Chapter 58 (Lantern Festival Special!)
"Welcome back......!"
The corners of Yael's lips curled up, but before the last word of the smile fell, he was suddenly pulled into a cold, hard, and hot embrace. He subconsciously widened his eyes slightly.
He was pushed down on the sofa.
Caesar knelt on one knee on the sofa, with the other leg propped on the ground, holding him tightly between his arms and the sofa, as if afraid that he would run away.
Yael struggled, only to be embraced more tightly, and groaned as he was strangled.
Sensing that the atmosphere was not right, the insects in the room quietly retreated, and soon the sound of the door closing was heard, leaving only the female insect's chaotic and rapid breathing in the room.
The hard military uniform hurt Yael a little, and the buttons on his cheeks were cold, but the female insect's scalding body temperature and stalling heartbeat were transmitted through the fabric, quietly soothing the discomfort.
The arms behind him were tightly held, making it almost impossible for him to move. However, he felt the hand on his back trembling slightly, so he did not struggle but reached out to hug the female insect's waist.
"What's wrong?"
Yael was covered tightly and endured for a long time, but he couldn't hold back his anger and said in a muffled voice.
The female insect's breathing beside my ear was still rapid, but it was not the chaotic and heavy breathing that came after a high-intensity task. Instead, it was so light that it was almost breathless, but the panic in it could not be suppressed at all.
Is...what happened?
Caesar was suddenly awakened by the voice and relaxed his hold on the male insect, but still did not get up from Yael. Instead, he leaned down even lower and buried his face deeply in his neck.
Like a puppy eager to check on its owner's breath, it pounced over with all its strength, sniffed back and forth with its wet nose, rubbed against the neck and face, and licked affectionately with its tongue.
The female insect's knees were against his waist, and her two crossed calves were pressed tightly together, as if she was being tightly entangled by a puppy's soft tail, trying to tie up her owner and not let him leave again.
"What's wrong? Why are you holding me so tightly?"
As if infected by the enthusiasm, Yael chuckled intermittently.
The joy that had been suppressed for so long was fermenting deep in my chest, bubbling up, and my body temperature also rose a little.
"...Hero Lord?"
A hoarse voice rang against his ear, bringing a tingling sensation to his scalp. Yael reached out and put his hands on the female insect's shoulders, raised his face and rubbed it against her cold cheek.
"I'm here."
"Hero Lord."
"Yes, I am here. You hold me so tight."
He reached out and patted the female insect's lower back, lifted the hem of his military jacket, stuck his hand in by the buckled belt, and his palm fit tightly against the hot skin.
The female insect shuddered, then slowly relaxed her body, no longer being so tense.
But after being comforted for a short while, he began to whisper anxiously, "Yell?"
How to appease him now?
Yael thought about it for a moment, but he was not too troubled because there were countless ways to be intimate, and he could practice them all with the female insect.
"Then... give me a kiss."
He pushed the female insect away with force, stood up with his elbows on the sofa, looked into her eyes for a moment, closed his eyes almost at the same time, and approached her eagerly.
But before I could feel the soft touch on my lips, a crisp sound suddenly rang out -
"Hmm?!"
A sudden pain that was enough to bring out tears came over him, causing Yael to groan. He covered his mouth with his hand and looked at Xi Ze with wide eyes, who was also bewildered.
It seems like... I hit my teeth.
Before he could say anything, the female insect leaned over and kissed him again, but she didn't go deeper. She just rubbed his lips gently, sucked and pecked them, soothing the sore area.
This kind of kiss does not contain much passion, but it is very comfortable and relaxing. At the end of the kiss you will unconsciously make a little nasal sound. It doesn't matter if you kiss for a long time.
But no matter how patient he was, he couldn't kiss for too long. After more than ten minutes, Yael pulled himself out of the female insect's arms. His cheeks were red and his breathing was disorderly from being kissed. He covered his mouth and raised the white flag.
"My mouth is numb..."
He mumbled, but his eyes unconsciously stayed on the female insect's lips.
The lip lines that used to appear hard and cold due to being pressed down softened and became bright red and moist during the sucking.
