Chapter 111: Unmarried Man and Unmarried Woman
Hearing these words from a three-year-old child, Li Chunfang felt mixed emotions.
She walked to the bedroom door carrying a basin of freshly prepared medicinal bath water and heard a soft sob.
The voice was small, soft and aggrieved.
She hurried in to see that the person on the bed had his eyes closed and his brows furrowed. He seemed to have had a nightmare and looked very painful.
She frowned and sobbed softly, calling out in a low voice over and over again, "...Lu Xiyan, Lu Xiyan..."
Little Anxian climbed onto the bed and lay down next to her, his little arms around her neck. "Grandma, Mommy always calls this person's name."
A huge sense of guilt rose from the bottom of her heart. Li Chunfang looked at the person lying on the bed with a high fever and her eyes were wet.
Since returning to Jinghai, An Ning has never mentioned anything about her relationship with Xiao Lu in front of her, and she has even become a single mother and brought back a child with someone else.
Li Chunfang thought that in the past four years, she had moved on from the past and that her relationship with Xiao Lu had become a thing of the past.
She didn't expect that An Ning was still thinking about Xiao Lu.
She gently brushed away the loose hair on An Ning's forehead and said, "Girl, when your fever subsides, let's go find Xiao Lu, okay?"
As if she felt someone's touch, An Ning suddenly held her hand tightly, as if she had found salvation, sobbing and whispering, "Xi Yan... I'm sorry..."
"I'm sorry... please don't go..."
A line of tears rolled down from the corner of her eyes, and Li Chunfang felt very distressed.
The temperature of the hand holding hers was too hot. She said with red eyes, "My daughter, mommy will wipe your body and the fever will go away. When the fever goes away, you won't feel so uncomfortable."
Li Chunfang sat by the bed, wrung out the towel soaked in medicinal bath water, and wiped her body with tears in her eyes.
The towel fell on her hot palm. Li Chunfang saw the bow tied on her wrist, which made it easier to wipe. She gently pulled the ribbon and took off the bow.
The ribbon fell along the white wrist. Li Chunfang's eyes subconsciously fell on the wrist. The next moment, her face changed and her eyes widened.
There are several scars of varying depths on the fair and slender wrist, each of which runs through the blood vessels on the wrist, clear and glaring.
Li Chunfang's hands trembled and his legs went so weak that he almost fell to the ground.
"What, what is this..."
"Ah?" She held An Ning's wrist with shaking hands, her voice trembling, "What is this, my girl? What happened?"
Little Anxian got up and looked at Li Chunfang eagerly, "Mom was injured, a long time ago. I secretly heard Uncle Xu say that Mom cut herself."
His eyes were clear and innocent. "Grandma, why did Mom cut herself?"
This childish sentence made Li Chunfang feel like he was struck by lightning.
She could hardly believe it and turned on the bedside lamp.
The clearly visible scar on her wrist stung her eyes, and Li Chunfang looked at the person with his eyes closed on the bed in disbelief.
She held An Ning's hand tightly, and suddenly thought of something. She staggered to her feet and found a few boxes of medicine from the bedroom drawer.
She held it in her hand, unable to understand the name of the medicine.
She saw An Ning eating these days and asked her what she was eating. She said it was a health supplement.
Li Chunfang hurriedly opened her mobile phone to check. When the words "severe depression and anxiety disorder" popped up on the webpage, she fell to the ground in shock. Then she propped up her weak body, covered her face, staggered into the living room, and burst into tears.
She beat her chest and cried bitterly.
What kind of life has her daughter been living in these four years!
The scars on my wrists are the result of countless times I have died with the suicidal thoughts in my heart!
“An Ning, you can live without love, but Yu Can can’t live without the Lu family’s help!”
The words she had said to An Ning four years ago were still ringing in her ears. Li Chunfang suddenly raised her hand and slapped herself twice.
"I'm not a human being. I'm sorry for my daughter!"
She covered her chest and cried loudly. Only now did she understand that her selfish decision four years ago was to exchange her daughter's life for her son's!
They once loved each other so much, and letting An Ning leave Lu Xiyan would be like asking for An Ning's life!
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An Ning woke up at night. The sky outside the window looked as dark as if it had been soaked in an ink pool.
She seemed to have had a very long dream, and the scenes of the past emerged one by one in her dream like frames of movie fragments, making her struggle to wake up.
When she opened her eyes, she felt her eye sockets were sore and swollen, and she had no strength in her body.
A warm yellow light was on in the room, and the familiar ceiling was in sight.
She noticed something soft pressing against her side. She turned her head slightly and forced a gentle smile.
An Xian was a small ball, leaning against her tightly, sleeping soundly.
She moved her fingertips and felt something holding them. She looked down and saw Li Chunfang holding her hand and dozing off on the edge of the bed.
She let out a breath softly, her mother and An Xian were by her side.
Li Chunfang was a light sleeper, and she woke up immediately when she noticed the slightest movement. She met An Ning's bright eyes with a look of joy, "Thank God, you finally woke up."
"How long have I slept?" An Ning asked, her throat feeling hoarse.
She only remembered that after Jiang Yao sent her home from Longhu, a doctor came, examined her, said that she had caught a cold and had a fever, and prescribed medicine for her.
After taking the medicine, she felt groggy and fell asleep.
It was afternoon when I went to bed, and now it is evening.
I must have slept for a few hours.
"One day and one night." Li Chunfang looked at her pale face. "My girl, you slept for a whole day and a whole night. I was scared to death."
"A whole day and a whole night?" An Ning realized it was already the second night. Li Chunfang looked exhausted, with dark circles under her eyes. She asked, "You stayed by my bedside for a whole day and a whole night?"
"I'm not in the way. As long as you get better, it's worth it for Mom to stay with you for a few days."
Li Chunfang brought her some warm water and said, "Drink some water to moisten your throat."
Then he checked her forehead again and said, "It's okay. It's just a low-grade fever. It's finally gone away."
An Ning sat up, picked up the water and sipped it in small sips, the bow ribbon on her wrist fluttering in front of Li Chunfang's eyes.
She pretended nothing had happened and asked casually, "Ningning, did you dream about Xiao Lu?"
An Ning was slightly startled as she held the water in her hand. "Am I...talking nonsense?"
"You keep calling Xiao Lu's name." Li Chunfang looked up at her. "Tell me honestly, you still miss him, don't you?"
An Ning's eyes trembled slightly, and her already fair face became very pale.
Having made her words clear, she looked at Li Chunfang, her eyes reddened, "How can I let go of someone I love so deeply? How can I forget him just because of time?"
Not to mention four years, forty years, or even her entire life, she would never be able to erase Lu Xiyan from her heart.
"Ningning, go find him."
Li Chunfang tucked her hair behind her ears and said gently, "You and Xiao Lu are still single, so there's still time for everything."
An Ning looked up at her in surprise. Li Chunfang smiled with tears in her eyes. "While Xiao Lu's engagement is still undecided, go find him and tell him clearly that it was your mother who forced you to do what happened back then. If he wants to blame someone, blame me, not you."
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