Chapter 52 The Watch That Cannot Be Returned
Ever since Lin Haoxiang returned to school, the atmosphere in the dormitory has become very depressing.
Lin Haoxiang has been in a very low mood and speaks even less than before.
Guo Kai was afraid that he would be depressed, so he always stayed by his side silently. The two of them didn't chat much when they were together.
Now, one of them is speechless while the other is unable to speak, like a pair of taciturn brothers, each with their own thoughts.
Li Zexi clearly felt that Guo Kai was not as sticky to him as before recently.
Although the three of them ate together, went to class together, went back to the dormitory together, and talked normally.
But Guo Kai didn't get intimate with him, didn't hug him, and didn't even stay alone with him.
Guo Kai would even deliberately avoid spending time with Li Zexi. Once he found out that they were the only two left in the dormitory, Guo Kai would find all kinds of excuses to leave.
Li Zexi understood clearly in his heart that this person... might have finally understood his situation and wanted to draw a clear line between themselves and him.
Li Zexi didn't feel sad, or angry that this person was so immature.
If you want to talk about love, talk about it. If you don’t want to talk about it, don’t talk about it.
Treat their relationship as a joke.
But it would be a lie to say that he didn't feel any emotion at all, after all, Li Zexi really liked Guo Kai.
For several days in a row, Guo Kai was indifferent to him and rarely even smiled at him. Li Zexi had to start facing up to this relationship.
That day, while Lin Haoxiang was away, Li Zexi called out to Guo Kai who was about to flee: "Guo Kai, stop."
Guo Kai stopped and slowly turned to look at Li Zexi.
Li Zexi crossed his arms and looked at him: "Why are you running?"
Guo Kai rubbed his nose awkwardly: "What are you talking about? I didn't run away."
Li Zexi: "No, no, you haven't talked to me much these past few days, you haven't joked with me, and you don't even dare to look at me?"
Guo Kai's eyes were indeed somewhat evasive, and he said without any confidence: "I don't have it."
Li Zexi stood up, walked to Guo Kai step by step, looked up at him and said, "Tell me, what do you think? If you want to break up with me, just say it directly. You don't have to live so twisted every day. I won't pester you."
Guo Kai's eyes widened and his voice trembled: "What did you say? You want to break up with me?"
Li Zexi said as if it was a matter of course: "Aren't you the one who wants to break up with me? You're avoiding me all day long, and you always look like you have something on your mind."
Li Zexi sighed and continued: "I know that the matter between Wang Jiaming and Lin Haoxiang has put pressure on you. Your family backgrounds are similar, and you definitely cannot agree to two men being together.
So, you are afraid, you are terrified, you are afraid that one day you will end up in the same situation as them. Guo Kai, you are too young, there are some things you cannot bear, I understand.
So, as long as you ask, I will agree and won't make things difficult for you. ”
Guo Kai suddenly took a step forward and grabbed Li Zexi's arms with both hands, holding them very hard.
Li Zexi frowned in pain but said nothing.
Guo Kai's face was full of disbelief: "What bullshit are you talking about? When did I ever say that I wanted to break up with you? Li Zexi, how could you say something like breaking up with me that makes me uncomfortable?"
Li Zexi snorted: "Uncomfortable? I don't think breaking up with me will make you uncomfortable. I think it's more uncomfortable for you to be talking to me while being afraid of the truth being exposed.
Guo Kai, stop torturing yourself, you can't bear it, let's..."
Li Zexi said with some difficulty: "Since we haven't been together for long and our feelings are not deep yet, can we just let it go?"
Guo Kai suddenly got angry, kicked the stool next to him violently, and yelled: "Don't you understand what I'm saying? Li Zexi, I didn't say I want to break up with you, and you don't even want to break up with me. Don't even think about it. Stop talking nonsense that makes me angry, okay?"
Li Zexi was also angry. He stared at Guo Kai and asked, "No? No, then tell me what you have been doing these days and what you are thinking about?
You used to be so clingy that you wanted to grow on me, but these days you want to stay as far away from me as a football field. What do you want? ah? ”
Guo Kai was choked for a moment.
He couldn't utter a word. He stared at Li Zexi fiercely, his anger boiling, but he was helpless. He wanted to pull Li Zexi forward without any worries, but there were pits all ahead that he could never cross, and he couldn't see the end. This feeling of powerlessness made him feel too uncomfortable.
