【40. Secret Love】
"I thought you two were done for, and I was going to keep this a secret from you for the rest of my life." Bai Zhian said helplessly, "But after graduation, you got together again. He asked me what color I liked and what I liked to eat, in order to understand your preferences."
Cheng Qingxing sneered after listening to Bai Zhian's words.
"What did you say to him?"
"I said you like money, but weren't you extremely poor at that time?"
Bai Zhian's words actually left him speechless.
At that time, I was indeed short of money, and the information I posted on my Moments was mostly job-seeking information.
He recommended himself to several film crews but failed to get a role. Later, he tried to play a minor role but found that there was not much money and life was hard anyway.
"It's okay. You're not wrong. I really liked money at that time."
"Yes, who doesn't like money!" Bai Zhian said confidently, "He said that you two acted in a movie called "Desire to Kill", and you became close, so he asked how he could make you like him as well."
Cheng Qingxing frowned, Zheng Xuhe, you didn’t have a girlfriend before, right?
"What did you say?"
"I asked him, you've never been in a relationship? Don't you know how to pursue someone?"
Bai Zhian's tone was arrogant, and it sounded like he was a little drunk.
"I've already thought about what you would say." Cheng Qingxing thought of Zheng Xuhe's performance during the time they were in love, and smiled helplessly.
During that period, Zheng Xuhe visited him almost every day, brought him flowers, food and drinks, and often bought him expensive gifts. In short, everything was related to money.
At that time, Cheng Qingxing felt a lot of pressure.
Zheng Xuhe didn't seem to be chasing him, but rather wanted to throw money at him.
Later, they started dating, and Zheng Xuhe even used money to measure everything they needed.
As long as the gifts are expensive, the most popular ones are watches and cars.
At that time, he really thought he was being kept by someone, so when his family urged him to get married, he said that he was in a relationship with Zheng Xuhe.
At that time, Zheng Xuhe had already become famous, so his parents came to Jinghai to meet him. Zheng Xuhe bought a house directly in Jinghai for the two old people.
He reasonably suspected that, in fact, at that time, he had already been found by Chen, so he did not take the money seriously.
"I thought you knew about his secret crush on you after you got married." Bai Zhian's tone calmed down, "Didn't he tell you?"
"We've both been mute since we got married." Cheng Qingxing replied with an awkward smile, "If you and Teacher Bai hadn't told me about these things, I really wouldn't have noticed."
"You——" Bai Zhian wanted to scold him, but the words came to her lips and finally turned into an exclamation, "So, you have been married for four years, and you don't know that he loves you very much, right?"
Cheng Qingxing didn't answer. This time, he really became a scumbag.
"Forget it, I can't blame you. After all, he really can't express himself, just like a mute." Bai Zhian turned over, "Is this also the reason why you two are getting divorced?"
He nodded subconsciously, as if the reason for the divorce was really because Zheng Xuhe never said she loved him.
During the four years of marriage, Cheng Qingxing and Zheng Xuhe talked less and less. He didn't want to continue like this, so he chose to divorce.
Neither of them spoke. During the silence that lasted for more than ten seconds, Cheng Qingxing figured out many things that he had not understood before.
"Thank you." Cheng Qingxing whispered to Bai Zhian on the other end of the phone, "I'll treat you to a meal when I get back."
"Eating is secondary. I watched the show and found that he didn't seem to let go of you. Why don't you reconsider it."
Bai Zhian also tried to persuade them to reconcile rather than to separate, "You should communicate with him more now."
"Um."
"Then try to communicate again? Maybe you two can still be together."
Cheng Qingxing thought for a moment, and finally whispered: "But, I don't think I have ever loved him."
Okay, this time Bai Zhian didn’t say a word.
After the phone was silent for more than ten seconds, Bai Zhian burst out with an outburst: "Okay, you're awesome! You got married even though you don't like it!"
He quickly put the phone away as his eardrums were about to be shattered by her.
"He treats me well, and I feel that we are suitable for each other, but after getting married, I found that suitability cannot solve most problems. I hope that both of us can be happy."
Bai Zhian said with disdain, "You can feel it yourself. Anyway, you said you don't love him, so it's useless for me to say anything."
Sure enough, Bai Zhian still understood him.
"Um."
The two then talked about some past things and then hung up the phone.
Cheng Qingxing sat on the bed, his mind full of things that happened when they were in school.
He suddenly remembered that during the school sports meet, Zheng Xuhe's sprint time actually conflicted with his long jump time.
But in the final round, when he looked up, he saw Zheng Xuhe standing on the other side of the sand pit.
Zheng Xuhe didn't say anything, just looked at him.
The sun was glaring, and he was wearing a sprinting T-shirt, so his face was soaked with sweat.
Cheng Qingxing was nearsighted and couldn't see his face clearly. He only knew that he seemed to call out his name at that time.
In the long jump that year, he won the third place. Another classmate in the class was the champion, so everyone's eyes were on the champion.
He was feeling a little lost at the time, so he went to rest under the banyan tree in the playground alone.
Zheng Xuhe's appearance was a coincidence. He was holding a box of Coca-Cola in his hand and just passed by him.
He walked over, then walked back, and finally put a bottle of Coke next to him.
"Thank you." Cheng Qingxing said subconsciously.
"It's okay, you're great too." Zheng Xuhe said this and left.
Cheng Qingxing didn't think much about it. He felt that Zheng Xuhe was just distributing drinks. There were so many bottles, so it wouldn't be a big deal if he gave himself one.
Now, when he thinks back on this incident, he feels like a blockhead for not noticing anything was wrong.
"Thank you." "It's okay, you're great too."
How could these two sentences be related?
At that time, I didn’t even think about it! ?
Cheng Qingxing hugged the pillow and smiled helplessly.
It turns out that besides Zheng Xuhe, I am also the one who doesn’t understand feelings.
"Cheng Qingxing, Cheng Qingxing, you are also brainless!" He patted his head gently.
He threw the pillow away and sank into the soft quilt.
"Forget it, don't think about the past." He squinted his eyes and muttered softly, "It's all in the past anyway."
Yes, anyway, they had already missed each other a long time ago, so there was no need to care about the past.
Only by looking forward can we have different results.
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