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Shi Shi fled in panic that day.
Shi Shi was really scared, so she started to avoid him.
For a while, there was no further communication between the two.
But Shi Yiqing somehow found out about this and called one day.
"What's going on between you and Qin Yichuan?"
"Mom, what are you talking about? What's going on?"
"You still won't tell the truth? Your father told me everything."
"You talked to my dad on the phone?" Shi Shi really didn't expect that there would be a day when her two parents would communicate with each other, even though they had never met each other.
"He came to see me in M City and asked me to transfer your household registration to his place. I found out by asking."
It turned out that he was not here these days and went to City M.
"Do you really want to be with Qin Yichuan?"
"I have nothing to do with him. My dad must have misunderstood."
After finally calming Shi Yiqing down and hanging up the phone, Shi Shi breathed a sigh of relief.
She knew that Shi Yiqing would not accept her being with Qin Yichuan. Shi Yiqing had always been a somewhat conservative and feudal person who always abided by the rules.
After supporting Shi Yiqing in forming a new family, she had a premonition that she had lost her original mother.
In the world before rebirth, she was the only one in Shi Yiqing's life, only her, so Shi Yiqing's love for her was unquestionable and always wholehearted.
And now Shi Yiqing is not only her mother, she is Qin Lang's wife, Qin Yifan's mother, and Qin Yichuan's stepmother.
So she would never love Shi Shi as much as the other Shi Yiqing.
This was Shi Shi's choice, and she had already accepted this result.
But it will still be uncomfortable.
Even if Shi Yiqing didn't make this call, she would never make things difficult for Shi Yiqing.
She would not accept Qin Yichuan.
So as her 30th birthday is approaching, Shi Shi has remained single.
She doesn't have anyone she likes and is busy with work every day. She can't say she is lonely because she has a father.
Unlike other close father-daughter relationships, the relationship between Shi Shi and Feng Yun was a relationship that Shi Shi took the initiative to restore. However, she did not understand what a parent-child relationship was at all. However, she needed Feng Yun. This was the regret that she had finally restored. After making up for it, she felt a little more complete.
Now that she was old enough, and since there were few important elders in her life, Shi Yiqing was the only one who urged her to get married.
Therefore, she became less and less willing to go back.
Because as Qin Yifan grew up day by day, the home in M City became less and less like her home.
She really gave up her mother completely.
Qin Yichuan gradually went back less and less.
Qin Yichuan still lives next door to her, but they don't have many opportunities to meet.
A few years ago, Shi Shi avoided him very hard, and Qin Yichuan suddenly said that he wanted to go abroad because there was a good opportunity in the UK.
So, she and her father had a long-awaited meal with Qin Yichuan as a farewell.
But three months later, he came back and never left.
As she wished, nothing was mentioned again.
That day, two people who hadn't seen each other for a long time met in front of the elevator.
After nodding as a greeting, the two walked in together and stood side by side.
At this time, Shi Yiqing called and Shi Shi picked up the phone immediately.
It's strange to say, if it were normal, when in the elevator, the signal would be unstable, but today in the quiet elevator, Shi Yiqing's voice came through very clearly.
"Are you free the day after tomorrow? I've arranged a blind date for you. He..."
"Mom, stop talking. I'm not interested." Shi Shi didn't want Qin Yichuan to hear, so she interrupted.
"Listen to me, it's Zeng Mu. He's been single all his life and has such great conditions. He's a perfect match for you. Just go have a simple meal with him."
It’s Zeng Mu again. This is the nth time that Shi Yiqing has mentioned Zeng Mu.
"I won't go. I'm busy and don't have time. I'm hanging up now."
Shi Yiqing forgot her birthday, and Shi Shi didn't want to remind her.
There are two things that Shi Yiqing has been most persistent about over the years. One is to always arrange blind dates for her, and the other is to always try to match her up with Zeng Mu.
It's very strange that before her rebirth, Shi Yiqing had liked Zeng Mu very much. When she broke up with Zeng Mu, Shi Yiqing felt very sorry.
And here, she still inexplicably likes Zeng Mu and always wants him to be her son-in-law.
What’s even more bizarre is that Shi Yiqing in both worlds doesn’t like Qin Yichuan very much.
"It's my birthday tomorrow. Do you want to come over?" After hanging up the phone, she said to Qin Yichuan beside her.
"Yes, I will go." Qin Yichuan responded in a low and pleasant voice.
The tips of her ears suddenly felt hot.
She found that her emotions were fluctuating again due to Qin Yichuan's influence.
Over the years, she began to fear him, not because of his pursuit or approach that she could not resist.
It was because he had matured and was becoming closer and closer to the man she remembered.
She overestimated herself before.
Feng Yun suggested having a birthday meal at home, but he didn't eat much before he shouted that he couldn't eat anymore and went back to his room.
Only she and Qin Yichuan were left.
It's not that she doesn't like making friends, it's that she doesn't make friends at all.
Qin Yichuan drank in silence. She looked at him with fear, wondering if he had drunk too much.
"Eat this, I remember you like it." She put a plate of food in front of him, mainly hoping that he would stop drinking.
"Where are you going again? Do you have to hide from me?" Qin Yichuan looked up and reached out to grab her hand that was about to be withdrawn.
"I'm not going anywhere. No, let me go first." Shi Shi couldn't break free, so she had to coax him softly.
"I don't know what to do. You always try to run away from me. Is it so hard for you to accept that I like you?" Qin Yichuan refused to continue. "But I can clearly feel your 'indulgence' towards me. You don't treat other suitors like this."
There was no other way, Shi Shi, who could not hold on any longer, had to sit next to him.
Shi Shi sighed inwardly. It was a bit difficult to deal with a drunk person.
But there was nothing she could do, she could only listen quietly.
"I always feel like when you look at me, you're looking through me at another person. Like you're missing something."
These words made Shi Shi finally turn her head and meet his gaze.
—"There is no other person, it will always be just you."
But she couldn't say this.
"You are really a fool. You can obviously find someone better, but you insist on spending time with me day after day." She was really helpless.
"I only want you, I don't want anyone else. I can't live without you." There was grievance in Qin Yichuan's voice, and his eyes were still red at this time.
Because I have experienced one more life than you, I love another you. Although we are in a different time and space, there is no way I can treat you as the same person, because you and I have never had that kind of past.
"I'm sorry, but can you please love someone else?" Shi Shi's words received no response.
The topic ended, and Shi Shi found Qin Yichuan lying on the table, as if he had fallen asleep.
She had no choice but to call her father, but it was a bit difficult to send him home, so she ended up letting Qin Yichuan lie on the sofa for the night.
"You had sex with me yesterday after drinking." Qin Yichuan woke up and looked at Shi Shi who was sitting next to him and seemed to be looking at him in a daze. He suddenly spoke in a hoarse voice.
"Qin Yichuan, you're here again, using the same trick again. And you're the one who's drunk, and I didn't drink." Shi Shi looked at him helplessly.
Qin Yichuan thought to himself, but you are the same, you only know how to escape, but I have time to accompany you forever.
Therefore, unable to drive away or hide, what Qin Yichuan did made Shi Shi feel that she was about to lose. How long could she hold on?
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