Chapter 88
These two days, Yael went to the rental house first and packed up his things in the utility room.
There were very few things, most of which were useless, so he simply cleaned them out all at once, picked up only a few necessities and put them in his bag, then said goodbye to everyone else and headed for the train station.
Qingming Festival is coming soon. Every year at this time, Yael will go back to his hometown to stay for a day or two, to pay homage to his grandmother and mother who are buried there, and then come back after the holiday.
Anyway, I have already said goodbye to the necessary people, so I might as well stay a little longer this time.
…
I bought a seat ticket for the train.
The train clanged along the track, leaving behind a city forest of steel and iron, passing through countless backward views, and entering another world of sudden openness.
The moment he was enveloped by the sunlight, Yael's eyes widened slightly.
The vast plain is endless, with no end in sight.
Birds are flying high and the weather is clear.
Countless cloud-like lambs are scattered on the vast plateau, some standing quietly, some running around lively. The soft white and the verdant green collide with each other, creating the most harmonious scenery in this world.
...It's a little lamb.
It was still a little unclear at a distance, but Yael could already imagine how it would feel when touched, soft and warm, as if it could embrace the vibrant pulse of life.
He smiled unconsciously, suddenly full of anticipation.
Then a voice suddenly rang in my ears, with a deep smile, as if it was engraved into my soul and was particularly obvious amid the clanging noise.
[You see, this is the planet I mentioned before, the one that is rich in fluffy lambs. There was a large-scale chaos here before, and the army I am in was sent to evacuate and suppress it.]
[…When you travel there with the Lord in the future, you will know for yourself by feeling it out.]
Yael shook his head slowly, frowning.
This voice troubled him for a long time. It only took him two or three days for it to go from being vague at first to gradually becoming clearer, and for him to go from not being able to understand the meaning of the words.
But I could never remember the face of the person who spoke, and my mind was blank, with basically no memory of that person. But when I thought about it, my heart swelled and ached.
Probably a very important person.
Yael held his chin with his left hand and looked at the scenery outside casually, with a trace of regret in his eyes.
...Sometimes I really don't know what's wrong with this brain. I can remember all those boring data, but I always miss important people and things. It's really putting the cart before the horse.
"Baby, our seats are here."
While he was lost in thought, a mother and daughter sat down on the seat opposite him. The young mother put her backpack on the ground and held her two or three-year-old daughter in her arms.
"Are you hungry? Do you want some bread?"
"No - I'm hungry -" the lovely little girl stretched out the words and said stubbornly, "I want to see the lamb!"
"Not yet. This time we came back to visit grandpa and grandma. We have to complete the worship process before we can do anything else. When the time comes, I will take you to touch the lamb."
The young mother softly educated the little girl, took out the little girl's toys from her backpack and placed them on the small table. "Okay, either sleep for a while or play for a while, your choice."
Yael withdrew his hand to make room for the little girl to drive the car. He inadvertently caught a glimpse of the diamond ring on the young mother's left hand and was stunned for a moment.
ring.
He stretched out his hand and pinched the ring finger of his left hand, bending the slender and clean joints, and always felt as if he had forgotten something.
Ring...Proposal...Mecha?
It was like the TV signal reception was poor. Some fragmented images flashed through my mind, but I couldn't see them clearly or grasp them, which made me very frustrated.
Yael held his throbbing temple and took a few deep breaths in silence.
When he finally came to his senses, he heard the worried voice of the young mother on the other side, "Are you okay? Do you want me to call the flight attendant for you?"
He waved his hands weakly and stuffed a candy into his mouth. After a while, the dizziness finally subsided.
I didn't have breakfast this morning, so I might have low blood sugar. Even my heart rate was revolving.
The train finally arrived at the station. Yael picked up his backpack and got off the train. He asked for directions while thinking about it, and finally arrived at his hometown village at noon.
Only three years had passed, but the scenery here had changed completely. He walked through the bustling streets, turned into several alleys, and entered a somewhat desolate area.
It was a prosperous place in the past, but it gradually declined after he went out to attend primary school. Now only a few elderly people stay in the old houses and spend the rest of their lives guarding their memories.
"A-zai is back?"
Yael was lost in thought when he heard an old voice behind him. He turned around and saw an old lady with a kind face, "Grandma Li."
The old lady with a cane and gray hair nodded with a smile and continued to chatter.
"It seems like you haven't been home for a long time. Your grandma and your mom must miss you very much. Don't forget to come home often even if you are working hard outside."