Cise was wearing the same military uniform as in the press conference, but his military cap fell off while he was rolling. His hair was hanging down in disorder in front of his forehead, but it couldn't cover his red ears. Coupled with his dazed look after the kiss, he looked particularly sullen.
Several buttons that were not even fastened to the top were undone, revealing the snow-white shirt underneath. She should have looked serious and cold, but because of a kiss, she became soft and gentle.
I really can't help it... I want to continue bullying him.
But before that, there are other things to discuss first. If I continue, I might be able to bully the female insect until she cries.
"Should I call you Cesar or Hirsch?"
Yael stood up, pressed the female insect under him, and reached out to help him straighten his collar. He narrowed his eyes and asked mercilessly, "Or... Admiral Monte?"
The female insect's pupils shrank slightly, and the confusion in her eyes disappeared instantly. After she suddenly woke up, the blood color on her face disappeared completely, and she actually looked a little pitiful.
"My Lord, I..."
His voice was tense and he looked eager to explain, but his mouth was covered.
"No talking."
Yael secretly warned himself not to be soft-hearted, then his face and voice turned cold, and he began to go over the past with him.
"You promised to tell me the truth after the matter is over in a few days. Is that what you promised? Although there are sleeping pills and secondary differentiation, it takes more than half a month, so there must be a chance for you to speak up. Did you take the initiative to tell me?"
He released the hand that was covering Caesar, but did not lift the ban on speaking. The female insect looked at him with red eyes, but because she could not speak to explain, her expression became more and more anxious.
"In the end, it was your adjutant who exposed you, but he was hesitant and refused to explain. It was only then that I saw the press conference and learned your identity."
Yael's teeth were itching with hatred. He originally just wanted to denounce it, but now he was really angry.
"If it's not a mistake, when are you going to tell me the truth?"
After the female insect propped herself up, they moved very close to each other, their breaths almost blending as they spoke. He could see the female insect's confusion and her anxiety to explain, but he still ruthlessly distanced himself from her.
"Your credit with me has gone negative."
Yael made the final conclusion in a decisive manner, and then he saw the female insect's expression change from eager to dull, as if she was in disbelief.
The female insect's eye sockets gradually turned red. She shook her head and blinked slowly. Her eyelashes were immediately stained with a few drops of water. Her voice was trembling and hoarse, "No..."
But then he remembered that Yael did not allow him to speak, and his Adam's apple rolled violently for a while, but he did not continue to explain, but his eyes and eyebrows were full of sadness and helplessness.
Ah...completely depressed.
Yael had already turned his head away, but he couldn't help but observe the female insect's expression from the corner of his eye.
Are you so sad? It should have just been an elementary school quarrel...right?
Why don't you say anything? Can't you defend yourself?
After realizing that his heart softened the more he watched, he made a prompt decision to get off the female insect.
The next second, I felt a pulling force on the sleeve of my right hand.
The force was very light, but it successfully made him stop. When he turned around, he found that Xize had connected his optical computer with his optical computer.
After a beep, a compressed packet is transmitted.
"What is this?"
Yael looked at the compressed file in the message box in confusion. When he clicked it, countless files popped out immediately.
He casually clicked on one of them, and when he read the content carefully, he heard the female insect's hoarse whisper behind his ear.
"It's all organized here, all about my experience and information, and some blank spaces were filled in later. I checked and there should be no omissions."
Xi Ze hugged Yael from behind, put his chin on his shoulder, reached out and held Yael's hand, and took him to look through all the documents.
"These are from when I was a cub, these, these, and these are from when I was in military school..."
Yael was also stunned and let the female insect pull his hand.
etc.
He accused the female of lying to him and even of breaking promises, but judging by the level of detail in the information, it was clear that she had been preparing to confess.
He even put all his past experiences into a document so that he could read it at any time...leaving him no room or privacy at all.
Yael looked stunned, and could clearly feel his chest vibrating again and again, as if condemning his tough words and actions just now.
"I'm sorry...I'm sorry, Lord."
The female insect's breath sprayed behind my ears, bringing a warm and moist touch, as if a wild animal lowered its head and gently rubbed it with its wet nose, sniffing the rose petals that it had accidentally damaged.
