After thinking everything through, Shu Yao got up, went back to her guest room to change into clean clothes, and restyled her hair before heading to the main hall of the mansion. Everyone from the Huo family was there.
"Is Madam Shuyao feeling better?" Chunlu was the first to speak, and then everyone's eyes were fixed on her. They were all a little surprised to see her walk in with a "calm" expression.
She glanced at Chunlu before nodding, "Thank you for your concern, I'm much better now."
Her tone was clearly polite yet distant, unlike the warmth of the past few days. Despite the turmoil within her, like a lone boat navigating a strong sea breeze, she maintained a calm and composed demeanor.
Chunlu awkwardly turned her face away.
"Madam..." Xu Chang stood up to speak, but was interrupted by Shu Yao...
"Everyone, there's no need to say anything more. I feel very bad for causing you all so much trouble these past few days. But I've woken up, and I'm truly sorry for mistaking Lord Huo for my deceased husband and making a fool of myself. It's all my fault, so please don't blame me, especially Yuefang. Thank you for taking me in." She spoke first.
What's wrong with her? Has she finally come to believe she's "crazy"?
Yuefang and the others all looked surprised and puzzled.
"I don't want to cause any more trouble for everyone, so... I've decided to leave. I'm grateful for everyone's care during this time, and I, You Shuyao, will definitely repay you when I have the chance." She said meaningfully. Whether they wanted to admit it or not, since marrying Huo Jingsha, these people had given her a lot of help, and she was still grateful to them.
"You...you're willing to leave? You're not going to look for your son anymore? No...I mean, do you believe you've never had a child?"
Yuefang asked nervously.
A glint flashed in Shu Yao's eyes. "I believe it. The rain that soaked me all night suddenly woke me up and brought me to my senses. Rather than dwelling on it, I should let go of myself and others. Now I just want to get back on my feet as soon as possible. I can't keep dwelling on the past. Maybe... I still have a chance to start over."
"Very well, if you've thought it through, then leave!" Huo Jingsha said coldly. He never looked up at Shu Yao, but stared intently at the teacup in front of him. Only he knew that his fists, hidden in his wide sleeves, were clenched so tightly that the veins were bulging.
Shu Yao looked at the man who wouldn't even glance at her during their separation... Before, she thought that after two years of living together day and night, she had changed him, making him less sharp, incisive, and cold, and that she could see through his thoughts at a glance. Now, she realized how foolish she had been. This man had never let her truly see through him. What she could easily glimpse was what he was willing to show her, but in the places he was unwilling to show, there was still a huge shadow hidden.
In her nine lifetimes, You Shuyao had never truly understood Huo Jingsha. Now, it was time for her to get to know him again.
"Lord Huo, I am deeply sorry for you... However, this inappropriate infatuation is destined to end. I understand. Since your love is only for your 'wife of many years,' and Yuefang is your wife, then I wish you both a long and happy life together." She said indifferently, her tone sincere, as if there were no more grudges in her heart, yet it also revealed a strong sense of estrangement.
Looking back, she had wondered, though it was a sad thing, if she hadn't saved him twice, would he have treated her any differently? Would his feelings for her have been mostly based on "gratitude"? If it hadn't been her who saved him, but Mingxia, Aunt Shao, or any other woman, he would have fallen in love with that person, and she wouldn't have been that special to him, perhaps easily replaceable by anyone else.
Take Yuefang for example. Although it's unclear when they first met, it's incredibly easy for Huo Jingsha to be with any woman he wants. Only he could command everyone under him to deny her identity and erase all traces of her from the Huo family. This is because their marriage was bestowed by the Emperor, and he couldn't openly divorce her. He had to force her to leave on her own initiative so that he could be with Yuefang legitimately.
Ha, what a painstaking effort! But it's all for nothing. All he has to do is say he's fallen in love with someone else, and she'll be happy to oblige.
Huo Jingsha stared at the mocking smile on her lips, his heart clenching, forcing back the pain. He desperately wanted to tell her that the wife he truly loved had always been only her, and everything he was doing now was to ensure her survival; he only wanted her to live!
"Thank you, we... will." It took all his strength to say those words. He thought his heart was numb and would never hurt again, but seeing her face and hearing her say those words made him realize that there is never the "most painful" pain, only "more painful" pain.
"I should go." Shu Yao lowered her face, hiding her tear-filled eyes, and uttered these words, her heart still aching. Sigh… In her previous lives, she was terrified of him killing her. Reborn, all she longed for was to leave, but she never succeeded. Later, because of his love and meticulous care, she…
She fell in love with him, married him, and had a lovely son, but she never expected that he would ruthlessly drive her away, leaving her with no choice but to leave.
Past love is like a mirage, a dream, and no matter how beautiful, it will eventually disappear.
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