Of course, they are all pitiful and not worth mentioning.
Obviously, you will feel joy for your victory, and when you achieve your goal, you will secrete a large amount of dopamine, which will instantly make you feel happy.
But I always pretend not to know - perhaps I have forgotten this feeling.
Why do I feel happy or sad when I am at this stage?
I was happy that Wei Shengfan once again got second place, and I smiled when I saw the excellent report card - but I also sighed deeply because Wei Shengfan got second place again.
Some people hate the person who occupies the first seat and refuses to leave.
Sooner or later, that guy's grades will decline because of his gender and love life—that's what he seemed to believe.
Although Bai Xiaoqian and I are of the same gender, the words that Chu He and Luo Yunjiang kept repeating are like ghosts, lingering in our minds and cannot be shaken off.
Every time Wei Shengfan achieved something, he felt like gears were meshing, making a "click" sound, and he took another step towards perfection.
That is not my own perfection, it is a victory that has nothing to do with me, but I will feel an extraordinary sense of joy -
Was that joy actually a genuine emotion swelling within my heart? Or was it just poison I forced myself to swallow in order to feel happy?
Chu Shangli hoped it was the former, but he knew clearly that the fact was undoubtedly the latter.
Because, happy feelings should be more pure, but I don’t know why I always feel uneasy.
The stronger the happiness and the stronger the sense of uneasiness, the more dependent one becomes on Wei Shengfan's words of comfort.
"My success is your success, my ability is your ability, and my future achievements will also be your achievements—"
Such words become more and more dependent.
Not only did he have to hear it from Wei Shengfan's mouth, he also had to write it down over and over again on paper with pens of different colors.
Fear lingered in her heart - the fear of being abandoned by Wei Shengfan, but she did not want to admit that she was afraid of Wei Shengfan's betrayal, so this cognition was distorted into the fear of Wei Shengfan being surpassed by others.
I kept talking to myself like a madman—no, a madman, talking to myself over and over again—
"Whatever is good in my brother is good to me, whatever is excellent in my brother is excellent to me..."
The hole in my heart is getting bigger and bigger, like a doll with a severely damaged outer skin and inner flesh that can never be filled.
Because of this, she was madly jealous of people who were better than Wei Shengfan, people who were better than herself, especially those of the same gender who had never fallen in love.
Because that was a possibility that he had denied himself, a future that he had ruthlessly rejected without even trying.
That's why, when I openly admit how strong I am now, I hurt her.
"It's very ordinary. I was wondering what level Miss Chu Shangli had reached to dare to challenge me. In fact, isn't this just the level of home cooking? Ah, of course, it may be useful for you and your Master Wei Shengfan to improve your relationship in the future, and as a couple or even as a couple. But you must remember, don't prepare it every day just because you were praised once -"
Chu Shangli put his finger on his lips and said, "You may not believe this, but I've seen people stuffing their lunch boxes full every day just because someone praised their lunch boxes as delicious. But not only did they not get any praise, they would probably end up getting a rather ruthless rejection like 'Actually, the ones you buy outside are just as good, why bother with this?' After feeling disappointed, they would become irritable—"
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