Caesar said hoarsely, resting his forehead on the male insect's shoulder. He heaved a sigh of relief when he realized that Yael finally gave up the idea of struggling and leaving. He said almost awkwardly, "I'm sorry."
Many times he didn't know how to fall in love with Yael and could only take the stupid method of being as gentle as possible. Fortunately, the taciturn and clumsy nature of this often-disdained military female did not dislike the male lord.
He had always thought that this was fine, but he suddenly realized just now that this way of getting along would make their relationship unable to withstand any twists and turns and tests.
Even a gust of wind can make it sway.
It's really complicated... Falling in love is more difficult to figure out than leading an army in battle. The answer cannot be calculated with data, and the result cannot be predicted with experience.
I can't catch it, and I can't keep it. I can't grasp it at all. I can only keep trying to feel and explore.
Then try, be honest and learn. Love is never a one-sided thing for his good, but the result of joint efforts of both parties.
"Hero Lord?"
Caesar continued to call out to Yael, and after getting a slow response, he spoke cautiously.
"Can you make the score positive? If not, zero is fine... don't give negative points."
Yael finally came to his senses, and when he heard these words, his heart suddenly ached.
Damn it.
I should have known not to get angry with the female insect. I can't get angry at all...
He sighed, stopped looking through the information, closed the computer, turned around, and kissed the female insect's eyes.
"What I just said was just an angry remark. It didn't turn into a negative score. It was always a perfect score, a hundred and twenty times the high score! Okay, don't be sad."
"good."
Xi Ze replied with red eyes, and laughed again when he heard the high scores behind, "Thank you, Lord Xiong."
...I don't know what I'm thanking you for, but my heart is already a mess.
Yer sighed, and finally coaxed him into kissing her for a while, but he found that the female insect was a little absent-minded. She would lose focus even during the kiss, and would only continue after being bitten.
"What's wrong?"
He was about to separate them to see what was going on when he heard the female insect whisper, "I already know."
"What?" Yael was stunned.
"I just thought about it, and I still feel that I can't continue to lie to you... My computer is connected to the surveillance of the ward, and it can hear the sound."
Caesar looked at him with his eyelashes lowered, his voice a little harsh, "I heard everything you talked about with Gallagher before, including the incident a year ago."
"Ah... I know now, it's all in the past anyway."
Yael was silent for a moment and said it lightly. Suddenly he realized that the female insect had taken the initiative this time, and his mood became very good.
"Next time, if you have any plans, you can tell me directly. It's not impossible to install surveillance cameras, but you can discuss it with me in advance. By the way, is this just for you to see or are there guards on duty?"
If it is only for the female insect to see, you can use this to tease him.
"Just for me."
Xize was not angry after being interrupted. He responded in a low voice following the male insect's words. He was completely unaware of the male insect's evil intentions, but he still couldn't help but move his eyes downwards.
Yael's left wrist was resting on the sofa, revealing a small piece of fair skin with vaguely visible messy scars on it. Just as he said, it had healed and was slowly going away.
But he really couldn't just ignore it.
Those scattered photos, bloodstained sheets, deep wounds where bones were visible...all are deeply engraved in my mind, and every detail is clearly visible.
To a female soldier who has been fighting for years, the wounds themselves are not scary, but the injured insects are called Yael.
From the first time he saw Yael, and every day they spent together thereafter, he could draw energy to survive from the male insect.
Warm and tender, like the thriving weeds, growing out of season, alone and casually.
Although I noticed that its roots had been struck by strong winds and blizzards, which had even left irreparable scars on the grass leaves, I never imagined that it had been so desperate that it had given up everything and committed suicide.
Yael was not used to such a heavy atmosphere, so he shrugged and deliberately made a joke, "So you should know why I am so weird."
"At first, I was wondering how such a male insect could exist in the world. It was so shocking, but I didn't expect that—"
"It seems like this is not from this world. How does it feel to be in love with an alien creature?"
He smiled with his eyes narrowed, and stretched out his hand to tease the female insect with red eyes, but he was grabbed by the wrist unexpectedly.
The sleeve was pulled up quickly, exposing the wound completely.
Yael widened his eyes slightly.
