Chapter 54
The first differentiation of male insects only requires spiritual guidance, but the second differentiation is an important transitional period for life to enter the golden stage, similar to the transformation of a worm into a butterfly, so it is extremely critical.
When preparing for this stage, each male insect will choose a suitable female insect to help him through it, and then marry this female insect as a female servant. If he likes one very much, he will marry her as a queen.
Yael was obviously unprepared, and the hospital was under strict surveillance and could not contact the Xiongbao Association.
But then he thought again, the admiral was still there and obviously had a close relationship with the male insect, so he felt relieved.
The doctor led Cecil into a long corridor, and the room at the end was their destination.
"The room dedicated to secondary differentiation, all the medicines, nutrients and necessary equipment are ready. If you need anything, just press the button and a special insect will bring it to you."
"The male insect is now in a high fever and may be somewhat unconscious. You need to be more patient and guide him. Also, please be sure to monitor the male insect's body values at all times to prevent irreparable damage."
Finally arriving at the door, the doctor used his iris and fingerprints to unlock the layers of defense locks, and said the last words after the door opened.
"I wish you all the best."
*
It's hot.
This is Yael’s biggest feeling right now.
It was as if all my flesh and blood had turned into boiling magma, bubbling away. Even soaking in sea water was of no use.
Even the small fish that came close to it curiously was scalded and shivered, flicking its tail and suddenly running away.
It’s so hot…
He was awakened from his mental image by the burning sensation and opened his eyes with some difficulty. The warm yellow ceiling that came into view looked a little strange.
Where is this...?
Yael was stunned for a moment, but his muddled mind was unable to think at all.
After hesitating for a while, he slowly rolled up the quilt and prepared to sleep for a while.
I don't know how much time had passed, but I seemed to hear a slight sound, like the sound of a door lock clicking.
Then came the sound of military boots hitting the floor. The sound was deliberately made very light, but it was still picked up by the wandering mental power, which hung itself on the visitor in a daze but trusting manner.
“…”
As soon as Xi Ze entered the room, he saw the male insect lying on its side with its back to him on the soft big bed in the center of the room, wrapped in the quilt and turning itself into a pupa.
The figure didn't move, but the roaming spiritual power recognized him and stuck to him, humming with a bit of discomfort.
"Hero Lord?"
Caesar walked a few steps closer to the bed, pulled down the quilt that was covering his head, and whispered.
The male insect's cheeks were flushed with fever, and even his neck and ears were emitting scalding heat. However, he could not sleep well due to the high fever. He frowned and blinked slowly, looking drowsy.
"……Um?"
Hearing a familiar voice, Yael rolled his eyes with difficulty, looked at the female insect that suddenly appeared, and uttered a vague and puzzled nasal sound.
Soon, something icy cool was pressed on his forehead, making him sigh softly and his consciousness became clearer.
Caesar half-knelt in front of the bed, lowered his eyes to the same level as the male insect, and stared at the pair of eyes that were stained with physiological tears and looked even darker and clearer.
"Do you know who I am?"
He asked softly, with a hint of trepidation in his voice.
Yael just stared at him without answering, or maybe the words were still on his mind.
Xi Ze was silent for a moment and lowered his eyes.
The male insect was unconscious during the secondary differentiation period, and he did not dare to expect Yael to stay awake and recognize who he was, but he also wanted their first time to be one of mutual recognition and love.
But some hoarse voices rang in my ears, soft but without a trace of hesitation——
"Xize."
Xi Ze suddenly raised his eyes.
The male insect in front of him put down his hand that was pressing on his forehead and said word by word, "You are Xi Ze."
Xi Ze's Adam's apple rolled violently for a moment, and a string in his heart suddenly loosened, making him laugh softly, "That's right."
"My Lord, your current situation is that the second differentiation has come early. I will help you get through this differentiation. This process is not painful. You don't have to be afraid. Just follow your heart."
