"Do you understand what I'm saying?"
Chu Shangli nodded, then shook his head.
"Although it's theoretically acceptable, emotionally I always feel..."
"Well, I understand your feelings. The feeling of being denied." Chu Moyin shrugged: "But there is a lot of evidence to prove this possibility that you cannot accept, but it is also a real possibility. Don't people dream often? Sometimes they dream of scenes similar to the future, the so-called "precognitive dreams". Although there are many explanations for this, my personal favorite is the future self asking the past self for help - even though they can't see each other, in fact, the future, past and present, always exist. Your arrival in the present does not mean that the past self has disappeared, and the future self cannot deny your present and unilaterally regard you as the past -"
Chu Moyin wrote the two words "rebellious period" and "Chuunibyou" on the paper.
"Why do you think people often feel ashamed and think of their past as a dark past when they think back on it?"
"That's a sign of maturity, right?"
"No. I don't think so." Chu Moyin shook his head and tapped her head with a pen: "Although I can't deny your words and can't prove that your statement is wrong, I just can't accept it."
She paused, then smiled. "The explanation I prefer is a transformation of personality. As you mature, you become a different person. Naturally, you won't tolerate a self whose words and actions are completely different from your own. You'll think that 'me' is naive, boring, full of dreams, and disgusting. While not all hatred stems from love, this kind of anger is undoubtedly rooted in jealousy. What do you think was the reason I killed everyone close to you in my previous life?"
"..." Chu Shangli hesitated for a moment: "Jealous...jealous?"
"Yeah, because I'm the scumbag sister. I'm a villain—" Chu Moyin pulled the corner of her lips slightly: "No matter how far behind the protagonist's level, how poor his ability is, or how unbearable the protagonist's man is, the villain always gives up what he should really pursue and targets the protagonist 24 hours a day—what is the source of that emotion? The answer is actually very obvious—it's jealousy—because of the long-suppressed inferiority complex, when you have everything you expect, you still want to step on the person in the past to be satisfied, no matter what the cost—so, many times, the villain only needs to stop targeting the protagonist, even if it means success, but no matter what, even if it means taking suicidal actions, he must be an ungrateful and white-eyed wolf. It seems that it is really the same as what is presented in "Othello", jealousy is a green-eyed demon."
Chu Shangli put an "X" at the end of all the lines——
"So from an adult's perspective, denying your past self from a high position is also jealousy. You're jealous of your past self's dreams, hopes, vitality, and rebelliousness—all of which your current self no longer possesses. Therefore, this feeling of resentment becomes even stronger—"
“…”
"You look a little surprised? Shocked?"
"Hmm..." Chu Shangli nodded: "I really didn't expect that you could help me answer my questions so seriously, you-"
I wanted to ask, "What is your purpose?", but I swallowed it back because I felt it was impolite.
"Are you trying to ask me about my purpose?" Those dark eyes that seemed to see through everything——
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