Chapter 369 It’s not because of loss that I regret
"Master, the tea is ready."
The servant quickly brought the tea and presented it to Song Zhichen.
Song Zhichen took the teacup and asked, "What did the gardener say?"
The servant lowered his head: "He said there was nothing he could do."
During this period of time, Song Zhichen has found countless gardeners to save the tree.
What they were talking about now was the gardener they had found from outside the capital a few days ago. It was said that this man had decades of experience in planting plum blossoms. If he couldn't do it, then there really was no way out.
"Okay, I understand. You can go down now."
Song Zhichen picked up the teacup and took a sip.
He looked at the tree that carried countless memories and felt a bitter taste in his throat.
It is clearly the season for plum blossoms, but they are quietly fading.
Just like Zhou Ying’s feelings for him in the beginning.
When people leave, their things can no longer be kept.
Perhaps flowers and plants also have spirits, and they know that their owner does not want to see him again, so even the plum blossoms are unwilling to bloom in front of him.
After the divorce, Song Zhichen would always secretly inquire about Zhou Ying's news through various channels.
In fact, there is no need to bother to inquire, everything related to Zhou Ying will be passed to his ears one by one.
She opened Yipinlou and then a food court. Later, Zhou Cheng'an was named Marquis of Lin'an by His Majesty, and Zhou Ying became the heir to the title.
He knew all of this, every single thing.
Song Zhichen would savor every rumor about Zhou Ying as if it were a treasure.
Every time Yipinlou and the Food Street held an event, Song Zhichen would clean up and wander around the area, hoping to meet Zhou Ying by chance.
Or maybe it would be nice to be able to see her.
I wonder if even God thought he was a bastard in the past and wouldn’t let him get what he wanted.
In all this time, Song Zhichen had only met Zhou Ying once.
Mingming had countless things he wanted to say to Zhou Ying, but when she looked over, Song Zhichen hid himself.
He didn't dare let her see him in his current state.
Aying is still as bright and charming as before, and even more confident and calm.
It's like a pearl that, after being polished, emits a brilliant glow.
Looking at himself again, he is just a dying man, a walking corpse.
Aying is just like the rising sun.
But he had already fallen on old age.
Duke Weiguo sent the guests away and looked at Song Ye, seeming to want to say something but stopping himself.
Song Ye: "Grandfather, do you have anything to say?"
Duke Wei sighed softly and said, "If you have nothing to do, why not go see your father and give him some good advice."
Ever since Song Zhichen divorced Zhou Ying, Duke Weiguo wanted to find him a second wife.
But he got drunk every day, making himself look like neither human nor ghost.
Later, Song Zhichen suddenly sobered up one day and said that he could not find the amulet that Zhou Ying had asked for him.
No matter how the Duke of Weiguo persuaded him, he insisted on going to the temple to ask for another one.
Duke Weiguo couldn't persuade him, so he sent people to follow Song Zhichen.
I don’t know if it was retribution, but when the carriage reached the middle of the mountain road, huge rocks suddenly rolled down from the mountain walls on both sides.
The huge rock came suddenly and the driver was unable to dodge it, and was finally hit by the carriage.
Although Song Zhichen was quickly found and treated by people from the Duke's Mansion, his legs would never heal and he could never stand up again.
Not only that, Song Zhichen also lost his fertility.
At that time, Song Zhichen was seriously injured and kept muttering Zhou Ying's name, wanting to see her again.
Duke Wei couldn't bear it and wanted to send someone to invite him, but was stopped by Song Ye.
The Chinese New Year was approaching, and Song Ye didn't want to cause trouble for his mother.
I don’t want to bring bad luck to my mother before the New Year.
It is unlucky to meet some people once in your life.
Since we've already divorced, there's no need to see each other again.
After Song Zhichen woke up, he was completely different.
He no longer drank alcohol, but would run to Zhou Ying's former yard from time to time and stay there for the whole day.
For the Duke of Weiguo, although Song Zhichen can no longer stand up, it is better than before.
Although it still looks sad, at least it is not a puddle of mud anymore.
Duke of Wei: "People always regret things only after they lose them. Your father was like that."
After a pause, he sighed again: "But people always have to look forward. He has also learned his lesson. Go and ask him to have lunch with you later. Only if you go will he be willing to come out of that yard."
No matter how bad he is, he is still his son.
He still couldn't bear to see Song Zhichen depressed for the rest of his life.
As long as Song Zhichen is willing, Duke Weiguo will definitely find a suitable successor for him.
