Nan Zhiyun remained silent. She suddenly felt a pang of guilt. Had she asked for too much? Had she been pushing her luck? Yu Jingchen was the emperor, so these things were perfectly normal for him. Was it wrong of her to say those things? She had chosen her own path, and now she was complaining. Wasn't that being incredibly immature?
But... she couldn't ignore it. She would feel unhappy because of these things. She would care about every concubine around Yu Jingchen. She would feel jealous, upset, angry, heartbroken, and bitter. It's just that she never showed it outwardly, because Yu Jingchen was His Majesty, not just hers.
If it were before, she probably wouldn't be so conflicted now, but things are different now. People seem to be quite greedy; once they get something, they want more. She's the same way. Yu Jingchen treats her very well now—attentive, considerate, gentle, and patient. He comforts and protects her, so she can't bear to share Yu Jingchen with anyone else. This is something she's waited so long for, and she doesn't want to share it.
Nan Zhiyun didn't know if it was because she was being too selfish. All she knew was that Yu Jingchen's current appearance was incredibly alluring to her. Besides that, she was also very afraid. She was afraid... that with those people around, Yu Jingchen would fall for them, treat them the way he treated her now, and then their relationship would revert to what it was before... She couldn't accept it, and she dared not imagine how she would feel or what her fate would be if Yu Jingchen really went back to his old self.
Noticing Nan Zhiyun's increasingly depressed mood, Yu Jingchen frowned slightly. In the end, Nan Zhiyun was probably extremely insecure right now.
"Yun'er, don't overthink things. We'll both be fine. When the time is right, we can be like any other couple, without too many worries. Every word I say to you means the truth, okay?" Yu Jingchen didn't know what to do or how to comfort her. He only knew that Nan Zhiyun needed to be coaxed and protected. Her past wounds were too deep, so she would need the rest of her life to heal them.
For a fleeting moment, Yu Jingchen began to doubt whether he had been wrong. Actually, Nan Zhiyun was quite good as she was now, never growing up, needing no profound understanding, only simple kindness and happiness. With him by her side, she only needed to live carefree and healthy under his protection. She didn't need to deliberately grow up, nor did she need to face the storms of life.
He had previously thought that Nan Zhiyun would be able to protect him once she grew up. In case he was unable to take care of her, she could protect him well and prevent him from getting hurt, instead of relying on him for everything, because he couldn't be sure that everything would be foolproof every time.
But now he felt those things were unnecessary. Besides, he was meant to be her support; what did it mean there were situations he couldn't handle? As long as it concerned Nan Zhiyun, he would ensure everything was foolproof. So… his little girl didn't need to grow up. The Empress Dowager protected her so well; she must have her reasons. With someone to protect her and shield her from the storms of life, she only needed to live a healthy, carefree, and joyful life in her own world.
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