After saying this, he recalled that his previous requests had been rejected many times, so he asked again in a lowered voice.
"Would you like to?"
Xi Ze waited patiently for the male insect to digest that long paragraph. Sure enough, after staring blankly for a few minutes, Yael suddenly understood and replied in a long voice.
“Yes.”
The military girl's eyes, which were cold and stern just now, were now incredibly soft, and the gentle smile seemed to be crushed and spread evenly in the bottom of her eyes.
He leaned over and kissed Yael's forehead, "Wait a moment, my lord. I'll go get ready."
Before Yael could react, he just stared at the female insect's back as she entered the bathroom. After a long while, he slowly raised his hand and touched the place that was kissed.
It feels so strange... but so comfortable.
He was caught up in a belated tangle for a moment, and after a while he suddenly got up and got out of bed.
…
“Blah, blah—”
The sound of dripping water covered up the sound of the door opening. Cize was caught off guard and was suddenly grabbed from behind. Then two hands wrapped around his waist like an octopus.
"Hero Lord?!"
Yael's head and face were soaked by the water from the shower, and he felt dizzy for a moment, but the body in his arms was so hot and soft that he was reluctant to let go.
The small ice pack on top of my head fell to the ground, and crystal clear ice cubes rolled out from the broken hole, gradually being melted into irregular shapes by the steaming hot water.
"It's so hot..."
The female insect blocked the powerful water flow with her hands, and Yael was finally able to open her wet eyelashes, with a hint of grievance in her cold expression.
"Why didn't you help me and went to take a shower instead...?"
The male insect, who was not too sober, was much more passionate and frank than usual. Adding a cute buff of slowness, it was a critical hit.
It made him completely...unable to cope with it.
"My bad."
Caesar laughed softly, and turned around in the crook of his arm, reached out and unbuttoned Yael's collar, helping him to free himself from the damp and stuffy feeling.
A faint breath spread with the steam, silently penetrating into the pores. The swirling and accumulated river water finally found a way to be released, breaking through the obstacles and rushing out in an instant.
Blah-la-la——
The bathroom was filled with milky white mist, which brought with it a slightly suffocating feeling of dampness, but just happened to give rise to countless rapid and chaotic gasps, which mixed with the sound of dripping water, appearing hazy and dreamy.
The wall was still too cold, and the standing position was very inconvenient.
Yael moved around dazedly for a while, and was led to the bathtub which was already filled with water. He let out an "ah" and was submerged in the warm water, and he subconsciously floated up.
"...My Lord, be careful."
Caesar lifted him up. The male insect had not yet taken off his clothes, which were completely soaked by the water and stuck to his body, making him feel very uncomfortable.
He reached out to help, but stopped abruptly when he saw the pale and delicate skin. Belatedly, he felt a secret shame and embarrassment.
So strange...
Although she had exposed her body to Yael many times and no longer felt awkward or embarrassed, she dared not look at or touch the male insect's body.
It was not the weak and tender body that is typical of the male insects in this society, but a body that was smoother, stronger, healthier and full of vitality.
Like a handful of boiling new snow, burning with something more substantial and moving in its breathtaking beauty.
The dark hair meanders on the skin, like ink lines drawn on a piece of white rice paper.
In the extreme black and white, there is a hint of pink from the tips of peach petals, which is a heinous blasphemy and defilement, and also a trace of dragging the gods down to the mortal world.
Yael was unaware of what he looked like and smiled dazedly in front of him, like a cat that was obviously eager but pretending to be reserved, urging with a frown.
"Come in?"
Xi Ze's heart roared, and all his worries were instantly thrown out of his mind.
He stepped into the bathtub and, for the first time, like a fresh-faced female insect, he climbed onto the male insect's shoulders with recklessness and eagerness.
The space in the bathtub was squeezed and the hot water inside suddenly overflowed. The swaying water waves splashed onto the ground, creating a splash.
