He said hoarsely, "You don't have to compare yourself with her."
Zhao Ying shook her head. "We still have to compare. She and I both adore you, so how could we not compare? It's just... I've always been an outsider in your love!"
"Zhao Yao was injured today. I saw your expression and knew your true feelings..."
"You are so anxious and in so much pain, as if you don't want to live anymore if she dies..."
Shangguan Shu's brows gradually furrowed.
This... is talking about him?
"I've never seen you like this before..."
"I only now realize that your feelings towards me are nothing but pity and guilt, but towards her, you truly love her deeply and unforgettably!"
Zhao Ying's face was full of melancholy.
Shangguan Shu's tone was a little confused, "Is it...?"
Zhao Ying looked at him helplessly. "Just like today, although you let her misunderstand your heart, I understand that you...love her deeply and criticize her harshly! Because you love her, you criticize her harshly. Because you love her, you are strict with Zhao Yao's children, because you already treat them as your own."
Zhao Ying sighed and said regretfully, "This is your biological child, yet you spoil and indulge him. You should know that spoiling a child is like killing him..."
Ever since Shangguan Shu was provoked by Zhao Ying last time, his memories have been mixed, and the system has been trying to invade again... His mind was not very clear to begin with, and now he was completely confused by what Zhao Ying said.
He scratched his head and sighed, "But... seeing Yue'er crying like that, I was anxious and angry..."
"That's right! You never like children crying, so you must be annoyed!"
After Zhao Ying finished speaking, she silently admired herself in her heart.
Shangguan Shu blinked blankly.
After a while, he smiled noncommittally, "Maybe..."
But he was still a little confused, so he asked without thinking.
"Even if it's as you said...but I've seen my third brother and his wife being very affectionate. He once said privately that if he loves a woman, he only wants to be with her, and he gets jealous when he sees her with other men..."
Zhao Ying turned her head and glanced at him slowly.
Shangguan Shu said sincerely, "But I've never felt this way towards Huai'an."
Zhao Ying was also confused.
I subconsciously asked, "Really?"
Shangguan Shu shook his head.
Zhao Ying didn't believe it, "You...haven't had sex?"
Shangguan Shu's eyebrows furrowed sharply. "At this point, why would I lie to you about something like this?"
"That's true..."
On the last night before the divorce, there was no need to hide.
Zhao Ying took a deep breath and continued, "This... is normal. Huai'an is a nun who is not tainted by the world. You love her, so you can't bear to desecrate her! This shows that you are a true gentleman!"
Shangguan Shu: ...This is the first time someone has called him a gentleman...
Shangguan Shu asked back, "Don't you always think I'm... a beast?"
Zhao Ying: ...
"A man is a gentleman in front of the woman he loves. Because you don't love me, you behave like a..." Zhao Ying was too lazy to say anything. He was not only a beast, but also a beast!
Seeing Shangguan Shu wasn't convinced, Zhao Ying continued, "You regard Huai'an as the most pure and innocent woman in the world. Because you love her, you dare not defile her in the slightest!"
Shangguan Shu: The most pure and innocent woman? She already gave birth to three children...
"I don't!"
"You have!"
"I don't……"
"If I say you have it, you have it!"
Shangguan Shu was helpless and pulled the corners of his lips.
Zhao Ying: "As for the jealousy..."
Shangguan Shu raised his eyebrows and looked at her with interest.
"This is about trust. You trust her, so you won't be jealous. You know, trust is true love!"
Shangguan Shu paused for a moment, then suddenly asked, "Have you ever been jealous of me?"
Zhao Ying frowned, wondering why he asked that. After thinking for a moment, she answered truthfully, "I was jealous..."
"when?"
"...When you sent troops to pick up Huai'an..."
Shangguan Shu uttered a soft "Oh" and said, "You've been jealous...according to you, you just don't love me!"
Zhao Ying: ...
Her eyebrows furrowed even deeper. Before she could think of a response, Shangguan Shu pressed her again, "You said last time that you'd always been attracted to me, and that you'd come back after the divorce... You lied to me!"
Zhao Ying: ...
"I just lied to you. I've never been jealous!"
Shangguan Shu smiled mysteriously.
Zhao Ying's eyes hurt from his smile. She gritted her teeth and said, "You shouldn't have listened to your third brother! Does he understand what love is? If he did, would he have brought back a pig demon?!"
"If he really loves the pig demon, he shouldn't despise him! Just like you do to Huai'an. With Huai'an looking like this, have you ever despised her?"
Shangguan Shu thought about it seriously, then shook his head.
Zhao Ying officially closed the case, "That's right! You love Huai'an deeply!"
"In that case, you shouldn't let the woman you love get drunk late at night and let other men see her charm. She will break your heart..."
Shangguan Shu's eyebrows were twisted into a knot, "Who told you these words..."
Zhao Ying took it for granted, "My mother..."
"My mother sang this ballad to lull me to sleep when I was little!"
Shangguan Shu understood again.
He understood why Zhao Ying always hummed some unheard-of tunes to put the child to sleep.
After Zhao Ying finished speaking, she was about to leave.
Unexpectedly, Shangguan Shu grabbed her arm again, and Zhao Ying turned around to look.
Shangguan Shu stared at her intently, looking both angry and panicked. He asked urgently, "Is it really as you said?"
Zhao Ying was speechless. "She's your beloved childhood sweetheart, and you even rebelled against Big Brother for her!"
Shangguan Shu panicked even more. He let her go and suddenly covered his face, "I'm really confused... I'm so panicked..."
Shangguan Shu revealed his vulnerability to Zhao Ying for the first time.
In fact, he was shocked by an idea that popped up in his mind recently.
He actually felt that... he wasn't planning a rebellion for Zhao Yao...
He actually felt that... there was a woman who should be the true love of his heart.
He loved that woman, but he thought it was Zhao Yao...
His impulse and belief in rebellion was to get that woman...
This is ridiculous...
What's even more ridiculous is... he thought that woman was Zhao Ying.
Obviously... he had never had any contact with Zhao Ying before she came of age. He had no memory of this, so how could he talk about love?
It couldn't possibly be Zhao Ying!
Zhao Ying also lost her patience and lowered her voice, "Don't dwell on those extraneous thoughts. While there's still time, cherish the person in front of you! The person in front of you is in the room behind you."
Shangguan Shu looked up at her, his eyes moist, like an abandoned dog. Seeing Zhao Ying's impatient expression, the softness in his eyes faded away in an instant, and he became cold. "Don't worry, I will."
That’s right, it’s not worth his concern whether he loves her or not.
How can a real man be obsessed with love?
"Tomorrow morning, we will go and make peace!"
Zhao Ying felt completely relieved after hearing this.
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