Chapter 11 Memories "Hate me if you want. It's my cowardice and weakness...
"Dad, what are you thinking about?" Ling Yi held the pen and looked at Lu Xiao puzzledly.
Lu Xiao came back to his senses, his slightly upturned mouth corners straightened, and he coughed lightly: "What are you laughing at? I'm not laughing!"
Ling Yi pursed his lips, took out a book called "300 Basic Chinese Exercises for Junior High School Students" from the bookshelf, turned to one of the pages, pointed to one of the words and asked, "Dad, can you explain the meaning of this word to me?"
Lu Xiao looked at the place where Ling Yi pointed, and there were four small bold words on it: Confess yourself.
Before Lu Xiao could speak, Ling Yi turned two pages back and pointed to a place: "There is also this word."
It clearly says: There is no silver here.
Lu Xiao's face darkened a little, and he glared at Ling Yi: "You little bastard, are you itching for trouble?"
Ling Yi earnestly suggested: "Dad, domestic violence is against the law. You should watch more legal education programs. For example, the program "Morality and the Rule of Law" broadcast on CCTV13 channel from 8 to 9 every night is good."
Lu Xiao snorted and laughed, "Domestic violence is against the law, but teaching your son martial arts is not. Since he is learning martial arts, he must loosen up his muscles first. In the process, it is common to have bumps and bruises."
Ling Yi curled his lips and said, "I have already graduated. Your Excellency the Judge has a keen eye. This reason will be rejected and will not stand."
Lu Xiao glanced at him and said, "A master? With your mediocre skills, you may be the best among your classmates, but you won't last more than a round against a real martial artist."
At first, he said that he taught Ling Yi martial arts for two years, but Ling Yi had to go to school every day and could only learn during holidays. He also had to avoid people, so it was hard for him to learn even one day in a week.
The first year and a half was just for him to exercise his body and lay the foundation for learning martial arts.
I taught him those few tricks in the next six months just to prevent him from being at a disadvantage among his peers.
In addition, Ling Yi had a ruthless nature and fought as if he didn't care about his life. Those young men who had never seen blood became scared before the battle and lost their momentum, which made this kid the Dongfang Bubai of their school.
Seeing Ling Yi's disapproving expression, Lu Xiao raised his eyebrows: "Don't believe it? Not to mention the distant ones, you can't even beat your mother, do you believe it?"
Ling Yi obviously didn't believe it.
Lu Xiao didn't say much.
Just wait for Ling Siyan to finish handling the company's affairs and teach this kid a lesson. Lu Xiao's eyes flashed with a malicious light.
Thinking about it, Lu Xiao pulled the exercise book in front of Ling Yi and said, "Let's not talk about whether you can beat your mother or not. Let me see how you write the questions first."
After looking at it for a while, Lu Xiao looked at Ling Yi in surprise: "Not bad! You understood everything and were able to apply it to other situations." However, Lu Xiao soon found something wrong and squinted at one of the questions: "Question 36, your solution to this question clearly uses the variance that you learned in high school, you..."
Ling Yi's expression froze.
Just now, he saw his father laughing so happily that he lost his mind for a moment and didn't notice...
Seeing the change in Ling Yi's expression, Lu Xiao understood.
"Why did you do that?"
Ling Yi glanced at Lu Xiao and saw that his face was calm and it was impossible to tell whether he was happy or angry.
After a moment of silence, Ling Yi asked, "Dad, if there is someone you don't like who lives a glamorous and popular life, what would you do?"
Lu Xiao answered without hesitation: "There is no such person."
Ling Yi paused and emphasized: "If, I mean if."
"Oh!" Lu Xiao nodded, touched his chin, thought for a moment and said, "I choose to turn a blind eye to it."
The corner of Ling Yi's mouth twitched. His father didn't follow the routine, so how could he respond?
Lu Xiao looked at it and said with a smile: "If you don't like it, then don't look at it! Are you going to draw a circle and curse him?" After a pause, he asked: "What should the correct answer be?"
"They will belittle him, suppress him, slander him, and do whatever they can. In short, they want him to fall to the dust and be shattered."
"On the contrary, if the person you dislike allows himself to degenerate, people will lose most of their desire to cause trouble."
"When I get good grades, they will try every way to attack me in other ways, such as suppressing me in terms of status to seek a sense of superiority. Or, they will say that I am born unlucky and that is why my parents don't like me."
"Besides, good students can't fight, sleep in class, or skip classes." Ling Yi said casually, "It's not as free and comfortable as being a school bully."
Lu Xiao looked at Ling Yi's still young face and remained speechless for a long time.
No one has stipulated that students cannot fight, sleep in class, or skip classes, but if they do so, they will disappoint the teacher.
People who have never been treated well will not be afraid of others' bad words, but will be afraid of disappointing others' kindness and expectations.
Lu Xiao knew this feeling very well.
