Chu Shangli increased the strength in his hands a little more.
Lian Tianning could no longer see any clear scenery in front of him, only white mist and stars twinkling before his eyes.
The past life flashed through my mind like a revolving lantern——
It is said that before a person dies, their desire to live will awaken, and they will review every detail of their past in their brain. Then, the desire to live will emerge in their brain with great clarity, overcoming all other desires.
However, Lian Tianning did not feel that way.
He didn't dare look back, didn't dare recall how much hardship he had endured in the past that ordinary people could hardly imagine.
Every time, he thought that he was not working hard enough and that he had to work harder.
However, when everything played out in his mind like a movie, he realized that admitting that he "can't do it" is much more difficult than thinking that he "is not working hard enough" and being self-disciplined.
Ordinary people can't even be ordinary people——
A pure fool and idiot.
Good for nothing, yet still so arrogant.
Every time when I hide in the corner in the dead of night, my surging thoughts and irritability are the emptiness in my heart that cannot be filled.
Others' efforts can fill the void...
However, my efforts only tore the hole apart and revealed a bigger hole.
It is said that if one can reach the "slope of enlightenment", one's mentality will remain stable, but he has always been at the bottom of the valley of self-denial and unable to stand up.
Such a life has no meaning at all.
There is nothing to be afraid of death. It can even be said that it makes some contribution to slowing down the global greenhouse effect.
However, among the repeatedly flashing images, he suddenly saw a scene that was particularly noteworthy—
This scene made him shudder and suddenly opened his eyes——
That scene was exactly what he had just seen when Chu Shangli was fighting with Lian Kongyu and Lian Shuiyin, and there was also the figure of Chu Shangli standing in front of the sword forge and performing a spell -
The shock was far beyond anything else, and even made him lose his mind in an instant.
But when the kaleidoscope flashed through his mind, he suddenly realized what this feeling was.
He hated her——
I hate her beyond measure.
After all, the existence of such a genius seems to be trampling all his tears and sweat underfoot.
More importantly, I want to be her.
If, it wasn't her, but me standing here——
I have such a talent——
Then, he will definitely cherish it even more and work hard with all his heart—
The hand that had been somewhat limp and weak was now full of strength, resting on Chu Shangli's wrist——
Even though he couldn't break free, he was still struggling with all his might...
"You...you can't kill...kill me!" he said vaguely.
"Oh? Why? Didn't you just want to kill me? And just a moment ago you were begging for death?"
Chu Shangli smiled, but the strength in his hands decreased.
"I... I..." He took two deep breaths. "My will to die hasn't changed much. If there is any change, it's that I don't want you to kill me—!"
"Hmm? Do you want your master, or the senior sister or junior sister you have a crush on, to kill you? Isn't that a bad idea?"
"Yes, it's very bad! I... I've realized that I'm just complete trash, but, but..." He coughed twice softly: "Let the trash end his own life. I shouldn't let you become a murderer!"
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