The reason Chu Shangli felt compelled to compete with his past self wasn't because he thought he would gain some unexpected rewards by surpassing himself, nor was it because he wanted to test the impact that failing and becoming decadent on his future self would have on his past self.
If you think about what Chu Shangli really wants to do, it is probably - to attack.
That’s right, Chu Shangli wanted to give his past self a strong blow, so strong that he would even forget about his disfigurement.
Only in this way would the Chu Shangli of the past realize, and realize even more strongly, that he actually didn't care that much about his now ruined face.
The reason for the hysteria is actually the thinking instilled by others - you can say it is intentional to gain confidence, or you can think of it as hypocrisy -
However, there is no way to prove that something that I really didn't care about was only started to matter to me because of someone else's encouragement.
On the contrary, the thing that will make you suffer even if you fail a little bit is the thing you truly love - but this love is also suppressed by yourself for the same reason.
"Yes, perhaps—the things I was criticized for before were not wrong. I do have my moments of pretending to be blind and stupid, but..."
Gong Yi Tianhe paused. "Even if I haven't fully accomplished it myself, I still hope someone can do it for me—even if it's an illusory, insignificant wish. I often hear this from my mother—she never did anything, but she always hoped someone would accomplish it for her. Even Senior Sister Shuiyin probably felt this sense of mission, which is why she was willing to give up her original intention."
She hates being tempted - although being entrusted with someone else's wishes is quite painful, she considers this entrustment to be a glorious mission -"
"What?" The Chu Shangli of the past said in a cold tone: "Do you still want to entrust your mother's wish to me? I have indeed heard about Aunt Lian Qianying's affairs, but - that is her own business. I have never thought about abiding by your Gongyi family's rules, nor have I tried to shoulder the Gongyi family's mission -"
When she raised her finger and pointed at Ouyang Huan beside her——
"If you really want to find someone to take on this mission, wouldn't it be more appropriate to let Ouyang Huanshi take it? She is your fiancée, the one who will run the Gongyi family with you in the future—"
"Are you deliberately trying to deviate from the topic?" Feng Ruye said quietly, "Gong Yitian and the young master simply want you to give it your all—to ignore Wei Shengfan's opinions and not to think about his words at all—Wei Shengfan might think that giving his all for a minor role is a waste of time, or even shameful—but, to give one's all for a minor role is actually a testament to one's character—"
Feng Ruye twirled her hair with his fingers. "Hey, Miss—Miss Chu Shangli—you've lost your beauty, your academic performance is average, and you don't necessarily have any outstanding talents—so now, isn't your character the only thing you can improve upon? After all, while talent and beauty are beyond our control, your character is—whether you want to be a generally good person or an ugly villain—you have the freedom to choose."
"Do you hope that Ali will also be gentle to those who wronged her?"
"It's not necessary to go to that extent—" Feng Ruye said calmly: "But, no matter what the relationship between Luo Dongxia and Chu Shangli will be like in the future—at least now I don't think Luo Dongxia has done anything to let Chu Shangli down..."
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