came from a humble family and that he shouldn't learn everything from her. They also said that he was the young master of the Huo family and would be a superior person when he grew up.
They talked a lot more after that.
They criticized their mother's family background.
They exaggerated his status, saying that everyone should revolve around him and listen to him. He was very young at the time, but he could still understand some of what they said, such as that everyone should revolve around him.
Fortunately, the housekeeper called Dad back in time.
After learning about this, he told him that his grandparents were wrong and that he shouldn't have that kind of thinking, and that he should listen to his mother's teachings more.
Since then, Grandpa and Grandma have had to get Dad and Mom's permission to come to Ruanyuan.
That's how they guided him.
What about when they were supporting their fathers?
Thinking about all this, Sui Sui looked up at him and asked, using the respectful form of address again: "How did Grandpa and Grandma raise you when you were little? Was it the same way you raised me?"
"Why are you asking this?" Huo Zhizhou asked, somewhat surprised.
“People outside often scold children by saying things like, ‘Didn’t your parents teach you anything?’” Sui Sui said in a relatively flat voice, then deliberately lowered her voice as she thought of something else. “You made such a basic mistake; is it because they didn’t guide you properly when you were little?”
Huo Zhizhou looked at him, a hint of gentleness appearing in his dark eyes.
He didn't blame anyone, taking all the responsibility upon himself: "It has little to do with them." Huo Zhizhou patted his head, "I am an adult, and from both a legal and practical perspective, I should be responsible for my words and actions."
Year after year, he hesitated to speak.
I wanted to say something, but swallowed it back when I met those dark eyes.
My father was a very, very good person, and he was very, very good to me.
"Let's go to the kitchen and see if the dishes suit your taste." Huo Zhizhou took his hand. "If they don't suit your taste, I'll have someone prepare something else for you. Otherwise, what if you go back and say I'm mistreating you?"
“It’s abuse,” Sui Sui retorted.
Huo Zhizhou squeezed his hand: "You're abusing him before you've even seen the food?"
Sui Sui: "Yes."
Huo Zhizhou: "So unreasonable?"
Sui Sui: "Eating here is torture."
"Alright, then I'll trouble you to be magnanimous and put up with this for now." Huo Zhizhou knew he was deliberately acting spoiled and angry, so he didn't lecture him. "You can go back and live a good life after your mommy goes back."
Sui Sui pursed her lips and didn't reply.
He kept walking forward with his head down.
Huo Zhizhou led him to the kitchen door and showed him the dishes the chefs were preparing: "Take a look?"
Sui Sui looked over without any expression: "I saw it."
Huo Zhizhou: "That expression? I really don't like it."
Sui Sui wanted to argue back, but after seeing Huo Zhizhou's caring and gentle expression, she swallowed her words and told the truth: "I like it."
"So reluctant?" Huo Zhizhou said.
Sui Sui didn't say anything, and turned to go to the living room.
Huo Zhizhou followed behind him.
Seeing the little guy clearly unhappy and depressed, he couldn't help but feel a little worried. Just as he was about to cheer him up and have a good talk with him, Sui Sui suddenly stopped by the sofa, turned around and looked at him with mixed feelings.
"What's wrong?" Huo Zhizhou asked with concern.
“I care about the hurt you caused Mommy, and I care about all the things you did.” Sui Sui’s childish voice came out, her eyes more serious than ever before. “But I will still love you.”
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