He felt suffocated like never before.
Guo Kai took a few deep breaths to calm himself down, then took Li Zexi's hand and held it, saying softly, "Give me some time, I... need to think about it carefully, can you let me sort it out?"
Li Zexi used his eyes to describe Guo Kai's clear-cut features and face, and finally stopped at the latter's eyebrows.
Guo Kai's brows were deeply frowned, and his previous cocky, self-centered demeanor was gone.
Eyes full of worry.
Li Zexi couldn't bear it, but there was nothing he could do to help him.
Only he himself can untie the knot in his heart.
Li Zexi slowly pulled Guo Kai's hand away, and said with a gloomy face: "I'll give you time to think about it, no matter how long it takes. When the time comes, you can tell me the answer, whether to continue moving forward or retreat, I have no objection.
But one thing is, before you think it through, don't come to me again. Let's just treat each other as ordinary roommates. You can think your own way and I'll live mine. There is no need for us to have any other contact. ”
After saying that, Li Zexi was about to leave the dormitory.
Suddenly, an inexplicable and huge feeling of fear gripped Guo Kai's heart like a bony hand.
It seems that once Li Zexi steps out of this door, he will never look back.
Guo Kai eagerly grabbed Li Zexi's wrist and shouted: "Li Zexi..."
Li Zexi turned around and looked at him.
His eyes were deep and clear, and this one look exposed Guo Kai's weakness.
Li Zexi asked: "Is there anything else?"
Guo Kai's lips moved a few times, but he couldn't say anything.
A trace of disappointment flashed in Li Zexi's eyes. He shook off Guo Kai's hand and walked out without looking back.
Guo Kai stood there motionless for a long time, almost turning into an unconscious sculpture.
Finally he let out an angry growl and ran his hands through his hair angrily.
…
In the following time, Li Zexi treated Guo Kai as an ordinary roommate as he said.
He was too lazy to even give me an eye contact.
January is almost over and February is coming soon.
There is less than a month left until the New Year.
The final exam is coming, and Li Zexi and Chen Mengru’s review has entered the final sprint stage.
Apart from attending classes, I spend almost every day in the library or study room.
I'm so busy that I don't have any free time.
Chen Mengru felt that her brother was not in a good state recently. He was a little depressed and rarely smiled.
When asked the reason, Li Zexi did not answer, but only said: Study hard and don't worry about useless things.
Chen Mengru could only curl her lips and dared not ask any more questions.
As for Lin Haoxiang, he was still in a half-dead state. He had shaved his beard cleanly, but he was still decadent and didn't care about anything around him, like a practicing Taoist priest.
Once, Li Zexi wanted to make him happy.
He took out the watch with blue diamonds and said to Lin Haoxiang in a casual manner: "Your watch is still with me. If you don't take it back, I will pocket it and refuse to return it."
Lin Haoxiang put on a very forced smile and said, "I'm giving it to you. You don't have to return it."
Li Zexi deliberately looked at me with stars in his eyes and asked in a flattering manner: "Really? You are really willing to give me such an expensive thing?"
Lin Haoxiang nodded: "That was originally intended for you."
After saying that, he suddenly remembered something and smiled: "You know, when I first gave you the watch, I was planning to make a move on you and pursue you."
Li Zexi was dumbfounded, his mouth slightly open: "Ah?"
Lin Haoxiang smiled again: "During that time, I felt that you were very different from before, like a different person, it was very interesting, I liked you like that.
Besides, I can tell at a glance that you don't like girls.
So, I gave the watch to you, thinking that I would find an opportunity to express my feelings to you. ”
Li Zexi almost knocked his chin to the ground and smiled awkwardly: "Ah!? Yes, yes, is that so? There is such a ridiculous history?"
Lin Haoxiang seemed to find his expression very funny and actually grinned out loud. This smile came from the heart.
But this smile didn't last for a few seconds and then disappeared.
He sighed deeply and said, "It's meaningless to talk about this now. I think I may never fall in love with anyone else in the future. Here..."
Lin Haoxiang pointed to his heart with one finger and said, "There's a person crammed in here. It hurts, it hurts so much. I can't bear it a second time."
Li Zexi felt like there was something stuck in his throat as he looked at Lin Haoxiang's handsome but somewhat distorted face due to pain.
I silently held the watch in my hand, thinking: This watch will probably not be returned.
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