Chapter 52
After a long sleep, Yael finally woke up and felt much calmer.
There is nothing that a good night's sleep can't solve. If you are too upset, just keep sleeping until you are no longer upset.
He went out to wash up in a calm mood. When he saw his face in the mirror, he actually felt as if he was in another world. There was a very slight blue tint under his eyelids. He was indeed too tired.
If I stopped worrying about Xize, wouldn't I be less tired?
Yael leaned on the edge of the sink and allowed himself to relax for a while.
“Knock knock.”
There was a hesitant knock on the bathroom door. After wandering for a long time, the insect finally mustered up the courage and whispered, "Master?"
"I made dessert today. Will you come and eat some later, Lord?"
Yael came back to his senses, and the sound of insects outside the door could hardly conceal his uneasiness.
Even though he no longer needs to rely on himself and his identity is very unusual, he is still cautious and careful.
...How can you really bear to ignore it?
He hung the towel back on the rod and washed his hands one last time. "Here we go."
…
When Yael sat down at the dining table, breakfast was already on the table.
They are all his favorite flavors, all kinds of cute desserts. Although he really likes them, but...isn't it a bit too much?
Yael stared at the twenty or so plates placed in front of him and pinched his brows with a headache.
Instead, the female insect who called him out for breakfast was nowhere to be seen. He had only half-heartedly apologized when the insect disappeared. How could this be acceptable?
He put down the knife and fork he had just picked up and asked loudly, "Cize?"
The female insect, who had gone somewhere unknown, responded and walked out from the blind spot of the balcony. She soon came to Yael's side and whispered, "I'm here, male master."
"Why are you hiding there?"
Xi Ze pursed his lips, hesitated for a moment, half-knelt down and looked up at the male insect, his voice low and hoarse, "I thought the male master wouldn't want to see me anymore."
"How could that be? Don't let your imagination run wild."
Yael was a little amused.
He pushed the chair back and tried to pull the female insect up, but was blocked by the force. He felt helpless and said, "Get up."
Yael released some soothing pheromones in an attempt to soothe the tense Cecil, but the first time it had little effect and even had a counterproductive effect.
Maybe what I said yesterday scared the female insect. After all, they had never had such a big conflict before. Yesterday we could even say we were in a cold war.
Normally, the female insect would react when the pheromones are released, but now everything is quiet.
There are also tense muscles on the shoulders and back, and you can feel a slight shiver when you put your hands on them.
This was not at all a sign of relaxation and comfort on the part of the female; it was simply a sign of her trying to please him.
Yael used a little force to pull the female insect up, and when he met the fearful eyes covered by moist desire, he sighed again.
He reached out and grabbed Caesar's collar, forcing the female insect to bend down, tilted her head back and gave her a kiss.
"do not be afraid."
"Our relationship is not that fragile yet."
Yael stroked his face with his fingertips, his voice soft and gentle, soothing the female insect's uneasy mood.
"It's just a little friction now, not to the point of a breakup or anything like that."
"Just solve it properly."
As if a death row inmate had been pardoned, the body under the palm of the hand stopped trembling and stiffening. The female insect visibly breathed a sigh of relief, hesitated for a moment, then leaned over tentatively to move closer.
The tip of his nose gently rubbed his cheek. The female insect seemed to be sniffing his scent. When she sensed that neither the pheromones nor the mental link indicated anger, she finally relaxed.
"…I'm sorry, Lord."
The uneasiness seemed to have never disappeared, but it was just hidden deeper and deeper, only occasionally coming out. If Yael didn't catch it, it would become a weapon for self-harm.
If you rub it in your palm well——
It would become like this, a puppy that is soaking wet but wagging its tail desperately.
Yael felt a little itchy from being rubbed, and he chuckled intermittently. When the body under his palm had completely recovered its warmth and softness, he suggested.
"A kiss?"
Xi Ze closed his eyes tightly, eagerly absorbing the warmth of the male insect.
After hearing this, he raised himself up slightly, licked and kissed the corner of Yer's mouth, grinding and biting it stickily.
I wasn't rejected, but I wasn't as immersed and passionate as before.
The male insect's breathing was light and steady throughout the whole process. This was a completely soothing kiss.
Xi Ze's heart couldn't stop sinking.
He knew what kind of answer the male insect wanted, but he really couldn't say it out loud, or at least...he would keep it secret for a few days.