Lu Xiao was silent for a long time, and when Ling Yi thought he would not speak again, he said:
"Your mother is the only daughter of the Ling family, the richest family in City A. She is truly a gifted girl. She was born in Rome, a place that ordinary people may never be able to reach even if they work hard all their lives."
Ling Yi was not a five or six-year-old child, so he would not ask such an ignorant question as "Where is 'Rome'?" He was very smart and had already guessed what Lu Xiao wanted to say.
"A casual dress she wears will cost an ordinary working-class person a whole year's salary. A casual dress of hers is more than most people can afford with their entire life savings."
"And I," Lu Xiao fell into memories, his eyes becoming distant: "I have no parents and grew up in an orphanage. I was able to successfully complete my studies with the help of the charity foundation funded by the Ling family."
Lu Xiao glanced at Ling Yi and said, "Do you know when I first met your mother?"
Without waiting for Ling Yi to answer, Lu Xiao continued, "It was when I was seven years old. Your mother was only six years old at that time. She was wearing red leather boots and a princess dress, and was cute and lovely. When I was bullied by those older kids, she spoke out to stop them. She also personally applied medicine and bandaged my wounds."
"Although she is younger than me, she was bandaged very well. In my eyes at that time, your mother was like a little angel in a fairy tale. From that day on, your mother became the light that I have been chasing for my whole life." As if recalling the scene at that time, the cold and hard facial features became incomparably soft at this moment.
"When I was in the second year of high school, I saw the news that your mother was admitted to University A at the age of 14. She was the center of attention and so dazzling. I realized that if I went to school and worked step by step, it would be difficult for me to be with her. So I chose to join the army. I accidentally rescued your mother from being kidnapped by kidnappers during a mission and took the opportunity to stay with her and become her bodyguard."
"I know I'm not worthy of her. I just want to protect her from behind, watch her get married, have children, and live a stable and happy life. But later, your mother confessed her love to me."
Ling Yi, who was listening quietly, widened his eyes.
He thought that what would happen next was that his mother was framed and had an accident, and his father took advantage of the situation and had him. His mother looked down on his father and that's why she didn't like him, or maybe his father was a mistress for love and interfered with his mother's marriage and was discovered, causing his mother's marriage to break up, and his mother hated his father and then implicated him.
Don't blame him for thinking this way, that's how it's played out in TV dramas.
"Your mother was only 17 years old at that time, and it was not long after I rescued her. I don't believe she liked me. Even if she did, I don't believe it would last. The gap between us is like the difference between heaven and earth. Once she is with me, she will face countless criticisms and strange looks. I am afraid that the love she has will disappear in the rumors of the outside world. I am afraid that I don't know what I will do when she wants to leave. I am afraid that she will hate me in the end."
"So, when I said I had someone I liked, I would only marry her." At this point, Lu Xiao's eyes and tone became obscure. "Later, your mother fell in love with your eldest brother's father, and because of him, she had a falling out with your father and left the family. At that time, I was employed by the Ling family and had to leave her. Later, your mother was plotted against, and after I rescued her, you were born."
Ling Yi's eyes widened even more.
Sure enough, everything in the TV drama is true.
"So, I hope you don't hate your mother." Lu Xiao tilted his head to look at Ling Yi, his eyes earnest: "If you want to hate someone, hate me. It's my timidity and cowardice that have caused your misfortune for more than ten years. You have suffered ridicule and abuse, injustice and cold treatment, all because of me."
Ling Yi lowered his eyes so that Lu Xiao couldn't see what he was thinking.
After a while, Ling Yi looked up at Lu Xiao and shook his head, his eyes clear: "I don't hate her. She wasn't very good to me, but she wasn't very bad either. She gave birth to me and raised me. I am the only one who owes her, she doesn't owe me anything."
After a pause, Ling Yi continued in a gentle voice: "I don't hate you either. During the two years when you taught me martial arts, I thought countless times that it would be great if you were my father. I'm very lucky that my father is you."
Lu Xiao looked at Ling Yi with moved eyes.
This is his child, and the blood of the woman he loves. How could he not care!
During the years when he could only watch him silently from behind, he watched Ling Yi hiding at the gate and peek at the car carrying Ling Siyan and Han Chengyu driving away, unwilling to leave for a long time; watched him run home excitedly with the certificate in his hands the day before, but when he went out the next day, he was like a frost-bitten eggplant; watched him shout "Mom and Dad" in his dreams in the dead of night, and his chest was filled with bitterness and heartache.
But he cannot appear in front of Ling Yi as a father.
The two years that he accompanied Ling Yi as his master were the two most relaxed and peaceful years for him since he left Ling Siyan.
If he hadn't been targeted by someone, he would have definitely accompanied the child as he grew up.
Lu Xiao's lips trembled slightly, he reached out and hugged Ling Yi into his arms, patted his back, and said in a hoarse voice: "It's Dad, I'm sorry."
Lu Xiao sighed in his heart, wondering how he could have such merit.
Ling Yi leaned on Lu Xiao's shoulder, closed his eyes, and raised the corners of his mouth slightly.
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