Chapter 551 Jiang Ruan realizes her thoughts were too extreme
The next morning.
Jiang Ruan ate with Sui Sui and the others.
As usual, Li Zhishen arrived halfway through the meal, sat down without any regard for being a guest.
During the meal.
Jiang Ruan glanced at him every now and then, thinking about her conversation with Su Zhu last night.
It's unclear whether she saw it too obviously, or Li Zhishen was too observant.
Ten minutes after finishing breakfast, Li Zhishen found her in the garden, where she was taking a walk and thinking.
"Ruan Ruan," Li Zhishen called to her.
Jiang Ruan stopped and looked at him with the same expression as always: "Uncle Li."
"I noticed you glanced at me several times while you were eating breakfast. Is there something you need to talk to me about?" Li Zhishen asked gently, unlike how he interacted with others, with a hint of caution.
Jiang Ruan looked at him without saying anything.
Li Zhishen took the initiative and said, "Just say what you want to say. Although you don't want to admit it, I am still your father by blood."
"It's nothing." Jiang Ruan hesitated for a moment before saying, "I was just surprised that you would come at that time."
Li Zhishen paused.
Didn't they always come at that time?
Realizing she was lying, he simply pressed her for an answer: "You really didn't come to see me for no reason?"
"No," Jiang Ruan denied.
Regardless of her blood relation to Li Zhishen, they were only in a normal relationship in name.
Use it when needed, and then forget about it afterward.
Ultimately, it went against her true feelings.
This behavior is the same as when Huo Zhizhou was discussing the custody of Sui Sui. If she asks Li Zhishen to do something for her, he will think that she is trying to ease the tension between them.
Over time...
You might have gotten along with him without even realizing it.
Moreover, taking advantage of someone else's guilt is not a respectable act.
She didn't want to become the kind of "child" Huo Zhizhou described, and she didn't want her mother's past experiences to become a joke. It was her mother's decision to let him stay here; they were just ordinary people.
Li Zhishen had no idea that she had imagined so much in such a short time: "But your expression tells me that you have something to talk to me about."
“You’re mistaken,” Jiang Ruan said.
Li Zhishen pursed his thin lips.
He knew that his own daughter still didn't like him.
Seeing that she was unwilling to talk about it, he didn't press her further, afraid that pushing her too hard would upset her.
“I might have misread it,” Li Zhishen said. “But you can always tell me if you need anything, Dad… I’d be happy to help you.”
"Thank you for your kindness." Jiang Ruan replied politely but distantly, her gaze towards him devoid of any impurity.
Li Zhishen felt a little frustrated.
They've been trying to build up their goodwill for a long time.
As a result, An'an and Ruan Ruan were not moved at all.
"You don't need to be so polite with me." Li Zhishen rarely said such things. "I know you care about the hurt I caused your mother back then. I will make amends sincerely, and spend the rest of my life making amends..."
He spoke very sincerely.
The tone was sincere, the attitude was sincere, and the content was sincere.
Jiang Ruan remained unmoved. Perhaps influenced by Huo Zhizhou's words from the previous night, she didn't find him kind; instead, she found him rather annoying.
Does everyone think that as long as you make amends and apologize, you can erase the past hurt and be forgiven?
Perhaps she is a bit extreme.
But seeing them all acting like this, I naturally became a little unfriendly.
“You said before that I didn’t love your mother and didn’t handle those rumors well, but I’ve handled them now.” Li Zhishen wanted her to see his attitude. “If there’s anything I did wrong, you can tell me.”
“I have a question for you,” Jiang Ruan said.
Li Zhishen: "Go ahead."
Jiang Ruan looked at him and asked, "Are you doing all this to make up for the hurt in the past, or is it just to reconcile with Mom?"
Li Zhishen: "?"
Li Zhishen had a slight doubt.
What's the difference?
"Is it hard to answer?" Jiang Ruan asked.
“It’s not hard to answer, but it is a question,” Li Zhishen said, feeling that his daughter was a bit silly. “To rebuild a good relationship, we have to erase the damage from the past.”
"But what if Mom doesn't forgive you in the end—"
The conversation ended abruptly there.
She realized that both she and Li Zhishen could see that their mother could never forgive him.
It's even less likely that she'll reconcile with him.
But he still persisted in coming every day, making his presence felt in various ways.
“Whether you and your mother forgive me or not, you are the people I care about most.” Li Zhishen made his stance clear to her. “I came here simply because I feel that this is home.”
Jiang Ruan didn't know what to say.
Because of what happened with Huo Zhizhou, her thinking became extreme and she became prone to overthinking.
"Soft."
"Um."
"Don't reject the love from others just because of the harm someone has done to you." Li Zhishen could tell that something was wrong with her.
Jiang Ruan did not answer.
Li Zhishen then spoke to her a few more times.
It's clear that he genuinely wants what's best for her.
“You can tell me anything as long as you’re willing,” Li Zhishen said at the end. “I will always stand by you and your mother, indefinitely.”
Jiang Ruan glanced at him.
Indefinite...
This is the most blatant lie.
He probably said this when he was dating his mother.
Just as she was about to say something to end their conversation, her phone rang.
"You answer the phone first, I'll go chat with your grandpa." Li Zhishen gave her some space.
Jiang Ruan hummed in agreement.
After he left, she answered the phone: "Si Ning."
"I've found everything you needed," Si Ning said. "Would you like to come over?"
"I'm coming right away," Jiang Ruan said.
Si Ning said "okay".
Jiang Ruan said goodbye to Jiang An and then went out with Mo Mo.
After she left, Li Zhishen went to find Jiang An and said before Jiang An refused him, "Do you have time? I want to talk to you about Ruan Ruan."
“There’s nothing to talk about,” Jiang An said.
Li Zhishen said, "She seemed a little off when she was chatting with me just now."
Jiang An remained calm: "It will be fine in a while."
Li Zhishen: "You know?"
“Anyone who has gone through what she went through will feel repulsed and physically disgusted by certain people and things,” Jiang An said, adding that she sees everything clearly, “All she needs is time.”
"Not offering guidance?" Li Zhishen didn't really know how to raise a child.
“She’s an adult now and has the ability to think.” Jiang An has always given her child a lot of freedom. “The advice we give may not be suitable for her and may even cause her to get into more confusion and complications.”
She knew her daughter's personality well.
It was also clear that her condition was probably related to Huo Zhizhou coming to see her.
She didn't know what the two of them talked about, and she wouldn't interfere in her affairs until she told her.
"What if she keeps having these negative thoughts?" Li Zhishen asked.
“Then let’s address the root cause,” Jiang An said clearly. “Just cut off those [issues].
Li Zhishen: "Why not cut it off now?"
Jiang An looked at him: "Do you want your elders to make decisions for you?"
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