During his tenure as admiral, wiping out the beast tide was a frequent task. Before the fatal weaknesses of those violent star beasts were found, casualties occurred frequently, and the number of orphans in the empire increased as a result.
After each war, a list of martyrs is drawn up and their families are notified to collect their belongings and pensions.
He could not forget the fiery anger in the eyes of the tear-stained cub when he handed over a blood-stained military emblem, filled with hatred for the star beast.
[I want to avenge my mother's father! I want to kill all those star beasts...! ]
Later, the cub was admitted to the Imperial Military University and became a soldier under his command. Then, in a war to exterminate star beasts, his name was also listed as a martyr.
His dam once said that his cub had a talent for painting and would be admitted to Crescent University of Fine Arts in the future and become a great painter who traveled around with a sketchpad on his back.
It was such a young insect with a bright future, but because it was entangled in strong love and hate, it took a completely different path, and died prematurely because of this cruel fate.
After decades of fighting, he is no longer the young cadet who was proud and confident that he could win every battle and bring his soldiers home.
He was somewhat confident about this uprising, but the situation on the battlefield was changing rapidly. He could not guarantee victory, nor could he guarantee that he could... come back alive.
If defeated, Anto will disguise it all as a pirate attack. He will completely disappear in the smoke and no one will know.
Yael doesn't often watch the news and doesn't know the dirty things behind the scenes. He might guess that the thief is him, or he might feel that something is wrong and suspicious.
But the male insect knew nothing, so he would not think of revenge for him, nor would he return to the main planet to fight against those unscrupulous guys, and finally ended up with a tragic death.
The impact of a picked up unidentified female insect and the admiral of the Empire whom he had always admired were completely different, and the depth of the impact they left on his heart was definitely different.
He was too afraid that those resentments and obsessions would destroy Yael.
If he loses the battle, the retreat and compensation specially arranged for the male insects will come into play. After flying away from all this, Yael will sooner or later forget about him and continue to live a good life.
Although this was the worst-case scenario, a general would never be complacent, so he had to be extremely cautious when it came to issues concerning Yale.
Xi Ze was panting unsteadily, lowering his eyes to stare intently at the male insect's face, trying hard to ignore the pain that was almost torn in his heart, and deepened the kiss.
“Hmm…”
Yael let out a light hum from his throat, unaware that the female insect had already arranged her affairs after death. He finally managed to separate her lips and tongue, which were stuck together like sticky rice cakes.
He realized later that his lips seemed to be swollen again. He pursed his lips subconsciously and felt a slight stinging sensation on his lower lip.
"Okay, okay, no more kissing, let's eat something."
For the sake of his mouth's health, Yael patted the female insect's lower back to signal him to go down, and pushed half of the plate to Cize.
"You haven't had breakfast yet? You've done so much, and some of the procedures are quite complicated. You got up so early?"
Xi Ze touched his lower lip with the back of his hand, his expression still a little dazed. Hearing his words, he subconsciously avoided his gaze, a trace of guilt flashed in his eyes.
"Wait," Yael thought of a possibility and his eyes widened a little, "You didn't sleep last night?"
When he lowered his head and saw the female insect hesitating, he knew the answer. He took a deep breath and felt that he had kissed her too early.
Yael murmured, "You know how to make me angry."
Before another round of angry apologies and consolations could begin, he nipped the bud in the bud.
"Thank you for your hard work, but next time you should just come to me for the kiss. This is too much, and it's not good for the relationship, and the physical and mental health of both parties."
Caesar nodded quickly and pushed back the small pile of dessert that the male insect liked the most but had been pushed to his side.
*
After that day, the vague sense of chaos and unrest really left the city.
Although there are no military female patrols coming and going, the strengthening of various surveillance facilities can be clearly felt.
There are also sophisticated protective equipment that have appeared one after another around me, which is incompatible with this backward marginal star.
Yael knew that this was most likely the work of the female insect, in order to protect his safety to the greatest extent possible.
Although he felt a little depressed because of being kept in the dark, he did not go out during this period.
After all, it was a solid fortress that was built with great difficulty.
During this period, the perception of the mental link was already weakening, so Yael and Cize established a mental link again, but it was only a superficial attempt and not as deep as last time.
If both parties are not immersed in it and open themselves completely, the deep spiritual connection is likely to fail, and the backlash will most likely cause mental damage.
Yael thinks this is reasonable. Just like you can't force things to happen without a certain state, you need some room to accommodate more uncertainties.