He was stunned for a moment, then he narrowed his eyes and said with a sigh, "Yes, I really missed home, so I hurried back."
Only when he stood on this familiar land, saw the scenes in his memory, and breathed the unique scent of the earth did he suddenly feel at ease.
After bidding farewell to Granny Li, Yael turned a few dozen meters forward, and the view in front of him suddenly opened up.
The yard in front of me is deserted, but I can easily see the vast sky above my head, which makes the houses in this area have good lighting and are not so easily damp.
Grandma's old house is very old. In the past, he was the only one who would come back to live there at this time every year and clean the house. But since he has been in a coma and has not returned for three years, it is definitely no longer habitable.
Squeak——
He pushed open the wooden door, and the rusty door hinges immediately made a protesting sound. The long-awaited sunlight finally poured in, illuminating the inner room filled with cobwebs and dust.
"Grandma, I'm back."
Yael spoke loudly, as if greeting the spirits in the house, and then he was allowed to move in safely.
"There's so much dust. It may take a whole day to clean it up..."
There was basically not much clean space in the room, not even a place to put his backpack, but fortunately there was still water in the faucet, so he wiped the bed first to make sure there was a place to rest.
It was a long time ago that I had done a thorough cleaning of this room. There was little holiday time and it was already very tight to go back and forth for worship, so I just wiped the dust off each time.
Now we have plenty of time, so we can do a thorough cleaning.
Blah--
A whole piece of plastic sheet was lifted off, and dust immediately flew all over the sky.
Yael took a few steps back, holding the mask in his hand. He fanned the dust away for a long time before he could slowly recognize what was underneath.
An old locker.
"I remember there was a big hole in this cabinet and rats got in. How could you not throw it away at that time..."
He whispered, bent down and opened the cupboard door, ready to run away at any time if he saw a mouse, but fortunately there was no rustling movement inside, only a rotten and stale smell of dust.
The house blocked the light from outside, so Yael could only turn on the flashlight, rummaged around inside, and took out a tin box.
"This box looks familiar. What's in it?"
He wiped off the thick dust, opened the box carefully, and was stunned when he saw what was inside.
An amulet, a small wooden turtle sculpture, half a kite, a few puppet figures, and the rest of the odds and ends were unidentifiable—the only toys he had from his childhood.
The yellow embroidery thread on the amulet had spread out, and most of it had turned grayish white. Yael vaguely remembered that this was something his grandmother had brought him to the temple to get after he had just lost his parents.
The nimble old lady stood with her hands on her hips, looking at him who was out of breath with a ferocious expression.
"Hurry up! At your snail-like speed, how long will it take to reach the top of the mountain?!"
At that time, he had short arms and legs, and he really crawled on the ground like a snail, and was soon covered in dust. His grandmother sighed while carrying him on her back.
"Oh, your mother is such a fool. She only cared about giving birth to the child but not raising him. Why don't you just take the child with you? Then he won't have to suffer here and not even have a bite to eat."
At that time, he thought his grandmother didn't like him, but when he asked for the amulet, he heard the prayer "Please keep my grandson safe and healthy."
“…”
Yael suddenly lowered his eyes, stroked the amulet for a long time, and finally put it back.
They lived together for only four years, from the age of eight to twelve.
Even if those memories faded with a high fever, the longing from the bottom of his heart would tell him that these were also the most stable and happiest four years of his life.
At that time, he finally came out of the hospital, retaliated very promptly, and then regained his freedom. He was not mentally normal and was quite annoying at many times.
"What's wrong with you? Why are you crying all day long?"
The spoon with porridge on it hit the child on the head, stunning the child who was sobbing with his hands covering his face for a moment, and then he heard the grandmother's angry voice.
He was sobbing and talking about what he had just been thinking, and he felt that he was the worst child in the world.
What is family?
Why doesn't he have a caring and loving father and mother, but is instead hungry and beaten all day long? Now he can't even go to school.
"Family is like a rope. No matter where you go, it will hold your heart and keep you from drifting away. No matter how far away you are, you can always find the way home."
The capable old lady's kindness lasted only a second before she waved her hand in disgust.
"Of course, some of our "family members" are not very human, and are even worse than pigs and dogs. The thread can be cut cleanly and there is nothing to regret."
"Anyway, as a man, you should have a clear conscience. If you hesitate and linger, you are not a man at all! Wipe your tears and stop crying!"
She sighed and was worried about the food in the kitchen, but she felt it was not a good idea to leave the child here, so she had to carry him to the doorstep and sit him down, coaxing him perfunctorily.