"I don't care—"
Xi Ze stared at the male insect in front of him and said word by word, "No matter where the male lord comes from or who he originally was, I don't care. Those things are not important at all."
"The important thing is..."
He choked up, his voice was extremely hoarse, and he couldn't continue, "The important thing is..."
After looking into those red eyes for a moment, Yael couldn't help but tilt his head.
He blinked quickly, pretended to rub his brows, and wiped away the water drops on his eyelashes, but the sound could not cover up the slight hoarseness.
"It's okay anyway. I'm still here. Those things are in the past."
"…But I feel bad."
I was so heartbroken that I could hardly breathe, and the pain was so aching that I felt like I was withering, but I couldn't shed many tears.
Because it is of no use at all. Those things happened and they cannot be undone.
He never had any unnecessary fantasies before, but now he wishes he could travel through time and space, take the once bewildered little Yale into his arms, and help him solve all his troubles and evil intentions.
Tell him not to be afraid, I'm here for him.
"Did you feel the same way when you saw the scars left on my body?"
When the wounds are left on my body, I don't care and don't feel the pain, but in another pair of loving eyes, I seem to be able to feel the intense pain personally, so much pain that my heart is frozen.
Yael stared at him in a daze, almost speechless.
Xi Ze gently stroked the soft protrusions on the male insect's wrist, suddenly lowered his head and kissed the messy scars.
It was as if it penetrated the cracks in time over the years and gave bewildered and helpless Yael a belated comfort and care.
"I will never let myself get hurt again, and neither will the Lord."
Yael's heart shuddered, as if a piece of red-hot iron had fallen on his cold flesh, and he began to tremble uncontrollably.
The scalding temperature flowed through the blood and rushed up to the heart, like boiling magma. The pain and numbness spread throughout the body, making it more difficult to suppress the surging emotions.
"……good."
He responded hoarsely, moved his wrist to break free, and then interlaced his fingers with the female insect, with his fingertips just covering the rough cocoon on the tiger's mouth.
He stretched out his hand and pulled Caesar towards him, without using any force, but the female insect had already come closer.
The distance between their bodies disappeared again, and they pressed together as tightly as possible, almost greedily absorbing each other's body temperature.
It was like two little animals shivering in the cold. If they didn't stay close together, supporting and encouraging each other to move forward, they would freeze to death in the snow.
Yael rested his forehead on Caesar's shoulder, calmed down for a while, and suddenly whispered.
"I was ignorant at the time and couldn't let myself go. I made a lot of mistakes. Thinking about it now, it's actually quite funny."
He had thousands of ways to make his life better, any of which would be much better than hurting himself, but he chose the stupidest one.
Yael tightened his arms around the female insect, feeling both relieved and scared.
Fortunately, we didn't succeed at that time, otherwise we wouldn't be able to save Xi Ze, and we wouldn't be able to hug each other so warmly.
He once hated the cruel tricks of fate, but at countless moments, he shed tears to thank fate for its generous gifts.
But maybe this is just the way it is, it cannot be forced, but as long as you work hard to get up and move forward step by step, you will usher in your own future in the next second.
"Don't say that."
Xi Ze retorted in a hoarse voice, "The Lord was already very scared at that time. There is no need to blame yourself for what you did in the past."
"You have done a great job, better than many insects. If I were faced with these things, I would not have the confidence that I could do better than you."
"You are neither ridiculous nor stupid. Stop belittling yourself."
Yael stared at the golden buttons on the female insect's military uniform and did not say anything in response. It was not that he did not want to, but he had pursed his lips again and again, and even his breathing was so light that he almost held his breath.
Because once you make a sound, the strong nasal tone in your voice will definitely be exposed, and then the female insect will worry again.
After taking several deep breaths, he managed to suppress the sourness that surged to the tip of his nose. He deliberately cleared his sore throat and laughed hoarsely, "Did you go and learn this specifically?"
"For example, I watched the love courses on Starnet, or "Love Psychology Required Course" or "1999 Love Words" or something like that. Otherwise, how could... my love words improve so quickly?"
Xi Ze coughed, feeling slightly embarrassed, but still spoke honestly.
"I didn't watch the tutorial specifically, and I wasn't actually saying sweet words just now."
