Chu Shangli uttered a soft sound——
I don't know if it was a smile, a bitter smile, or just a muffled groan coming from my throat when I raised the corners of my mouth.
"Happiness—it's just the desire to be happy—even if it's just an illusion, knowing it's an illusion, but still having expectations of someone. So, it's really no different than falling in love with a doll wearing your favorite clothes—and real people will resist themselves—"
Chu Shangli pressed his hand on the empty partition.
Naturally, there was no touch, but Chu Shangli wiped it up and down as if he was pressing on real glass.
"It seems like many people like glass, like transparent, colorless objects. In my opinion, it's probably because when you stare into the void, you still want the feeling of holding something in your hands."
“…”
"You claim to be me. We have similar genes and experiences—but, in fact, there was a point at which we became different, right?"
"Oh? Where do you think the difference lies?"
Chu Yutu asked a question—hiding a faint smile.
She didn't deny it—
It seems that he doesn't want to deny it——
When Chu Shangli stood side by side with her at the forefront, she already knew that everything no longer had any meaning.
"Where...?" Chu Shangli pondered for a moment: "Probably started when my sister was born. In the original time, there should be no Chu Moyin——"
She paused and said, "You are also the second host of the system—the one before me—"
"Then what?"
"Since you didn't deny it, does that mean I'm right?"
"Who knows? Maybe I'm just frightened by your delusion and don't know how to react appropriately."
Chu Yutu still spoke in a teasing tone.
"Because there's still a big part of me in you. If I'm easily disappointed, then you're the same way—you'll wantonly place your hopes on someone, and then be disappointed. And when that disappointment reaches a certain point, you'll want to create your own puppet—and then—"
Chu Shangli said softly: "He - or should I say she, betrayed you."
"Choosing you—" Chu Yutu corrected: "Choosing you doesn't mean you're betraying me. In a sense, I haven't lost—"
“…”
Chu Shangli deleted all his memories of the past, and until he stood on the roof, he still couldn't remember anything.
However, she only relied on limited information and put herself in Chu Yutu's shoes, and seemed to be able to easily figure out her past and her thoughts.
Chu Yutu - a ghost that rotates back and forth.
I still have some ambitions occasionally, but it's mostly driven by love.
It is probably also Chu Yutu's transformation of himself.
Chu Yutu is an ambitious person—this is undisputed, whether from the system's words or the Cheshire Cat's memories of his mother—
I wanted too many things, and I held everything tightly in my palms. In the end, I held them too tightly, and they all turned to powder and leaked through my fingers.
So, when reviewing his life and looking for mistakes in the past, Chu Yutu came to the conclusion that he should give up his ambition.
But having given up ambition, which was a worthless existence in his own eyes, he then separated the ambition part and gave it to the existence of expectation.
"Come to think of it, despite possessing exceptionally powerful constructive abilities, you haven't noticed any stereotypes. You seem to believe that exposure to radiation will naturally lead to aggression and competition—and so you haven't properly examined the differences. Unfortunately, you believe your ambitious creation is merely—"
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