…
They didn't come out of the bathroom until the water in the bathtub cooled down and Yael's fingers were wrinkled.
But they were unwilling to separate even for a few steps. After stumbling a few steps, they fell on the sofa beside them together, and the water droplets that had not been wiped dry immediately wet the whole area.
"I feel dizzy..."
After soaking in the hot water for too long, Yael felt that his fever had become worse.
He pressed heavily on the female insect, burying his face in the softness with sweet scent.
Xi Ze took out a testing instrument from under the tea table and pointed it at the male insect's forehead.
The numbers above made him feel a little relieved, and he said hoarsely, "The high fever has subsided a little."
The mental power that had been closed off due to stress has been released and is now actively running in the room. The two mental powers are trying to touch each other's origins and are almost merging into one.
But we have only just passed the first stage, and there is still a long way to go before the secondary differentiation is completed.
“Beep beep.”
There was a reminder sound from the door, and Xi Ze remembered that the hospital would prepare special medicines to be injected into the male insects on time to help stabilize their condition.
He carefully pushed away the male insect that was lying on him, put on the military jacket hanging on the sofa, and went to the special transmission window to check.
“Hmm…”
The tide that had been overwhelming his head finally subsided a little, giving Yael a precious moment to catch his breath. But just as he tried to squeeze out a little space to think, his mind turned into a mess again.
