The cold wind was blowing, Shangguan Shu was wearing only a single layer of clothes, had no money, and had an unshaven beard.
Nearing forty, I've lost both love and power...
But Shangguan Shu was in no mood to think about anything else, his mind was full of Zhao Ying.
He naturally knew who arranged Zhao Yan. If it wasn't him, then it must be Zhao Ying.
It turned out that Zhao Ying had known the truth for a long time, but she did not argue with him, make a fuss with him, or defend herself with him. She would rather bear the blame and endure it in silence.
She is hating! She is seeking revenge!
Who do you hate? Who do you want revenge on?
Is there anything more tragic in this world than seeing your own heart clearly, only to find out that the other person has been hurt by you and hates him to the core?
A few days ago, he missed Zhao Ying and even went to Gan Garden to look at the things that reminded him of her.
Now I just want to run away.
It was as if even if he didn't look at her or think about her, Zhao Ying was still there, waiting for him, thinking about him...
I won't hate him, I won't blame him.
What did he do to Zhao Ying?
How could she possibly forgive him?
Zhao Ying will never forgive him...
He will never forgive himself!
But he... wanted her so badly... he couldn't just let her go!
If he forced her, she would probably hate him even more, but if he did nothing, was he really going to watch Zhao Ying leave him?
No, absolutely not!
He would rather die than be with her!
Shangguan Shu finally understood that the source of his past depression and pain was Zhao Ying.
If he hurts her or betrays her, he will be sad and heartbroken, and he will worry that she will find out the truth and leave him, so he will do something more drastic.
Just like now.
Reason suppressed his crazy mood.
Every part of his body ached, his head felt dizzy, and he felt like he had caught a cold.
He didn't ask anyone to apply medicine to the injury on his back. Only by torturing himself in this way could he feel better.
Zhao Ying... Zhao Ying...
Where are you……
Do you still want me...
Why do you still write those things to deceive me...
Do you want to kill me...
Why are you trying to kill me...
Don't you love me anymore?
Am I really so evil?
Suddenly, there was a sharp pain in his abdomen. Shangguan Shu covered his stomach, found a step, and slowly sat down. He looked at the gradually darkening sky and swallowed his tears mixed with the cold wind.
The secret guards hidden in the Duke of Zhenguo's Mansion were like sparrows. When their master left, they flew away.
Liao Mu slowly approached and asked in a low voice, "Master, I will find a place for you..."
Shangguan Shu waved his hand dejectedly, took off a ring from his waist, and handed it to Liao Mu, "Pawn it, and then find a small house on the outskirts of the city. The most dilapidated one, preferably one with leaks, and prepare a patched linen shirt for me."
"Change the remaining silver into copper coins for me, then take the others to find General Huang outside the city. Don't come to me unless you have anything else..."
Liao Mu couldn't believe his ears for a moment.
What is the master doing?
Bankrupt?
Not really?
The commander of a million-strong army...
And what do you mean don't come to him?
Don’t you want them anymore?
Liao Mu almost shed tears, but he tried hard to hold them back.
Shangguan Shu saw Liao Mu was reluctant to leave. The bear-like man was blocking out the last bit of sunlight. The lack of sunlight made him even colder. He frowned and asked, "Why don't you leave?"
Liao Mu said pitifully, "Master, don't you want me anymore? I've been with you for so many years. If you don't want me, where should I go?"
The wrinkles between Shangguan Shu's brows deepened. He took a deep breath, too lazy to talk nonsense with him, and waved his hand, "Go and do what I told you to do first!"
Liao Mu had no choice but to go and do the work first.
He came back after a while.
Assigning a few small tasks to a hundred or so idle secret guards is simply too much of a stretch.
They discussed privately that since their master was in dire straits, they could not leave. They had to stay and protect their master. Since their master did not allow them to show up, they did it secretly.
So when Liao Mu carried a bag of copper coins to Shangguan Shu, the other secret guards hid around Shangguan Shu's new "house".
Shangguan Shu grabbed a handful and let them divide the rest.
Liao Mu brought Shangguan Shu to a deserted courtyard at the foot of Yumang Mountain. Inside was a small adobe house. From a distance, it looked ramshackle, let alone closer. Wow, the two small wooden doors were half rotten, and the bolts were fastened with red ropes. Liao Mu pointed and said, "This is a gift from the owner. A housewarming gift."
Shangguan Shu: ...
When we opened it, the sight inside was even more horrific.
There were five dilapidated houses with no doors or windows, a broken millstone and a stove in the yard, and nothing else.
Shangguan Shu raised his eyebrows and thought that Liao Mu was too honest.
Has this found the most dilapidated house in Beijing?
That’s not all. The house stood alone at the foot of the mountain. Looking up, you could see the mountains, but the mountains were all white…
Shangguan Shu pointed to a wooden stick not far away and asked, "What is this?"
Liao Mu looked up along with his hand, and then said as a matter of course: "Oh, this, this is a grave circle. The owner said that if it weren't blocking the grave circle, it wouldn't be sold so cheaply!"
Shangguan Shu: ...
"How much silver?"
"Fifty cents."
Shangguan Shu was just thinking it was too expensive when he heard Liao Mu say, "The landlord gave me fifty coins..."
Shangguan Shu: ...
Shangguan Shu let out a long sigh and slowly convinced himself to accept this reality.
It doesn’t matter. For the sake of future sexual happiness… no, a happy life, a little hardship and difficulty at this moment doesn’t matter.
Just as I was thinking this, there was a loud bang, and then the main house in front of me suddenly collapsed, and dust flew everywhere.
It made the already dilapidated house even worse.
Shangguan Shu: ...
Liao Mu was also dumbfounded.
The two were just standing there in a daze when a dozen black-clad secret guards stepped out of the mound in unison, like a flock of old crows...
Shangguan Shu naturally recognized his own secret guard.
He turned around and asked Liao Mu with a chill, "Why is this?"
Liao Mu glared at the old crows with a look of frustration, then turned around to apologize, "Master, the brothers also meant well and wanted to come here to accompany and protect you. Maybe this house is too shabby and the beams can't accommodate so many brothers, so..."
Shangguan Shu closed his eyes speechlessly.
After a while, the blockage in his heart finally cleared up. He wanted to call all the secret guards to repair his house, but then he thought that this would be more impactful, so he drove the secret guards away as far away as possible.
Shangguan Shu found a room with less leaks, changed out of his brocade robe, folded it, put it away first, then picked up the broom and swept the room. The room seemed brighter, but it was already dark.
The mountain foot was particularly eerie and quiet at night, with graves all over it. Shangguan Shu was glad that he had given up literature and taken up martial arts, climbed over a mountain of corpses, crossed a sea of blood, and had a strong evil spirit on his body, so he was not afraid of any wandering ghosts.
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