"Sit still. If you behave yourself, I'll let you pet the lamb tomorrow."
But later on, his grandmother did not take him to see the lambs because she was worried about his schooling. She was very busy borrowing money from everywhere and doing sewing in her spare time.
Memories of those days ebbed and flowed through his mind, softening Yael's expression and he picked up the wooden turtle carving again.
The little turtle poked its head out, looking adorable and strangely similar to the guardian beast at home.
At that time, his grandmother had a rare moment of free time, so he was taken to the town. He happened to meet a woodcarver who was setting up a stall and saw the majestic snow leopard at first sight.
But he didn't get the snow leopard, but was given an ugly turtle instead. He pouted and was about to cry, and then he was pulled by the ears and scolded.
"What's wrong with the turtle? It's so cute when it shakes its head! Those big tigers and lions are too ugly. Besides, the turtle has a good meaning. Turtle means home, which means you will always have a home to return to."
Turtle, turtle.
But he no longer had a home to return to.
Yael took a deep breath, blinked down the heat in his eyes, closed the box, and decided to take care of the hygiene first.
If he can't finish it tonight, he'll have nowhere to live.
…
As the sky gradually darkened, the noise in the house became quieter.
When the large fiery clouds dispersed, the banyan tree cast a dark shadow. There was a flash in the house, and a dim light came on.
Yael heated up some water, took a bath reluctantly, and then lay down on the bed with his mobile phone. After brushing his teeth for a while, he was ready to fall asleep with the quilt in his arms.
I'm sore all over after a day of cleaning, and I have to go to the cemetery in town tomorrow. I might as well go to bed early and plan everything tomorrow.
But maybe it was because of the toys, or the longing he had for home after not being home for so long, that made Yael have so many complicated dreams in his daze.
“…”
"You little grandson are born with a bad luck. You are born unfriendly and don't trust others. You will probably be alone for the rest of your life!"
Although he couldn't see the face of the person speaking in the dream, he could clearly discern the schadenfreude in his expression. After thinking for a moment, Yael decided that it must be some talkative villager.
"Bah! You are the one with the bad luck! Why don't you take a piss and look at yourself *%￥&..."
There followed a string of insults in local dialect, and the hand that held his was thin and strong, and brought an inexplicable sense of security.
He didn't know what a "jinx" was at the time, but later on, he thought it was quite fitting. After all, those who got involved with him basically had no good ending.
Even grandma.
At the age of 65, three years after adopting Yael, she was diagnosed with advanced liver cancer, which was incurable.
The memories of my grandmother in the last year are basically in black and white: the bleakness of the county hospital, the dark night without lights... and those eyes with distinct black and white.
As if she was afraid that the curse of the lucky star would come true, at the moment of her death, she always held Yael's hand and began to babble with instructions.
"Whether it's the home here, your parents' home, or your own home in the future, remember that the most important thing is that your heart is settled and you have people you miss and care about. That is your home."
"After I die, you will probably be adopted by an orphanage. Just come back and visit me from time to time. You don't have to do anything, just clean up the dust and pay your respects."
"It's okay if you don't come back. There's nothing in this house and the way back is difficult. Let's talk about it when we have time."
“…”
Countless memories swarmed in, making Yael unable to sleep well.
Finally, after waking up from a shock, he sat up and sat in the silence of the room for a while.
Then he threw back the quilt, got out of bed, opened the door of the old house, and sat on the high doorstep where he often sat in his childhood.
The night is cool as water and the stars are shining.
Yael narrowed his eyes slightly and looked absentmindedly at the twinkling stars above his head, randomly connecting them together to form strange shapes.
He didn’t know whether it was because the weather was too cold or because he was wearing too thin clothes, but he felt a piercing chill after sitting for a short while, and his ears that were exposed turned red from the cold.
"call……"
Yael exhaled a breath of cold air, a trace of boredom showing on his face.
Three years was neither long nor short, but it was like an abyss that severed his twenty-two years old.
He once had a rental house and a dog, and many people walked with him. He could have finally gotten rid of poverty and got a very good job...but all of this disappeared in those three years.
The past is filled with vague memories that cannot be traced back, and the past is filled with long years of fog.
And most importantly, he had nowhere to go. It wasn't difficult to start over, but the difficult part was to truly accept the reality that there was no one behind him.
Just like this room behind me, no matter how hard you clean it, the person who once lived there is gone forever.
He no longer has a home.
[Don't say that! You still have a long life ahead of you. You will meet all kinds of people in the future. You will definitely fall in love with someone and then you can successfully start a family.]
