Chapter 21
During these days of wandering in the human world, Shen Fengni often felt bored.
At the beginning, she was still a qualified audience member, enjoying every good show with great interest, observing everyone's expressions and reactions, and not minding the fun.
The peaceful life was broken, the rhythm was disrupted, and everything was caused by her, but she could stay out of it completely and no longer have to worry about anything.
This gave Shen Fengni a perverse sense of satisfaction.
But things quickly became boring.
The company was briefly in chaos because of her death, and everyone was busy trying to minimize the impact of the incident, but it soon returned to normal; the family members showed almost no sadness about her accident, but were more surprised and unexpected; as for Yu Qian, there was no need to mention it, she was busy spending money and having fun with her lover, and after three rounds of drinks, she would occasionally sigh for the loss of a money-making machine.
Shen Fengni had to admit a cruel reality.
Everything is running smoothly and orderly, and it seems that there is not much difference whether she is in the world or not.
This had a huge impact on her three views.
Chen Fengni had believed that if she didn't comply with her parents' demands, the relationship between the two families would be affected, causing numerous problems. The castle called "home" would collapse, and her life would become a chaotic ruin.
But after her death, she realized that she was not as important as she had imagined. All her previous concerns seemed insignificant in the face of life and death.
The relationship between the Yu and Chen families will become stronger because of the marriage, but it will never break down because of a nominal wife; her parents need a well-behaved and sensible daughter, but if they don’t have one, they won’t be overly troubled; the cage created by Yu Qian looks scary, but it is actually not indestructible.
Besides, she already had the courage to fight, but she was just unlucky and didn't have enough time.
After experiencing death, this courage becomes even stronger.
Shen Fengni will regret it.
I regretted my previous obedience and hesitation, and went with the flow of fate, and in the end I was unable to break free from the cage.
In fact, why bother thinking so much? You don’t know which will come first, tomorrow or an accident. Enjoy life in time and live according to your own will, so that your life on earth will not be in vain.
Shen Fengni would also feel like a failure.
It seemed like no one in this world really cared about her. Her death was just an accident, a piece of news, or a sigh from her fans.
Of the people I've met these days, who expressed sadness over her death...
There was only Jiang Zhuoyan.
From this we can see that Jiang Zhuoyan is really a very kind person.
Unfortunately, the meeting was too short, so short that I didn't have time to say goodbye to her properly.
On the seventh day after Shen Fengni's death, the weather cleared up after a long absence.
The blue sky is as clear as water, and the white clouds float slowly in the breeze, like fluffy marshmallows.
The bright sunshine made Shen Fengni squint subconsciously.
It's time to leave.
As the thought suddenly popped up in his mind, Shen Fengni found that his translucent body was disappearing bit by bit.
Unlike every other scene change, at this moment, she clearly felt the last ties between her and the human world being severed. Like a candle burning to ashes, like ice and snow melting in spring, there was no room for maneuver.
My body felt light and my consciousness gradually became blurred.
At the last moment, Shen Fengni suddenly saw Zhezhi's face again.
The heart that had stopped beating seemed to beat again.
In fact, these days, Chen Fengni often thought of Zhezhi.
She would wonder what would happen if Zhezhi didn't wait for her, what would happen if she found out she suddenly disappeared, and how she would feel when she saw the company's obituary.
Perhaps because she had seen too many cold looks from others, Shen Fengni had learned not to take herself seriously.
Zhezhi is such a person, there are probably countless people who want to get close to her. There are so many excellent anchors on the platform, whether it is talent or emotional value, they can be easily exchanged for an equivalent amount of money.
Maybe Zhezhi already had a new love and had completely forgotten about her.
That's good.
No matter what, she hopes Zhezhi lives a happy life.
Shen Fengni closed her eyes.
***
late at night.
There was no light in the living room, and the darkness obscured the mess on the floor.
The mobile phone on the coffee table kept flashing, the screen flickering on and off, occasionally illuminating the expressionless profile of the person on the sofa.
Jiang Zhuoyan sat silently, motionless. She had maintained this posture for a long time. If someone suddenly walked in at this moment, they would probably experience the shock of a life-like sculpture.
There was a rustling sound, and the fluffy little three-flowered ball came closer and accidentally knocked over a glass wine bottle placed casually on the ground, making a muffled sound.
The dark brown liquor was spreading rapidly, expanding wantonly on the expensive wool carpet, and the smell of alcohol in the air became stronger.
Little Dumpling had no idea that he had gotten into trouble. He jumped onto Jiang Zhuoyan's knees as if he was at home, and started meowing and acting coquettishly.
Jiang Zhuoyan came back to his senses as if waking from a dream.
She stood up, took the can from the cupboard, opened it, and placed it at her feet.