But the females apparently don't think so.
Maybe he was a little hesitant when he said "I want to try it" before, and the intimacy and stickiness that followed were like a small piece of stingy candy, no matter how carefully I tasted it, it was gone quickly.
雌蟲總是比他更患得患失，像是守着巨大財富的龍，一遍遍地清點，一次次确認，徹夜睜着眼睛守在旁邊。
但這樣也不保險，因為寶藏會跑會跳，如果不開心了随時都能從窩裏竄出去，龍又不好意思直接問——
“你還在嗎？你會離開嗎？”
耶爾想了很久，才後知後覺不是只有自己會害怕對方離開，雌蟲比他更害怕，所以……
其實根本誰都不用害怕。
他伸手攬住西澤的腰，和雌蟲一起雙雙倒在沙發上，鼻尖一開始還能嗅到爆炸後沾上的焦糊味，但很快就被翻湧而上的微澀氣息淹沒。
“精神鏈接太冒險了，下次給你補上。”
“嗯……”
沙發狹小，西澤分開膝蓋跨坐在他身上，有些不穩地挺直了腰背，主動将雄蟲的手拉過來，順着工裝背心的下擺探了進去。
雌蟲的身體飽滿而漂亮，健碩卻柔軟，每一根起伏線條都恰到好處，是活生生的力與美的明證，在他的手心裏盈滿滾燙和軟膩。
但随着背心一點點往上卷起，卻能看到上面陳列着無數大大小小的傷痕，縱橫交錯，深淺不一，幾乎觸目驚心。
那是因為在戰場上來不及使用修複液，硬生生靠着自愈能力挺過去而留下的痕跡，卻也代表着守衛疆土的責任和榮譽，是滿身的勳章。
耶爾心疼地蹙了蹙眉，察覺到這份心情的西澤忍不住低喘了一聲。
他帶着雄蟲的手按上了心髒處，沉穩有力的心跳透過掌心傳來。
“都已經痊愈了，沒關系的。”
他啞聲道。
掌心的溫度滾燙，耶爾的注意力突然偏移一瞬，想到一種可能，喉結滾動片刻。
“以後……西澤會選擇哺.乳嗎？”
他啞聲笑了笑，将那想象告知雌蟲。
果然感受到雌蟲身體一顫，腰身頓時軟了下來，渙散的眸底浮現出濕潤和羞澀。
“到時候雄主可以試試看……”
西澤仍然咬着那塊布料，伸手按住雄蟲撫摸上來的手，低聲含糊道，“幼崽吃一邊，給您……留另一邊。”
耶爾原本只是想逗逗他來着，沒想到猝不及防被嗆到的是自己，他一邊低咳一邊笑。
“咳咳咳真的嗎？專門留一邊咳咳給我……？”
“嗯，是真的。”
耶爾笑個不停，那焦灼的熱度卻沒有因此降下來。
從陽臺吹進來一陣清風，将簾子撩得鼓起，陽光柔和地傾瀉而入，在地板上打下一片光暈。
從西澤的角度可以看見擺放在架子上的花，粉粉嫩嫩的，一派天真可愛。
他才後知後覺現在的狀态有多麽羞恥，從耳根到頸脖染上雲霞般的潮紅，不知道是冷還是怎麽的，緊繃的腰腹一陣陣發抖。
“你看，”耶爾卻不急，也順着他的視線看向陽臺外。
“你種的花也在看着你受罰呢。”
猝不及防被點出心底隐秘的幻想，西澤羞恥得咬着下唇，搖了搖頭，聲音裏帶着一絲哽咽。
“雄主……雄主……”
雌蟲喉結上下滾動，一聲聲叫他，卻又沒有實質性的內容，好像叫了就很心安似的。
“這個點，那只小鳥也快要飛過來讨食了……你乖一點，我們就早點結束精神疏導。”
耶爾的手指摸了摸他紅到快要滴血的耳垂，吐息溫熱，“好不好？”
西澤腦子像是漿糊一樣混亂，胡亂地點頭答應下來，濕漉着眼尾蹭了蹭耶爾的手心。
一般精神疏導後，雄蟲是需要雌蟲進行反饋的，這有利于雄蟲的精神愉悅，增長對雌蟲的喜愛度。
雖然沒有明确科學論證，但已經是心照不宣的社會慣例。
但耶爾很少會要西澤的反饋，最多也只是被雌蟲咬一次，或者上手摸一摸，并沒有更深一步的交流。
可能他骨子裏還是有些傳統，特別是在社會對雌蟲的要求更為嚴苛時，就算不了解也要學着為雌蟲多想一想。
但他剛剛才恍然驚覺，這個反常表現可能也會讓西澤感到不安，雌蟲多次詢問他可不可以做.一次.愛，應該也是因為這個。
耶爾在雌蟲失落的視線中抽出手，卻沒有收回去，而是沿着腰線一路下滑。
“這裏好漂亮。”
他誇贊道，然後意料之中見到雌蟲漲紅了臉，低垂的眼尾變得濕潤。
明明可能是超級厲害又兇狠的野獸，卻心甘情願袒露出軟軟的肚皮。
那條尾巴毛絨絨的，感知到那份急切的心情，一下又一下克制地蹭動，渴望着雄蟲能摸一摸它。
耶爾小小地吸了口氣。
遭受到強烈刺激，雌蟲的腰猛地顫了顫，無意識張開嘴悶哼一聲，咬着的黑色背心落了下來，将那片起伏不定的蜜色遮掩大半。
耶爾直接掀起那塊布料，遞到雌蟲嘴邊，聲音有些低啞。
“咬好。”
……
當晚，光腦倏地嘀嘀一聲，一個文件包被傳輸到消息框中。
西澤将亮度調大，點開了文件。
裏面是帝國最新生産的安眠藥劑，詳細标出了各種劑量和規格，還有相匹配的藥效和副作用。
【生物技術組長：這是現在能拿到的物資中比較頂級的了，您需要哪一種？多大劑量？】
西澤在那裏面挑挑選選，又詢問了許多注意事項，才選定了一針劑效用好又沒有副作用的。
很快這邊星系就會淪為戰場，雖然這裏是軍隊駐紮的核心，沒有被攻破和血洗的危險，但高壓、血腥和危險仍然如影随形，如果不采取一些措施，是有可能将精神力壓迫到崩潰的。
之前連年戰争時，有一定財富和護衛軍可以保護自己，又想免于憂慮和壓力的貴族，就會服用這些安眠藥劑，等一覺醒來，就能再次見到重建後的世界。
囑咐那邊盡快将藥劑送來，西澤切回虛拟演練戰場圖，繼續一次次地模拟接下來的戰局。