He remembered what the female insect had just said about secondary differentiation, but he only remembered fragments of it.
It was as if there was a shield that separated him from the sadness and anger, preventing them from ruining this crucial moment.
他努力回想了一會，一無所獲，視線漫無目的地在房間裏轉了一圈，最終還是停留在了半蹲在門前的雌蟲。
那外套好像短了點……
耶爾不太敢多看，卻也挪不動視線，一直到西澤帶着藥劑回來，那無比專注的目光才分給了別的東西。
“這是……什麽？”
西澤熟練地拆開注射器和小瓶藥劑的蓋子，将針頭紮入其中吸取藥液，趁着雄蟲還沒反應過來，拉過他的手臂利落注射。
那又長又粗的針頭紮入血管，逐漸蔓延出青色的淤痕，疼痛後知後覺地擠占混沌的腦子，但在疼痛難忍之前，那針頭已經被抽出。
傷處被按上涼絲絲的棉花，耶爾才慢半拍地委屈起來，小臂還安分地任由雌蟲施為，卻将臉轉過去埋進枕頭裏。
“你紮我。”
悶悶不樂的聲音從枕頭裏傳來，讓西澤哭笑不得。
意識混沌的耶爾知不知道自己變得很幼稚，雖然非常坦率又可愛，但他不确保事後想起來時，臉皮很薄的雄蟲會不會羞憤欲死。
但現在最要緊的還是先把雄蟲哄好。
療愈藥液的效果很好，那針孔已經初步愈合了，只剩下殘留的淤血導致的一圈微青，西澤移開棉花，低頭在傷口處落下一吻。
“乖，親一親就不痛了。”
耳邊的聲音低沉，帶着很多很多縱容和耐心，讓耶爾的耳尖悄然熱起來，胸口的一絲郁氣悄然消散。
他本來就沒有真的生氣，被哄了一下就好了，被雌蟲按住下巴轉過頭，開始吸一袋加熱過的營養液。
草莓味的。
耶爾暈暈乎乎地想。
一袋營養液還沒有喝完，那熟悉的焦灼再度湧起，剛剛才被安撫下的信息素蠢蠢欲動，被彼此間的滾燙體溫蒸騰着咕嚕嚕沸騰。
嘴裏的營養液被拿開，原本稍稍平息的呼吸又變得急.促而黏.膩起來。
“這好像不是家裏的沙發……”
耶爾嘟囔道，努力想分清沙發的樣式，視野卻被滿滿當當占據，越來越暈，一時間也顧不上什麽三四五六了。
沙發比浴缸的面積大點，卻仍然施展不太開，放在上面的卡通抱枕有些被壓在身下，有些則被碰到滾落在地上。
注入身體裏的藥劑似乎在發揮作用，随着時間過去，那些蒙住腦子的迷霧逐漸散去，讓渙散的神志逐漸凝聚起來。
耶爾喘息着，有些出神地凝視着眼前的雌蟲。
軍雌的體格強壯而健碩，裏面蘊含着的力量非凡，像是雪豹群中最為強大而具有震懾力的王者，毫不摻水的那種。
他絲毫不懷疑如果真的反抗，西澤能一腳給他踹飛出去，陷入牆裏拔都拔不出來。
但雌蟲如此溫順而坦蕩，幾乎是徹底敞.開了自己，将無比脆弱的肚腹和頸側都放在了雄蟲的手心裏。
毫不介懷是否會受傷或者被粗暴對待，悶不吭聲卻反常地熱烈回應。
耶爾感到了細微的戰栗。
為這份強悍而蓬勃的生命力，也為這份純粹而虔誠的愛意，它們幾乎相生相長，不分彼此，而這些——
都是專屬于他的。
那些苦難的歲月裏，汲取着彼此的體溫生活的日夜中，每一寸瘋長的血肉中都烙印下了他的名字，等他察覺時，點點星火已然燎原。
他自诩給出去的幫助微不足道，卻得到了整整一顆心的報答。
真的……值得嗎？
突然無比清晰地意識到這一點，耶爾有些酸澀地眨了眨眼睛，受心情影響動作也慢了下來。
西澤有些疑惑地看向雄蟲，察覺到了那一點沒有隐藏好的難過，撐着手臂起身，按住耶爾的肩膀将他攬在了懷裏。
“雄主，怎麽了？”
他的聲音中帶着一絲沙啞，卻時刻預留着一絲警醒的擔憂，生怕雄蟲的二次分化有絲毫差池。
“我……”
耶爾抿了抿唇，有些出神地看着雌蟲近在咫尺的臉，看進那雙從始至終都如此璀璨的金眸中。
如果是平常的時候，他肯定是不會和雌蟲說這些的。
但不知道是二次分化的高熱導致的多愁善感，還是因為水乳交融時已經放下了心防……
總之，他老老實實地把剛才的想法說出來了。
西澤的神色在他講述時逐漸變化，從擔憂到陷入沉思，恍然理解意思後面露驚訝，最終趴在雄蟲的肩膀上笑得停不下來。
斷斷續續的熱氣噴灑在耳根，耶爾從忐忑到逐漸羞惱，勉強控制着面無表情道，“你笑什麽？”