Nini immediately went over and ate with relish.
The phone screen was still flashing, and the vibration sound dutifully reminded the owner that there was a new message.
Jiang Zhuoyan became annoyed after hearing this, so he opened the chat software and switched to another account.
The world returned to silence.
The nickname of this account is "Zhezhi", and only Chen Fengni is added, and the address book is empty.
Jiang Zhuoyan lowered his eyes and opened the chat box.
The last message Chen Fengni sent was: I know, let’s talk when I get home.
But she broke her promise.
Shen Fengni never returned home, never spoke to her again. He completely vanished from her world, leaving her completely, leaving her unable to face reality even now.
Jiang Zhuoyan continued to scroll down.
The following are the messages she sent.
From the initial "Are you not home yet?", "What happened?" to the later "I dreamed of you", "I missed you so much"...
Just a few lines, it is her lonely one-man show.
It's still too late.
Jiang Zhuoyan thought.
Only after Shen Fengni's death did she learn about her financial situation, and the unequal contract that shackled her also surfaced.
She also knew about the efforts Shen Fengni had made to break free from Yu Qian's control, and that she had suddenly borrowed money for a seriously ill friend that day.
She knew the whole truth, when nothing made sense.
Jiang Zhuoyan had fantasized countless times that if she had understood Shen Fengni's predicament earlier, if she had accompanied her to the hospital, then this tragedy would not have happened.
But it's too late.
Jiang Zhuoyan raised his eyes and looked towards a corner of the living room.
There were several packed cardboard boxes neatly stacked there, illuminated by the moonlight coming through the floor-to-ceiling windows, giving them a layer of silver glow.
Today, she contacted Yu Qian and demanded to take all of Shen Fengni's personal belongings. She wanted everything Shen Fengni had for herself, to fill the huge void in her heart. Her attitude was so forceful it bordered on coercion, leaving no room for negotiation.
Yu Qian was very surprised by this, but was more afraid of her strong attitude. She thought that Shen Fengni was in trouble, so she agreed without even asking any questions.
So Jiang Zhuoyan got what he wanted.
The cans in the bowl were empty. Nini rolled a few times on the ground, jumped onto the top of the pile of cardboard boxes, and scratched the surface of the boxes with her claws.
Jiang Zhuoyan frowned, stood up, walked over and picked up the cat.
She stood there hesitating for a while, then put all the boxes on the ground and opened them one by one.
The items were displayed silently, their vague outlines outlined by the dim light.
Shen Fengni didn't have much belongings. Apart from a few electronic products, there was almost nothing valuable. Because of the bumpy ride, the box was a bit messy, and at first glance, it looked angular.
Nini jumped up restlessly, rubbed it curiously, and knocked off a protruding corner of the surface.
There was a slight muffled sound and something fell to the ground.
Jiang Zhuoyan frowned, picked up the cat that had caused the trouble, and placed it on the cat climbing frame at the side. Then she bent down and picked up the things on the ground.
It is an exquisite little box with a dark metal shell, and it feels cool in the hand.
The box had a combination lock and could not be opened directly. Jiang Zhuoyan took it to his ear and shook it gently. A slight sound came from inside, but he could not make out the contents.
Jiang Zhuoyan knew that Chen Fengni was a very simple person in life. He just dealt with many things casually without any special requirements.
Things that can be put away and locked must be very important.
What could it be?
Jiang Zhuoyan paused for a moment and tried to enter Shen Fengni's birthday.
The lock loosened and opened with a sound.
The moonlight poured down like water, illuminating the items in the box.
It's a pair of cat paw earrings.
The white cat paws and light pink pads are obviously not made of expensive materials, but it does not affect its cuteness at all.
It was exactly the one that Shen Fengni liked.
It was as if I suddenly fell into an abyss, everything was taken away, and my mind went blank.
In a trance, Jiang Zhuoyan heard that familiar voice again, which seemed particularly gentle because it was accompanied by a smile.
"I'll wear it then so you don't mistake me for someone else."
A tear fell and hit the white cat's paw.
Then came the second, the third...
When she learned of Shen Fengni's death, when she visited Shen Fengni's grave, and when she was packing up Shen Fengni's belongings alone, Jiang Zhuoyan was extremely sad, but she did not collapse.
This shameful relationship did not allow her to collapse. She thought she was strong enough to slowly sort out her feelings and move on.
But at this moment, Jiang Zhuoyan found that he couldn't do it.
My body felt like it was broken down, all functions had stopped, and I just couldn't control my tears.
"Chen Fengni."
Jiang Zhuoyan called out softly.
The room was very quiet, with only the whistling sound of the wind outside the window responding to her.
She murmured to herself, "You must want to see me too."
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