也許會很艱難，但仍然要拼盡全力去贏。
西澤前半生中的每一天，都在圍繞着這個目标前進，他是帝國最仰賴的利刃和防線，是無數士兵心中活着的信仰。
守衛帝國的疆土，震懾虎視眈眈的外敵，将所有士兵活着帶回家。
這就是他的生命和信念所在，無可動搖，堅不可摧。
而現在。
西澤在疲憊中擡眼看向主卧，仿佛能透過那扇門，能看見正卷着被子呼吸清淺安眠的雄蟲。
不知道雄蟲有沒有踢被子，等會要記得去看一眼，不然明天又感冒了。
——還要加上一個耶爾。
……
這幾天外面的氛圍明顯不對，從陽臺外可以看到各種戰鬥機和星艦的影子在天空盤旋，隔着很遠都能感受到形勢嚴峻。
雖然不出門，但這片城區中的居民已經基本看不到了，應該是提前收到了消息，已經離開前往其他星球躲避戰争。
耶爾雖然知道自己大概率不會有事，也難免被牽動得憂慮和緊張起來，甚至有些心不在焉。
自己躲在層層防護內還好，西澤肯定要參與進這場戰争中，雖然不知道在其中擔任了什麽角色……但流血受傷的幾率還是很大。
午後，耶爾正看着陽臺外的天空出神，兩只手卻從背後伸出，交錯着抱住他的腰，随後耳尖傳來溫熱的呼吸。
“雄主，別看了。”
耶爾被按住肩膀轉過身來，然後就被咬住了下唇，帶着和以往不同的主動和強勢意味，也更加黏黏糊糊。
雌蟲的舌尖含着一顆糖，外表的糖衣甜滋滋的，好像是橙子味，動作間在兩邊滾來滾去。
耶爾還沒反應過來，下巴就突然被雌蟲擡高，猝不及防将整顆糖囫囵吞了下去。
“……唔？”
西澤垂眸看他，又閉上眼加深了這個吻，一直将懷裏的雄蟲親到有些缺氧，濕潤的眸光有些渙散，才戀戀不舍地放開。
耶爾平複着呼吸，回過神來才發現自己已經被帶到了主卧，一股奇怪的預感在心底浮現，他疑惑地看向雄蟲。
“怎麽了？突然……”
一股溫柔的潮水淹沒全身，耶爾還沒反應過來，視野就迅速陷入一片朦胧之中，“好奇怪……？”
西澤及時接住了雄蟲滑落的身體，穿過膝蓋将他抱了起來，輕輕放在床上蓋好了被子，将四個角都整整齊齊掖好。
藥劑的效果很好，雄蟲的睡顏卻有些不安穩，微微蹙着眉。
他有些出神地凝視着耶爾，直到門外傳來敲門聲，才俯身在那眉心落下一吻。
“等我回來。”
*
大片潑灑的深紅覆蓋了一整片天空，像是象征着不詳的血，瞬息之間，無數掙紮和死亡此消彼長，不斷生發。
到處都是轟擊的炮聲和激光穿透建築的巨大聲響，軍雌骨翼展開的“唰”聲，和尾端薄膜的沙沙聲，貫穿了戰場始終，像是黎明的預告。
所有的火與血都和這棟房子無關，無形的防護罩将其保護得完好，像是小心翼翼地用玻璃罩子，護住了心髒深處最珍貴的玫瑰。
But Yael, who was originally sleeping soundly, suddenly frowned, and his body trembled uncontrollably. An uncontrollable high fever quickly swept through his body, as if something was brewing.
…
"Be good, be good...I'll take you out to play later, okay?"
"Woof! Woof!"
What...sound?
The touch of plush fur made him wiggle in his arms, releasing his happy emotions vigorously. When he saw his owner suddenly freeze, he stood up eagerly and grabbed his shoulders with his front paws.
After a dizzy spell, Yael suddenly opened his eyes.
The scene in front of him gradually became clear. He was at home. He hesitated and held down the dog's head, "...Dumplings?"
The little Samoyed in front of him was about three months old, with soft and fluffy pure white fur and round eyes. It kept sticking out its tongue at him, "Woof!"
Responding to the puppy's enthusiasm skillfully, Yael inadvertently raised his eyes and saw that the clock hanging on the wall had pointed to nine o'clock... Yes, he just wanted to go out for a walk with Tang Yuan.
He picked up the collar next to him and put it on Tangyuan, then quickly packed up and went out, but as soon as he closed the door, he ran into his neighbor who had just returned home from get off work.