It doesn't matter if her family background is low, as long as she is willing to live a good life with Song Zhichen and let him live like a human being.
Song Ye lowered his eyes slightly: "Grandson knows."
He would visit his father and also try to persuade him to cheer up.
But the others can’t be done.
He knew that his grandfather's unspoken intention was to ask him to forgive his father.
I even want my mother to forgive my father as well.
Because Grandfather thought he had learned his lesson.
My grandfather also knew that only if they all forgave my father would he be able to move on from the past.
Just like my mother, I started my own life again.
But my grandfather was wrong.
At least for his father, regret does not come from loss.
But there is no better alternative.
The reason why my father is now depressed and unable to recover is that.
Because he had long realized that he would never find a better wife than his mother.
It is precisely because of this that he is even less worthy of forgiveness.
Everything he is going through now is his own fault.
My father’s remorse now is real, and his guilt is also real.
But not all apologies can be forgiven.
My grandfather pity my father because he is his own flesh and blood.
And he is also his father's flesh and blood.
My grandfather believed that because of the blood relationship, he would definitely forgive my father.
I would even persuade my mother to forgive my father together.
But my grandfather forgot one thing: he and my mother were blood relatives.
Since his grandfather protected his father, he should protect his mother.
The mother finally escaped from the quagmire and regained her own life.
He would not allow any dirt and dust to taint her current life.
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When Song Ye found Song Zhichen, he was sitting in a wheelchair, staring blankly at the tree.
Hearing the footsteps coming from behind, Song Zhichen turned his head, and when he saw the face of the person coming, his body trembled slightly.
Unexpectedly, Song Ye would take the initiative to come to this yard to find him.
"Ye'er, aren't you and your grandfather receiving guests in the main hall?"
Song Zhichen was satisfied with his eldest son from the bottom of his heart. He admitted that no matter from which aspect, Song Ye was far better than him.
He was very grateful to Zhou Ying. Without her, the Duke's Mansion would not have such an outstanding heir.
Song Ye walked up to Song Zhichen and said, "Ye'er is here on grandfather's orders to invite father to have lunch together."
Song Zhichen was slightly startled, then nodded: "Okay."
He hadn't had a meal with his father and Ye'er for a long time.
Even for the New Year's Eve dinner, they went to the palace to eat, while he ate in his house.
After saying this, Song Zhichen looked at Song Ye again, and said pleadingly, "Ye'er, can you stay here with your father for a while?"
Song Ye said calmly: "Okay."
After getting a positive answer, Song Zhichen smiled.
He looked at Song Ye and suddenly said -
"In the past, your mother loved to practice swordplay under this tree."
Song Zhichen held the heater in his hands, as if he saw Zhou Ying dancing with a sword under the tree.
In the past, Zhou Ying loved to practice sword dancing in this place. Occasionally, the wind blew, and the tiny petals would fall, floating in her hair and on her body.
It's like a beautiful painting.
Song Zhichen seemed to be immersed in the past, and talked about the past: "At that time, she also said that she would teach you swordsmanship personally. But later, she was burdened by trivial matters in the mansion and gave up this idea."
Song Zhichen's biological mother died young, and Duke Weiguo never remarried.
Therefore, as soon as Zhou Ying got married, she became the mistress of the Duke's Mansion and was in charge of the household affairs.
Song Zhichen's tone was a little regretful: "Actually, it's all my fault. She is a soaring eagle and shouldn't be trapped in the backyard."
Song Ye never said a word, just stood there quietly.
Thinking back to the past Zhou Ying, Song Zhichen's heart was filled with emotions and he was stunned for a moment.
When the carriage was hit by the boulder, the person he thought of was Zhou Ying.
More than ten years have passed in a flash, but the vow we made that day to stay together until old age is still ringing in my ears.
But then, many things happened and we were strangers when we met again.
At that moment, he thought he was going to die and his heart was filled with regret.
He hasn't gone to the temple to get the amulet yet.
After waking up, Song Zhichen never mentioned going to the temple to ask for talismans again.
No matter how many talismans he got, they would not be the one Zhou Ying gave him.
Just like that time that can never be returned.
A gust of wind blew by, and Song Zhichen was a little dazed, and he put up his sleeves and came back to his senses.
"Ye'er, no matter what you want to do in the future, your father will do his best to support you."
Song Ye smiled and said, "Father, the wind is strong, let's go back."
Some things didn't exist before and are no longer needed now.
Song Zhichen pursed his lips and said bitterly, "Okay."
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