“嗯……！”
雌蟲猝不及防受到襲擊，猛地顫了一下，從喉間發出隐忍的悶哼，但終于止住了笑。
西澤呼吸急促半晌，放下擋着臉的手，神情中淺淡的悲哀如露水般消散，像在殘陽下無所遁形的陰影。
他專注地看着耶爾，眸底的光極亮又極深沉，帶着極為珍重和虔誠的愛意，幾乎讓被注視的對象感覺到了燒灼。
“只是有些意外，雄主居然會這麽想。”
西澤輕聲道，“我還以為，只有我會這樣患得患失，小心地揣摩雄主的想法，和……覺得自己不配呢。”
這是不是說明，耶爾對他其實也有那麽一絲愛意？
不只是單純的喜歡，而是……
愛。
這個詞像是灼燙的火星，在飛濺而出的瞬間就能感受到那美好和滾燙，卻也讓他心生畏懼。
血肉被燒焦還是小事一樁，那星子卻會被他流出的血澆滅的，最好的辦法就是遠遠守着，看着它自由地在空中晃悠飄蕩。
——哪怕最終離自己而去。
耶爾卻打破了他的失神，蹙着眉像是有些不滿，“你說什麽呢，我又不是機器，當然也會有這種想法啊。”
說完他又放低了一點聲音，像是在嘟囔，又像是不好意思，“再說了，我們不是在談戀愛嗎……”
西澤深深地凝視了他一眼，抿起的唇放松了些，湊上前去黏黏糊糊地親雄蟲，一直把耶爾親到什麽脾氣都沒了才罷休。
“不準撒嬌！”
那唇舌熱烈而纏綿，在臉上不停地糊着口水，耶爾一陣面紅耳熱，只能勉強保持不滿的樣子。
但也許是因為仍然頭暈，他只勉強抵禦了一會，就架不住任由雌蟲随便親吻了，自暴自棄地閉上眼睛，在那些輕柔的啄吻間抓緊時間恢複體力。
“……再喝點水吧。”
雌蟲微啞的聲音在耳邊響起，耶爾還沒來得及睜開眼去夠水杯，就被抵住了下唇。
一口溫熱的水被渡進口中，緩解了喉間的幹渴，在舌尖泛起一絲微妙的甜意。
耶爾捂着嘴，臉上已經紅得不能看了，不好意思地低聲道，“非要這麽黏糊嗎？”
空氣中焦糖的香甜氣息不斷翻湧，逐漸變得濃郁，将最後一分苦澀包裹着融化其中，再也聞不出來了。
……
耶爾不知道自己是怎麽滾下沙發的，幸好地上鋪着一層厚厚的地毯，而且雌蟲及時把他撈過來按在了懷裏。
“壓到你了嗎？”
他摸了摸身下的雌蟲，得到否定的答案後又親了親才罷休。
毛絨絨的地毯比狹窄的沙發更好放開手腳，耶爾便換了個方便用力的姿勢——
西澤背對着他趴在地毯上，像是一只準備狩獵時俯低身體的雪豹，脊背上每一塊肌肉都繃緊着，從起伏精悍的肩背到勁瘦的腰線，漂亮強悍至極。
像是将一頭猛獸豢養在身邊，不用恥辱的項圈，也沒有用上其他暴力手段，卻也乖乖地俯身趴在小腿邊，晃晃悠悠地甩尾巴，只要伸出一只手，就能得到那濕漉漉鼻尖的一下下嗅聞。
溫順至極，也可愛至極。
喜愛和驕傲感幾乎膨脹起來，讓他有些飄飄乎乎的。
“西澤。”
耶爾忽然出聲叫道。
不知道為什麽，但就是很想叫一叫他，只要将這個名字含在嘴裏，心髒都變得鼓漲起來，一下下敲擊着耳膜，帶來難以言喻的震動。
“我在這裏……怎麽了？”
西澤的聲音有些含糊，反手摸索了一下，拉住了身後雄蟲的手，輕輕地晃了一下，像是拿毛絨絨尾巴圈住飼養員撒嬌的雪豹一般。
“西澤？”
耶爾繼續叫道，伸手輕撫雌蟲的脊背，讓他慢慢平息下來。
西澤終于找到間隙扭過頭來，就算因為姿勢的阻礙而不能完全看到他，那雙金眸也眨都不眨地往這邊看，清晰可見其中的眷戀和愛慕。
“雄主，怎麽了？”
他的聲音沙啞，以為雄蟲有哪裏不舒服，迅速從混沌中清醒過來。
“沒什麽，只是想叫叫你，你可以也叫一下我嗎？”
耶爾抱着西澤的腰俯身壓在他身上，躲着雌蟲的視線不讓他看到自己的表情，語氣輕快而柔和。
西澤反手摸上雄蟲的腰，清了清嗓子，低聲叫道，“雄主。”
“不是這個。”
“……耶爾？”
沙啞的聲音有一絲遲疑，很不習慣似的，他也确實很少直接稱呼耶爾的名字。
但那兩個字音實在可愛，讓他忍不住又叫了一聲。
“耶爾。”
“……嗯。”
Yar closed his eyes slightly, and after a long time he hummed. A strange feeling spread throughout his body, almost trembling, and in an instant he lost all his strength.
