"I know everyone can, but I can't because my parents won't let me take the college entrance exam. They won't let me escape from their clutches."
The reason why she has never been sociable is because she has no way to fit in.
Her parents thought that their daughter would belong to another family in the future, so before she got married, they had to extort a large sum of money from her and take away her belongings.
When she was supposed to come to the farm, she didn't need to come because her grandfather was actually a worker and she could take over his job. But her father gave the job directly to her stepmother's daughter and threw her to the farm.
"Now all your identification documents are on this farm. You don't need to go through your father and the others. You can go directly to the university to register."
"Really?" Lin Yu finally found a glimmer of hope. "Can I really still get into university?"
Her biggest fear before was that her parents would sell her to someone else. If she could decide her household registration, then why would she be afraid of them?
"Of course, your current household registration, all your identification documents, and your employment relationship are all on our farm. Even if you get into university, you won't need to receive a letter from your family; you'll go directly to university here. Haven't you asked about these things?"
Mulan was really surprised. She said so much. Could it be that she had never asked about these things in advance?
"Where do I find the time? During the day I work non-stop, trying to stay alive. At night I have to read, trying to build a future for myself.
I'm different from you. You can do whatever you want after work every day, and you can even have your family send you things, but I have to get something from here and send it back to them."
Mulan didn't know what to say, after all, this was someone else's family matter.
"So you don't have to worry about the college entrance exam. Is there anything else you need my help with?"
"If I find a job in the future, can you help me transfer to a job farther away? I want to be far away from home. I want to live for myself in the future."
"If I have the ability, I will help." Mulan did not boast that she would definitely help him in the future or that she would definitely do this thing. Because she herself did not know whether she had the ability, but she would say "If I have the ability, I will definitely help you."
"Okay, thank you. From now on, I will have nothing to do with you. You don't need to worry about me threatening you anymore.
But Mulan, I want to tell you that at the beginning I never thought about getting anything from you. I just simply wanted to watch you quietly and wanted to see you live a good life. I really like you.
I'm all alone, humbled and buried in the dust, surrounded by mud and unable to escape. I watch you all, your hearts brimming with sunshine, while I'm just a shadow in the darkness. How can you see a shadow in the darkness? So, I'm the one who will never be noticed.
But when I saw you, I felt that there was a meaning in this world for me to pursue. I didn't dare to move forward, didn't dare to appear in front of you, and could only let my secret love corrupt me.
For me, as long as I can see you, it seems that life will be full of sunshine. I just want to look at you. Every month I will see you go to the post office, and then follow you silently. That is the happiest and most anticipated day of every month for me, because on that day, in a corner that you don’t know, I am the only one to accompany you in your world.
When I saw you fall in, I pulled you up without hesitation. At that moment, I didn’t think about whether I would die, let alone whether I could survive. I just thought that I must save you.
You are the light of my life! How could I possibly see you get into trouble right in front of me? After I tried my best to save you, I didn't have the strength to do anything and fainted. If I had known it would turn out like this, I would have preferred to die than to faint.
Mulan's face changed, and he really didn't know what to say.
"I'm sorry." I can't just say this at the end, I'm sorry.
"What are you sorry for? Are you sorry for the wrong person, or are you sorry for something else?" Lin Yu spoke quickly. She still had a little hope.
"I'm sorry, I can't be with you." Mulan has always been decisive. When it comes to love, if you drag your feet, it will hurt more than just two people.
"I understand. I just wanted to tell you how I felt at the time. It's not easy for someone like me who lives in darkness to find the light. I didn't expect to be beaten back to dust by reality."
Lin Yu felt that there was really no hope in life.
"How could that be? Life is so long, how do you know this is the end? As long as you remain firm in your beliefs and believe that you can achieve it, you will be able to find your own wonderful life. Study hard, and the school you want to get into will have a bright future. I wish you happiness and contentment in your future life."
Looking at the man in front of him, after he said so much, he didn't seem to want to change his mind. I don't know how Feng Meng could be so lucky to get someone as good as Mulan.
Later they both took the college entrance examination, and Lin Yu was admitted to the school he wanted.
Later, Mulan helped her find a job in Urumqi, a city with vast resources and sparse population, where no one would bother her. She could finally live the life she wanted, uninterrupted and unfettered by her family.
"Mulan, you're speechless now, aren't you? You're just lying. I was the one who saved you back then. There was no one else."
Feng Meng's voice brought him back to reality from his memories. He looked at Feng Meng, who was still unwilling to tell the truth even now. Mulan felt that all those years of protection were just a joke.
"I knew the truth back then. It was Lin Yu who saved me, and then I was put into another ice cave. When you came here, I had actually been rescued a long time ago.
I told you, I wasn't with you because you saved me, but because I felt we could continue on, and spend our lives together. I didn't expect you to go even further, never thinking about our family, let alone our children. I've done everything I could for your family.
I support you no matter what you say or do. You can do whatever you want, but how did you treat my family and my child? Your brother hurt Dandan, made her life so difficult, and you didn't care at all. She's our daughter, the daughter you carried for ten months and gave birth to, and you didn't care. At that moment, I was so disappointed in you, do you know that?
Ever since Dandan came back, you haven't been kind to her at all, let alone loving her."
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