But when facing an existence that should be cherished, we should keep it in the softest place in our heart, treat it seriously, and even weigh every word we say, for fear that there are any sharp edges.
"But what I just said is true."
Yael pressed his eyes hard to suppress the bitterness, then stood up and put some distance between himself and the female insect.
His expression was tired and gentle. Although the corners of his eyes were still a little red, it didn't seem to matter. There was a very bright light reflected in his dark eyes.
"I mean, I won't hurt myself anymore."
Before Cize could react, two thin and soft tentacles appeared from the strands of hair on Yael's forehead, trembling up and down with great interest, using the ends to feel the surrounding air.
"——Would you like to see my mental picture?"
"Hero Lord?"
The conversation changed so quickly and seemed unrelated, but the male insect had already approached him, trying to make contact.
Xi Ze could only close his eyes and stretch out his sensitive tip to connect with it. At the moment of contact, a trembling nasal sound came out of his throat.
In the past, the male insects would probe their mental power into his picture to repair or rebuild it... He had been thoroughly touched from the inside out.
But for the first time he was allowed into Yael's mental picture.
The moment their horns touched, the spiritual connection that had been severed for a long time was connected here. It seemed that there was less sluggishness than before, and it blended naturally and seamlessly.
Blah--
The sound of crashing waves echoed in my ears, the salty breath blowing on my face lifted the strands of hair in front of my forehead, and what came into view was a vast deep blue sky.
Cizek stood up and found himself lying on a small boat, drifting along the gentle waves. Yael was sitting on the side of the boat beside him, dipping his calves into the sea water.
"Is this... the spiritual picture of the hero?"
A wave of star-like blue tears came with the waves, and scattered suddenly after hitting the boat, like fireworks rising to the top and blooming, emitting millions of bright lights, which was extremely shocking.
Yael stepped on the cool sea water, waved away the glowing jellyfish and small silver fish surrounding his feet, turned his head and smiled at the female insect.
"I didn't have a mental picture during my first differentiation, and I didn't have one in the following years. This one just appeared recently, and it wasn't until I went through the second differentiation that it was finally built."
His eyes reflected the blue tears spreading on the sea, as if an entire vast and flourishing starry sky was hidden in his eyes, with an almost breathtaking beauty.
Xi Ze subconsciously held his breath and reached out to brush away the strands of hair that had fallen on the tip of his nose. However, his fingertips were held and received a very light kiss, like a fish skimming over duckweed, causing ripples.
"I have thought about it many times, why I can never successfully construct a mental picture, and it was not until now that I finally understood it——"
“The spiritual vision is not a floating castle in the air. It needs to take root in the soil of life and draw energy from it to grow a huge and complex system inside.”
"But to me, whether it's spiritual power, spiritual vision, or this race... they are all like the Arabian Nights, like a dream. There is little sense of reality in them, so I have never been able to take root."
Found on the battlefield, a strange outsider with no identity and no genetic match to any male insect in the Empire... He doesn't fit in with this world.
but--
Yael looked at the ripples of the waves in the distance, as if he felt the call of those warm memories, and his heart was filled with a calm and peaceful state.
"It was only after I found you and began to learn how to do spiritual counseling that I began to slowly accept and become familiar with these things."
It was like having a fixed anchor in the boundless sea. After meeting the female insect, this world gradually connected and merged with his heart and flesh, becoming real bit by bit.
"——In a sense, this spiritual picture was created for you."
This is what Yael wanted Cesar to know.
Although it doesn't solve any problems, it can hopefully reduce the female insect's anxiety by letting her know that the insect she loves won't slip away from her fingers like a wisp of wind.
"I don't want to think about those things anymore, and neither should you. Just let them pass naturally."
Yael held out his hand toward Cize, against the howling sea breeze.
Just then, a ray of dawn light broke through the distant horizon, dispelling all the darkness on the sea. The apocalyptic star falling in the brilliant clouds was incomparably dazzling.
But it was nothing compared to the extremely bright light in those dark eyes, which penetrated the darkness and malice earlier than the late dawn of adultery, and was an extremely warm and dazzling existence.
"After all, we have a new future, don't we?"
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