My heart felt like it was tied up with a rope, but I didn't feel any pain or suffocation. It was as if I had found my anchor point in the rootless sea, and the string of an abandoned kite was grabbed by the tail end.
"Can you call me like this more often in the future?"
He said softly, and the rest of his words were lost in the female insect's lips and tongue.
The surging emotions in my chest could not find an outlet, and they kept swirling and rising in each other's body temperature.
Eventually it becomes the firework that completely ignites the nebula.
"Bang!"
It was the sound of a knee hitting glass unexpectedly.
There is a huge floor-to-ceiling window in the room, with the curtain only half drawn. From the other half, you can see the clean and transparent glass, and the warm and gentle golden morning light shining in.
The female insect was pressed against the middle of the window, half of it pressing against the soft fabric, while the other half of its body was trembling due to the cold glass. After a groan, it reached out and grabbed the curtain to steady its body.
The culprit was still gloating behind him, completely ignoring his hard work and patience. He kissed him behind the ear and chuckled, "You can stand still. What if you squeeze too hard and break it?"
Facts have proved that it is impossible to stand firm.
The poor piece of cloth was wrinkled and squeezed into various shapes, and the last few times it made a creaking sound as if it was about to reach its breaking point, which sounded a bit pitiful.
That hand then covered another, paler hand. The strong contrast in skin color looked particularly harmonious. The fingers squeezed into the fingertips of the hand below, and the ten fingers intertwined to loosen the piece of cloth.
But the next second——
“Swish!”
The curtain was suddenly pulled open, and the bright daylight shone in instantly, revealing the entire room, including everything pressed against the glass...
Xi Ze let out a choking sob, as if he was extremely ashamed, but his body did not become cold because of this. Instead, it became more excited and even convulsed slightly.
"...Hero Lord um...Yell um!"
The female insect's voice was unclear, and Yael thought it was a plea for mercy. The words "This is one-way viewing glass" were almost stuck in his mouth, but he soon realized that -
The female insect did not beg for mercy or protest, but subconsciously called out his name in panic, as if she would not be afraid of anything as long as she knew he was behind her.
He accepted all the shame and even exposure as long as it was given by Yael.
Yael has been nervous about the female insect many times today. He used to be very excited, but now... he really can't bear to bully him.
"Don't be afraid, this is one-way glass."
He placed a kiss on the female insect's shoulder, and it felt like something was burning, and Caesar shuddered.
"...Hero Lord."
He murmured silently, a huge bitterness rising to his eyes, which was suppressed by each deep breath, and he did not shed tears in shame.
The glass under my palm is crystal clear, and I can vaguely see the bustling scene outside. Swarms of insects come and go like tides, tall buildings stand tall in the distance, and suspended cars travel along smooth star tracks, like a thousand flashes of light.
Everything was in the best condition, an ordinary and normal afternoon.
And he stood here, finally merging with the sunshine in his heart, and felt like his breathing was about to stop.
——He has too many concerns, but those seem to be nothing in front of the male insect.
All that is left is a heart full of excitement and piety, and a love that wants to be desperately open, accept and dedicate.
Those emotions merged with the sunlight, floating in the air like fine golden powder, and landed on Yael little by little, making him look like he was standing in endless light.
Xi Ze used his eyes to trace the reflection of the male insect on the glass. After being absent-minded for a long time, he gently placed a kiss on it.
But at the same time, there were several warm and loud kisses behind the ears, "Bo Bo!"
The warm and full feeling on his chest almost made him cry, but he couldn't help but chuckle softly, and he indulged himself by opening his deepest flesh and blood to accommodate Yael.
It was like a cream puff that had been squeezed and soiled by a naughty kid, and was now smeared all over by the sweet and soft contents inside.