She is only happy when others say that she looks really happy, even if it is false, she will not admit it.
"It's not that I don't feel wronged, nor am I sad, and it's not that I don't know.
I just desperately told myself that I was happy because I was the most authoritative person in the family. Everyone said I was happy, so I should be happy.
"It's just that I always can't fall asleep when it's late at night and everyone is asleep. I feel like I'm not good enough. I must not be good enough, otherwise why would I feel uncomfortable?
I started to suffer from insomnia and my hair started falling out in clumps.
I even wondered if I had some terminal illness?
I couldn't sleep, tossing and turning. I couldn't stand everyone, as if everyone had provoked me, and I was inexplicably furious.
She found that she seemed to be increasingly unable to control herself. She felt very irritable and her heartbeat was very fast, and sometimes it beat very slowly.
"I can't tell anyone, I absolutely can't let them think I'm sick, I have to do something, I have to train Lu Xiao.
I must make Lu Xiao perfect, it absolutely must be that way."
Just by listening to it, Luo Dan felt that Teacher Liu had a very hard time.
There were so many times when I was depressed and collapsed, but no one noticed.
She really endured too much on her own.
This is what led to her becoming what she is today.
“Actually, I didn’t really like the renovation at that time, but everyone said that I had a bad temper and should go along with Lu Wei. Even though I didn’t like it, I accepted it.
During the day I feel very happy, but at night I feel that all this is just my compromise.”
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