Grandma's words suddenly rang out, and as always, with a strange sense of humor, Yael couldn't help but curl his lips and the expression on his face relaxed a little.
[As long as your heart is at peace and you have someone you miss and care about, that is your destination.]
Inexplicably, he remembered the sound he had heard from time to time since he woke up.
The tone and content of the voice always gave him the illusion that he and the owner of the voice had a very deep relationship, or even loved each other to death to exaggerate.
He didn't know what a "hero" was, but he could always understand the content about "like" and "love", trivial matters in daily life, and even straightforward requests for sex.
Yael sighed and felt that this matter was a bit difficult to handle.
His body was certainly unable to move during his coma, but perhaps his soul was out of the body for a while, and he went somewhere and had a love affair, or even got married.
The idea of souls leaving the body is very strange, but it might be easier to understand if it were replaced with ghosts. After all, there is a complete set of legends about the underworld.
So it is very likely that he encountered a Yin peach blossom, had a ghost marriage, and had a...ghost wife? !
——But listening to the deep tone, it sounds more like a ghost husband.
Thinking of this, Yael took a deep breath and quickly suppressed the wild fantasies in his mind.
Stay calm, there are no ghosts in this world.
Rather than believing this, it is better to believe that his mental health has changed again, and that it has become so serious that he has begun to experience auditory and visual hallucinations and needs medication for treatment.
"!"
While he was daydreaming, a flash of light suddenly flashed across the sky above his head, almost like a burning spark in the darkness, flashing with fleeting and breathtaking beauty.
Yael widened his eyes slightly.
I saw countless meteors breaking through the light night, like a crackling star rain, drawing prosperous and smooth tracks in the sky, and then bursting with dazzling light at the end.
He was exclaiming in surprise when he suddenly realized something was wrong. He reached out to cover his eyes and discovered that the sky and earth were shrouded in a layer of faint red light.
"? Why is the moonlight red? And there seems to be no moon now..."
Yael was confused for a moment.
He suddenly remembered something, stood up and took out a small telescope from his backpack. He bought it when he joined the astronomy club in college. He couldn't bear to throw it away when he was clearing out old things, so he brought it with him.
After quickly adjusting the parameters, he went out to the yard and looked at the distant sky through the round hole.
At first, the scene was normal, but at some point, the extremely rich scarlet began to occupy the field of vision.
Like spilled blood or rose petals, it seemed to be moving rhythmically, inexplicably matching the beat of the heartbeat in the chest.
【This is the Heart of Vera.】
Bang.
Bang…bang…bang…
Yael's pupils shrank slightly, and his vision suddenly twisted and changed for a moment, and then several vivid images suddenly flashed.
In the narrow and dim cabin, the figure leaned over and hugged him, kissed away the tears on his face, and whispered gentle words of love in his ear.
【I now give this heart to you. 】
[If you ever feel lonely or insecure, look at this heart with a stargazer. As long as it beats, the love inside will never disappear... until the end of eternity.]
In the blurry darkness, only those eyes of molten gold shone brightly.
The telescope fell to the ground with a "bang", rolled around and was covered with dust. Yael didn't even bother to pick it up. He just covered his head with his hands, trembling all over.
[…Heroic Lord…]
[Sizzle, I will protect you...Sizzle, get out of there...No...! ]
【I love you. 】
[Sizzle... the world over there... I'll lay an egg for you. 】
Countless memories were like a surging tide, hitting the brain fiercely. The speed of the impact could not keep up with the speed of absorption, causing waves of severe pain.
"Well……!"
Yael's pupils shrank, and he shook his head subconsciously in resistance, but was suddenly shocked by a loud noise——
【Yel!!!】
He was shocked, and the face that had been hidden in the mist finally became clear at this moment.
White hair, golden eyes, and a gentle smile as she looked at him.
Yael clearly remembered his outline and every vivid expression, happy, angry, fierce... every scene was so vivid, as if it was right before his eyes.
The deeply suppressed intense love and longing that came with those memories were like a burning spark that fell on the heart and could easily start a prairie fire.
How could I forget?
Why did he forget——
On the other side of the distant universe, he has his second home and his lover who has been waiting for him to come home.
A thread travels through the distant universe, pierces through the heart and ties an unsolvable knot. From then on, the kite floating in the wind has a new home.
Yael's eyelashes trembled, and a drop of water suddenly fell and seeped into the ground beneath his feet.
He moved his lips almost silently and murmured.
"...Xize."
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