"Take Tang Yuan out for a walk?"
She was a serious and capable doctor. She glanced at the puppy running around and chasing its tail, and frowned.
"I still suggest you get a professional emotional comfort dog. No matter how cute Tang Yuan is, he is still an untrained stray dog..."
Yael lowered his eyes and pulled out the key, then smiled and interrupted her, "It's all the same, Sister Gu. Cute puppies are natural soothes, right?"
"But Sister Gu, you've been working overtime every day recently and have dark circles under your eyes. You need to make sure you get enough rest."
"Okay, okay... Got it. Go for a walk and be safe."
The young doctor looked a little relieved, gave him some instructions, and then walked in.
Tangyuan is an abandoned Samoyed puppy.
When we first saw it, it was next to a trash can. It was dirty, thin and small, and it walked with a limp. Later, we found that one of its hind legs was broken.
Maybe he had been hungry for too long. When he saw Yael sitting in a chair in a daze with food in his hand, he ran up to him cautiously, lay down, exposed his belly in an awkward manner, and whimpered to ask for food.
After successfully eating Yael's breakfast, the cat still didn't give up. It kept wagging its tail and rubbing against his leg, and even followed him all the way back home in a very naughty way.
Finally, I successfully got a diligent poop shoveler.
There were many people walking their pets in the community, playing together in groups of three or four, but they basically avoided Yale and Tang Yuan. The silly and happy puppies just stayed on the lawn and chased the ball by themselves.
“You can’t tame a stray dog!”
The old man who was also walking his dog shouted with disdain, "This kind of animal has been wandering for a long time and doesn't recognize its owner at all. Who knows, it might run away on its own one day."
"This kid is still glaring at me. What did I say wrong?!"
Yael squatted down and held Tang Yuan, who was frightened and had been hiding behind his legs, in his arms. He watched with heavy eyes as the old man was pulled away by his daughter.
"Dad, stop talking. I told you before that this guy is mentally ill, and you still provoke him..."
His legs became numb after maintaining the same posture for too long. The puppy in his arms seemed to sense that he was in a bad mood and licked his hand obediently, its tail hanging down stroking back and forth.
Yael closed his eyes and buried his face in the puppy's fluffy fur.
"He actually said that our Tang Yuan would get lost... I curse him to never get his pension and never catch any fish..."
But that word turned out to be a prophecy.
One night when he returned home from class, he found the door open, but the puppy that would have rushed up to greet him was nowhere to be seen.
“Dumplings…Dumplings?! Dumplings!!”
In the surveillance video, he forgot to lock the door, and the grown-up Tang Yuan jumped up, bit the handle open, and ran out without looking back.
The moment he saw the white shadow disappear, his pupils shrank.
There was a loud bang in the heart, a sharp noise sounded like an alarm in the ears, and the retrograde blood made the limbs numb and cold.
The memory that followed suddenly became blurred and turned into a noisy noise, heavy and chaotic breathing, hysterical shouting, panicked and helpless explanations...all of it disappeared from his world.
After a whole night of chaos and battle, he was left exhausted, with a strong smell of blood in his throat. He walked dazedly and mechanically through another street, and finally his vision went black and he knelt down beside a trash can.
"bite."
A metal dog tag was knocked to the ground with a crisp sound.
Yael moved his eyes slowly.
The familiar dog tag was covered in a solidified red, and blood that was dark black mixed with foul-smelling sewage slowly overflowed from the bottom of the trash can.
His puppy was lying in the trash can, its spine crushed by the wheels, revealing its white bones and pink internal organs, its intestines were all over the floor, and were so broken that they were almost impossible to pick up.
The hair that had been grown soft and fluffy with great effort was now wet and stuck to the cold and stiff body.
His gray eyes looked at the sky outside the trash can, his mouth, which often exhaled hot air, was slightly open, as if he would bark "Woo" in the next second.
……sweet dumpling?
Yael opened his eyes suddenly.
The curtains were only half drawn, and the deep red and bright sunlight poured in, spreading to the corner of the bed, making the tear marks on his face clearly visible.
It felt like his heart had been torn apart, leaving only the bloody remnant beating violently in his chest. He was suffocating and in great pain. Yael couldn't help coughing and forced himself to sit up with his exhausted body.
My mind went blank. The nightmare that had just raged on me melted away like snow, leaving no trace. All that was left was the huge panic hanging over my heart, and the grief and anger that were so strong that I couldn't bear it anymore, burning in my heart.
Yael sat on the bed for a while, his body still trembling with fear and shaking.
He could no longer remember the scene in the dream, but it suddenly reminded him of the female worm, as if a traveler who was about to dry up and die was looking for a cool water source, and for the first time he was so urgent and eager -
I wish Nishizawa was here with me right now.
He trembled as he threw back the quilt, but his body was too weak to stand up. He stumbled a few steps and nearly fell to the ground.
After crawling a few steps and struggling to get up, he finally opened the door, only to find the house was dead silent and deserted.
He couldn't find any female worms in the bathroom.
No in the living room.
There is no balcony.
There is no kitchen either.
There was nothing there, as if the female insect had never appeared in this house and everything was just a dream.
And now, he is awake.
Yael knelt on the ground in a daze, and the bloody aftershocks flooded him like a tide.
The burning sky, the empty house, and the bloody sunset seemed to penetrate the cracks in time and space, shining in from the depths of his memory, bringing a terrifying sense of familiarity.
All the memories came back to me in an instant, like a bullet that had been fired and finally pierced my forehead after many years, but no more blood would flow.
How could he have forgotten...?
Why did he forget?
He once lost a puppy.
Yael bent his back deeply and spat out a mouthful of blood.
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So it’s not that I don’t have a mouth on purpose quq, the general is too worried and often has deep thoughts (and likes to stay up late! Baldness warning!)
The subsequent plot about dreams can be connected to the second chapter "Sleeping in the Same Bed" after v. That is the memory that Ye Ye's brain corrected for self-protection after being stimulated, and this is the fact at the time.
This dream had nothing to do with the medicine. It was because Ye Ye was about to undergo a secondary differentiation, and his mental picture was in turmoil. It was just that something went wrong afterwards.
I don’t know if you still remember the previous settings. The mental picture is used to store memories. No matter how long ago they were, no matter what you thought you had forgotten, they are actually well inside, waiting to be discovered again.